Chapter 16 Silent Thoughts
Lin Jin didn't dare to click on those photos at all, because in this simple chat box, there was an unfamiliar number but the same picture.
In the picture, two deformed bodies, one male and one female, were crushed under the car, covered in blood and with strange faces.
Those are his parents.
That year, Lin Jin was in his third year of high school and won a national award. At that time, his parents were attending a meeting outside the province.
After learning that Lin Jin had won the award, they asked him what gift he wanted.
In fact, Lin Jin didn’t want anything.
But it happened that his grandmother was sitting next to him at the time and she casually said, "You haven't been home for half a year. I don't know if you are doing well."
So he replied: [Come back for dinner.]
Lin's father and mother bought plane tickets and rushed back the next day. They landed at the same airport at the same time, took a taxi together to a nearby shopping mall, got off the car, bought some vegetables, and planned to cook a home-cooked meal for the family.
Then, when he was crossing the road on a green light, he was run over by a car.
It was dragged straight for more than ten meters.
In the pocket of the man's remaining clothes, there was a carefully handwritten menu.
And those dishes that Lin Jin likes the most.
Specially marked with a red pen.
On the day of the funeral, my aunt and uncle also rushed over. My aunt cried so hard that she was out of breath. She lay on the ground and refused to get up. Finally, she was taken away by the ambulance.
Lin Jin wanted to go with her, but his uncle stopped him and said, "Don't go. Your aunt doesn't want to see you."
Lin Jin was ultimately unable to go with her. He didn't know how his aunt was doing, and all the calls he made were hung up.
Not long after he returned to school, he received a text message from his aunt, saying, "Xiao Jin, I'm still having a hard time accepting this. The little sister I raised is gone because of what you said. If you hadn't asked them to come back, they might still be calling me sister."
At that time, Lin Jin fell into darkness and fell again.
Because he had heard the same opinion before this text message came.
That was when he had just returned to school, and his classmate Fu Yigu, who grew up with him, pulled him to a place with fewer people.
He always had a keen sense of perception, so he quickly noticed that something was wrong with him.
In the empty corridor, he asked, "What happened? Tell me about it."
Lin Jin didn't want to say anything, but Fu Yigu grabbed his wrist and asked a few more questions, then said, "I'm worried about you."
Lin Jin finally told the truth, saying that his parents died in a car accident when they came back.
He thought Fu Yi Gu would express sadness and pity like the teacher, but Fu Yi Gu didn't.
He only said: "Your parents haven't been home for so long, and now they suddenly come back together, are they celebrating for you?"
Lin Jin's heart sank a little. After a moment of silence, he finally responded.
Fu Yigu said, "Will you blame yourself? You don't think you killed them just because you wanted to celebrate, do you?"
Lin Jin's eyelashes trembled when he heard this, and he didn't know how to answer.
He was stunned for a long time, then covered his face.
"It's okay, maybe it's not yours..." Fu Yigu was interrupted before he could finish the word "wrong".
Lin Jin didn't know who it was, he only heard that slightly cold voice say, "Fu Yigu, Teacher Yang is looking for you."
Fu Yigu paused and left.
Lin Jin slowly squatted down, feeling helpless and self-blaming.
The person who came to call Fu Yigu in Yu Guangli did not leave, but walked slowly and stood beside him, saying nothing and doing nothing.
Until he regained his composure and the afternoon sun shone down on them.
The man carefully touched his head and said, "Fu Yi Gu Chun is an idiot, don't listen to him."
Lin Jin asked, "Really?"
"Um."
Lin Jin's legs were numb from squatting, but his thoughts were gradually drawn out of the mystery by the young man in front of him. Finally, he said, "Thank you."
"No need." The young man said in a gentle voice, "When you get up later, be slow and take your time before going back to the classroom, okay?"
Lin Jin nodded and looked up to see the young man, but saw that he had already walked in the opposite direction.
He blinked and could only see a tall and straight figure.
It seemed so. Lin Jin thought, it was similar to the figure with stomach discomfort in front of his house a few days ago.
He remembered the strange boy who hugged him in front of his house on the day his parents burned their ashes.
It would be nice if he were here.
When Lin Jin returned home that weekend, he still couldn't fall asleep. He had always had difficulty falling asleep these days.
So when his phone lit up, he quickly saw the message.
Around 2am, message note: [Auntie]
She said: "Xiao Jin, it's still hard for me to accept that the little sister I raised is gone just because of what you said."
The darkness almost devoured him alive.
The 17-year-old boy was already suffering from the loss of his parents and was at a loss.
Now, as he looked at the message from his aunt who had secretly given him gifts since he was a child, his mood, which had been soothed by the unknown boy, became confused and frightened again.
He was alone and helpless and could only ask her for help.
He asked: [Aunt, is it really because of me? Are you feeling better?]
[Yes, Xiao Jin, are you worthy of your parents, your grandma, and your aunt?]
Are you worthy of it?
The house was dark and should have been quiet and eerie.
But there was a faint suppressed sobbing coming from outside. Lin Jin knew that it was his grandmother crying with her hands covering her mouth in order not to worry him.
Lin Jin was silent for a long time, then apologized.
His world is very simple, and in this world, more than 50% of people ask him whether he should blame himself.
Lin Jin didn’t know either, he was very confused, but he felt that those people were not wrong.
So, he needs to blame himself.
The room was dark, and he said: "I'm sorry"
"It's okay, just remember to repent." The person on the phone said, then sent her two photos of the car accident and said, "Xiao Jin, auntie will accompany you to repent to your parents, okay?"
Lin Jin actually didn’t want to see these two photos, because his parents had never looked so miserable and bloody.
It is obvious that they have always been well-dressed, powerful and decisive.
But Lin Jin still went from self-doubt to conviction of his own sins through his aunt's daily text messages, and then nightmares began one after another.
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