Chapter 064
I don’t know why, but I feel like I want to die every day, but I can’t die painlessly, so I haven’t achieved this great goal until now.
Deep down, I feel that I am worthless, and whenever I encounter difficulties, I just want to hide away.
This is especially true if I encounter difficulties that require me to push myself hard. I just want to realize that dream immediately, which is not at all like those people in the Demon Slayer Corps.
Sometimes I find that the big moth cherishes my life more than I do. For example, one day when I was curious about whether dying in the sun would really be as painful as the elders said, the big moth immediately grabbed me back under the shade of the tree.
For example, one day when I wanted to try whether I would become a "water ghost" or disappear if I kept hiding in the water, he pulled me out.
Another time, when I found an ordinary dagger and was about to stab myself with it, he snatched the dagger away from me again.
I don't want to stay here anymore. Life here is so boring, nothing has anything to do with me, and it's too hot.
No place is suitable for me. I feel that even the ground is hot and the cool water is like hot springs.
I'm going crazy. I don't need to pretend. I swear that the way I look at Big Moth now looks like I'm ready to kill him at any time.
Most of the time he was walking in front and I was following him silently from a distance. Sometimes I even felt that getting close to this human with a normal body temperature was like getting close to a roasted pork chop.
It was very hot, but very fresh, and covered in oil.
But I really feel sick when I see his face, and I feel like I have eaten a freak.
It was so ugly that ghosts lost their appetite at the first sight. Even the tree stump looked more delicious than it.
I touched my belly and dived into the stream nearby, where I was grabbed by the belt by the big moth that was always keeping an eye on me.
I twisted my body hard, but I couldn't help turning around and yelling at the moth:
"Foolish human! Let me go! I don't want to stay down here for two hours this time!"
He blinked, said "oh" stupidly, then let go of me and dropped me to the ground.
I quickly got up, crawled into the water, and swam like a fish in water. In just two breaths, I caught a big fish and brought it ashore.
I bit the fish fiercely, and looked at the big moth vigilantly from time to time.
To be honest, looking at him like that made me lose my appetite.
What an ugly face! How can there be a person with such a face?
Within half a month, we arrived at a small alley.
Haha, the skills of us ghosts are beyond the reach of ordinary people.
Although Big Moth will inevitably have to deal with various of my colleagues along the way, I can see that these trash are not even the lower strings, and the BOSS will not care even if they are killed.
Besides, ghosts can't live in groups. We are naturally repelled by each other. We cannot provoke those of higher levels, and we don't even want to look at those of lower levels.
It seemed like they didn't even take me, a ghost who had only eaten half a human leg, seriously. I pretended not to see the few people who asked me for help.
Ridiculous, how can I help them with a fight? The key is to help them deal with the big moths. No kidding, how can I help them block the knife?
I don't want to live, but I don't want to help these scumbags live either. Speaking of which, I don't know why I feel that the connection with the boss is getting weaker and weaker recently.
I used to feel like there was a spring behind me that was connected to the BOSS, but now I feel like the BOSS’s shadow is fading.
Maybe the boss gave up on me.
After all, I am really useless.
This evening, this is my destination, I know it.
Although I didn't smell any ghosts, my eyes saw something, a layer of purple mist, different from the other smoke.
If you look carefully, you can still smell a hint of ghost.
I can also see purple flowers growing in the yard. Is that... wisteria?
I turned my head stiffly and looked at the big moth.
He had just killed a ghost, and there was still some ghost blood on his body. He still had a smile on his face. I knew that he was smiling and wanted to kill me.
Those with narrowed eyes are all monsters! Upper String Two——! Bian is going to die again!
"Don't you want to go in and take a look? It's almost dawn."
Oh, you big-headed ghost! If I go in, I will definitely be killed! I won’t go in even if it’s daybreak!
I can dig a hole right here and bury myself, and I can spend the day perfectly. As for you, big moth, I will remember you.
I'm going to find Upper Rank Two to deal with you when I get back!
I did it right away. Just as I was about to dig a hole with my bare hands, the big moth picked me up.
?
I tried to do it again, and found that I didn't have as much strength as before.
I:……?
I don't know anything except question marks. Boss, have you taken back the strength you gave me? Upper Rank Two, did you add ginseng to the food you fed me?
The big moth looked at me with a confused expression, but he was still smiling. I don’t know if it was my illusion, but I always felt that he was in a happier mood.
"Don't struggle, I won't hurt you~"
I really don't believe you, I'm going to die!
Anyway, I was taken into the house by the giant moth without being able to escape.
The house is very beautiful. Please forgive my lack of education. All I can say is "Oh my God" to the magnificent scenery before my eyes.
There was a cocky, white-haired kid and a quiet, graceful beauty waiting for me at the door.
I'm stunned. Hello, beautiful sister.
I felt a lump in my throat.
It’s not easy. I endured the big moths on the road for so long just for the beauty standing here in front of me.
To be honest, this yard is quite beautiful.
The courtyard is adorned with wisteria, and morning dew hangs on the fragrant, sleepy branches. Rockeries and rocks cover the gate, and well-trimmed dwarf red maples stick out their branches behind them, adding a lot of color to the entire courtyard.
I said, this courtyard is really beautiful.
The beautiful sister also made me feel very close, as if I should have spent the past few years of my life with such a beauty, and I had just met her.
"My sister whom I have never met! I am your sister whom you have never met. Do you still remember me?"
I broke free from the big moth's hand at lightning speed, flashed beside the beautiful sister, and knocked a piece of white stuff away from her.
