Chapter 51 Thinking and caring means he may have a chance
Xiao Yunqi was stunned. He really thought she was asleep.
But looking at her current appearance, she must not have fallen asleep from the beginning, rather than being woken up by him.
"Have you finished all your work?" Xue Zhiying asked in a low voice nearby.
"I'm done."
"So we're leaving Nanhuai tomorrow?"
Xiao Yunqi nodded, and it was decided.
But Xue Zhiying knew that if she asked him where she wanted to go tomorrow, he would agree. Even if she didn't let him go with her, he would frown and agree after a moment of silence.
It seemed to have always been like this, but she never paid attention to it before. Now that she noticed it, she felt a little at a loss.
Xue Zhiying lowered her eyelashes and her gaze fell on the distance between them that was a finger's length away.
The darkness blurred the slight distance, as if they were already very close.
"Go to sleep." Xiao Yunqi's voice came from nearby.
When I looked up again, I saw that he had closed his eyes.
Xue Zhiying had no choice but to nod, turned over and no longer faced him, trying to ignore his existence so that she could fall asleep.
But even with her back turned, she still didn't feel sleepy at all.
Xiao Yunqi was right behind her, and she could hear his breathing.
In the quiet atmosphere, those thoughts that had not yet dissipated spread again.
The threads of worry were entangled around her heart, making it impossible for her to calm down.
After an unknown amount of time, Xue Zhiying moved and turned towards Xiao Yunqi.
She thought maybe he had fallen asleep.
Unexpectedly, as soon as I turned around, he put his arm around my waist and pulled me into his arms.
Xue Zhiying opened her eyes wide in surprise, but saw nothing in front of her. Only her cheek was pressed tightly against his chest.
At this moment, Xue Zhiying thought it was a subconscious action after he fell asleep, until she reached out to push him away, but he hugged her even tighter.
Her waist was tightly bound, her cheeks were squeezed and deformed against his hot chest, and her ears were filled with the sound of his powerful heartbeat, each beat pounding into her ears.
Only then did she realize that he hadn't slept at all.
Xue Zhiying whispered into his chest, "Let go, don't hold me so tightly."
Xiao Yunqi loosened up a little, but still trapped her in front of him.
Xue Zhiying could only reach out into the quilt to pull his hand away.
Xiao Yunqi said in a deep voice: "Let me hold you."
"...I want to turn over." Xue Zhiying made a lame excuse.
Unexpectedly, as soon as she finished speaking, Xiao Yunqi's arms tightened again, and he circled her waist and easily turned her over.
She had her back to him, feeling his warmth from behind, and he hugged her from behind even more wantonly than before.
Xue Zhiying opened her mouth, but didn't know what she could say, so she held her breath and closed her mouth again. After a while, her body gradually relaxed.
She didn't reject Xiao Yunqi's hug.
Never.
If she let him hold her like this, maybe she would be able to fall asleep more easily than before.
Thinking of this, Xue Zhiying slowly closed his eyes.
The scene before my eyes had just fallen into darkness.
Xiao Yunqi suddenly asked, "Can't you sleep because of what I said today?"
Xue Zhiying's back stiffened slightly, which was a subconscious reaction to being told what was on his mind.
She quickly relaxed and answered frankly, "Yeah, I've been thinking about it."
She didn't notice that after he said this, Xiao Yunqi's eyes trembled behind her.
There was a subtle joy.
In fact, when Xiao Yunqi said that he liked her, his heart was far from as calm as he appeared.
A complex and anxious mood lingered in his heart, and after he sneered, he actually felt for a moment that he was overestimating his own abilities.
This was the first time in his life that the word had been applied to him, for he had already known that she did not like him at all.
Although he did not understand what love between men and women was for the first time, he knew what mutual affection was.
If she is cruel to him, what good will it do even if he expresses his feelings to her?
So he didn't bring up the matter again after that.
But unexpectedly, this incident remained in her heart.
She actually kept thinking about this matter. Thinking about it means that she doesn't completely ignore it, and caring about it means that he might have a chance.
Xiao Yunqi couldn't help but tighten his arms a little more.
"I'll give you some time to think about it. You don't have to rush to answer me."
Xue Zhiying was stunned. She didn't expect Xiao Yunqi to say such a thing.
She couldn't help but want to turn around and look at his expression at this moment.
But before she could make a move, he whispered in her ear, "Anyway, no matter what the outcome is, you can't leave. Even if you leave, I'll catch you back, so take your time to think about it."
“…”
Xue Zhiying took a deep breath, turned around without warning, and shook off his arm that was around her waist.
"If that's the case, then what else can I think about? The result will be the same."
"no the same."
Xue Zhiying's gaze relaxed for a moment before she could gradually see his face clearly.
It wasn't as sure of victory as she had thought.
He looked at her deeply, his expression not calm.
She actually saw worry, anxiety, and tension in his eyes.
But it was fleeting.
Xiao Yunqi seemed to realize what kind of expression he showed at this moment. He tightened his arms and pressed her back to his chest.
His heartbeat replaced his expression, conveying the same feeling, but it was no longer seen, but heard.
"Shouldn't I hope that you will fall in love with me one day? In the long run, if I keep you by my side, I will always have a chance."
This really doesn't sound like something Xiao Yunqi would say.
Xue Zhiying thought silently in her heart.
And her mood became even more complicated because of these words.
Something she had never imagined happened to her, so she felt confused.
The silence lasted too long, and she found that the atmosphere seemed to have become stagnant.
She moved her lips and casually said something to break the atmosphere: "Then why don't you want to let me go one day?"
"Am I crazy? Why am I thinking this?"
“…”
She said stupid things.
Xue Zhiying pursed her lips and said no more, letting the atmosphere continue to stagnate.
