Chapter 150 Resurrection Aren’t You God?
After Xu Xingxing opened his eyes, he was in a daze for a long time.
Wasn't she dead? How come she's alive again?
She touched her body.
Well, light.
Look around again, huh?
Isn’t this the medical clinic in the fantasy world?
Is she still in the illusion?
So what happened later was just a dream?
Xu Xingxing blinked and took a bite of his hand.
pain.
She masked her pain for a moment, then stood up to look for clothes.
In the closet were several outfits that she often wore in the clinic. She picked one and put it on.
I looked in the mirror,
Hmm? Something a little different?
She took a closer look and was startled.
Isn't this herself!
She and Xu Xing'er look very similar, but they are two different people after all. For example, Xu Xing'er's eye ends are straighter, while hers are slightly upturned. Xu Xing'er's lips are lighter in color, while hers are rounder. These differences in details directly determine the completely different temperaments of the two people.
Xu Xing'er was as cool and ethereal as a fairy, and she... looked even more difficult to mess with...
No, she's alive again, wearing... What's going on?
She casually tied her hair in front of the mirror and walked out to the front room.
The front room was crowded with patients. A man with silver hair and light blue clothes was sitting at a desk, taking someone's pulse. Suddenly, he stopped and looked at her.
Then he turned to the patient and said a few words, then stood up and walked towards her.
She looked at the man's face and felt even more dazed.
Why is his hair so white?
Even his eyebrows and eyelashes had turned white, and his usually charming and devilish appearance now looked even warmer and cooler because of his white hair.
Looks... more like a doctor.
But... it looks good...
Another good looking...
sleepy.
Xu Xingxing swallowed the non-existent saliva and thought for a while where to start the kiss.
Hou Yuan came over and directly put his arm around her waist, gently lifted her up, and brought her back to the inner room. Then her eyes blurred, and this man had buried his face in her neck, took a deep breath and said: "You will take the initiative to look for me today,
"very good."
"But you're hungry?"
Without waiting for her to reply, he took her in his arms and sat her on the couch in the inner room. He held her on his lap and skillfully condensed an ice blade and pierced it into his heart. Then the blood that spilled out slowly turned into a red pill and fell into his hand.
He held the pill to her lips. She frowned, looked at the wound on his chest, opened her mouth and ate it obediently, licking his fingertips as she moved away.
Zhu Yuan's body trembled, surprise flashed in his eyes, and then he hugged her and rubbed her forehead, muttering: "You are going to be naughty."
"very good."
"Xiao Xu, someone fainted!" It was Aunt Ding's voice.
Hou Yuan hugged her for a while and said, "Sleep here for a while. I'll come find you when I'm done."
The patient is the most important thing, Xu Xingxing nodded quickly.
After putting her on the couch and covering her up, Yuan Yu kissed her forehead and got up to go about his business.
Of course, Xu Xingxing couldn't sleep. She felt the crack in the door and peeked out. She saw the fainted man, reeking of alcohol, his face purple. The woman next to him was crying and cursing, saying that he drank all day long, had no intention of repenting, and would not listen to anyone's advice. Today, he even drank five large jars of wine, and now he was in such a state. If the child wasn't so young, it wouldn't be a pity for him to die...
Xu Xingxing looked at the scene in front of him and was suddenly surprised. After he realized what was happening, he felt a chill in his heart.
This happened.
She watched for a while. After the man was rescued, Wei Yuan prescribed some medicine for him. In the illusion, she deliberately cast a spell on the herbs to change his sense of taste. The man really never drank again after that.
Then she saw Hou Yuan secretly casting a spell on the medicine.
I am learning from her.
Xu Xingxing's heart was beating very fast.
She didn't think these people were real, but she never imagined that Yuan was reliving what they had experienced in the illusion before.
...maybe more than once.
Who created this illusion?
Himself?
She watched him busy all day, and when he closed the door at night, she lay on the couch and pretended to sleep.
After Yu Yuan came in, he held her and lay there for a while as if in a dream.
In the past, Wei Yuan would definitely be dishonest, either touching her randomly or nibbling her, but now he was like a real gentleman, just hugging her without even taking off his clothes.
We have never lain together in such a pure and peaceful way.
Xu Xingxing felt a little uncomfortable.
After lying down for a while, Wei Yuan picked her up.
She pretended to wake up and opened her eyes to look at him. His breathing stagnated, and he looked at her for a moment, then bent down and kissed her eyes: "Why are you awake?"
As if realizing she wouldn't answer, he replied, "The time I spend awake has grown longer."
"very good."
He carried her to the bathroom, used magic to prepare a medicinal bath, then took off her clothes and put her in the tub to soak.
He took off his outer shirt, leaving only his inner garment, and went into the water, hugging her from behind. Xu Xingxing was just about to tell him that she had completed her reboot and her resurrection progress bar had reached full capacity when she suddenly felt a warm healing power from behind her. She instantly softened and leaned into his arms, feeling so comfortable that she couldn't say a word.
Perhaps it was because she had just recovered and was weak, she nestled in this man's arms and fell asleep in a short while.
It was early morning when I opened my eyes again.
It was still dark, and Hou Yuan was sitting on the edge of the bed, dressing with his back to her.
Xu Xingxing looked up and was immediately shocked. The previously smooth back was now covered in scars of lacerations. It was as if someone had torn his flesh apart and then put it back together again. Some areas were still visible, while others had festered.
What's going on?
She suddenly stood up and grabbed his clothes to stop him from putting them on.
Hou Yuan's body stiffened. He looked at her and then smiled. That smile was not harsh at all, but gentle and soft like a child who had been abandoned many times. "It doesn't hurt. I deserve it."
Xu Xingxing's forehead was throbbing. She moved closer and asked, "Explain to me what I deserve."
Finally, Wei Yuan noticed something different about her. His eyes widened instantly, his body tensed to the extreme, even his breathing stopped. After a long moment, he murmured, "Xing, Xing?"
The voice was very soft, as if afraid to expose the present moment.
Xu Xingxing wanted to sit on him and question him, but she was afraid that his legs were injured, so she frowned and said sternly, "Take off your pants and let me see if you are injured."
However, Zhu Yuan seemed not to hear anything. His pupils were dilated and his expression was dazed. He just looked at her, as if he wanted to call her again. He opened his lips several times, his lips trembling slightly, but he didn't say even a word.
Xu Xingxing's heart suddenly ached.
How did he resurrect her? Why did his hair turn completely white? Where were they now? How long had he been trapped in this illusion, guarding this empty shell of a woman?
And those injuries.
Her tears fell first.
She moved closer, found his hand and intertwined their fingers, then leaned over and pecked his lips, whispering, "Xiao Hei... I'm back."
