Self-narration (male)
My surname is Bai, my given name is Hui, and my courtesy name is Zhaoming.
From a young age, I knew that I was someone everyone hated. My father hated my arrival because it caused my mother's death, and my grandfather hated me because he lost his son because of me.
The emperor hates me, but he also fears me. He fears I will seize his throne, and he fears Liu Ziju will be too obedient to me.
I've long been accustomed to this existence; I understand that the emperor wants to use my life to maintain balance in the court. Although, when I actually face it, I even despise myself for it.
But then I figured it out: I should just go along with their ideas. I'll probably get a little pity in return. I don't crave power; I just hope that one day I can chat with them like family and we can reunite.
Until that day, I met a girl. I thought that since he was bound by the emperor's marriage contract, he would surely despise me.
I put on my toughest armor, but she seemed only afraid of me. She didn't seem to resent me. She tried to escape, but when I caught her, she just smiled secretly.
I gradually became dependent on her. She even shielded me from an assassination attempt and accompanied me to Yuzhou. On the carriage ride back to the city that time, as I looked at her sleeping face, I finally understood my own heart.
I might never be able to live without her again.
If she and I could have a home together, that wouldn't be so bad.
So I had to fight for myself. I decided to go into battle again. Looking at the talisman she had woven for me, I felt an indescribable ripple in my heart. After a long while, I hugged her, and she said she would wait for me to come back.
Later, I returned to Beijing and took her to my childhood haven. She said she liked it very much. I knew she had also suffered a lot. So, tell me everything here. I killed Hu Qing'er. She found out. I was afraid she would be unhappy because she glossed over my confession. I felt disappointed, but I didn't want to show it.
I could only do my best to do what a husband should do. That day, we went to the countryside. The weather was fine and sunny. She held my hand tightly and put it into the river. The clear water flowed by gently. I knew that she cared about me too.
I went to the Northwest again, and the war was won. I finally had the ability to make her my wife.
The court was rife with intrigue and uncertainty, but things would stabilize once everything settled down.
I held another ceremony with her.
I told her, "To have met you in this life, to be together until our hair turns white, is the greatest fortune I could ever have."
She said, "I wish to find one heart that will stay with me until we grow old together."
How fortunate indeed!
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