"This feeling has become even stronger since I started university."
"Just now, you spent our first Christmas Eve together, but I could tell from your words that you wanted to sleep with me. I was shy, so I ran back to school early."
"When I got back to my dorm and wrote this love letter, I thought, if you really see this, then come find me. Maybe I'm ready."
"But I bet you won't find out so soon. Hmph, you probably opened the gift I gave you after you made me angry one of the time."
"Actually, I'm easy to coax. As long as you coax me a little more, even if I'm still angry, I'll feel sweet inside. Remember that?"
"I'm feeling a bit confused right now, I don't know what I'm writing, I'm just rambling. It's all your fault, I really love the teddy bear you gave me, I'm going to sleep with it tonight."
"That's it. This is my first love letter. I hope you will love me well in the future. I don't have many expectations. I just want you by my side."
Goodnight, boyfriend.
"You really have a knack for predicting things."
Yu Mobai thought to himself silently.
Ji Mushu represents most girls.
She loves romance but isn't good at expressing it.
She longs for the boy to express his love first, but secretly writes these little things to record every little moment between them.
She is actually very lively and cheerful, but she plays a different persona in relationships. It's only when the two of you are actually together that you slowly discover, "Wow, you're actually this kind of girl."
After putting away the gift, Yu Mobai lay in bed unable to sleep.
Ji Mushu, a female student in the dormitory of Shengjing University, also suffers from insomnia.
Everyone else was already asleep, but Ji Mushu was sitting barefoot on the balcony, holding the wedding dress teddy bear in her arms. The teddy bear's head was soaked with sweat.
Moonlight streamed into the dormitory, illuminating a tired yet delicate face.
She held the teddy bear's hand and gently shook it. "It's such a pity that you'll never see your other half again. Will you be sad? Will you cry?"
The little bear didn't answer; the wedding dress shimmered slightly in the moonlight.
Ji Mushu pursed her lips and took the wedding dress off the teddy bear. "You're no longer his bride, so I'll put the wedding dress away for you."
"Would you be willing to marry into a good family later?"
Just as she got up to put away her wedding dress, the teddy bear that had been sitting down collapsed.
"You don't want to?"
Ji Mushu returned to her chair, hugged the teddy bear, and cried, "Actually, I didn't want to be someone else's bride either, but he doesn't want me anymore."
Her trembling shoulders finally calmed down after a while, and when she raised her head again, her face was covered in tears.
“He has fallen for someone else; he hasn’t even opened the gift I gave him.”
Ji Mushu looked somewhat dejected. "Little Bear, he's so generous. He just gave me away to someone else for nothing. Am I not pretty?"
She suddenly stood up, looked at her reflection in the window, and gently touched her face.
The next moment, as if remembering something, she stood on tiptoe and looked outside.
A dirty snowman stands at the dormitory entrance.
That was the snowman Yu Mobai built for her.
Despite enduring countless hours of wind and sun, and despite some imperfections, she would immediately go back and repair them upon discovering them.
But...
She remembered that the snowman's hat had fallen to the ground before she went upstairs.
The arm on the body was also gone.
But now...
Looking at the complete snowman downstairs, Ji Mushu bit her lip hard to stop herself from crying out loud.
The legend that writing a couple's names on the back of a snowman will bring you together in marriage is false and doesn't work at all.
The boy who built a snowman for her on a snowy night no longer belongs to her.
Ji Mushu stood by the window for a long time. She glanced at the time, put on her down jacket, and ran downstairs.
Fortunately, the dormitory supervisor was still awake, so she opened the door for her.
Ji Mushu walked up to the snowman and quietly observed it for a long time.
She went around behind the snowman to try and erase the writing, but unexpectedly discovered three more words.
"sorry."
Ji Mushu realized tonight that women really seem to be made of water; no matter how much they cry, tears just keep flowing.
She reached out and erased her initials from it.
She walked up to the snowman again and stared at it for a long time, as if trying to imprint the snowman in her mind.
She only pushed the snowman over when her smooth calves could no longer withstand the cold wind.
With a whoosh.
The snowman was torn to pieces, with only its hat remaining, which rolled several times on the ground before stopping.
Back in her dorm room, she placed the teddy bear on the bedside table. Just as she curled up in bed, she accidentally knocked the teddy bear to the floor.
Immediately afterwards, a deep, muffled sound rang out.
It's a lullaby I listened to as a child, and it also has his voice.
In that instant, Ji Mushu remembered something Yu Mobai had said when he gave him the teddy bear.
"If you ever have trouble sleeping, try studying this little bear. Maybe it will help you fall asleep."
The person who said those words is no longer by her side, but hearing his voice now makes her feel very at ease.
Ji Mushu gripped the bedsheet tightly, crying silently.
She still remembers that afternoon in her senior year of high school when Yu Mobai led her to recite that poem on the small bridge in their hometown.
I hope to find someone like you.
Like a refreshing breeze in the mountains
Like the warm light of an ancient city
From dawn to night
From the mountains to the study
As long as it's you in the end, that's all that matters.
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