Xu Yuan's eyelids trembled violently, and the next moment, a tear of blood slid out of one eye. The tear was so bright and vivid on his fair face that it made Xu Xingxing's heart tremble again and again. She raised her hand to wipe it away, but someone suddenly grabbed her wrist. The sky, which had been very gloomy just a moment ago, suddenly brightened.
This illusion was indeed controlled by him.
She hadn't felt it much in the darkness just now, but now, in broad daylight and still naked, shame immediately washed over her. She let go of her hands and tried to cover herself with the quilt, but the man suddenly grabbed her waist and then pulled her onto his lap.
“…Your injuries!”
Wei Yuan still didn't answer. His breathing was rapid, his eyes were burning, and his slender, trembling fingers carefully outlined her facial features, hair, and skin, over and over again.
Especially the eyes.
His eyes met hers without blinking, as if he wanted to see through her surface to confirm her inner self. After finally finding what he was looking for, tears of blood kept falling from his eyes.
Her heart ached and she wanted to kiss him, but he still held her head and touched her face and eyelashes.
She obediently accepted his touch, and when he touched her mouth for the umpteenth time, she tilted her head slightly and took his finger into her mouth.
In an instant, more tears and blood flowed from his eyes, and even his nose was bleeding. She panicked and raised her hand to wipe it for him, but suddenly, Hou Yuan leaned to the side and spat out a mouthful of blood.
Xu Xingxing finally couldn't sit still anymore. She wanted to get up, but he held her tightly. So she picked up the clean clothes beside him that he wasn't wearing and wiped them for him, tears streaming down her face as she wiped. "What's wrong? Don't scare me... There are only a few holes on your face. Which one isn't bleeding?"
Without hesitation, Wei Yuan took her into his arms, hugged her tightly, and buried his face in her neck, calling out over and over again: "Xingxing... Xingxing..."
She hugged him back, responding patiently and placing kisses wherever she could reach.
Wei Yuan's body was shaking violently, like an anxious puppy, sobbing silently and without concealment.
He cried for a long time, and Xu Xingxing comforted him for a long time. When he finally calmed down, Xu Xingxing put her head on his shoulder and asked softly, "Can you tell me how you got injured? Also, what do you mean by deserved it?"
Wei Yuan's voice was hoarse from crying, and he felt aggrieved, like a child who had been left behind for years and finally saw his mother again. "This is what I deserve."
This is what I don’t want to say.
Xu Xingxing sighed and stopped pressing. She pulled away slightly to see his expression, but he covered her eyes. She didn't resist, but simply stroked his hand and said, "Then let me apply the medicine for you?"
The medicine is useless.
But Hou Yuan said, "Okay."
She squeezed his fingers: "Where's the medicine?"
"I'll take you to get it." After saying that, he produced a silk ribbon from somewhere, covered her eyes, and tied it behind her head.
Xu Xingxing pursed her lips slightly, lowered her head obediently and let him do what he wanted. Then, Wei Yuan wrapped her in his outer robe and carried her to the front room.
It was obvious that he had created this illusion, so he could get whatever he wanted with just a raise of his hand. He didn't have to go through so much trouble just because he wanted more time to tidy up his appearance.
Xu Xingxing knew that he never let her see him crying so hard.
But she had seen it secretly,
Very beautiful.
When she arrived at the inner room of the front room, she was placed on the desk. After waiting for a moment, the man's breath came close to her nose.
He seemed to be untying the silk ribbon from her eyes, but it didn't take that long to untie the ribbon.
Perhaps it was because she missed him too much, or perhaps it was because his white hair was too striking, Xu Xingxing's heartbeat quickened and her throat became slightly dry. She stretched out her hand and slowly moved forward. When she touched his chest, she noticed that the man's body stiffened.
Her hand slowly moved upwards, across the collar, to the neck. She placed her fingertips on his throat, and the slightly trembling Adam's apple rolled up and down due to her movements. Then, she slowly leaned over and kissed his Adam's apple as if she were fascinated.
The man's heartbeat suddenly became fast and heavy, and his breathing became deep and burning, but he did not move. He just stood there stiffly, enduring it.
Xu Xingxing hugged his waist again, buried her face in his arms, waited for a moment, and asked, "Why haven't you untied it yet?"
She wanted to see him.
“…It was tied too tight.”
Lies are clumsy.
But he didn't want her to see his injuries again?
She raised her head in his arms, "Then kiss me first."
The man's body was very stiff, so she just kept looking up and waiting. After an unknown amount of time, the man finally leaned over and kissed her.
On her forehead.
Xu Xingxing: ...
She wanted to take off the silk ribbon, but her hand was held down. She felt the man approaching, trapping her between the desk and him. She thought he was finally going to kiss her, but after waiting for a long time and seeing nothing, she stretched out her foot to hook his leg, scolding him, "Why did you bring me here if you didn't let me apply the medicine?"
She couldn't see, so she didn't know how blood-red, how intensely hot, the man's eyes looked at her. It was like a giant shark in the sea, starving for months, finally smelling blood, like the dry, cracked earth finally hoping for rain, like a dying tourist having one last dream about home. He didn't dare breathe, didn't dare speak, didn't even dare touch her.
He could only look at her like this, as if he wanted to carve her entire body into his eyeballs, into his brain, into every breath he took. His eyes no longer shed tears of blood, but the whites of his eyes were dyed red with new blood.
He must have looked terrifying, and he didn't want to scare her, but he also didn't want to let her go.
The living woman was right in front of him, her freshness and brilliance rushing towards him again. The past coldness and loneliness were completely dispelled by the stars, and he no longer had to talk to himself. She was always so strong, and her mere existence could turn his world upside down and completely change it.
But he had no joy at all, only fear. He was afraid that her every move would be the last, and that her scolding and coquettishness were the product of his uncontrollable hallucination.
This fear was like a huge rock hanging above his head, which might fall down at any time and crush him to pieces.
In the past hundred years, he has fallen into this illusion countless times.
When he was indulging, her arms suddenly became empty; when he was happy, the beauty suddenly disappeared; when he was obsessed, the bright smile suddenly exploded into a ball of crimson blood.
How could he not be afraid? He was so afraid.
So scary.
So much so that every time he had hallucinations afterwards, his first feeling was not surprise, but fear.
When will she disappear this time? How long will she stay with him this time?
But now...
Is it really an illusion?
He seemed to be certain just now, but in a moment he became doubtful again.
How long will this last?
But this time it is the most real.
"Xiao Hei?" The woman asked softly, "Why aren't you talking?"
He moved closer, sniffed her lips like an animal, and paused: "Do the stars know what day it is?"
"Hmm?" Xu Xingxing certainly couldn't remember, but her senses were still quite sharp. She realized he was nearby, so she leaned forward slightly.
...empty.
Nothing was touched.
Xu Xingxing felt lost for a moment and grumbled softly, "It's the first day of the divorce cooling-off period."
Wei Yuan:?
It should be true, right?
