Zhu Qinghao fell silent, because what Sheng Yi said made sense.
The main problem actually lies with herself. From the very beginning, she arrogantly believed that her whole family needed her, but she never asked her family whether they needed her or not.
She told Sheng Yi from the beginning that she would not leave her family, and never thought about what she would think or do if she were in Sheng Yi's shoes.
She made herself perfectly clear from the start, so what was Sheng Yi supposed to do? Go against her wishes and "compete" with her family for her? If he really did that, who knows what she would think?
Thinking about this, Zhu Qinghao also began to reflect on herself.
It seems that since her rebirth, she has really valued her family too much.
It's not that she shouldn't value her family, but rather that she always prioritizes protecting her family above everything else, which is often undesirable.
Especially since she was already married to Sheng Yi, her first thought was always her family whenever something happened.
There was nothing inherently wrong with that, but it seemed as if she didn't truly consider Sheng Yi as one of her own, making the marriage appear somewhat dead in name only.
She even chose to live apart from Sheng Yi for the sake of her family, without considering her new husband's feelings at all.
Her feelings and emphasis on her family seem to be entirely imposed on her by herself, without ever asking for their opinions.
Take her reluctance to join the army, for example. Every member of the Zhu family had tried to persuade her to go to the army with Sheng Yi.
But what about her? She didn't hear a single word, and even thought she was making a sacrifice for her family, feeling it was all worthwhile...
As she thought about it, Zhu Qinghao smiled, and then she started to cry.
How could she be blinded by the sorrow of her past life?
She had everything going well in her life, yet she still treated her family like fragile objects, even though they often didn't need her pampering.
To put it bluntly, she just wanted to atone for her sins in her past life, because doing these things would make her feel much better.
It's as if by doing everything she can to make amends in this life, she can erase the tragic deaths of her family members in their previous lives from her memory.
"Ah Yi, I'm sorry, I... I was a little... obsessed..."
Before she could finish speaking, she burst into tears, but the guilt in her eyes was so intense that Sheng Yi noticed it immediately.
"Okay, okay, don't cry, and don't apologize. I've never resented you, really, and I've never thought you did anything wrong."
You know, I had that dream too, so I understand your actions and your feelings for your family. I won't blame you, so please don't feel guilty, okay?
Sheng Yi lowered his voice and gently coaxed her.
Zhu Qinghao felt his tenderness, but she became even more upset and kept crying and shaking her head.
"Why is it that even after starting over, I still can't seem to do anything right? I feel so stupid..."
“I can’t see that my family wants their own lives. They just interfere with everything they want, wanting to decide everything for them, and wanting to keep them in a cage.”
Seeing her crying so sadly, Sheng Yi felt even more heartbroken.
He held her tighter with one hand, and quickly wiped away her tears with the other, while comforting her:
"Don't cry, you've already done a really great job. You changed the fate of your whole family all by yourself. Everyone must think you're amazing and be proud of you."
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