Chapter 146 Main World 5 "I will prove that I love you."
Jian Ziyan was almost angry to the point of laughing.
Who is he? He is a master who has obtained countless cyber blades and successfully cleared nine worlds!
What's wrong with Qin Wang's brain that he actually started to act out such a low-level sadomasochistic script for him?
Jian Ziyan took a step back without thinking, and in order to show that he was not affected at all, he even pulled the curtains, and then went to the kitchen to cook for himself.
He had not expected that he, who had always been rational, would subconsciously take such a willful action, which was a form of escape and eccentricity.
He patiently chopped green onions and beat eggs. When the water boiled and the noodles were put into the pot, he still couldn't help it and walked back to the window to look down.
Looking down again, the figure was still the same as before, even the angle hadn't changed.
Jian Ziyan was not surprised that Qin Wang knew where he lived, but he did not expect that so many days had passed since their last meeting and he was still in Rongcheng.
He even wondered if he had recognized the wrong person.
But 419 told him confidently: "That's right, host, that is Qin Wang Benwang."
The rain was now heavier than before, and pale lightning flashed across the sky from time to time, as if the whole world was about to be washed clean. Jian Ziyan's expression became increasingly gloomy.
After another bolt of lightning struck, Jian Ziyan picked up his umbrella with a sullen face, put down the bubbling pot, and went out.
When I came out, I found that it was more than just a heavy rain outside. It was as if God had done a huge injustice and was crying out all the grievances of the past thousands of years.
Jian Ziyan walked out of the corridor door holding an umbrella. The pouring gravity made him a little worried about the thin umbrella that was given as a gift when he bought yogurt.
He steadied his arm and frowned as he looked in the direction he had just seen, but he only saw a dense curtain of rain, which was not as clear as when he was upstairs.
Jian Ziyan had no choice but to walk over there.
After vaguely seeing that figure, he shouted, "Qin Wang!"
Qin Wang seemed not to hear anything and still stood upright in the rain like a stone statue.
Jian Ziyan took a few steps closer, his voice already tinged with anger: "Qin Wang! What are you doing? Do you want me to sympathize with you by pretending to be pitiful?"
He was furious, but when he really saw Qin Wang's appearance, he was stunned.
Qin Wang didn't hold an umbrella, nor did he wear anything protective. He stood straight under the tree, the rain flowing down his hair, eyelashes, nose tip, and chin. His sharp and deep black eyes seemed a little blurred.
"Zi Yan..." His voice was hoarse, "I saw you again. Am I dreaming?"
Jian Ziyan paused for a moment, the anger in his chest burning fiercely.
"Come here." He said coldly, "Standing under a tree on a rainy day, aren't you afraid of being struck by lightning?"
His voice was drowned out by the crashing rain, but Qin Wang received it accurately.
His dazed eyes suddenly fixed on Jian Ziyan's face, and he even smiled.
"That's nice," he said. "It's nice that you care about me."
Jian Ziyan's eyebrows twitched heavily. He felt very depressed, but he couldn't say anything when he saw Qin Wang's expression.
"Come with me."
He turned and walked away, listening attentively to the noise behind him. After hearing some staggering footsteps approaching, he subtly withdrew his gaze.
Jian Ziyan lived on the third floor. It was such a low floor, so Qin Wang walked very slowly. Jian Ziyan couldn't help but look back, his eyes falling on his somewhat stiff leg joints.
A bad premonition rose in his heart: "...How long have you been standing there?"
"Not long." Qin Wang said. He seemed to think about it seriously and said, "I don't know... I came here as soon as I received your call. I thought... you would at least be willing to meet me."
Jian Ziyan's eyebrows jumped again, and he couldn't help but check the time on his phone.
It was around 4:30 in the afternoon when he received Qin Wang's call, and now it was already twelve o'clock, so Qin Wang had been standing downstairs of his house for more than seven hours?
He still had normal use of his legs, which was an amazing sign of his physical fitness.
Jian Ziyan's eyes were complicated. He lowered his eyes and took out the key: "I thought you had left Rongcheng. Isn't the headquarters of Qin's company in Yancheng? You didn't go back to take charge of the situation after you woke up."