These words must have been beyond his imagination.
He remained silent for a while, but finally couldn't help asking, "What is the cooling-off period for divorce?"
Xu Xingxing paused, thinking that she couldn't stimulate him since she had just been resurrected, so she pursed her lips and asked, "Why don't you kiss me?"
It’s okay if it happened once, but it happened several times!
Niu Yuan's eyes, which were full of madness, became clear for a moment. He rolled his Adam's apple with difficulty, but fell silent again.
Xu Xingxing finally broke down, and she said unreasonably:
"Are you tired of me? We've been apart for so long, and you've lost your patience with me, right? You won't let me see you anymore. You don't want to live with me anymore, right?"
Of course he wouldn't, she knew. But for some reason, she always felt that the atmosphere was too strange. The silent Wei Yuan made her afraid and worried, so she tried to use this method to pull the atmosphere back to the realm she was familiar with.
The man took several sharp breaths, his voice growing hoarse, but he answered irrelevantly: "I know what the cooling-off period for divorce is..."
Then his breath approached instantly, and when Xu Xingxing was still confused, her neck suddenly felt hot, followed by pain.
It was the dog biting her neck.
This was a common practice in the past. She did not dislike the bloodthirsty instinct shown by Yu Yuan due to his possessiveness. She could even say that she liked it very much.
She thought she would bleed, but before she could even cry out in pain, he had already withdrawn, saying in a very low voice, "I really can't be that magnanimous after all."
Xu Xingxing felt a growing sense of loss. Just as she was about to complain, she heard him say:
"Even if I die, I don't want anyone else to stand by your side."
She was stunned for a moment, somewhat confused.
What's the meaning?
Who made him so generous? Who died? Didn't she just resurrect?
After a long time, she once again experienced the difficulty of irrelevant communication.
Hou Yuan's reaction today was too abnormal. She was a little panicked. Just when she was about to say something to comfort him, she heard him say:
"Star……"
"……Um?"
"Today is the first day you call me your husband."
……I see.
When Xu Xingxing suddenly realized what was happening, the man slowly touched her face and said in a gentle voice, "Call me again, okay?"
The warm palm pressed against her slightly cool cheek, and the panic she had just felt was quickly forgotten. She turned her head and kissed his palm, "Husband..."
The man's fingertips trembled slightly, and even his breathing became unstable.
So she nudged him and asked for another kiss: "Husband... can't you kiss me? If you don't kiss me, I'll think you don't love me anymore."
After waiting for a long time, she began to doubt herself again and imagined slamming the door and leaving, when the man's...fingers?
Xu Xingxing: ...
...May I ask,
Is this a kiss?
She was really angry and bit his finger hard.
He let her bite it and rubbed her lips with another finger. "Kiss her, will you leave?"
Xu Xingxing was startled. Through his words and the coolness of his fingertips, she suddenly realized—
He wouldn't... think this was an illusion.
Her eyes were hot again. She spat out his finger and said seriously, "No, definitely not. I won't leave until I have slept with you a thousand times."
After a pause, he added: "Sleeping with you a thousand times is not enough, no matter how many times, it is not enough. I will not leave. I will cling to you until I die."
The man's body stiffened again, so she stretched out her legs, clamped his legs, looked up and smiled, and said, "Come on, sleep with me and you'll know if I'm real, but I have a request.
"I want to watch you!"
The man seemed to freeze. After a long moment, he finally responded, his voice breaking. "What should I do? I really can't do it."
"Um?"
The next moment, the man's breath wrapped her up forcefully, and the tongue she missed so much finally entered her mouth. The tongue did not let go of every breath of air in her mouth, and sucked hard on her saliva that overflowed due to the strong stimulation.
What the eyes cannot see, the other senses amplify exponentially.
It was like a madman, the sky was dark and the earth was gloomy.
Xu Xingxing climbed on the desk and seemed to be about to fall down several times, but the man held him firmly in front of him.
She felt swollen and sore, like the trembling of being lifted high, and the sudden release, like the haziness of being washed away by the ups and downs, mixed with the suffocation of being swept by huge waves.
He held her in his arms and moved her to many places. She could only cling to him and obey him instinctively.
It was unknown how long it was before he slowly stopped when it got dark. He held her tenderly for a long time before picking her up and taking her to the bathroom to wash.
The silk ribbon on her eyes was finally taken off. She leaned on his chest and looked up at him, wanting to say something, but she quickly fell asleep when his spiritual power came over.
According to the law that a long separation makes a new marriage better, the relationship between the two has indeed become closer, but Xu Xingxing always feels that this intimacy has a strange meaning that cannot be expressed in words.
Wei Yuan no longer slept or practiced medicine. He seemed to have lost interest in everything. Although he had no interest in other things in the past, that lack of interest was only because he was at ease and indifferent to everything. Now he seemed to have lost all positive feelings and emotions, not only happiness and joy, but even calmness and tranquility.
When she kissed him, his first reaction was not joy, but trembling and stiffening, like a wounded mad beast cowering in fear after receiving care for a long time.
When he held her, he was no longer affectionate and relaxed, but like a dragon afraid of losing its treasure, always depressed and nervous.
Apart from treating her every day, he just looked at her, always looking at her without blinking. His eyes were not sad, but full of madness and possessiveness, as if she was not a person, but a bone that a mad dog wanted to eat but couldn't.
Although his expression remained calm, she felt deeply that at the bottom of those eyes, which were like a still pool, there was a tremendous sense of collapse and roar.
Also, when they were intimate, he would always cover her eyes to prevent her from seeing. Once, he was too crazy and a corner of the silk ribbon on his eyes came loose. She vaguely caught a glimpse of his bloodshot eyes with all the white pupils red. The fierce and possessive madness in his eyes made her skin break out instantly.
He quickly kissed her eyes and said in a low voice:
Don't look at the stars.
…
She was a little worried and a little scared.
It’s not that I’m afraid of his increasingly morbid love, it’s just… who can stand staring into a pair of eyes that look like Kayako’s in the middle of the night?
He soon noticed her uneasiness, so sometimes when she looked at him, he would cover her eyes in advance. After many times, she knew that the look in his eyes when he looked at her must be a little scary.
Maybe a form of traumatic stress?
Xu Xingxing thought so.
So, she became even more attached to him, kissing him and hugging him actively. Unless it was absolutely necessary, the two of them almost became conjoined twins. However, Wei Yuan did not get better as she had imagined. Instead, she became even more worried.
For the first time, Xu Xingxing felt helpless.
She had always been able to calm him down quickly and smoothly before, but this time, she couldn't find a breakthrough no matter what she did.
She used to be able to find ways to make him open up to her, but now, he seemed to be immersed in his own world, panicking and hating himself alone. When she knocked on the door and wanted to go in, he would put on the mask of a normal person and go out to accompany her.