She originally thought that after she and Chuntao arrived in Yuexiang, they probably wouldn't be able to immediately decide where to stay.
She had never been anywhere in her life, and while she still had some money in her hands, she should go out and see the world.
She didn't know where she would end up, but it would probably be an ordinary place.
Then she will live an ordinary life, meet an ordinary man, get to know him, get married and have children.
Xue Zhiying had almost stopped thinking about love between men and women a long time ago. Her fantasies were different from those of most young girls when they first grew up.
Perhaps in that situation, she did not feel that she could have her own life, let alone fall in love with a man.
So she quickly got rid of her admiration for a dazzling young man like Xiao Yunqi, and later she never thought that such a thing would happen to her.
Now if she were to think about these feelings again, she would not be able to understand them or sort them out.
She frowned slightly, trying hard to draw a clear line of thought from this chaotic state of mind.
At this moment, a faint voice came from the side: "Are you thinking about this seriously?"
"No." She denied it immediately with trembling eyelashes.
"Really?"
"Really, I didn't think about it anymore. I was sleepy."
As he spoke, Xue Zhiying closed his eyes.
But she seemed to have forgotten that the man next to her was facing her.
When she closed her eyes like this, he bent down and kissed her lips.
Xue Zhiying opened her eyes in shock, but Xiao Yunqi had already backed away from her lips.
"If you're tired, go to sleep. I'm serious. Think about it slowly."
He said this, but his actions of hugging her were not vague at all.
Xue Zhiying finally closed her eyes in his arms, listening to the gradually steady breathing and heartbeat nearby. Before she could feel sleepy, she fell into a deep sleep.
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The next day they set off for the capital.
It takes nearly a month to travel from Nanhuai to the capital by carriage.
Xue Zhiying had also been on the road for the previous month, going back and forth almost without stopping.
It was inevitable that she would feel tired on the road.
Once both the body and mind are tired, it is easy to have wild thoughts.
Xiao Yunqi never mentioned what happened that day again. As he said, he gave her time to think about it slowly.
When she was feeling down, Xue Zhiying wondered what was the point of giving her such time. She couldn't figure it out any more. She could only think that whether she wanted to or not, she had to accept the arranged ending.
When she felt better, she thought again, this is actually not bad. If Xiao Yunqi didn't bully her and treated her well and loved her, wouldn't it be a very good life compared to her previous life? It would no longer be bad or worse. Others would probably envy her for climbing up the social ladder.
Her mood was mixed along the way, and her thoughts kept turning around, but she could never come to a solid conclusion.
A month later, their carriage passed through the capital.
The carriage did not drive directly to the city gate of the capital. As Xiao Yunqi had said before, he took her to a villa in the mountains.
This time, Xue Zhiying lifted the carriage curtain and looked at the road leading to the villa for a long time.
She vaguely remembered how to get there. When she looked away, she turned around and met Xiao Yunqi's calm gaze.
Xue Zhiying's heart trembled, realizing that her previous actions had revealed obvious intentions.
But she quickly let go of her guilty conscience, looked away and said calmly, "I was just taking a look. I hadn't seen it before the last time I came here, so..."
Halfway through her words, she suddenly couldn't continue.
The man next to him chuckled, making the atmosphere more ambiguous.
In this atmosphere, she clearly recalled why she couldn't see the road to the villa last time.
Xue Zhiying blushed, but the hint of intention she revealed was ignored.
In fact, it is not just a passing mention.
Xiao Yunqi was such a shrewd person, she knew that her tricks had always been clumsy in his eyes.
Before, she had never thought that her departure would cause him to care, but now...
Xue Zhiying thought a lot this month.
In the end, I couldn't come up with anything, but I thought of something else.
After returning to the capital, Xiao Yunqi stayed in the villa for three days.
The days seemed no different from when they had settled on the road.
But this is the capital after all, and he is busy with many things.
Early this morning.
When Xiao Yunqi got up, Xue Zhiying had not woken up yet.
It wasn't until she squinted her eyes drowsily that she saw that he had already put on his clothes and looked like he was going out.
She murmured, "Are you going out?"
Xiao Yunqi turned around and asked: "Did I wake you up?"
"No." She barely heard any movement and just woke up on her own.
Seeing that he hadn't tied his hair into a bun yet, Xue Zhiying slowly moved forward and said, "I'll help you comb your hair."
"No need." Xiao Yunqi walked back to the bed in three or two steps, stretched out his hand and pushed her body, which was already not raised much, back onto the bed.
His force was not strong enough, and Xue Zhiying lay down softly in the quilt, with only half of her face exposed.
Xiao Yunqi said, "I'll do my hair myself. It's still early, you can go back to sleep."
He lowered his head as he spoke.
A finger pulled away the quilt that was covering Xue Zhiying's face, and after he leaned over, he kissed her on the lips.
"Wait until I come back."
Xiao Yunqi was about to stand up.
Xue Zhiying suddenly reached out and grabbed his sleeve.
"What's wrong?"
Because she was not fully awake yet, her vision was blurry and her expression was unclear.
Xiao Yunqi waited silently for her next words.
Then Xue Zhiying let go of his hand, without answering his question or responding to his previous sentence.
He just said, "Then go quickly. I'll sleep a little longer."
After closing his eyes completely, Xue Zhiying's mind gradually began to clear up.
She was no longer sleepy, but she still closed her eyes and pretended to be asleep again.
I heard the sound of Xiao Yunqi walking around, heard him going to the dressing table, and heard him combing his hair.
Then there was the sound of the jade belt hitting the table, and he drank another glass of water at the table.
Finally, the door was opened and closed.
The room fell into silence.
On the bed, Xue Zhiying opened her eyes and sat up.
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