"You know that my company is in Yancheng. Doesn't that prove that you are at least paying attention to me, even if only a little bit?" Qin Wang's hoarse and surprised voice came.
"..." Jian Ziyan swallowed what he was about to say.
He opened the door and stepped aside to let the person in. Qin Wang entered the house cautiously, but was afraid to go inside as he was soaked. He stood with his hands hanging down in the place where he changed his shoes. He was so big, but he looked very uneasy. With the water constantly flowing down, he looked even more pitiful than a stray cat or dog.
When Jian Ziyan turned around and saw this, he couldn't suppress his soft heart. He wanted to get angry but also wanted to wipe the water off Qin Wang, and he froze himself there.
The two looked at each other for a while, and Jian Ziyan's expression suddenly changed.
"Go take a shower!"
After saying this, he turned around and rushed to the kitchen.
Qin Wang's eyes were a little confused. He looked around this very old but very clean rental house, and the expression on his face became distressed.
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Jian Ziyan rescued the noodles he had forgotten, and only when he heard the sound of water in the bathroom did he breathe a sigh of relief.
He added another handful of noodles and an egg into the pot. In the steaming hot air, he pinched his brows and his expression gradually calmed down.
Qin Wang's brilliant move did disrupt his mood, and also made him realize that he could not ignore Qin Wang as easily as he imagined.
He should have put up his hard armor and firmly pushed this person out of his world. Maybe he would be sad, maybe he would be reluctant to let go, but time would eventually heal everything.
However, the fact is now that the person who should have been forgotten by him is gaining entry, taking advantage of his soft heart, and forcefully squeezing into his world again.
This was a very low-level trick, and Jian Ziyan could see through it at a glance. If he really didn't care at all, how could he fall into this trap so easily.
Jian Ziyan sighed softly.
Qin Wang simply took a shower with hot water, wiped his body anxiously, and wanted to go out.
He still couldn't believe that he actually entered Jian Ziyan's house. After taking a shower in a daze, he suddenly became more sober and urgently needed to see Jian Ziyan with his own eyes to confirm this.
He stretched out his hand through the crack in the door, but what he touched was not his soaked clothes. He was stunned for a moment, withdrew his arm, and saw that it was an unopened nightgown.
Qin Wang gently stroked the nightgown which looked very cheap, and his expression was as if he had received the most precious gift in the world.
He looked at it for a long time until Jian Ziyan's doubtful voice sounded.
"Qin Wang, why haven't you come out yet? Are you fainted in there?"
Jian Ziyan just discovered that this rain not only caused Qin Wang's leg joints to fail, but also his flushed face and high body temperature.
That's why he couldn't just leave him out there.
"No, Zi Yan, I'm fine." Qin Wang wiped his eyes and quickly put on his pajamas.
When he walked out, Jian Ziyan's expression, which had a serious look in his eyes like searchlights, changed for a moment, and he even slightly curled the corners of his mouth.
Although Qin Wang is not a muscular man, his muscles are smooth and well-defined, and he is much taller than Jian Ziyan. Even though Jian Ziyan has tried to buy pajamas as big as possible, they are still too short for Qin Wang, making the famous king of work hell, Mr. Qin, look a little cuter.
This smile was quickly put away, but Qin Wang keenly caught it. He stared at Jian Ziyan's face and said to himself: "This is the first time you smiled at me since you came back."
Jian Ziyan pursed his lips.
He sat at the dining table and pointed to the chair opposite him: "Sit down and eat."
Only then did Qin Wang see that there were two bowls of steaming noodles on the small dining table. White noodles were lying in the oily noodle soup, and topped with chopped green onions and fried eggs.
The aroma of food continued to penetrate Qin Wang's stomach, which had not eaten for almost a day, but he was stunned.
"This is... for me?" he asked carefully, "You made it yourself, can I really eat it?"
Jian Ziyan had already picked up the chopsticks, but stopped when he heard this humble question.
He raised his head and looked at Qin Wang seriously: "Qin Wang, if you treat me like this again, there will be nothing to talk about between us."
Qin Wang's Adam's apple moved. He lowered his eyes and sat stiffly opposite Jian Ziyan.