But he is also abnormal even though he pretends to be normal.
Sometimes he would blindfold her and hold her for a long time. Even if he didn't make a sound, she knew he was crying. But when she wanted to say something to comfort him, he would kiss her, possess her, and stop her from saying anything.
Sometimes he would suddenly ask her how long she would love him. When she answered, he would look very miserable. If she continued to ask, he would blindfold her and hug her without saying a word.
Dead loop.
She was very worried and very sad.
She thought maybe it was an environmental issue?
After all, who can remain the same after living the same life thousands of times in a fantasy world?
It will become somewhat abnormal.
Thinking of this, she began to take him around in the illusion under the pretext of wanting to go out for a walk. The illusion was very large, but there was no one outside the town. Because there was no one around, after playing outside for a while, Wei Yuan really began to relax.
It was just that he hadn't known when he started disappearing for a while every few days. First it was a few minutes, then half an hour. Then it was once every half a month, then once every five days.
He is unshakable and won't say anything even if asked.
Xu Xingxing was a little worried, but did not press the issue. After all, Wei Yuan's condition had visibly improved, and the scars on his body were gradually becoming lighter. After all, there was still a long time to go, and time was powerful. It could level ravines and fill mountains and seas. It should be able to heal all the pain and fade all the bloodstains.
As long as two people are together, things will always get better and better.
But she later learned that time isn't omnipotent. Some things are always isolated from the laws of time, stored in a vacuum, left to ferment and rot, their fear and despair suppressed in the abyss, unheard and untouchable. Only when someone accidentally opens it, cleans away the rotten flesh, and tears it open with excruciating pain, can it finally enter the sunlight and grow new flesh.
That was New Year's Day.
It was not surprising, because this illusion indeed repeated itself from the first day they stayed in this town to the last day.
They did not go to Aunt Ding's house for free meals. Since her resurrection, the people in the town have lost their role and no longer put on a show.
Hou Yuan prepared a table of food, and after the two of them finished eating, they went out to enjoy the snow.
Xu Xingxing said she wanted to see snow, so Wei Yuan let the snow continue to fall. She clamored to see fireworks, so he used his magic to set off fireworks all over the city.
The majestic and clear spiritual power bloomed and overflowed in the illusion along with the fireworks. His white hair also reflected a variety of colors. Against the backdrop of the night, his extremely white skin looked like a bubble that would burst at any time, making her feel that the happiness at the moment had become fragile.
She had never asked him how he had been during her absence. She had never had the habit of deliberately bringing up painful memories, but now looking at him like this, perhaps because of the alcohol, perhaps because of the anxiety, she finally couldn't help but take the initiative to bring up the subject.
Still a little nervous, she moved closer to him and put her slightly cold hand into the man's sleeve. His hand followed hers into the sleeve, and he pressed her hand on his warm forearm, rubbing it gently with his thumb.
This delicate movement gave her some courage. She raised her head slightly and asked softly:
"Xiao Hei...why can you use spiritual power now?"
Hou Yuan was stunned for a moment, and the hand in his sleeve held her tighter, "Only by becoming a god can I save you."
Becoming a god? No wonder no demonic energy could be detected from Hou Yuan now.
So, was this the original purpose of that "he"?
In exchange for her life, she forced Yuan to get rid of his evil nature and become a true god.
She couldn't help but feel a little distressed, so she took a half step forward and pressed closer to him, "...It's difficult, right?"
Xu Yuan leaned forward and pressed his forehead against hers, his breathing trembling slightly. When Xu Xingxing thought he wouldn't answer, he whispered, "...I'm sorry."
The man's eyes, so close to her, were dark and lifeless, without reflecting any fireworks. Her heart tightened for a moment, and she tiptoed to kiss his lips.
The slightly cool lips slowly turned wet and hot, the light breath slowly became long, fireworks bloomed one after another, and after a long time, the two of them slightly separated.
The town was gorgeous and dreamy at this moment, and Xu Xingxing finally saw a light spot in the man's eyes, and that light spot was now shining through her eyebrows, deep and lingering.
She put her arms around his waist, "How did you know this would save me?"
Wei Yuan held her tighter, "Someone told me."
"Is that person... related to the Book of Beasts?"
"The Book of Beasts is one of his souls."
"He showed up?"
Yu Yuan nodded.
"He is the Way of Heaven?"
Zhu Yuan nodded again, his eyes darkening again: "I failed to kill him."
Xu Xingxing wasn't surprised at all. He blinked, poked the flesh on his waist, and asked again, "So you're a god now?"
"Not entirely." Hou Yuan's eyes were fixed on her face. "I have an obsession that I can never see through or let go of."
There is also a despicable darkness that will never go away.
Xu Xingxing looked at those eyes that were full of undisguised aggression, her heartbeat quickened and her throat became dry.
She is not only accustomed to this kind of gaze, but even obsessed with it.
Sure enough, the way to get along with a madman is not to change him, but to integrate into him. She is now somewhat abnormal.
She buried her head in Hou Yuan's arms for a moment, then continued, "Why did he insist on forcing you to become a god?"
Xu Yuan's body suddenly froze. Xu Xingxing waited for a long time but received no response. She looked up at him, but was startled by his frightened, empty eyes. "...What's wrong?"
The man looked at her in a daze.
"Xiao Hei, what's wrong with you?" Xu Xingxing waved in front of him, but was captured.
Zhu Yuan's pupils were severely dilated, and after a long while he murmured, "...Why didn't I think of that?"
"What did you think of?" Xu Xingxing was a little panicked.
"The stars...how do they know?" His voice seemed to echo beyond the sky.
"What do I know?"
"Xingxing, when did you know?" The man's expression began to collapse, and blood actually flowed out of one of his eyes.
Xu Xingxing's breathing stopped, and she looked surprised. "I...what do I know? Yuan Yuan, don't scare me."
But Hou Yuan seemed to be trapped in a nightmare. His eyes were wide open, his pupils trembling, and he seemed not to hear her words at all. He just kept mumbling to himself: "...So that's how it is...So...that's how it is..."
"What..." Xu Xingxing was about to cry, "Why is that?"
Big tears fell from Yuan's eyes. He leaned forward slightly, slowly raised his hands to cover his chest, hunched his back, and gasped for breath like a dying fish.
Xu Xingxing's body went limp, her heart beating rapidly. She held onto his arm and subconsciously patted his back, "Zhu Yuan? Zhu Yuan? What's wrong with you? Are you feeling unwell?"
Suddenly, Wei Yuan took a few steps back, turned sideways and spit out large mouthfuls of blood. Large flowers of blood instantly bloomed on the snow, like red peonies blooming in the snow in winter.
Xu Xingxing's head buzzed, and tears flowed uncontrollably. She walked forward to help him, but he dodged her. He was still mumbling, even laughing: "...It was for me, it was...it was for me..., it was for me, only...only..."