What an ugly thing it is. It actually dares to appear next to a beauty, destroying the harmony of the entire painting.
Things like this really ruin the beautiful scenery.
Unfortunately, someone had a similar idea as me, and the white thing came up and wrestled with me, as if it insisted that my presence also disturbed the picture.
I feel very offended. Although I don't look good now, Bai Yilu is even more uncoordinated than me.
The beautiful sister was a little panicked and advised us to stop fighting. Unfortunately, that thing and I had the same idea. We both thought that it was really disgusting to have such a trash like him around the beautiful sister.
I am very weak now, but this lump in front of me is also very weak. Maybe he has never eaten human flesh since he was born, otherwise how could he have such little strength.
Thinking of this, I became even more irritated, my nose felt sore, and I felt like crying.
How come he can stand beside the beautiful sister even though he has never eaten human flesh, and why do I have to follow an ugly creature like the big moth and never feel satisfied even after eating.
I let go of his hand and lay on the ground, crying loudly, "Wuwuwu wuuuuuuu! Ugly freak! Ugly freak!"
White uglies and giant moth uglies! This world deserves to be destroyed!
"Oh my, you're crying so soon. I thought you were a fool."
It's the big moth, he's talking nonsense again.
I sat up and said, "Shut up, you bastard."
Bai Yituo was tidying up his clothes while cursing, and he seemed to be very concerned about his image in front of the beautiful sister.
I said, why are you pretending? You didn't even show any mercy when you pulled my hair just now.
The big moth looked at me lying on the ground with amusement. I didn't care. I was going to die soon, so my image didn't matter.
I don't need to live, so why should I care about this ugly bastard?
"According to the prescription you gave me and some of my own secret recipes, I brought this little devil back."
Hey, hey, hey! Is that you? Hey, hey, hey. What are you pretending to be, you ugly bastard?
"Thank you, Butterfly."
Humph. I knew that the name of the big moth was not nice. It's ridiculous to call a boy "Butterfly".
"Don't worry about him coming here. His control over this little brat has been reduced to your level."
"Mr. Butterfly, this is..."
"Tsk." The moth blinked. "The blood he gave the little ghost was very little, much less than you gave him at the beginning! Anyway, it was done very easily. You can study it yourself when the time comes."
Tsk, is this guy blooming? Who does he think he is?
I rolled my eyes and felt disgusted from the bottom of my heart for this ugly guy who was used to cheating.
Things were even simpler after that. I ate as few people as possible, and apart from a few fish, I had never seen any other pickled vegetables.
I am often used as a research subject by beautiful sisters. I would say that sometimes having heightened senses is not a good thing.
Although the beautiful sister looked apologetic, she was ruthless when it came to taking action, and that white lump never gave me a good look.
Of course I wouldn't have a good face towards him. Whenever he appeared in front of me, the noise of our quarrel would be enough to scare the beautiful sister's cat away.
After a while, the beautiful sister no longer confined me to her basement which was filled with things that were difficult for me to understand, but allowed me to move around in the yard.
Tsk, fake kindness.
I jumped onto the roof on the first night and looked at the moon.
The moon is so big.
I saw a crow flying by and thought that the crow and its owner were sick.
I was so annoyed that I decided that if this crow flew over, I would catch it and bite it to death. Then I noticed a figure following the dead crow.
I said they were sick.
I'm in so much pain. I want to bite to death everyone I know. Even the devil in the bottle is not as resentful as me.
Yes, my existence is a disaster, and turning into a ghost is the biggest mistake. Tricking me to this place to have my blood drawn and studied by a beautiful sister is what I should do and is the most valuable thing.
...I'm going to bite everyone to death.
The big moth's body movements are a bit like a big butterfly, his steps are a bit erratic, and his wide sleeves are like butterfly wings.
I'm going to bite him to death.
After he landed, he took out a chicken for me.
I'll eat the chicken first and then bite him to death.
He also took out a candied haws for me.
OK, eat the candied haws first and then bite him to death.
After the candied haws, there is also konpeito.
He is not a butterfly and does not live on candy, so why does he bring so many sweets?
I ate the candy in anger.
He had come back from tricking other beautiful ladies. I was sure of the nature of this big moth.
I finished it because all the sweets tasted like wax in my mouth because my taste buds were all used to tasting blood, but I was very angry so I had to finish it all.
"cough"
He seems quite embarrassed now, but I just want to bite his head off. I know he is not wrong in his position, and the beautiful sister is also right, but it hurts me a little.
There's no need to show extra mercy to a ghost, but I'm in pain.
I didn't want to live at first, but I was in pain.
Knowing that he felt sorry for me, my anger had mostly subsided. After the boss's control over me weakened, I slowly regained my sanity.
Although his memory of the time before he became a ghost is still vague, he has some brains now.
Now I don't think he looks like a monster anymore, but like a normal person, except that he looks a bit like a dog. Disgusting.
I wiped my mouth, thought for a moment, and then said to him, "I have no family left. I have no attachment to this world. Living is painful."
Seeing him hesitate to speak, I said, "I received your apology. Being a ghost killer is a noble profession. You have a clear conscience."
I am the one who feels guilty. I always feel guilty towards someone.
I pulled out his knife and put it across my neck. "The moonlight is so beautiful."
I haven't seen the moon for a long time. The moon is so round and white. When I die as a ghost, I will just be a handful of dirt, so as not to waste the labor of the beautiful sister.
I didn't feel anything special when I died. My neck felt a little cold, which I guess was because I didn't know how to breathe, or it could be because I moved too quickly. Anyway, I didn't feel anything.
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