Jian Ziyan could clearly see that the wrist that was sticking out from his pajamas seemed to be trying hard to hide something, and even blue veins were showing.
Even though Qin Wang tried hard to control himself, his hand that picked up the chopsticks couldn't help shaking, but he remembered Jian Ziyan's words, so he didn't dare show it. He just pretended nothing had happened and picked up the noodles with trembling hands and put them into his mouth.
Even though he looked so disheveled, his movements still looked elegant and beautiful, which showed that he had received too strict tutoring.
Jian Ziyan watched him eat and lowered his head to eat his own late dinner.
Neither of them spoke anymore, and the only sound in the living room was the quiet eating.
After eating, Qin Wang grabbed the bowl before Jian Ziyan and wanted to take it into the kitchen, but was stopped by Jian Ziyan.
"Why are you doing anything when the patient is so enthusiastic? Just sit down." Jian Ziyan said calmly, "There are medicines in the drawer of the TV cabinet. Go find them yourself. There is hot water on the table."
Qin Wang looked at him, but Jian Ziyan didn't look at him. Just when the two were about to pass each other, Qin Wang suddenly leaned forward, stretched out his arms and hugged him.
The scorching body temperature suddenly enveloped him, and Jian Ziyan was stunned. Before he could react, the hot forehead pressed against his neck, and Qin Wang's hair was messy as he hadn't combed it after washing.
Jian Ziyan's body suddenly stiffened. He put down the bowl in his hand and was about to push Qin Wang away, but he heard a very low sob.
The hot breath accompanied by hot tears all flowed to Jian Ziyan's neck. He trembled slightly, and the hand that had been placed on Qin Wang's forearm hesitated.
"Zi Yan, if you really hate me, why don't you just reject me completely..." Maybe it was because he was too emotional or because the high fever made him not think clearly, Qin Wang hugged Jian Zi Yan tightly, like a child hugging his last piece of candy. His voice was choked and hoarse, and he felt extremely aggrieved. "This is actually a dream of mine, right? Did I faint downstairs of your house, or was I dead... Otherwise, how could I see you bringing me into the house, making food for me, and asking me to take medicine."
Listening to these childish words, Jian Ziyan's fingers on Qin Wang's forearm curled up and then retracted as if they were burned by the temperature.
"I don't hate you, Qin Wang." He whispered, "Don't be like this, even stray dogs look more respectable than you."
"I have no choice, Zi Yan. You won't see me, won't talk to me, and I'm going crazy thinking about you..." Qin Wang cried miserably, "You can treat me as a stray cat or a drowned dog, as long as you are willing to give me a little mercy... You are so soft-hearted, but you leave the cruelest side to me. Tell me, what should I do? How can I be a little closer to you?"
Jian Ziyan's breathing became disordered. He tried to calm down and began to push Qin Wang away: "You have a fever and your mind is not clear now. Don't say these things. I will help you contact your secretary..."
When Qin Wang sensed his rejection, his brain exploded, and all his rationality and restraint exploded into brilliant fireworks.
"No."
Qin Wang's trembling hand groped to touch Jian Ziyan's jaw and kissed him fiercely.
Jian Ziyan was shocked by this tearful kiss, his eyes widened instantly, a trace of helplessness flashed in his eyes, and his originally gentle struggle suddenly became intense.
However, how could his strength compare to Qin Wang's? Even though he was physically weak, Qin Wang, who had lost his mind, was like a beast out of control. The more he pushed and resisted, the harder he would be treated.
As the forces repelled each other, Jian Ziyan fell backwards unsteadily. He subconsciously wanted to grab something, but grabbed the tablecloth instead.
All of a sudden there was an ear-piercing crash, and all the cups and plates on the table broke into pieces and scattered all over the floor.
This voice seemed to wake Qin Wang up. He suddenly realized something and in a flash he held Jian Ziyan's head in his arms.
With a dull thud, two people fell to the ground.
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Jian Ziyan was unharmed, but Qin Wang's arms were cut by the debris on the ground, leaving several wounds. He seemed not to feel it, and in panic he propped up his upper body and looked at Jian Ziyan, who was using his arms as eyes.