"What's wrong? Wei Yuan? What's wrong with you?" Xu Xingxing's mind went blank. He felt dizzy and trembling all over, as if he had fallen into an ice cellar.
She didn't know what went wrong, what she said wrongly, or what had irritated him. She couldn't think of anything, and even her throat started to get blocked. She just subconsciously walked towards him and helped him.
But he has been avoiding her.
Soon, she saw blood pouring from not only his eyes and mouth, but also his nose and ears. She saw his entire body convulsing violently, and the wound on his neck, which had been shallow, suddenly split open, revealing bone. She saw the man's light blue clothes instantly dyed a bloody red, and the white snow on the ground was covered with the dripping hot blood.
The fireworks were still blooming, but their splendor was slowly fading until it turned into a horrible crimson.
Her body felt stiff and cold, and she subconsciously wanted to hug Hou Yuan, but as soon as she took a step, he suddenly disappeared from her sight.
Xu Xingxing's heart stopped instantly.
This was the first time that Hou Yuan lost control in front of her, and it was also the first time that he left her alone.
It was a mess, too much. Her head was dazed, her legs and feet felt weak, and she broke out in a cold sweat. She stumbled a few steps before finally, exhausted, she sat down on the ground. She closed her eyes and took a deep breath. The cold, dry air rushed into her lungs, and the chill cleared her mind for a moment.
Sober, she needed to be sober.
Calm down, she needs to calm down first.
She patted her face and rubbed her hands into the snow, but when she looked up, she saw the snow melted by the fresh blood, still retaining heat.
She wanted to cry, but she knew she didn't have much time to cry, so she simply took off her shoes, stepped barefoot in the snow, grabbed a handful of snow and buried her face in it, forcing herself to review the situation.
Think...think! Use your brain!
What did she say? When did something wrong start to happen to Wei Yuan?
"So you are a god now?"
"Not entirely. I have an obsession that I can never see through or let go of."
"Why does he insist on forcing you to become a god?"
Why does he insist on forcing you to become a god?
What's wrong with this sentence? What's the problem?
Xu Xingxing grabbed another handful of snow and applied it to his forehead.
Her teeth were chattering, perhaps because of the coldness all over her body or the shock she had just received. Fortunately, her mind was becoming clearer.
Why does he insist on forcing you to become a god?
What did Wei Yuan say later?
“…it was actually for me, it was actually…it was actually for me…, it was actually for me, only…only…”
What happened?
What made him react so strongly?
There was only one thing left: he had killed her.
The complete restatement of this sentence should be:
It was for me that I killed you.
This "you" refers to her.
Judging from Hou Yuan's words and reactions, it seemed that he did not know before that this so-called Heaven's will designed her to die in his hands because of him.
She had thought of this before, but she just thought that Heaven wanted to let Hou Yuan know how it felt after killing the person closest to him, so as to teach him not to kill innocent people.
But her mind was hazy at that time, so it was inevitable that there would be many omissions and loopholes.
When she heard today that Hou Yuan had become a god, she suddenly understood everything. Heaven was forcing Hou Yuan to become a god, and that was why it had used her life. This way, Hou Yuan would surely, in extreme sorrow and regret, shed his demonic nature and become a true god.
However, Wei Yuan seemed unaware of this.
Impossible...
Did Heaven not tell him? Didn't Yuan himself think of it?
He's so smart, he should be able to connect everything just by thinking about it.
No, that's not right.
Xu Xingxing felt stuck again.
She buried her feet deeper in the snow, then roughly listed her guesses on the snow and read them one by one.
"Why does he insist on forcing you to become a god?"
Her red, frozen fingers circled this sentence again and again.
It is known that Wei Yuan must have guessed that the heaven punished her because of him.
But what is unknown?
Become a god.
Doesn’t he know that the true purpose of Heaven is to make him a god?
Still don't know what kind of mentality the Heaven has in mind when it makes him a god?
Her heart suddenly shook, and the fireworks in her mind and above her head exploded at the same time.
Yes.
What kind of personality does Yuan have?
He doesn't trust anyone and has never received any kindness from others.
It is normal for others to hate and despise him, but it is rare for them to do good for him.
He is not stupid, but because he has never experienced it, he will automatically ignore the answer.
The answer to the question, “Heaven is actually doing this for his own good.”
Therefore, it took him a long time to digest the fact that she died because of him, and he just figured out the underlying logic that "everything the Heaven does is just to make him a god and to make him better."
Between the devil and the god, even a fool knows which one is better. Yu Yuan is inhuman, but very smart.
He must have thought that the man asked her to kill her to punish him. While he hated himself, he always felt that they were together and that Heaven was the enemy.
But this answer directly pushed him to the opposite side of her.
He was also one of the beneficiaries of her death, and the biggest one.
The snow in his hands had melted away, and the blood around him obscured the chill of the thick snow. Xu Xingxing no longer felt cold, but was shivering more and more violently.
She finally realized at this moment how much harm her death had caused him.
That's why he couldn't accept it and ran away.
No, this shouldn't be the only reason for escaping...
besides……
Those injuries.
She had asked him many times how these injuries came about, but Hou Yuan never answered her. But today, the wounds were instantly severed, and the white bones were revealed in just a moment.
Even his self-healing ability was useless.
This is no ordinary injury.
And seeing how Wei Yuan had just hurriedly escaped, she didn't think he was afraid that she would see him break down. If he was just bleeding and sad, he could just cover her eyes and not run away.
Something even more horrible is bound to happen.
Thinking of this, Xu Xingxing stood up.
No matter what, she must find Yuan first!
This illusion is very large, but Wei Yuan will definitely not go far away.
She had complained before that he left suddenly without saying a word, which made her a little scared.
Wei Yuan developed the habit of telling her in advance every time he left. Occasionally, when he went out to play, Wei Yuan would put her in the clinic before leaving.
Now she thought that he was probably not placed in the clinic, but where he went was around the clinic.
Thinking of this, she ran back to the clinic as fast as she could.
I searched every room but couldn't find it.
She used her magic to look for the secret door, but there was none.
In a panic, she suddenly caught a glimpse of the medicinal garden in the corner of the yard. It was called a medicinal garden, but in fact, the main plant grown was a plant called Xiacao.
It was when she accidentally heard about the medicinal herb Coriander in the illusion before, and she told Hou Yuan that this medicinal herb has another name, called Baby's Breath.
Speaking of baby's breath, Xu Xingxing continued to explain that there is a flower, which is called Gypsophila in your place and is also called Baby's breath in our place. The flower language of that flower is pure love.
Then a few days later, I don’t know where Wei Yuan found a lot of flower seeds, but he actually planted a large area of baby’s breath in that medicinal garden.
She was delighted and used magic to make it continue to bloom.
And in this illusion, those baby's breath have been blooming wantonly in the yard since the day she woke up.
