Chapter 79: Exclusively possessing the prince, a husband and wife for a day is a hundred days of grace.
A few days later, Nanyue went out of the palace to play and came to the Marquis' Mansion to visit and meet Yu Qing.
At that time, Yu Qing was not very confident about her going to the palace. Now she just wanted to let her know that everything was fine with her, that she had good food and a comfortable place to live, and that she would have money to spend if she left the palace.
Yu Qing noticed the brand new necklace on her neck at a glance.
I vaguely heard her mention that when she went out to sea, the wind and waves were so strong that her necklace was swept away.
"Did someone give this to you?" Yu Qing asked.
Nan Yue was stunned and immediately looked away embarrassedly: "Yes, yes...but how did you know..."
Before coming here, Nan Yue hadn't expected that there were so many handsome men in the capital. In just a short while, there were three of them surrounding her, which was really dazzling.
When she was sent to the palace that day and listened to what Yu Qing and King Jing said, she suddenly realized with horror that these two people seemed to be interested in her?
This really troubled her.
They're both good people, but... they're not suitable.
The commander-in-chief of the imperial guards, Yu Qing, was naturally an excellent person, with a distinguished family background and extraordinary skills, but he had a deceased wife.
Although his statements about his deceased wife were inconsistent, Nan Yue had a hunch that they had a deep bond. How could a living person compare to a dead person?
What about King Jing? In terms of appearance, no one she had ever seen could compare to him.
But her mother had always said that if a man looked too good, he might be a playboy. So she couldn't take the risk.
But she didn't know how to refuse for a moment and was very embarrassed. While following the Golden Feather Guard to familiarize herself with the layout of the palace, she muttered a few words casually.
As a result, the deputy envoy named Duan was very interested when he heard her talk about the dispute between King Jing and the commander in the carriage, and listened with great interest.
The two of them started chatting unconsciously and walked around the imperial garden for many times. Duan Zhirui also told her some other gossips in the capital, which he had learned when he was on duty before. They were more interesting than the storybook recommended by King Jing.
…Then she discovered that this person was quite funny and humorous.
Nan Yue hesitated and couldn't say the name for a long time, but Yu Qing already understood.
She said, "The necklace is indeed very beautiful."
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After Nanyue left, it was already dark. She returned to Huaifeng Pavilion and felt very depressed. This was something she had expected, and she didn't know why she was still feeling lonely.
So after many days, she came to the uninhabited Wenhuayuan again. After Qiu Lian and the others left, it became vacant again.
When she was newly married, the place was decorated with lanterns and brightly lit. At that time, she went to see the princess with a trepidation, and she certainly didn't expect what kind of entanglement would arise in the future.
In fact, she often gave Qingjia gifts. She didn't know what kind of gifts would make the princess happy, but it was always a good idea to give more.
She thought the princess liked to dress up, so she gave her cosmetics, jewelry, and brocade. In fact, she herself didn't quite understand, and the princess might not like it that much, although she acted very happy.
Xie Jing gave Nan Yue a very beautiful necklace.
How she treats Xie Jing is how Xie Jing treats others, and it is probably the same for the people he likes.
Among the many pieces of jewelry he had given her, there was a blue jade hairpin that suited the princess perfectly and she often wore it. Later, Yu Qing couldn't find it no matter how hard she tried, and many other things vanished with it.
The servants said that the maids had collected them and buried them together in the imperial mausoleum. Her feelings, like Princess Qingjia's identity, would never see the light of day again.
The bronze mirror on the dressing table was a little dusty and mottled, and the reflection of her own face was a little unclear and even a little strange.
She was still wearing a crown, and the person in the mirror was the prince of Xuanbei.
When she was little, she never imagined that she would become what she is today.
When she made the choice, she was still very young and did not realize the many shackles that would come her way in the future. She had already embarked on a path of no return.
In fact, she has no regrets, because she has won so much for herself, but at the same time, sacrifices are inevitable.
