Chapter 307 The Orphanage's Lies: The Handsome Flower Boy 7
"Xiao Nian, this Ms. Shen is here to see you."
She said she was your biological mother and could tell you about your birthmark and the beads.
When you arrived at the orphanage, you had a letter with you. The letter mentioned a name, which was Ms. Shen's name.
The dean has already inquired about the situation and gathered his understanding. You two can have a good talk now; I'll head out first.
Dean Lu said that her expression softened again when she saw the well-behaved child.
Being able to reunite with family is the best thing, provided that the family did not maliciously abandon the child; only such families deserve to reunite.
She wouldn't agree to a family that has ill intentions, doesn't raise their children when they're young, and then takes them back to exploit them when they're almost grown up, even if they're their own children!
If you give birth to someone but don't raise them, why bother trying to take them back?
Dean Lu's words were like a thunderclap, resounding loudly in Lu Jinnian's ears.
He froze on the spot, and in an instant, all the color drained from his face, though he was already quite pale to begin with.
Her breath caught in her throat for a moment, and those beautiful eyes, which usually held a hint of ingratiation and pity, were now filled with shock and bewilderment.
His clear eyes looked directly at Shen Ci, without any ulterior motives.
Biological mother?
Is this beautiful, generous woman who bought his flowers his mother? Did she already know his identity, yet still buy his flowers?
His mind was buzzing, a jumble of chaotic thoughts vying to burst forth.
My memory of my mother is now blurred, with only a faint warmth remaining, carrying the scent of the fields and the stove.
In his memory, the part about his mother had been sealed away in a very, very long time ago.
Over the years, all he has remembered is that snowy night, the departing figure of his biological father, and how cold the snow was at the entrance of the orphanage.
The hatred of being abandoned kept recurring in his mind, urging him not to forget.
"No, that's impossible, you must be mistaken."
My mother, she…
Lu Jinnian subconsciously took half a step back, unable to accept this fact at all. His voice was dry, terribly hoarse, and trembling slightly.
He wanted to say that his mother had abandoned him a long time ago, just like his father.
Although his memories of his mother were vague, he remembered that it was his mother who put him into his father's arms.
But the words stuck in my throat, and I just couldn't say them.
His face turned pale instantly, and his wary eyes made Shen Ci's heart clench.
Shen Ci softened her voice and stood up.
"Xiao Nian, I didn't make a mistake."
The crescent-shaped birthmark on your butt, and this string of persimmon seed beads, I personally ground them one by one back then.
There's nothing good in the countryside, so I thought I'd get you something to wear.
I polished each and every bead on this piece over and over again, afraid of hurting your skin.
Back then, your father and I agreed to a fake divorce so that he could return to the city.
He said he would pick us up after he settled in, and that he would take you with him when he left, in case I didn't believe him.
I believed him, and I waited and waited in the village, only to receive the news that he had taken you away and would never return.
I panicked and, ignoring my family's advice, took the fake address he left behind and came to the city to find you.
I'm just a country woman who's never traveled far. I found a post office at that address and that was it.
Being in an unfamiliar place, I quickly ran out of money. I couldn't find you, and I couldn't go home.
Those years, I practically crawled to survive, but I never gave up looking for you. On the eve of the Lunar New Year, Mom has been searching for you, never giving up!
Having a mouth means having to explain. To outsiders, Shen Ci is now willing to tear open her own unbearable past to tell her child the truth.
It was truly touching.
Looking for me?
Lu Jinnian suddenly raised his head, his eyes instantly reddening. The grievances and anger that had been building up for more than a decade finally found an outlet.
"You're only coming to find me now?! Eleven years! I've been left here for eleven years! Do you know how long I've waited? Do you know how long I've—"
I almost couldn't wait any longer.
He choked up and couldn't say anything more.
To survive, they had to learn to read people's expressions; to avoid going hungry, they had to use sweet words to gain others' pity.
Witnessing his own abandonment, the despair and self-doubt that arose day and night tormented him with the lingering memories of his past.
He was angry, hateful, and at the same time desperate and aggrieved.
Hatred tormented him day and night, yet it also sustained him as he struggled to survive.
Shen Ci knew about his experiences and those things; the information was directly transmitted to her brain, allowing her to empathize with him to the greatest extent possible.
Seeing him like this, she finally couldn't hold back her tears. She's the kind of person who gets easily moved to tears even while watching a movie.
Shen Ci stepped forward and, ignoring Lu Jinnian's stiffness, gently grasped his fist. His hand was clenched tightly, and his palm was covered in cold sweat.
"I'm sorry, Xiaonian, it's my fault. I shouldn't have trusted your father so easily. I never thought he could be so heartless as to abandon his own flesh and blood."
"I'm sorry that Mom is late and made you suffer so much."
At this point, it's not appropriate to simply admit your own mistake. You need to identify who the real culprit is, otherwise you'll easily reinforce a wrong impression in your child.
Her apology was sincere, yet powerless.
Lu Jinnian tried to shake off her hand, but found that his whole body was trembling, as if he had lost all his strength and could not muster any power.
The commotion was too great, and Dean Lu was on tenterhooks, worried that something might happen.
She quickly knocked on the door and came in. Seeing Lu Jinnian's agitated state, she sighed, gently put her arm around his shoulder, and led him to the side.
"Xiao Nian, calm down and listen to what the director has to say."
Your mother has had a tough time.
Think about it, back then, she was a rural woman with no household registration and no one to rely on. How was it any different from looking for a needle in a haystack when she was searching for someone in such a big city?
The fact that she survived and was able to find you is beyond your imagination; you can't even begin to imagine how much suffering she endured.
She was also deceived by your father; you can't entirely blame her for this.
If you must hate, you should hate the person who abandoned you, not your mother, who was also abandoned but never gave up looking for you.
If she didn't care about you, why would she come looking for you now?
Look at how she's dressed now, she must be doing alright, and the first person she thought of was you.
If you stay with your mother, you won't have to worry about tuition fees or your future. You can focus on your studies and have a bright future.
On the eve of the Lunar New Year, listen to advice and don't get stuck on things. For a woman to do this, it's really too difficult and not easy at all.
Your mom is a victim, she's just like you.
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