She's used to it.
Things that we are used to always make people take them lightly.
Xu Xingxing hurried to the medicine garden, and indeed found an extremely hidden barrier there. If it weren't for a few drops of Wei Yuan's blood remaining around it, she probably wouldn't have been able to find it.
Here comes the problem.
How could she possibly break through the barrier of Hou Yuan?
But she was speaking here now, and he could definitely hear her.
Without time to think, she raised her hand and touched the barrier. Unexpectedly, her hand penetrated the barrier directly.
She was stunned for a moment, then immediately stepped into the barrier.
The town suddenly disappeared, and what came into view was the beach, the waves, the night, the stars, the white jade room, the dining table... and the blanket.
Exactly the same scene as that night.
The beach was covered in blood, and the trail extended into the forest. She followed the trail, becoming increasingly frightened. The ground was covered not only with blood but also with bones clinging to pieces of flesh.
Very... fresh, obviously just fallen off.
Whatever she thought of, she felt stiff and painful all over, her chest was stuffy and she was short of breath. Her heart was stuck in her throat, beating so hard that her whole brain was shaking.
She walked step by step into the forest. The jungle was dense and the starlight was scattered, but her eyesight was so good that she could see all the strange things.
At first, only a few finger bones were scattered on the ground, followed by metacarpal bones, wrist bones, radius, ulna, upper arm bones, shoulder blades... with flesh that was either neat or rotten, emitting a thick bloody smell.
Her scalp was numb and her legs were weak, but she forced herself to keep moving forward, step by step.
She saw leg bones scattered on one side, and a few steps ahead, there were spines and ribs scattered all over the ground...
The only thing I didn't see was the skull.
Her head was dizzy and her vision was spinning. She had to hold on to prevent herself from passing out.
She bit her tongue and pinched the knuckles of her index finger with her thumb to force herself to stay awake. She leaned against a tree for a moment and then walked forward.
Not far away was a large hot spring. Xu Xingxing had soaked in it before, but now the water was extremely red and the bottom was invisible.
There were scattered clothes floating on the water, but there was no one.
Xu Xingxing thought of something, wiped her tears, and went into the water.
Very cool.
The deepest part was up to her chest. Every time she walked a distance, she would bend down and feel around in the water, as if she was looking for a treasure, with great patience and meticulousness.
The body she had held for so long, the body she loved and obsessed with, the body of the one she loved...
How could she not recognize it?
Didn't he become a god? Why is he so weak?
No... not weak,
Xu Xingxing instantly thought that he was punishing himself.
He would inflict upon himself a thousand times the suffering she had endured, and would amplify the pain she had felt tens of thousands of times and return it all upon himself.
When had she ever felt the pain of having her flesh and bones torn apart?
In a dream.
So, he knew.
It was the Heavenly Dao that told him!
Suddenly, her toes touched something, but the water was full of blood and she couldn't see clearly. She was about to dive into the water to see, but she felt a chill behind her and a silk ribbon covered her eyes.
The clean silk ribbon even has the scent of baby's breath.
It was this scent that made Xu Xingxing, who had held on until now, collapse instantly. She raised her hand to pick it, but her hand was held.
A bone claw.
A hoarse voice came from behind, trembling with endurance: "Stars, don't look at them."
It took Xu Xingxing a while to find her voice: "Is this the reason you've been away for a few days?"
"No." Hou Yuan's voice had never been so hoarse and unpleasant, as if a raging fire had burned the root of his tongue. "Xingxing, I'll take you out. Give me half an incense stick."
"I won't go out." The tip of Xu Xingxing's tongue oozed blood, which hurt, but it made her more sober. "If you force me to leave, I will never talk to you again."
This threat had no power, but she felt it was too harsh. How could she threaten him? Threaten him who loved her so wholeheartedly?
"...Xingxing." Hou Yuan called her, his broken voice devoid of emotion. For the first time, he disobeyed her and said stubbornly, without question, "I'll take you out."
She didn't want to go out. She wanted to stay with him and watch over him. She wasn't afraid. He had suffered so much for her, and she didn't even know. Why? Why?
But she paused and said, "Okay."
She noticed that the bony claw had loosened its grip slightly and was no longer tight. She judged his distance in her mind, carefully considering his stature, and then turned around at lightning speed, raised her hand to the familiar height to hook it around the man's neck, and raised her foot to form the arc engraved in her memory, raised her body and kissed his lips.
If that's still called lips.
There are no lips, only teeth.
There is no neck, only cervical vertebrae.
Naked and cold, she shivered and felt a pain in her body.
Does it have to be like this? Does it have to be like this?
Are you planning to make her die in pain?
So, how did you feel when you saw her blown into a bloody mess?
Is it the same pain as mine, or a thousand times more painful than mine?
Xiao Hei...you're still a demon god...how can you be so stupid...
Hou Yuan pushed her away as if he was stabbed, but pulled her back when she staggered.
Xu Xingxing felt like she was going crazy. She clenched his arm bones and cried, "Are you still going to drive me away? Are you still going to drive me away?"
A deep sense of helplessness finally leaked out from Mi Yuan's voice, "...stars..."
"Yuan Yuan, I tell you, I'm not going anywhere!" Xu Xingxing said as he began to tear off his clothes.
"Star!"
When her hands were held down, she would stick close to him and kiss him, even biting his already exposed bones. Whenever he dodged, she would untie her belt.
After two rounds of angry fighting, Xu Xingxing soon exposed large areas of skin.
"I want to hug you!"
It has been a long time since Yuan Yuan felt this way.
Anger, regret, self-loathing, shame, heat... and vitality.
He was clearly in despair the moment before, and was clearly overwhelmed by the bloody scene of a hundred years ago just a moment ago.
It was a curse he, as a demon, had set for himself. He would experience her pain every day, and he would be tortured by severe pain every day until he resurrected her.
In the end, he became obsessed with this feeling, as if this would bring him closer to her and would make her come back sooner.
She really came back.
It was not until this moment that he truly believed that the past was not an illusion and that she had really returned.
The woman came towards him regardless of anything. Her soft body was stained red with blood. As she covered his gloomy and broken body, she showed an even more captivating beauty.
It was so beautiful that he trembled, so beautiful that he was shocked, so beautiful that he... was happy.
She was full of his scent, every inch of her...
Once again...
But it's different from before.
He was panicked and obsessed, extremely flustered and happy, but he still couldn't help pushing her away.
The woman became even angrier, so angry that she even struggled out and reached under him, shouting, "Can you do it now? Come on, Hou Yuan, let's do it."
Even though he was mentally prepared for the woman to say something shocking, he was still so embarrassed by her words that he bleed.
But... this is his star, his star... is really back.
"Xu Xingxing!" he heard himself say.
His voice is so unpleasant, will it scare her? Will she dislike it?
