Chapter 51
Verlaine was stunned for a moment.
Rimbaud was his mentor, but he was very gentle. In daily life, Rimbaud was more like a close friend who was both a father and a friend to him.
It is difficult for an ordinary father to say sorry to his children, and this is even more so for Rimbaud.
Rimbaud was a genius since childhood, and he was arrogant. Even though he has become more restrained now that he is older, it is undeniable that he is still as arrogant as anyone else. Verlaine, who lived with Rimbaud for nearly ten years, knew this very well.
Therefore, although Verlaine quarreled with Rimbaud, he really did not expect him to apologize.
At this moment, he didn't know how to react.
Seeing that Verlaine did not respond, Rimbaud could only continue, "What happened eight years ago was my fault. I should have listened to you carefully and considered your feelings, including your desire to take the child away."
Seeing that the topic inexplicably turned to him, Nakahara Chuuya frowned.
Today's events felt strangely familiar to him, but he was well aware that he had no more memories of himself than the two people in front of him.
He could only think of "Huang Ba Tu" that Lan Tang was investigating a year ago, but this was enough for him to repeatedly ponder the words and actions of the two people in front of him.
But since Lan Tang had reminded him to this extent, it was inevitable that he finally recalled his deepest memories.
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"Hey, you guys, have you considered my wishes before you take me away?" Seeing the two people looking at him, Nakahara Chuuya continued, "I am an independent individual. You two domineering guys, no matter where I want to stay or who I stay with, shouldn't it be up to me to decide?"
"But my dear brother, humans are so cunning, and you are still young and don't know much about people. It's easy for those evil guys to hurt you. For example, the organization you used to be in, aren't they the best example? Everything I do is for your own good." Weilun said earnestly.
"Tsk, the sheep incident was just an isolated case. You didn't see how well we got along before." Zhongyuan Zhong said impatiently.
"Chuuya, that's not an isolated case. Brother tells you that humans are such greedy animals. They get your protection and think that this kind of protection is what you should do. In fact, this is wrong. The power you have is really insignificant compared to what they give you.
Based on the inferiority of human beings, as your brother, I can tell you with absolute confidence that unless there is a true saint, it is only a matter of time before you fall into the same situation. "
Yes, Nakahara Chuuya's power makes him a hot commodity that various organizations are competing for. If even Shirase can realize it, how could Mr. Mori not know it?
But Mr. Mori has more cards up his sleeve than Shirase, and is more shrewd and calculating.
Although it is almost impossible for Chuuya to actively betray an organization, Mr. Mori is suspicious and cannot have 100% trust in people and things. If he really trusts someone like this, it can only be his Alice.
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"You're wrong. The boss is different from the Shirase gang. I can't say anything about other people, but the boss will never betray me."
"Oh?" Weilun raised his eyebrows. "Why do you say that, brother? Is it because this Sen Ou gave you some love potion?" His face turned cold, and one could even sense a murderous aura.
This is totally putting the cart before the horse! Today's mission has led to things going in the opposite direction! I'm sorry, Mr. Mori, I'm sorry, brother, it's all my fault that I messed up. I hope you won't scold me when we meet in the underworld... Of course, it's best not to hit me either...
"Of course not. How could such a thing as a love potion exist? What makes our boss different from others is his absolute rationality. I know he doesn't completely trust me, but what does it matter? The leader is a slave of an organization. Everything he does is for the port mafia, and the benefits I bring to the port mafia are definitely greater than the benefits of giving up me.
Because the boss knows this, he will never betray me, and of course he will never treat me like Shirase."
“But can’t you guarantee that there will come a being whose existence is more beneficial than yours? When that time comes, you will surely be thrown out cleanly by him.” Weilun was very interested in Nakahara Chuuya’s rebuttal, perhaps because he felt it was novel that he had sensed his brother’s “rebellious period” in advance.
"I can't guarantee that this will happen, but I will work hard to improve myself and try not to let this happen. In this way, even if this happens, I will have a clear conscience."
Nakahara Chuuya's eyes were firm.