Just as she couldn't walk in the world with her true self, nor could she understand the ordinary people's worldly ties. I'm afraid no one, whether men or women, would follow her path.
It doesn’t mean you can’t survive without it. You won’t lose anything else anyway. You just need to endure loneliness.
She also knew long ago that Xie Jing would not stay. The first time he left, he was decisive and decisive.
Even if she is a woman, so what? She will not tell her secrets easily, nor will she give up the hard-earned position of power.
In fact, it was not Xie Jing's business. After all, Yu Qing did not let him choose. She just gave up on him on her own initiative.
It was easy to make up one's mind, but it was hard to let go. She had gotten many things and could hold on to them whenever she wanted them, but this was the one thing she couldn't do anything about.
Why does she feel so uncomfortable seeing Xie Jing with Qin Nu, and seeing Xie Jing with Nan Yue?
In fact, she did not hate any girl, nor did she bear a grudge against him personally. She was just questioning why she was not by his side?
She actually has a possessiveness towards Qingjia and Xie Jing.
When the princess was around, she hoped that she could be devoted to her wholeheartedly. When those eyes looked at her, she could only see her. She enjoyed those moments so much that she always stared into the princess's eyes.
She didn't want the princess to be closer to anyone else than her. She wanted to own the princess and wanted unique dependence and trust.
Although this idea was a bit selfish, she also thought that it was fortunate that the princess was not favored by anyone, so she could have it all.
Now she could no longer open her heart to others. She would rather be lonely than suffer again.
So, no one can replace Qingjia.
Just like Nanyue was also a princess, very beautiful and pitiful, Yu Qing felt sympathy for her and was willing to help her. However, when facing her, he would never feel as much tenderness in his heart as when facing his own princess.
Yu Qing fell asleep in Wenhuayuan that night after a long time, and the wide bed was empty.
She fell asleep again.
If I could meet Qingjia often in my dreams, perhaps I could find some comfort.
No matter what the reality is, they are still husband and wife in fantasy.
But there was no way to control dreams, and she didn't often dream of Qingjia. Moreover, Qingjia often transformed into Xie Jing without her noticing, which was so frightening that she couldn't fully immerse herself in it.
She thought, maybe this is the last time.
Qingjia looked at her quietly. The princess's beautiful eyes still seemed to be able to speak, with thousands of words to say, but in silence.
Yu Qing said, "Qingjia, are you leaving?"
Qingjia just blinked.
Yu Qing said slowly: "Can I kiss you again?"
She only kissed Qingjia once in her life, and they never met again.
When she hugged the princess and wanted to kiss her smooth forehead, she found that the princess had grown taller again, and she couldn't reach her. In front of her were Xie Jing's lips.
Yu Qing: “…”
She let go of Xie Jing in disappointment, wondering, how on earth did he grow so tall? Wasn't it fine before?
Suddenly, Xie Jing moved, and he actually hugged Yu Qing in return. Yu Qing opened her eyes wide... she woke up.
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Yu Qing no longer paid attention to the affairs of the palace.
Today, I can almost let it go.
However, her mother, as a noble lady, had just attended a Hundred Flowers Banquet in the palace and came back feeling a little worried.
"When Concubine Rong from the palace suddenly spoke to me, I thought she was asking about something else," Lu Yufu said, "but she actually asked about your marriage."
Yu Qing frowned.
"You said you never married after Qingjia passed away. I wonder if you have any plans to remarry. From what she said, it seems she wants to help you arrange something. If the emperor grants another marriage, it will be even more troublesome. I will calm her down first and tell her that you are actually slowly looking for someone and there is no need for her to worry about it. There are some signs now, but we have to take a long-term approach and not rush. She will probably forget about it in the future. We can put it off until she remembers it again."
Yu Qing said: "Well, that's fine."
Later, she thought about it and found it strange that Concubine Rong asked this question out of the blue. Could it be that she was still worried about the impact of her situation on Xie Jing? Was she afraid that her husband in her previous life would not settle down and would come back to cause trouble for Xie Jing?
