How much of the evaluation in Chapter 121, which is not even good, comes from the boy's true feelings?
Would you easily fall for someone who loves you wholeheartedly and would give their life for you?
He is handsome and kind, and although he is often excessively childish, he is still adorable in your eyes.
If such a person were placed in front of you, could you reject his love without hesitation?
—Although this love was just a chance accident from the beginning, you know that he was not at fault.
He simply loves you, wholeheartedly, involuntarily, and uncontrollably.
But……
Can you really accept it with a clear conscience, ignore the fact that it all started as a mistake, and then say with a clear conscience that you have nothing to be ashamed of?
—Perhaps someone can.
Unfortunately, Yu Qingzhou has not yet been able to do so.
Because he is human, he is subject to the pangs of conscience and cannot take for granted the other party's blind flattery.
However, it is also because he is a person...
As the saying goes, the human heart is the foundation of the spirit. Compared to the magnanimous and ruthless gods, the human heart has lost some sense of proportion and is more prone to softness and greed.
It was as if Yu Qingzhou knew that Li Xiao's closeness to him was not from his own heart, but an instinct etched into his soul and bloodline, like a curse.
Even so, one's heart is still stirred by the other party's unintentional words.
The dappled light and shadow that flickered in the boy's emerald green eyes subtly dazzled his eyes.
Everything was exactly as the sect leader had said. After that, when Li Xiao woke up, he seemed not to remember the words of disgust he had uttered.
When Yu Qingzhou suddenly appeared in front of his bed, the boy pretended not to see her at first.
After waiting for a while, seeing that Yu Qingzhou did not speak, he couldn't help but look around and scratch his head.
Finally, she couldn't help but shout first: "Hey, say something! You're just standing there stiffly, do you really think you're a block of wood?"
“I’m not.” Yu Qingzhou shook her head instinctively.
Seeing that Yu Qingzhou had finally spoken, Li Xiao became even more enthusiastic. The boy, who had been half-lying down, suddenly sprang up from his bedding and excitedly leaned towards Yu Qingzhou's direction as he spoke.
"People say that a blockhead is dull and doesn't know anything, and coincidentally, your name is Yu Qingzhou. Could you have really been a useless elm tree in your past life?"
Yu Qingzhou first met those bright, sparkling emerald eyes, and then looked at the half of her face covered by a black eye patch.
The blood-stained scene from that day vaguely appears before my eyes...
My heart skipped a beat involuntarily.
I don't know if it was out of guilt or something else.
Yu Qingzhou asked Li Xiao, "Are you feeling better now?"
Hearing Yu Qingzhou's irrelevant answer, Li Xiao was clearly disappointed, but he still answered truthfully: "It's alright. Although that fat old man is a bit long-winded and fussy, his medical skills are passable."
He touched the blindfold on his face and said casually, "It doesn't hurt much anymore, and it won't bleed anymore. The old man wants to put a fake one on, saying it will look better and help the wound heal."
At this point, Li Xiao gave a soft snort, looking utterly disdainful: "What a joke! How could my eyes be compared to any mere stone?"
--really.
But is there a better way?
Actually, there are ways, such as returning the object to its rightful owner, like giving back the eye that he personally gouged out...
But he can't do that.
Both the sect leader and his senior master hoped that Li Xiao could live in this world as an ordinary human being.
As for Yu Qingzhou, he hadn't considered such matters. Originally, he only intended to bring Li Xiao back to show him to his Uncle-Master Chang.
And that's it.
Therefore, before this, Yu Qingzhou did not have that real feeling that his small decision had unknowingly changed the other person's life.
Until I heard the sect leader's earnest and heartfelt instructions...
Until she saw the boy who should have hated her suddenly become completely unguarded and act as if nothing had happened...
It wasn't until Yu Qingzhou heard the other person ask her, "What do you think?"
"What do you mean, how?" Yu Qingzhou asked blankly.
"What else could it be? Of course, it's that fat old man talking about installing a prosthetic eye on me."
The boy seemed displeased with Yu Qingzhou's absent-mindedness, his reproachful tone revealing a hint of helplessness that he had gradually grown accustomed to it: "Can't you just listen to people properly?"
"Do you want to be a human?" Yu Qingzhou suddenly asked.
Upon hearing this, Li Xiao looked completely bewildered at first, then, as if suddenly realizing something, he coughed lightly: "That was just an analogy, why are you taking it so seriously?"
"So, you actually don't want to be human?" Yu Qingzhou asked again, staring at Li Xiao's face.
The latter rubbed his arms, looking at him like he was crazy. After a pause, he hesitated and said, "Are you alright, Yu Qingzhou? Why did you suddenly start talking nonsense? Should we call that fat old man over to take a look at you?"
As she spoke, she tried to reach out and touch Yu Qingzhou's face with her claws, but the latter dodged it without batting an eye.
Looking at his fingertips that had missed their mark, Li Xiao clicked his tongue softly.
He was about to say something when he heard Yu Qingzhou say, "I think it's great."
This is the answer to the question I just asked.
While speaking, Yu Qingzhou did not look into Li Xiao's eyes.
"I see."
Li Xiao muttered to himself, seemingly forgetting what he had wanted to say because of the sudden interruption.
It's probably nothing particularly important.
As the boy echoed his sentiments, he curled the corners of his lips and muttered to himself, "Actually, I also think this idea is barely acceptable, not too bad."
—It's not too bad.
How much of the praise, which can't even be considered good, comes from the boy's true feelings?
Yu Qingzhou didn't want to think about it further.
He thought that with the sect leader and Master Chang around, and the entire sect as his backing, Li Xiao could live a more stable and carefree life than before.
If that's the case, then paying some price might be justifiable.
And until I find a better way to deal with it, I will try my best to make it up to the other party.
"Li Xiao".
Yu Qingzhou looked at the boy's face again and asked softly, "Is there anything you want?"
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