Can't see anything, can't hear anything.
Li Yuebai only felt that he was sinking in the endless ocean of consciousness, sinking, sinking to the deepest, darkest, unknown place.
The moment he sank to the bottom, what he saw before his eyes was no longer empty darkness, but various gorgeous illusions. They were all the countless fragments of his experiences, from the first time he traveled through time to the end of the sixth time. All the fragments were mixed together in a mess, and he couldn't tell which was which.
It's so confusing.
Li Yuebai hardened his heart and swept away all the illusions.
But this kind of darkness is too lonely.
He tried to depict Ye Qing's image in the darkness, and at the same time recalled the feeling of pressing on Shen Po at the last moment, which slowly calmed him down.
Shen Po must be fine now, at least his life is not in danger.
However, no matter how hard Li Yuebai tried, the illusions he created were quickly shattered in the darkness.
Then, a familiar voice came to my ears.
"My beauty, long time no see." The voice was frivolous and romantic, with a hook at the end of the words that made people's hearts numb.
Jade Tianji? ?
Li Yuebai shuddered.
Yu Tianji was his teammate in the third wear, and also his former lover with whom he had skin-to-skin contact.
Now in darkness, he couldn't see Yu Tianji's figure at all and could only hear his voice.
"You look like you don't want to see me at all..." Yu Tianji complained, "Why? Now that you've found your old lover, you don't want me anymore?"
"No, that's not it..." Li Yuebai hurriedly explained, but his heart was getting heavier.
"I know that the lover you want to find is the guy who lost his system." Yu Tianji said with a sarcastic smile: "Unfortunately, I have a system."
Yes.
Ever since the system revealed Ye Qing's experience, Li Yuebai had to come to the conclusion that Yu Tianji could not be Ye Qing.
According to the systematic investigation, Ye Qing lost the system after the second time, while Yu Tianji had a system in the third time... They couldn't be the same person. My guess was wrong after all.
"Between me and him, which one do you choose?" Yu Tianji's voice was filled with sadness and coquettishness, and at the end he sighed, "Forget it, I know you definitely won't choose me."
"..." Li Yuebai only felt his eyes sore, and he just wanted to reach out and grab the intangible Yu Tianji, but he didn't know where his hands were.
"No...I will..." Li Yuebai struggled and managed to utter a few words.
"Will you choose me?" Yu Tianji said with a smile, "Are you willing to give up on him?"
…
"Host!" The system's voice seemed to come from above the sea level, each one clearer than the last: "Host, please wake up!"
Li Yuebai tried to respond to the system's call, but he didn't have the strength.
His body seemed to be completely sunk into the mud and sand at the deepest part of the sea of consciousness, unable to extricate himself.
"Host!" The system probably yelled too many times and got too tired, so it decided to change its strategy and said, "Shen Po's favorability towards you has risen to 80%!"
80%?
Li Yuebai was overwhelmed with joy, but before he could react, he felt his consciousness breaking free from its constraints and drifting upwards involuntarily. The darkness gradually disappeared, and large patches of white light appeared before his eyes.
Wake up, finally wake up.
His consciousness gradually returned, but he still didn't have the strength to open his eyes.
The system interface has been restored in front of me, and the number in the lower left corner is clearly displayed. It is indeed 80%. Shen Po's favorability towards me has returned.
"System?" He struggled to ask with his consciousness: "How is Shen Po?"
"He's fine." The system said, "You should pay attention to yourself once in a while..."
"Am I still alive?"
"Not dead." The system replied: "You are now in a hospital bed."
"Hospital?" Li Yuebai's heart tightened: "How long have I been unconscious?"
"It's been more than a month." said the system.
The door of the ward opened and familiar footsteps were heard - it was Shen Po.
Li Yuebai didn't dare to be distracted by talking to the system anymore. He just lay down quietly without moving, pretending that he was not awake at all.
The footsteps came closer and closer, and then Shen Po sat on the chair beside his bed.
Although Li Yuebai closed his eyes, he could still feel Shen Po's gaze on him, and his cheeks couldn't help but get hot.
No, I can’t bear it anymore.
He used all his strength to slowly open his eyes.