Even though he kept refusing, even though he was being too despicable, even though he was truly frightening and disgusting...
But, stars, can you hug me again?
Can you let me stick with you?
Even though I killed you, even though you suffered so much because of me, even though you were the bargaining chip I sacrificed to force me to become a god, even though I'm so foolish that I only saw through this now...
Are you willing to let me possess you, trap you, and not allow others to approach you?
"Xiao Hei!" A name with three characters always makes people sound angrier. Xu Xingxing was now furious. "Either let me hold you or let me sleep with you. Choose one. If you don't choose, I'll kiss you and sleep with you! Do you need some quiet time to recover? Forget about recovering. I love you no matter what you are like. If you don't let me hold you, let's just stay like this!"
He was struggling, and he seemed to be trembling, his bones making a creaking sound. "You... aren't afraid? I'm ugly."
What's going on? Is this osteoporosis?
As he asked this, the grip had already loosened. Xu Xingxing quickly broke free, leaned over and hugged him, then let out a deep sigh.
It’s uncomfortable, the feeling of holding the bones is really uncomfortable, but also very satisfying.
It was like finally eating the marshmallows she'd been craving, or like drinking a cup of hot brown sugar water to soothe her period's stomachache. She thought she was crazy. She loved him to death. Even if he was just a skeleton, she still loved him. Even if he remained a skeleton forever, she would still marry him, spend the wedding night with him, kiss him, and make love with him.
Well, if he can.
She really is crazy.
I think so.
She didn't care anymore. She didn't want to leave him again in her life.
Such a crazy dog, so fucking crazy.
She likes it so much.
Even with such a tight hug, she still felt it was not enough, so she freed her hands to take off her own clothes. As soon as she touched him, she stopped immediately and raised her head to order: "You, take them off for me."
A big question mark appeared in Hou Yuan Bai Gu's head.
"Take it off or not? If not, I will bite you!" After saying that, Xu Xingxing bit his ribs like a dog.
Mo Yuan: ...
Afraid of hurting her teeth, Yuan Yuan resigned himself to holding her and taking off her clothes.
The fingertips of the bony claws brushed against her tender skin, revealing layers of light pink chicken skin, which was very cute.
Wei Yuan swallowed a mouthful of non-existent saliva...but it seemed he couldn't swallow it.
Following his movements, the woman hugged him tighter, as if seeking support. Her lips were pale from the cold, but her heartbeat quickened. She raised her head slightly and pleaded softly, "Xiao Hei... are you really not able to do this? Then... can you use your hands?"
Mo Yuan: ...
He needs to change careers quickly.
He picked up the woman and walked to a shallower place. He found a place to sit down, put the woman on his lap, and then used his spiritual power to heat the hot spring to a comfortable temperature.
During the hundred years in the illusion, every time he suffered this torture, he would soak himself here. Perhaps it was related to his mood, the hot springs that were once filled with hot steam had become an extremely cold ice cave.
As it happened, he enjoyed torturing himself, so he let it cool down.
Xu Xingxing sat on his lap, feeling a little uncomfortable.
Oh, it has nothing to do with that thing. This time, the pain is from real bones.
She shifted her butt uncomfortably but couldn't find a comfortable spot.
"Sit on the stone steps?" Yuan Yuan said so, but he didn't show any sign of picking her up.
Xu Xingxing quickly shook her head and hugged him tighter. After a moment of silence, she said, "Xiao Hei, you have a tongue, right?"
Yuan was stunned, but did not reply.
Of course, otherwise what would I say?
"Put it out and let me kiss you." Xu Xingxing opened her mouth towards him.
Face? What is a face?
Thanks to alcohol, she should have drunk more.
It's so fucking exciting.
As long as it's Yu Yuan, she can accept any play.
"Xu, Xing, Xing!" He pronounced it with gritted teeth.
There's nowhere else to bite.
Xu Xingxing snorted, put her head on his shoulder, and muttered, "Stingy guy."
Perhaps this woman had angered him, and his recovery had slowed considerably. However, the image of her moist, crimson lips and tongue lingered in his mind. He pinched the woman's waist, only letting go when he heard her cry out in pain.
But the woman immediately grabbed his hand, and then slowly led it downwards...
Crazy... Really crazy...
Wei Yuan's bones felt numb, yet also very soft, and his heart was beating very fast - yes, he had a heart.
Every time the curse begins, the bones and flesh of the whole body will separate first, and then the internal organs will burn, leaving only the heart and skull, which will finally slowly grow out.
Fortunately, his bones grow fast.
But... the woman was now leaning against him, panting softly. Her tender skin was left with red marks from the pressure of his bones, yet she continued to rub against him restlessly...
Wei Yuan felt that he had paid for all the sins he should have paid for, but he must have owed this little thing a huge debt in his previous life, so he could never pay it back.
He wished he could never pay it back. He was willing to use everything he had to pay it back forever.
Not sure if it was due to the stimulation or the alcohol, but Xu Xingxing felt as if a bunch of flowers had sprouted in her heart. She was aroused to the point of being extremely uncomfortable by this skeleton. She bit her lower lip and said softly, "Xiao Hei... Can I look at you? I want to look at you..."
Since then, Wei Yuan cast a spell on the silk ribbon, so no matter how hard she tried, she couldn't take it off.
Hou Yuan's heart trembled, and he subconsciously refused: "No."
As he said this, he became even more provocative.
The woman shuddered and said softly, "...I want to see you. You haven't let me see you since you were resurrected, and I've been obedient. But tonight I don't want to be obedient. I want to see you."
Zhu Yuan's heart ached, but he didn't say anything, which only caused her to groan in pain.
Xu Xingxing nestled in his neck for a while, then attacked again: "...I want to see...I love you so much, do you know how much I love you?" She found his jaw and licked it. The smooth white bones had a sweet and fishy smell of blood, and she liked it very much.
"Baby... don't you want to look into my eyes?... You are in my heart... you are in my body... you are in my eyes..."
Zhu Yuan's body shook instantly, and blood rushed to his head.
If bones had skin, he would be covered with goosebumps by now. If bones had temperature, he would be on fire by now. He picked up the woman and in the blink of an eye, all the flesh and blood turned into blood. He pushed himself in fiercely and bit the woman's lips as she screamed in pain.
The woman's surprise was blocked in his mouth, and the air in her mouth was sucked into his lungs. He frantically absorbed the woman's saliva and bit her lips and tongue. When the woman moaned in pain due to the movement of her lower body, he opened his mouth and bit off the silk ribbon covering her eyes.
…
Xu Xingxing was a little disappointed.
He was quickly frightened by his own disappointment.
But he was still happy for a moment when he saw that all the scars on Yu Yuan's body had healed.
In just a moment, her mind was completely confused, and she couldn't even scoop up her body.
All night long.
