Chapter 119 Crisis

Cheng Cheng didn't say anything, just walked forward a few steps and closed the locker room door with his backhand.

Shen Ranxin stood there, frowned slightly, and said in a loud voice: "Speak, Cheng Cheng."

"You will never love me as much as you love Lu Zhi, right?" Cheng Cheng leaned against the door of the locker room with his head lowered. His hanging hair covered his eyes, and Shen Ranxin couldn't see the emotions in his eyes.

Perhaps, I have never seen the person in front of me clearly.

Shen Ranxin put one hand in his pocket and tilted his head: "What do you want to say?"

Cheng Cheng raised his eyes and said, "A Ran, please like me, okay? Lu Zhi already has a lot of good things, can you at least let me have one too?"

Shen Ranxin stretched out his hand: "Stop, I don't want to listen to your theory of objectifying everything. It seems that in your eyes, everything can be traded. Whether it's me, Lu Zhi, or even worse, your mother, the lives of these people have never been something worth cherishing in your eyes."

Cheng Cheng was stunned for a moment, then he raised the corners of his lips and smiled: "Did Lu Yeshan tell you that? He must have said that I am unkind, selfish and cold-blooded, right?"

Shen Ranxin looked at him: "Aren't you?"

"Have I been selfish and cold-blooded since I was born?" Cheng Cheng's emotions suddenly became agitated. He took two steps towards Shen Ranxin, grabbed his wrist, and said in a hissing voice: "I am just a tool. My mother secretly gave birth to me just to use my existence to become the mistress of the Lu family."

Shen Ranxin looked at Cheng Cheng in silence.

"My birth was not expected by anyone except my mother."

Cheng Cheng's eyes flashed with sinisterness: "When Lu Yeshan refused to marry her, I didn't even have this little value anymore. Do you know how I lived at that time?"

"Your mother died when you were three years old." Shen Ranxin looked at him and said firmly, "You caused her death, didn't you?"

"Yeah, so what?" Cheng Cheng raised his lips and laughed, "Her pitiful scheming, thinking that as long as she gave birth to a child, she could become a rich wife, but in the end it was useless... My birth was a transaction, and a complete failure. When I lost my value in her eyes, I became the culprit for her not being able to marry into a wealthy family."

Cheng Cheng grabbed Shen Ranxin's wrist with a force that almost broke it: "She said she loved me, but she beat me with such a thick stick, cried and said sorry to me, and asked me like a complete lunatic why Lu Yeshan didn't marry her."

Shen Ranxin's pupils shrank slightly.

When listening to Lu Yeshan talking about this, he actually didn't feel much. Cheng Cheng's mother wanted to marry into a rich family, so she gave birth to Cheng Cheng.

This causal relationship seemed reasonable to him, but this understated statement might feel like a heavy burden to Cheng Cheng.

"They all say that people's memories before the age of three will become blurred as they grow older, but why do I remember it so clearly?" Cheng Cheng's eyes were red, and his voice was filled with extreme hatred. He asked almost hoarsely: "I remember the strength of each hit she made on me with the stick, I remember her hand pinching my neck, I remember her hideous face, and I remember all her vicious words."

Shen Ranxin pursed her lips, reached out and grabbed Cheng Cheng's hand, and said softly: "Okay, Cheng Cheng, calm down."

Cheng Cheng took a deep breath, slowly loosened his hand, and smiled for a while: "So, Shen Ranxin, I am also miserable... Lu Zhi was born in the underground black market, and he was beaten every day. He didn't even know who his biological mother was, so he never had to worry about what to do if he was beaten to death by his own mother."

Shen Ranxin's tone, which had just been used to comfort Cheng Cheng, immediately became solemn: "Okay, shut up."

"Look, Shen Ranxin." Cheng Cheng said, "I am more miserable than Lu Zhi. I deserve more sympathy than Lu Zhi. You can save him, so why don't you look at me more? Shen Ranxin, love me, okay?"

He grabbed Shen Ranxin's hand, rubbed it on his face, and sighed comfortably: "I need you more than he does, Ah Ran..."

Shen Ranxin pulled his hand out and scolded coldly: "Enough, Cheng Cheng! Pain is never for comparison. I know you are in pain, but proving that you are in more pain than others cannot cure your pain! Besides, I like Lu Zhi not because of how miserable he is, but because he has enough qualities that make me like him."

Cheng Cheng looked at him, his eyes full of undisguised desire.

His animal instinct told him that the message this look brought him was probably not very good.

He pushed Cheng Cheng's body against the door of the locker room away: "You won't understand even if I tell you so much. I promised your father that as long as you don't..."

His palm pressed on the door handle, and the next moment, he was suddenly overwhelmed by dizziness. He could hardly stand and barely held on to the door panel to prevent himself from falling to the ground in embarrassment.

Shen Ran's heart was filled with alarm, and he managed to turn around: "Cheng Cheng?"

Cheng Cheng stretched out his fingers, wiped away the tears on his face, and showed his harmless smile again: "I gave you a chance, Ah Ran."

Shen Ranxin took a breath and pinched his fingers into the flesh, and his palm was instantly covered in blood.

He thought hard about a way to escape.

Then he sadly discovered that this little pain was not enough to wake him up.

Cheng Cheng came over and gently touched his lips with his finger.

"Aran, go to sleep. When you wake up, everything will be over."

Cheng Cheng said, "I still want to have you. Whatever Lu Zhi has, I should have too."

"He stole so many things from me, but I only want this one thing from him."

“I’m actually quite tolerant.”

Shen Ranxin could no longer make out what Cheng Cheng was saying.

All his willpower was used to resist the dizziness.

But it ended in failure.

Before he fell into complete darkness, he only had time to silently recite Lu Zhi's name once.

His consciousness floated in and out, and he returned to that dark space again.

But this time, the little white ball did not appear again. He ran wildly forward, hoping to see the sudden bright light of day for a moment.

But no, he ran for a very long time, so long that he was so tired that he felt like his legs were not his own. It was so long that it seemed like he had run through a lot of time, and even ran through his entire life, but he still had no time to run out of the endless darkness.

Until the voice of "Lu Zhi" sounded in my ears.

He looked up and saw a crack in the sky, with white light pouring down.