"?" Shen Po did not expect Murong Liang to wake up suddenly, and was at a loss for a moment, but even when he was at a loss, his appearance and demeanor did not diminish in the slightest, and his eyes were full of concern when he looked at Murong Liang.
"Shen Po?" Li Yuebai said breathlessly, "Where is this?"
"Hospital." Shen Po immediately replied in a low voice: "Well, I'll go find a doctor..."
As he said that, Shen Po was about to press the doorbell at the end of the bed.
"No need." Li Yuebai groaned and gave him a pitiful look: "Just keep me company."
After saying these few sentences, he had reached his limit. His headache was terrible and every word was difficult to say. Li Yuebai was too tired to say anything else and just looked at Shen Po.
"Okay." Shen Po tactfully stopped talking and sat quietly beside the bed to accompany him, but at the same time, of course he ignored Murong Liang's nonsense and pressed the bell to summon the doctors and nurses.
"System..." Li Yuebai had no choice but to cooperate with the medical staff for the examination, while secretly complaining: "Why do I feel like the doctors and nurses are looking at me like an idiot? Even Shen Po looks at me in a weird way."
"Nonsense." The system didn't know whether to laugh or cry, and said, "If I could materialize, I'm afraid I would look at you like an idiot right now..."
"Why?"
"Because the reason you were injured is so stupid."
"I..." Li Yuebai didn't know how to refute for a moment: "But, if it weren't for my wit and courage, Shen Po would probably..."
"If you hadn't protected Shen Po, nothing would have happened." The system said angrily, "What fell from the ceiling was just a piece of plastic!"
"?" Li Yuebai felt terrible.
If you think about it carefully, the room was dimly lit and filled with an eerie atmosphere. In addition, I was overly nervous and suspicious, and I had great distrust of the Lord God. As a result, I mistook the plastic board for concrete.
"The plastic sheet falling off would have been fine, but you used too much force and your forehead hit the floor." The system said, "The concussion and excessive fatigue caused you to be in a coma for a long time."
“……”Li Yuebai was about to cry.
After the doctor finished the examination and found everything was normal, he left the ward, and they were the only two people left in the ward again.
"No matter how stupid he is, Shen Po has an 80% favorable impression of me now!" Li Yuebai was stubborn and tried to make a cunning excuse: "He must have been moved by me, and maybe he even wants to sacrifice himself..."
"But he still hasn't recovered his memory of the second time." The system's words brought Li Yuebai back to reality: "You still need to keep working hard.
In fact, Shen Po, who was sitting beside the bed, was thinking about the scene over and over again in his mind.
At that time, Murong Liang rushed up recklessly, knocked himself down, and then used his body to block the heavy object falling from the ceiling. Although it was finally discovered that the so-called heavy object was just a piece of plastic, it was impossible to make a correct prediction at that time... Shen Po felt that Murong Liang risked his life at that moment.
Why would you save me at the cost of your own life?
Shen Po had always wanted to ask this question, but he felt that asking it would seem like sarcasm, mocking the other person for doing something stupid for no reason.
"Shen Po." Li Yuebai snorted and said, "Talk to me."
He had been lying in bed for so long without catching any new news, which of course made him feel bored, but he suddenly said this mainly because he wanted to talk to Shen Po more.
"Oh." Shen Po said: "The post-production of our movie is going smoothly..."
"Can it go smoothly without me?" Li Yuebai tried to regain his arrogant attitude.
"You had almost finished filming your scenes before the accident, so there were no obstacles in the post-production," Shen Po said.
"Is that why you are so free?" Li Yuebai joked, "You are not busy with work, but staying with me in the hospital."
"I'm on vacation." Shen Po frowned unnaturally, looking very businesslike.
"Oh——" Li Yuebai wanted to make a face, but found it too difficult. He wanted to nod, but found that his neck was fixed and he couldn't do it at all. He wanted to laugh, but found that laughing would pull his nerves and it was painful.
But seeing Shen Poan sitting quietly beside his bed and talking to him, he couldn't help but want to laugh.
"Shen Po, stop talking." Li Yuebai said, trying not to laugh: "I want to laugh when you talk."