"Zi Yan, are you hurt?"
He looked at the mess around him with deep shock and regret.
"How could I... Zi Yan, I'm sorry, are you hurt? Let me take a look at you."
He tried to grab Jian Ziyan's arm, but was slapped away.
Jian Ziyan's chest was heaving violently. He did not raise his arm to cover his eyes. His incredibly slender wrist bones were trembling slightly, which aroused the deepest pity in Qin Wang's heart.
"I'm sorry, Zi Yan." Qin Wang said in despair.
He failed to control the beast in his heart and almost made the same mistake he had made countless times.
"Calm down, main soul." Lu Wufeng's voice sounded in time, "You are also in a residual soul state now. Your soul is very unstable and you can't control yourself. As long as the fusion is completed, these defects will disappear. Don't give up, calm down!"
Qin Wang took a few deep breaths of air. The pain in his arm stimulated his brain and pulled him back from the brink of collapse.
He stroked Jian Ziyan's hair with trembling fingertips and did not force him anymore.
"I'm sorry, I'll never do that again, I swear."
Jian Ziyan clenched his palms tightly. He still did not remove his arms, but his voice became steady.
"I'm not heartless, Qin Wang, and I'm not a sadist. You're sad, and I'm not feeling any worse than you are." Before Qin Wang could react, he continued, "I just don't want you to regret it... I'm afraid you'll regret it, do you understand?"
"You are not me, how do you know I will regret it?" Qin Wang simply couldn't describe his feelings at the moment, ecstasy, regret, astonishment, fear, all combined together, his madness that had just cooled down rioted again, desperate for an answer, "You don't even give me a chance to prove myself, this is unfair to me, you can't be so cruel."
Jian Ziyan's Adam's apple moved, and he heard his own calm, almost cold voice: "What else? Should I sacrifice myself to let you make mistakes? Qin Wang, I admit that I am selfish, but I cannot afford the cost of trial and error."
Qin Wang trembled violently, and his trembling breathing stopped all of a sudden.
"So this is the reason why you refused to let me get close to you..." His dumb laugh was mixed with sadness, and he spoke out the deepest rift between the two of them in the most determined tone, "You don't believe me."
"Yes, I don't believe you." Jian Ziyan suddenly took down his arm, and his red eyes with tears met Qin Wang's gaze directly, "Qin Wang, you are just a child who is dazzled by the world of missions. You haven't learned how to distinguish between the role and your own feelings. Let me tell you, all the feelings based on the role are fake. Do you understand that they are fake? It's like having a dream, and you are chasing the person in the dream."
Facing Qin Wang's heartbroken eyes, Jian Ziyan lay on his back on the ground, his eyes slowly moving upwards.
The dim old-fashioned light shone into his eyes, reflecting a piece of crystal-like light.
A tear fell from the corner of his eye and sank into the floor.
"You have the right to be willful, but I don't." Jian Ziyan said in a low voice, "Qin Wang, I don't have much to begin with. I don't want to think I have gained something only to lose it again. I will go crazy. You begged me not to be so cruel, and now I also want to ask you... don't do this to me, okay?"
Qin Wang felt like he was hit on the head by a heavy hammer. His eyes were blank and he got down from Jian Ziyan in a daze and sat aside.
"It was my fault."
After a long silence, Qin Wang spoke again.
His voice was slow and hoarse, as if he had just gone through a difficult journey, with a kind of gentle and helpless sadness that seemed to have no end in sight.
"I thought I had learned enough lessons, I thought I could finally give you a firm and secure relationship, but I forgot that to you, I am no better than a stranger."
His fingers shrank for a moment, but he still gently stroked Jian Ziyan's head.
"You're right, Zi Yan, I was too anxious and too arrogant. The last thing I wanted to do was to force you, but I still did the thing you hated the most... I'm sorry."
"I want to prove myself slowly, Zi Yan. The world you think is a dream is a life that is engraved in my heart. I love you in the story, and I will not change my heart even after the story. You don't have to give me any response, and you don't have to feel guilty. The only thing I ask is that as long as you still care about me a little bit, don't forget me so quickly, okay?"
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