Chapter 133. His eyes were glued to those light-colored lips, which he couldn't look away from.
If it were the former situation, Li Xiao wouldn't mind too much.
Since they're both men, there's not much of a problem if either of them feels something.
On the contrary, Li Xiao sometimes felt too much, which is why he didn't dare to shamelessly approach her like he did a few years ago, constantly asking for kisses and hugs.
The worst thing is that if he gets caught, he'll get a beating for no reason. The pain is secondary; what if it leaves him with psychological trauma? Since it concerns his lifelong happiness, Li Xiao is still a little cautious.
Moreover, what's amazing is that, apart from that fleeting glimpse when they first met, Yu Qingzhou has always been incredibly calm. Not to mention fighting, he has never been seen getting angry or arguing with anyone over the years.
Nevertheless, Li Xiao was certain that Yu Qingzhou's beating must have hurt a lot.
It's like a subconscious self-protection mechanism rooted deep in the brain.
His instincts told him not to mess with Yu Qingzhou, or he would definitely get beaten up.
But at the same time, instinct was constantly spreading the message: spring has arrived, all things are reviving, it's the season for animals to XX again... This information was so obviously tempting for Li Xiao to actively seek death.
This left Li Xiao in a dilemma, unable to advance or retreat.
If I don't think about it during the day, I'll think about it even more at night and won't be able to sleep.
Well, it's not that I can't sleep, it's just that I sometimes have a lot of dreams, they're a bit chaotic, and they make my face flush and my heart race, and I can't stop dreaming...
As for the second scenario, it is undoubtedly the worst-case scenario.
Li Xiao didn't want to think about it, but she couldn't completely rule out that possibility.
After all, when the two of them met, Yu Qingzhou was already past the age of first love.
—What if?
Even if he hasn't been in a relationship openly, who has he been secretly in love with?
It's just because of some reasons, such as one's own family situation, or that the other person already has someone else in their heart.
Or, to take it even further, could it be that the person Yu Qingzhou secretly admired might have encountered some kind of accident, like a car crash or leukemia...?
Thinking about it this way, Li Xiao's mood darkened even more.
As everyone knows, a deceased "white moonlight" is practically invincible.
The moon will forever hang high, forever bright and beautiful...
The more Li Xiao thought about it, the sadder she became, and the more she felt that she was born at the wrong time. Her gaze toward the person by the window became increasingly resentful.
"What's so interesting about a tree? It's not even as good as me—"
Li Xiao muttered to himself, surprised that Yu Qingzhou had such sharp ears.
He turned his head and began to examine the boy's face closely.
Despite his words, Li Xiao felt his skin suddenly thinn under Yu Qingzhou's gaze.
He has always been very confident in his face, but he couldn't stand being scrutinized like that.
Suddenly, I didn't know where to look, or what to do with my hands. All the blood in my body rushed out and surged in both directions.
Well, now I don't even know how to stand.
Yu Qingzhou didn't actually watch for that long.
The main reason was that Li Xiao was nervous. When people are nervous, they are prone to having a wrong sense of time.
The same goes for Li Xiao.
Finally, just before that excessively young heart was about to leap out of its chest...
Yu Qingzhou spoke up: "It is indeed quite beautiful."
As he said this, the man had a faint smile on his face, as if he were just saying it casually, but it was enough to stir up a heartbeat that was louder and louder.
Li Xiao paused, eager to say something to hide the turmoil in his heart. So he blurted out, "Hmph. You don't need to tell me this, I already know."
Naturally, Li Xiao regretted it as soon as the words left his mouth.
He could only feel endless regret in his heart, cursing his own mouth for being so rude.
Fortunately, Yu Qingzhou didn't seem to mind and just smiled slightly.
Yu Qingzhou never takes Li Xiao seriously.
This made the boy feel relieved, but also deeply disappointed.
It was always the same. In their interactions and conversations, Yu Qingzhou was always the one who remained calm and collected, leaving Li Xiao alone in a state of turmoil and confusion.
Li Xiao felt that this was somewhat unfair.
He was still unwilling to give up.
"Yu Qingzhou".
Upon hearing her name called, Yu Qingzhou turned her gaze to the boy again, her eyes questioning.
Over the years, Li Xiao has been insisting on addressing the other party by their full name.
Although, in terms of age, he should at least call him "brother" like the guy next door, even a certain seemingly aloof but actually cunning guy keeps calling Yu Qingzhou "senior," as if they're very close.
But Li Xiao refused.
Perhaps wanting to deliberately avoid the fact that he was young, he was the only one among that group who never called Yu Qingzhou "brother".
Yu Qingzhou's view on this matter was consistent with her view on other things: she had no opinion.
"Since you admit that I'm quite good-looking, why do you prefer to keep staring at that tree instead of looking at me more?"
As Li Xiao spoke, he took a big step forward, almost bringing himself right in front of Yu Qingzhou.
Although fifteen-year-old Li Xiao was still shorter than Yu Qingzhou, the latter was clearly not expected the boy to approach so suddenly, so his steps were momentarily hurried.
Before Yu Qingzhou could react, his back had already bumped into the wooden bookshelf shelf, and he bent over slightly in pain.
When I opened my eyes again, I saw a pair of deep, emerald green eyes that gazed at me with varying degrees of intensity as the light outside the window changed.
It feels like your soul could be swallowed up by it if you're not careful...
Being so close, Li Xiao couldn't possibly miss the fleeting moment of distraction in Yu Qingzhou's eyes.
The way Yu Qingzhou looked at him was different from what he had seen before, even from the way he had looked at him a moment before.
It's like the tender inside suddenly revealed from a hard clam shell, so helpless and soft.
It is almost criminal.
However, it was only for a brief moment before Yu Qingzhou regained her composure.
"What are you doing?" he asked softly, his brows furrowing slightly.
When they first met, Yu Qingzhou used this tone to call out to the suspicious-looking human trafficker.
Later, he dialed the police again in the same calm tone.
Later, in that room, on many holiday afternoons, Yu Qingzhou explained the test questions to Li Xiao in the same tone.
The other person was always so calm, composed, and unflappable, as if the person who held the young Li Xiao and gently comforted her that day was a completely different person.
But how could that be possible?
Li Xiao remembered the other person's scent from that time on.
It has a warm and refreshing scent that you never get tired of smelling, and you never feel like you've had enough.
Unfortunately, they have rarely had the opportunity to be this close since then.
They were almost inches apart; with each breath, one could see the fine downy hairs on the young man's face and his eyelashes that trembled slightly with each breath.
Not to mention the novel perspective from which it is viewed.
Li Xiao's Adam's apple bobbed slightly, and his hand resting on the edge of the bookshelf tightened unconsciously.
—Yes, what am I doing?
His mind was racing, not really trying to find any answers, but his thoughts were in complete disarray and his heart was pounding.
My eyes were glued to those light-colored lips that were slightly pursed, and I couldn't look away.
A surge of heat rose within me.
It's like that dizzy, lightheaded feeling you get when you secretly drink the wine your parents kept in the cupboard as a child.
Suddenly, a phrase popped into Li Xiao's mind: restless mind... What does that mean again?
Forget it, if I can't figure it out, I won't think about it anymore. I'll just do it.
Li Xiao made up his mind and immediately lowered his head to kiss her.
The moment he touched that soft surface, he seemed to suddenly understand what it meant to be restless and unsettled, and what it meant to have one's mind wander.
Ultimately, it's all about that uncontrollable joy and excitement in my heart right now.
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