"?" Shen Po was a little confused and couldn't understand why he suddenly had a sense of humor.
"Hey, Shen Po, read something to me."
“Why do you want me to read it?”
"Because you have a nice voice..." Li Yuebai held on for so long, but still felt his eyelids were too heavy. He was about to be unable to open his eyes. He couldn't keep looking at Shen Po. He had to at least listen to his voice.
"Do I need to listen to the script?" Shen Po thought about it and said helplessly.
"I don't want to listen. I'm tired of it." Li Yuebai forced himself to pout.
So Shen Po borrowed a stack of books from the library.
"The Kite Runner, The Crusader, The Gunslinger, The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy" Shen Po calmly read out the titles one by one: "Which one do you want to listen to?"
"The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy." Li Yuebai said without hesitation.
作為語文老師，即使沒看過，也早就聽過這本書的大名，據說是一本充斥着最瘋狂的英式幽默的科幻小說，讓沈破這種嚴肅的人來念，一定是最有笑果的。
“你不是不能笑嗎？”沈破看了看書的封面，皺眉。
“我保證不笑。”李越白嚴肅發誓。
沈破認命地聳了聳肩，打開書，用他慣用的淡定嚴肅的語調讀了起來。
又過了一個月，那本薄薄的書才被讀得見了底。
“宿主，恭喜您，明天就可以出院了。”系統道：“另外，沈破對您的好感度升到了83%”
“才升了3%？”李越白有些失望。
“住院這段日子，你們的互動并不多。”系統攤手：“畢竟您是病人，不能搞太多事情。”
說得也是，李越白想，其實好感度沒有降已經不錯了，畢竟這段日子裏，自己一直在麻煩沈破，一直拉着他陪自己，恐怕他已經煩了吧。
“系統認為，剩下的好感度，要等沈破恢複記憶的時候，才會升上去。”
“可是……怎麽才能讓他恢複記憶？”一提到恢複記憶這個話題，李越白就很洩氣，他已經試過了各種提示方法，但始終不奏效。
“實在不行……”系統大膽道：“您只能借助藥物了。”
“藥物？”
“對，您現在身處醫院，藥劑房裏有您需要的藥物，例如XXXX、XXXXX。”系統列舉了幾種：“它們有足夠的刺激性，也許能刺激到沈破，使他恢複記憶。”
“我拒絕。”李越白毫不猶豫地把系統的提議頂了回去。
沈破無法恢複記憶沒關系，這個世界很和平，接下來還有無盡的時間，他可以慢慢等，絕對不想以傷害對方身體的方式來獲取記憶。
“怎麽了？”沈破擡起頭來，烏黑的瞳孔裏映着李越白的臉。
剛剛李越白在內心深處跟系統說得太激動了，不知不覺就表現了出來。
“沒事沒事。”李越白掩飾地擺擺手：“我只是突然想到明天就可以出院了，有點激動。”
“就算明天要出院，今天也要好好待着，不要胡鬧。”沈破道。
“是是是。”李越白認輸地舉起雙手：“怕了你了。”
見他沒有胡鬧的打算，沈破才放心地繼續看向手中的書，讀了下去。
其實這個時候，慕容涼的身體已經恢複得差不多了，額頭上的傷口也已經痊愈，無論是看書看電影還是走路都沒有問題，但李越白不舍得把沈破放走，仍然堅持讓他讀書給自己聽。
那一本薄薄的《銀河系漫游指南》已經讀到結尾了，裏面提到，一個遠古智慧種族建造了一臺超級電腦，用它來計算宇宙的終極答案，經過了七百五十萬年的漫長計算，這個答案終于被算了出來。
“快快快，沈破，快告訴我。”李越白催促道：“這個終極答案到底是什麽？”
“關于生命、宇宙及其一切的答案？”沈破認真地看着書頁。
“對。”李越白一臉期待：“是愛嗎？一定是愛吧。”
“……”沈破同情地看了李越白一眼，道：“四十二。”
“什麽？”李越白一時沒聽明白。
“是個數字，四十二。”沈破道：“這就是終極答案。”
“這算什麽終極答案？”李越白很失望。
“英式幽默。”沈破無辜地眨了眨眼：“如你所言。”
出院兩個月後，李越白收到了消息——電影的樣片剪出來了。
時間已經到了秋天，天色肅殺，秋風寂寥，樹葉在冷風中簌簌飄落。李越白穿了一襲墨綠色風衣，系了乳白色的圍巾，開了一輛樣式頗為古典的吉普車，向沈破的宅邸駛去。