She woke up in the White Jade Room the next day, with the person she loved dearly lying beside her, and this time he finally stopped staring at her.
Instead, he held her in his arms and fell asleep contentedly.
Like a banished immortal.
Her heart was tingling. She leaned over to pinch his flesh and kiss his lips. Xu Yuan closed his eyes and smiled as he held her in his arms. He buried his head in her neck and bit hard, "Xu Xingxing, don't regret it."
Xu Xingxing felt a sense of relief from the pain in her neck, but was stunned again when she heard these words. She blinked, "What do I regret? Sleeping with you? Or sleeping with your bones?" She leaned over to kiss him, and deliberately made a "bo" sound as she left. "How could I regret it? It's so comfortable. I love sleeping with you, I love it so much."
Hou Yuan's Adam's apple rolled, and he wrapped his arms around her body, leaving tooth marks on her body. "...You are so... infuriating."
"I'm irritating?" Xu Xingxing protested. "If you ever get hurt like that again, I'll bite you to death!"
Hou Yuan chuckled softly for a while and said, "To die like that would be a reward for me."
Xu Xingxing was furious and raised her hand to pinch his face: "Don't let yourself get hurt again! Repeat after me!"
Hou Yuan blinked and compromised obediently: "Don't let yourself get hurt again." After a pause, he added, "But Xingxing can't leave me, and..."
"What?"
Zhu Yuan's eyes darkened, and he kissed her. After a while, they separated slightly. He looked into the woman's slightly blurred eyes and whispered, "Xingxing, I want to tell you something."
"What?" Xu Xingxing blinked.
"I will close this illusion and send you back to reality tomorrow."
"So urgent?" Xu Xingxing felt something was wrong after saying this. "What do you mean by sending me back to reality? What about you? You're not leaving?"
Zhu Yuan nuzzled the tip of her nose, his eyes filled with a frankness and melancholy that hadn't been there for a while. He pressed her down and kissed her for a while, saying, "I can't leave, Xingxing, actually..."
He paused, as if he had made a great decision, "Actually, I'm already... dead."
Xu Xingxing's body suddenly stiffened, and her eyes instantly turned red. "What are you talking about! If you scare me again, I'll run away from home!"
"Xingxing..." Yuan raised his hand to wipe her tears, but she pushed him away.
The woman looked angry and panicked, at a loss. She actually stood up and tried to put on her clothes. Seeing this, Hou Yuan quickly pulled her down, and when he saw her struggling, he wrapped his arms around her limbs and held her tightly in his arms.
The woman's tears kept flowing, and she frowned angrily, "Explain to me clearly, what do you mean by dead? Then how can you, the one I'm holding, be so real? What have I been doing all this time for? Have I been living with a dead person?"
Hou Yuan kissed her tears over and over again, coaxing her in a trembling voice: "I'm sorry, Xingxing, I'm sorry... Blame it on me, blame me for keeping it a secret from you, blame me for not daring to tell you, blame me for harboring selfish thoughts, wanting to trap you here as long as possible, always thinking that if you go out... what if I don't like me? What if I don't love me anymore? The longer I hide it, the more reluctant I am to say it..."
"Then why are you saying it now? Are you going to send me out? Wouldn't it be better to trap me here? I can sleep with you even if you are a bone, and I'm not afraid of you even if you are dead. Now you are not afraid that I don't like you? You are going to push me away?" Xu Xingxing pushed him with all her strength, but couldn't break free from his embrace at all. In a fit of rage, she bit him hard on the face and didn't let go until she saw blood.
But the man didn't even frown, his eyes filled with self-blame as he kept looking at her. The deep blood-red teeth marks awakened Xu Xingxing's collapsing mind.
What was she doing? He was the one who was in more pain.
No wonder he always said some strange things and shed tears silently.
It must be very confusing and painful. He clearly wanted to keep her, but because he killed her before, he developed a strong sense of unworthiness. He felt that he was not worthy, but he could not let her go.
"I still can't be that generous."
"Even if I die, I would rather not have others stand by your side."
"What should I do? I really can't do it."
Then don't do it. Who forced you to do it?
Xu Xingxing touched the teeth marks on his face and cried, "Then don't send me away. I want to be here with you, just the two of us. I like it here very much."
Hou Yuan grabbed her hand, placed it on his lips and kissed it: "I previously spent a great deal of soul energy in order to become a god, and also for... and now this illusion is constantly burning what little soul I have left. The longer I delay, the longer it will take for me to be resurrected..."
Hou Yuan carefully surveyed her eyes, his gaze filled with tenderness. "When you first resurrected, I wanted to trap you here. But while I wanted to haunt you until my soul burned out, I also blamed myself... How could a murderer like me be worthy of this? I felt I had no right to lock you up, yet I was constantly worried that you would fall in love with someone else after returning to reality."
"I toss myself around this every day, in excruciating pain. Stars, gods cannot die. Even a murdered god, unless he voluntarily falls, will be resurrected and reborn tens of thousands of years later. I even thought that when my soul burns out, I would let you sleep until I am resurrected and awaken you..."
Unexpectedly, the woman's face lit up with joy. "Let's do this. You've already thought about it, right? Let's just do this. We'll live forever in this illusion. After you die, let me sleep. It'll just be a quick sleep."
Yuan should have been happy and joyful, but his heart was in great pain.
"This is your love, this is you, Ouyuan."
"She almost abandoned her conscience for you, what have you done for her?"
"Ah, Yuyuan, you can't even change your bloodthirsty instincts, how can you be worthy of her love?"
How could he not be worthy? No one in this world would love her more than him!
"No, Xingxing, you're different from me. You were born to be surrounded by people and to be loved by others. You indulge me so much, how could I bear to deprive you of everything else?" Hou Yuan held her face and said seriously, "I will be reborn soon. If I can preserve a little more soul power, the time it takes to be reborn will be much shorter. I will be faster, faster. Wait for me. Don't fall in love with others. I will be very quick."
Xu Xingxing burst into tears, "But I want to be with you. I don't want to go to a world without you. I don't like a world without you."
"No, Xingxing." Hou Yuan kissed and caressed her gently, "That world is my gift to you. You will like it, I promise."
"But how could you die? Aren't you very powerful?" Xu Xingxing cried breathlessly, "Aren't you a god? Aren't you a demon god? How could you die?"
Zhu Yuan kissed her tears over and over again, "Xingxing, it doesn't matter. I don't regret it. I did it. I love you, I love you very much. You are not allowed to like anyone else. Do you remember? Do you remember?"
At this point, Hou Yuan became flustered again, his eyes stained with scarlet, and he was extremely cruel. "If you like someone else, I will cut him into pieces, fall into the devil again, and trap you by my side for thousands of years, so that you can't see the sun, can't meet anyone else, and can only see me."
Xu Xingxing leaned into his arms and said, "You can do this now, please, please let me not see the sun."
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