A reformer, a signpost
My eldest sister is a very decisive person.
But she is also a strange person - no, it should be said that no one in the Tsushima family is normal.
She left home at the age of 15 to go to school, which was also arranged long ago.
When she went there, she looked rosy-cheeked and full of energy.
When she came back, she frowned, as if there was an unrelieved sorrow lingering in her heart.
A week later, she looked utterly exhausted.
I am not trying to exaggerate. In fact, during that period of time, she seemed to have something in her stomach, which made her feel uncomfortable all the time.
In the following months, she was still sad. After coming back from school, she would sigh when she saw us children at home. During that period of time, she seemed to be dissatisfied with everything she saw at home.
During that time, my father would become irritated whenever he saw my eldest sister - he hated the dissatisfied look in her eyes when she saw him.
This not only made him feel that his dignity as the head of the family was threatened, but also made him feel uneasy.
In order to make this kind of sight disappear from his sight, the father immediately came up with the idea of asking the eldest sister to stop going to school, but the eldest sister soon noticed his idea.
I couldn't tell whether she was asking my father for help out of disappointment or some more complicated emotion that I couldn't understand.
She knelt before her father, her proud neck drooping softly in front of him, but her face was so firm.
"——Please, father, let me continue my studies. In order to repay you, my life and my future will burn for the Tsushima family."
At that moment, the people in the Tsushima family were still whispering, but I could hear her words clearly, which were uttered loudly on the ground.
I don't know why I suddenly thought of this scene, but now when I see her firm gaze under her calm brows, I feel like I was hit by her.
——Because of her look.
Do you know? That look is like a torch lit in the dark night, blazing, blazing, like a flame.
I clearly realized that people like her were ready to burn, using themselves as matches and fuel to break through the disguise of the Tsushima family and the invisible darkness.
So I went to eat, and because I was restless, she took a book and sat next to me to read.
I don't understand my elder sister. Even when she is reading, she always maintains a very good demeanor, being graceful and calm.
She watched over me while I finished my meal.
Obviously her purpose was much more malicious than the Tsushima family's simple gathering for dinner, but I finished my meal little by little in that atmosphere.
After that day, I was never so picky about food again - I vaguely felt that my elder sister seemed to be doing something that must be very important, and I couldn't disturb her.
After graduation, the eldest sister stayed in the Tsushima family and gradually took over a small part of the family business. Under her dedicated leadership, this part of the business prospered.
Her father praised her abilities more than once during family gatherings and handed over more and more business to her.
So what she holds in her hands now is almost half of the Tsushima family's business.
Facing her father's praise, she smiled faintly, as if nothing could make her happy, not even her father's praise.
This made my father somewhat embarrassed, but he was a mature man, and he was skilled at changing the subject and finding other meaningless topics that anyone could talk about.
*
It was a night, a dark night, and nothing could be seen.
I can't sleep.
This is normal. As a child, who hasn't had the experience of being unable to sleep even though nothing happened?
Suddenly, I heard someone yell "Fire!"
I immediately jumped out of bed, grabbed the window frame and took a look - where was the fire burning? It would be best if it was the tree in the confinement room. If possible, I must let the confinement room burn as well.
The moment I opened the window frame, I saw Shuji Tsushima, who was also acting stealthy. He was also not asleep and was even looking at the direction of the fire with great interest.
——bad luck.
I closed the window silently.
But he obviously noticed me. His eyes, which were reflected by the firelight in the darkness, seemed to have suddenly had some inspiration and were shining with excitement.
A moment later, there was a knock on my room.
It was Shuji Tsushima. He tilted his head and smiled at me in a flattering manner.
"Long, now I'm here to fulfill my promise."
…
I stared at him for a long time, my hands gripping the door frame so tightly that they turned white.
I bit my cheeks tightly. "Your promise is worthless to me."
Of course I knew how good the timing was now. There was a fire and most people in the house rushed to the fire.
This also means that if we leave now, no one will notice.
What an ideal situation.
He straightened his lips, showing a bit of unhappiness, and his eyes couldn't stop drifting downwards, but time did not allow him to continue to be depressed.
He finally closed his eyes and bowed deeply to me.
"sorry!"
I should not have forgiven him. Leaving the Tsushima family was like stabbing myself in the stomach to remove a tumor.