樣片剪出來的消息令他十分振奮，更高興的是——又有機會和沈破見面了。
出院之後，他們并不經常見面，畢竟有堆積如山的工作要忙。兩個月下來，李越白發現自己無法抑制對沈破的想念。
他把車開到沈破家門前，按了幾下喇叭，感覺整個場景複古得無以複加，自己簡直成了幾十年前老電影裏的人物。
沈破穿了一件黑色大衣出來，沒有戴帽子，頭發似乎長長了一點點，仍然和記憶裏一樣，英俊得令人發指。
“噗。”李越白笑了出來：“你這個樣子真像葉青。”
“我本來就是他。”沈破淡定道。
說者無意聽者有心，李越白聽他這麽一說，吓得噎了一下。
“我是說，我本來就演繹了他。”沈破改口道。
“就知道你沒那麽容易恢複記憶，算啦。”李越白甜蜜地嘆了口氣，帶着沈破去了制作中心。
在一間嚴格保密的，僅僅能容納兩個人的小房間裏，他們打開了播放器。
一陣低沉的音樂從音箱裏傳出，屏幕緩緩變亮，這部關于吸血鬼的電影徐徐拉開了序幕。
昏暗的光線，逼仄的房間，閃着白光的屏幕——這一切都給了李越白一種錯覺——仿佛他們兩個正在以戀人的身份在包廂看電影一般。
被這樣的錯覺所引導，所誘惑，李越白不知道哪裏來的勇氣，握住了沈破的手。
沈破沒有拒絕。
“宿主，恭喜您完成任務【與沈破合作一部電影】”系統道：“盡管還沒有正式上映，但一切手續都已經妥當，距離正式上映只有時間問題了，因此，可以算您完成任務。”
“謝謝你，系統。”李越白道：“只是第二個任務恐怕要慢了。”
“沒關系，我們有無盡的時間可以等待。”
電影放映完畢後，李越白仍然沒有放開沈破的手。
此時時間已經很晚了，天色陰暗，甚至下起了冰涼的秋雨。
在逼仄的電影放映室裏坐了這麽久，很不舒服，李越白拉着沈破出了門，在寂寥無人的廣場上散起了步。
沈破沉默地撐起了一把巨大的黑色雨傘，罩得兩個人密不透風。
粗糙的大理石地面濕漉漉的，水窪倒映着昏黃的路燈，既冰冷又溫暖。
李越白意識到，自從電影結束那一刻開始，沈破就沒有說一個字。
“怎麽了？沈破，為什麽不說話？”李越白笑道：“沉浸在劇情裏出不來了嗎？”
沈破沒有回答，只是在雨幕中停下了腳步。
他轉過身來，面對着李越白。
“怎麽了？”李越白一陣擔心：“不舒服嗎？”
“沒有……”沈破低下頭，仿佛很累了一般，把臉埋在了李越白的肩膀上。
“？”李越白被他這個過分親密的動作搞得心髒狂跳，臉上像是燒起來一般，手都不知道該往哪裏放了。
他不敢再問沈破到底怎麽了，因為已經感覺到了肩膀上滾燙的淚水。
良久，沈破才擡起頭，直視着李越白。
他臉上仍是淡漠溫和的表情，然而一雙眼睛卻和以前不一樣了，變得像秋日的深潭一樣幽深，裏面似乎埋藏了太多故事。
“沈破……”李越白心跳得更厲害了。
沈破沒有回答，只是湊近他的耳邊，輕聲道：“我回來了。”
“叮！”系統亂七八糟地冒出了提示聲：“恭喜您，宿主，成功完成第二個任務！沈破對您的好感度達到了100%”
不過，系統現在說這麽多根本沒有用。
李越白聽到沈破那句話的一瞬間，就明白了——沈破找回了第二穿的記憶。
二人長久地矗立在雨中，誰都沒有動。
李越白設想過很多次，假如能和葉青重逢，要說些什麽，但是這一刻真的到來時，他卻什麽都說不出來了。
愣了好幾秒鐘之後，李越白才終于伸出手臂，攬住了沈破的脖子，攬得他不得不低下頭，然後，直截了當地吻了上去。
第二天清晨，雨停了，天色放晴，陽光照在草叢上的露珠上，晶瑩剔透。
李越白興致勃勃地拉着沈破出門散步。
天氣這麽好，不能辜負。
現在既然兩個任務都完成了，也許主神會随時讓自己和沈破離開這個世界，可以待在一起的時間不會很長，要好好珍惜。
“你的任務也完成了嗎？”李越白扯着沈破的胳膊笑嘻嘻地問。
“你說呢？”沈破只覺得好笑。
沈破在這一穿的任務是【找到真愛】，雖然沒有系統幫忙，但是任務完成之後也會有感覺的。
“我說？說不準就沒有呢？”李越白惡劣地開玩笑道：“美人如花隔雲端，誰知道你真正愛的人在哪裏……”
沈破挑了挑眉，一把把他攬了過來，道：“要不要我現在證明給你看？”
“好啊！”李越白答應得十分不要臉。
“……”沈破反而哭笑不得了：“為什麽您老人家在這一穿是這樣的性格……”
“感謝這樣的性格，讓我可以毫無下限地調戲你。”李越白笑嘻嘻地去挑沈破的下巴。
不知道為什麽，這一天過得特別快，快得離譜，還沒來得及做什麽，黃昏時間就到了。
于是，李越白拉着沈破坐在廣場邊的椅子上，看天邊金紅色的晚霞。
"Now that our mission is complete, we may soon move on to the next one." Li Yuebai sighed sweetly and said, "Secret code."
"Um?"
"Think of the next code quickly."
"How about forty-two?" Shen Po smiled.
"Oh? The answer to the life universe and everything that is full of British humor?" Li Yuebai was furious when he thought of this answer, and said, "Okay, forty-two is forty-two."