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On the second day, Beichensi welcomed a distinguished guest - His Royal Highness Prince Jing.
Hearing that he was coming to get something again, Yu Qing let him in. He thought that he would take everything this time and not come here again.
When Xie Jing entered the room, he saw that his two guards had brought some things with them. Then Xie Jing chose a piece of calligraphy and painting and an ornament.
Yu Qing said, "Your Highness, why don't you take some more?"
Xie Jing said, "We don't have enough people. Take these first, and we'll deal with the rest later."
Yu Qing said: "Why don't you ask someone to move a few more times? Or ask someone to help you move."
Seeing that Yu Qing was about to send someone over, Xie Jing had no choice but to ask someone to hand over the boxes they were carrying first, and then let them take the things to load the carriage, and then return here later.
After the others left, Yu Qing looked at the items on the table and asked, "What are these?"
Xie Jing said, "I brought some things for the commander. I thought the previous ones might have been used up."
There were several ingots of precious Xuanshuang ink, several boxes of Jinlian ink, and tea.
Although it may not seem like much, they are actually tribute-level items and are in short supply.
Xie Jing had brought these to Beichensi before, and now they have indeed been consumed.
“…And this.”
In the last box, there were some neatly arranged snow-white snacks wrapped in pink velvet.
Yu Qing wasn't that particular about brushes, ink, paper, and inkstone; he had simply brought them over before, so they just used them. Xie Jing also prepared tea and snacks himself, occasionally sharing some with her, which she would enjoy.
Now that he had been away from Beichensi for a long time, she naturally had lost the habit of eating snacks.
Seeing that Yu Qing had no intention of moving, Xie Jing said, "This is milk cake."
"...Yes, I know him." Yu Qing said.
“It tastes great and is very fresh.”
Yu Qing said: "But I'm not hungry."
Xie Jing opened his mouth and said, "Okay."
"Actually, Your Highness, there's no need to be so polite," Yu Qing said, "You've brought so many things with you. I'm not sure I'll be able to use them all."
Xie Jing said, "...Just consider it as a thank you gift. Last time, Prince, you saved my life at Weiyun Mountain, and I haven't thanked you yet."
It's been so long, what's there to thank them for now? Yu Qing thought for a moment and said, "Actually, it was your guards who saved you. You can reward them well."
Xie Jing was speechless for a while, his chest heaving several times, and suddenly said: "Actually, there is no other reason, I just wanted to come to you."
Yu Qing frowned and asked, "What do you want from me?"
"The wife of the Marquis of Xuanbei said that you plan to get married in the future, and that you have a sweetheart," Xie Jing asked. "Is that true?"
Yu Qing: “…”
Xie Jing and Rong Fei were indeed biological mother and son. As soon as his mother told Rong Fei yesterday, Xie Jing knew it. But why did he ask about this?
Yu Qing said: "So what if it's true?"
Xie Jing said, "But I haven't heard of you being close to anyone. After thinking about it, it can only be Nanyue. But Nanyue is currently in love with someone else, so it shouldn't be the prince."
Yu Qing never expected that Xie Jing was still suspicious of him even though he hadn't seen him for a few days.
"My affairs have nothing to do with Your Highness," Yu Qing said calmly, "Your Highness, there is no need to—"
Before she finished the second half of her sentence, Xie Jing whispered, "It doesn't matter? Prince, a husband and wife for a day is a hundred days of grace. You and I have at least been husband and wife. Don't you think there's even a little bit of grace left?"
Xie Jing had never mentioned this matter openly in front of Yu Qing before, and Yu Qing's face changed.
The emotions that she had been able to suppress suddenly swelled up, and she found that she had not yet completely gotten over it.
"If you still care about the kindness we showed you in the past," Yu Qing said, "don't mention Nanyue in front of me!"
She really couldn't stand it. Who could remain calm and composed when their beloved loved someone else?
"...Do you like the princess so much?" Xie Jing asked in disbelief, "Do you really want to be her consort again?"
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