That's why I hate this person, even if he shows a little bit of hesitation? Even if he doesn't look so great? Even if there is a little bit of him that is like me, as cowardly as me, as hesitant and wavering as me, and as anxious and restless as me because of the smallest things...
This must be him, Nakahara Chuuya, so different from me, enviable and hated, strong and confident, yet so upright in character that one feels that all the ugly feelings towards him are like a punch on cotton.
"But Chuuya, you will be abandoned by then. They can't bring you anything that can match what you have given. Only by following your brother can you be accompanied by your family. The relationship between us is closer than anyone else in this world. We are the most inseparable brothers in the world."
Unless it was absolutely necessary, Weilun still wanted to leave a good impression on his younger brother. At least force was put behind him at this moment.
But his patience was limited, and he gave up communication at some point and took Nakahara Chuuya away.
His original plan was not to meet his brother so early. "I was careless. It seems that you still haven't fully seen the ugliness of human beings, so you are here to sneer at me. I will let you see why human beings are called the most hateful species in the world. As for now, let's start with the little girl next to you."
He raised his head and looked at me proudly. "You said before that you hate my brother, right?"
I nodded slowly, trying my best to ignore Nakahara Chuuya's incredulous look.
"Look, my brother said that even the friends you've been with for so long actually hate you, which shows how humans are hypocritical. Not to mention the friends you've just started to hang out with recently. They must be just like this girl, claiming to want to be friends with you, but who knows what they're actually planning in private."
He was quite pleased with himself.
Nakahara Chuuya remained silent, as if he had not yet recovered from the shock I had brought him.
I can probably understand his complicated feelings now. After all, I was also a member of the Sheep a few years ago. Many members of the Sheep have betrayed him, and I should be one of them now.
"No, that's not right. Rong is different from Shirase and the others. Even if Rong hates me, he has never hurt me."
He really is. He is still trying to make up for me. I am so touched.
"That's enough, Chuuya. I really do hate you. You are one of the top people I hate in my heart." I said numbly, my eyes twinkling. "You are excellent, better than I can ever be. There are so many reasons to hate you. If I could, I could write a 100,000-word book to show you how annoying you are."
"One hundred thousand words! Do you really hate me that much? No, if you could really write that, you and Dazai would definitely open a bookstore dedicated to complaining about me! So why do you hate me so much? I didn't do anything wrong, did I?"
"Oh, right!" I scratched my ears. "You didn't do anything wrong! What's wrong is your existence. Why are you better than the children born in aristocratic families when you grew up in the slums? Why do you have such a high sense of morality? Help others and be kind to others. Even if you work in a place like a mafia, you seem to understand the standards of good and evil better than ordinary people. Stick to your heart and protect the people and things you think are worth protecting...
Why do you think I hate you? Then you should ask yourself! Ask yourself why you are so outstanding, and ask yourself why you still think people are trustworthy even now, after being betrayed!"
He staggered back, his pupils dilated, and turned to me and asked, "So what I did was wrong? Is it wrong to be myself and be kind to others? Is it wrong that I am excellent?"
"You are not wrong, my brother. It is these despicable people who are wrong. They are jealous of your talent, your nobility, and your difference from them. Only I, your brother, am essentially from the same place as you and are the same kind of person. Only we in this world can understand each other." Weilao put his hand on Nakahara Chuuya's shoulder, leaned close to his ear and spoke seductively.
As he said this, he even gave me a look that could be called satisfied.
"So, leave now with your brother. We can go to the countryside and live a peaceful life where no one can disturb us."
"Of course you are right. The fault lies with me. I am indeed as despicable as Mr. Verlaine said. I don't think more or farther than an ant on the roadside, and I am definitely not as noble as you.
'Arabato', the legendary god, is now the power sleeping in the body of Chuuya Nakahara. I didn't believe in God before because God denied me. Now I deny God because God is high above, and all the time, everything he does is mocking my efforts.
Nakahara Chuuya, if you are really a god, you should understand that gods should not be born into the world, they should be high above the earth and indifferent to everything in the world."
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If you were really a god rather than a living person, if you were still that Nakahara Chuuya, you would definitely understand.
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