After agreeing on the secret code, both of them felt an unspeakable melancholy in their hearts. They just looked at the sunset glow burning in the sky quietly without saying anything else.
"Host." The system suddenly jumped out, destroying the atmosphere: "There is danger."
"Danger?" Li Yuebai was startled and almost jumped out of Shen Po's arms. He looked around, but there was no one. Where did the danger come from?
"The system doesn't know either, but the data shows there is danger..." The system was also confused.
"..." Li Yuebai only felt confused and terrified.
Then he felt Shen Po seemed to tremble.
"Shen Po?" Li Yuebai was startled and looked quickly at his lover, but felt his body being hugged tightly.
A look of pain appeared on Shen Po's face, mixed with surprise and fear, something he had never seen before.
"Shen Po? Xiao Ye? What happened?" Li Yuebai was in a panic: "Are you feeling unwell? I'll call an ambulance..."
"No..." Shen Po tried his best to squeeze out a few broken words from his throat: "It's useless..."
Li Yuebai didn't know what he could do. He could only hold Shen Po back with trembling hands. He could feel Shen Po's skin slowly getting colder and his life gradually slipping away, but he could do nothing.
Within a few seconds, he watched Shen Po close his eyes in his arms.
"Shen Po..." Li Yuebai still couldn't believe it: "Wake up..."
The pain came too suddenly and too intensely, and he couldn't accept it no matter what.
Shen Po might have fainted, or fallen asleep. Anyway... he couldn't be in any trouble. He couldn't be in any trouble...
After Li Yuebai tried his best to wake him up, Shen Po finally opened his eyes again.
However, the moment he saw those eyes, Li Yuebai fell into deeper despair again.
Those eyes were very unfamiliar, and the expression was even more unfamiliar—the outer shell had not changed, but the soul inside had, and the one who was alive now was the original owner, Shen Po.
I don’t know where my lover has been taken by the Lord God.
Ending: The campus adventures of the white moonlight male gods