Having spent so much time together with this kind of feeling, feelings naturally developed, so she also felt sorry for Shi Qiang.
But despite feeling sorry for him, she had to push him.
"Your parents won't agree, Brother Qiang, I beg you, please let me go, let me die..."
As she spoke, tears streamed down her face, and Shi Qiang quickly reached out to wipe them away, his hurried action causing her pain.
"Nana, don't think like that. They will agree. Even if they don't, you shouldn't..."
Zhu Pandi turned her head and looked at him stubbornly:
"Shouldn't I do this? Shouldn't I try to kill myself? Then how do you think I should live?"
In the team, in the educated youth settlement, everyone knows about our situation, everyone knows we might even have a child, but now because your family doesn't agree, you can't marry me.
What else can I do if I don't commit suicide? Am I just going to be judged and gossiped about while I'm alive? Or is someone like me... even capable of marrying someone else?
As Zhu Pandi recounted these events, she wept with genuine emotion.
Shi Qiang must really like her, so it was really hard to see him cry, but he really didn't dare to go against his parents and get a marriage certificate with Zhu Pandi on his own.
So, the two fell silent again.
Zhu Pandi sighed softly, understanding the unspoken meaning behind his silence, and fell into despair once again.
Sure enough, someone like her will never have happiness in her life; what she didn't have as a child, she won't have as an adult.
With tears streaming down her face, Zhu Pandi leaned on Shi Qiang's shoulder and briefly reflected on her life. She felt as if she had never been happy in her life, not before, not now, and not ever again.
Why is that? Did she commit some terrible sin in her past life?
Zhu Pandi couldn't understand it, and didn't want to think about it anymore.
After a while, she suddenly pushed Shi Qiang away forcefully and jumped into the river again without hesitation.
This time, she jumped in despair, and immediately went far from the shore, not expecting to be rescued.
Shi Qiang felt his arms suddenly go empty, fell on his butt, and then watched helplessly as Zhu Pandi jumped into the river without looking back.
His mind went blank, and before he could react, he jumped down after Zhu Pandi at a very fast speed.
Fortunately, he often went swimming in the river when he was a child, so he is a pretty good swimmer.
After jumping in, he couldn't find Zhu Pandi anywhere. He got up to catch his breath several times before finally managing to pull the unconscious person out of the water.
He quickly got the person ashore, and after crying and pressing his chest several times, Zhu Pandi finally vomited some river water and woke up.
However, her first reaction upon waking was to stare blankly at Shi Qiang for a while, then cry out:
"How come I'm still alive? Why won't God take me?"
Shi Qiang sensed her despair, and when she jumped into the river, he also clearly felt his own fear.
His family's opinions seemed insignificant now; his biggest fear was that Zhu Pandi would die. Everything else could go to hell.
"Nana, Nana, listen to me, let's get married, okay? Let's get married, please don't do this, please don't do this, I'm so scared, what will I do if you die?"
Zhu Pandi heard Shi Qiang's heavy sobbing, but she didn't dare to be too happy, because she always felt that things were not so simple.
Sure enough, after Shi Qiang carried her away from the riverbank and made sure she couldn't jump back into the river, he changed his story.
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