If this was so for me, it must have been much more painful for him because he was having a rib removed.
I don't know what he went through during this time, but something must have stimulated him. *
…
About two minutes later "I'll just grab something and leave."
The temptation to leave the Tsushima family was really great for me.
He held my hand and walked through the bustling crowd. For a moment, no one paid attention to my two children.
Everything went smoothly
Until I saw my eldest sister.
Tsushima Shuji also saw it, and he froze.
The eldest sister stood at the end of the crowd, her expression had lost its usual calmness and became a little fanatical.
Her eyes widened slightly, and the corners of her mouth uncontrollably stretched into an arc that could be described as evil and naughty.
——I saw who started the fire.
I just didn't expect that someone as serious as my elder sister would do something like this - something so unorthodox.
She obviously saw us as well. She was stunned, as if she didn't expect us to appear here. But after thinking about it for a while, she quickly figured it out.
She walked quickly to us and searched her body from head to toe, but couldn't find anything valuable.
So she simply gave us her down jacket, a piece of clothing that was obviously very valuable just by looking at the workmanship.
She squatted in front of us, smiled, rubbed our heads, and asked us boastfully, "Isn't that fire beautiful? The fireworks I saw outside are many times more beautiful than this."
Her face now showed a childlike interest.
She gave us an address and said, "Go to this place and sell your stuff. That's my shop too!"
She thought for a moment and then added, "When you get outside, remember to go watch the fireworks, go to the summer festival, go... well, the world outside is huge, you can do anything, you have to take care of each other, don't quarrel casually, don't abandon each other casually."
She joked a few times, "Maybe when I become the head of the family, you can come back and visit me."
I have never seen her so happy and lively, but I can probably imagine what she is like in school.
Tsushima Shuji took me to the courtyard where he committed suicide for the first time. At that time, I didn't know that the house on the other side of the wall was no longer the Tsushima family.
Moreover, the branch on which he hung the hemp rope happened to extend to the other side of the wall.
I have to wonder whether he wanted to leave or simply wanted to commit suicide.
Tsushima Shuji jumped down from the wall, as clumsily as a child who had just learned to walk. I laughed at him in my heart.
I stood up from the wall
...It seems a bit high and I feel dizzy.
Tsushima Shuji's voice came from below with a hint of laughter, "Hurry up! Velvet! They will find us!"
I closed my eyes and jumped down. How high was the wall? About two and a half meters, very high.
I jumped down, but I didn't stand firmly and almost fell.
Tsushima Shuji patted my head and said, "I knew you wouldn't be able to stand steadily."
I pushed him away and rolled my eyes. I was willing to leave, but I hadn't forgiven Tsushima Shuji yet.
I stepped firmly on the ground, which was a novel feeling. I walked around on the ground all the time, but I felt that the land except the Tsushima family was very familiar.
A little guy silently climbed onto my shoulder. It was my wind. I tilted my head slightly, and it seemed to sense something and rubbed my face.
The wind in the Tsushima mansion was like a giant python. It looked up at us lazily, then closed up again with no interest.
He acquiesced to our departure.
It's amazing.
[Oh! We are out!]
[Oh, I know my sister’s shop!]
[Follow us!]
[Follow us and leave!]
[Fly!]
…
Their emotions infected me, and unconsciously, a smile appeared on my face.
"Let's go."
Tsushima Shuji looked at me and realized that I was talking to the wind, so he lowered his head dejectedly and felt sorry for himself.
I took his hand, because I was so happy that even a street light could receive my cheerful greeting, not to mention a mere Tsushima Shuji.
He also became happy, and ran from behind me to in front of me and led me to run.
He turned around and smiled at me. This smile was the same smile he had smiled at me before in the confinement room. Not surprisingly, I was stunned again.
The cunning Shuji Tsushima tried to bribe me with his face when I was happy, but sadly, I fell for it unexpectedly.
Tsushima Shuji then said, "Now that we have left the Tsushima family, should we change our name?"
I nodded woodenly, "Okay."
"Let me think... Um, Dazai Osamu, what do you think?"
I still nodded woodenly "OK"
"Then you should call me Dazai!"
I was immersed in the pain of being controlled by his face in the future, so I said "Okay."
...Wait, what did I just agree to?
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