Chapter 80 is finished.
It’s over!
Su Yunyu was momentarily stunned, instinctively knowing he was doomed. A strong sense of crisis made him quickly draw his sword towards his heart—
A dark shadow swept in like a thundercloud, gripping her wrist tightly. Su Yunyu felt a sharp pain in her wrist, as if it were about to break.
He cried out in pain, tears welling in his eyes. The next second, his fingers, which were tightly gripping the Xuehua Sword, were pried open, leaving his hand empty. With the sound of the sword being thrown away, Su Yunyu felt a surge of anger and sorrow. The grief of another defeat was indescribable, and she couldn't help but cry, cursing as she sobbed:
"Let me go! Get away from me!"
Xiao Shuying pinned the struggling Su Yunyu down with one hand, straddling his slender waist with her long legs. Her emotions, still surging with rage from the scene just now, surged as she watched him sob uncontrollably, tears welling in his eyes. Xiao Shuying felt both pain and anger. She gripped Su Yunyu's chin, gritting her teeth and saying each word slowly and deliberately:
"How could you do such a thing? How could you be so cruel? What am I supposed to do?"
Su Yunyu was overwhelmed with grief. She made up her mind to commit suicide, but failed. After waking up, she tried again, but failed once more. Why did Long Aotian always ruin her plans?
Overwhelmed by emotion, tears streamed down his face like a burst dam, drowning the hand Xiao Shuying was using to grip his chin. Su Yunyu, wanting nothing more than for Xiao Shuying to get off her, struggled free, desperately pushing him away while crying.
"I'm dead, so what? What are you doing in my way? Get out of my way!"
His indifferent attitude towards life and death, his disgusted and resistant demeanor, provoked Xiao Shuying to the point that his eyes became bloodshot, as if they were burning red. Yet, his hand was filled with Su Yunyu's tears, which, like a small pond, softened his broken and sharp heart.
He felt like he was about to break down. He wanted to make sure that Su Yunyu would never say such things again, and that she would never have the will to die again. But at the same time, he wanted to coax Su Yunyu in a low voice and beg her not to leave him.
Xiao Shuying closed his eyes briefly. His arms were being repeatedly struck and pushed away by Su Yunyu, and his ears were filled with her tearful curses. Amidst the turmoil in his heart, his dark eyes gazed intently at Su Yunyu. He leaned down and encircled her, holding her in a position that left no room for escape, and softly asked:
"Master really doesn't want to live anymore."
Su Yunyu was also a bit tired from crying. Having vented her emotions, she was now left with only a strange awkwardness. Hearing Xiao Shuying's question, she blinked, and although she didn't understand, she still nodded honestly:
"That's natural."
Another sharp pain shot through her heart. It took Xiao Shuying a few moments to suppress the piercing feeling, and she calmly suggested:
"The safest way is to destroy his divine consciousness, if Master is determined to leave..."
The voice trailed off, Xiao Shuying burying her face in Su Yunyu's neck, her last words coming in a hoarse whisper:
“I can help my master.”
Upon hearing this, Su Yunyu's sorrow turned to joy. His previous actions were only intended to make Long Aotian kill him personally. Now that he saw that Long Aotian was indeed going to kill him, it was no exaggeration to say that he had gotten what he wanted.
Seeing that Xiao Shuying was actually going to kill her, Su Yunyu was still inexplicably resentful, thinking that she had done so much to gain favor, and this was the result...
Forget it, as long as the goal is achieved, why be so dramatic? So Su Yunyu suppressed her inexplicable displeasure and hurriedly asked Xiao Shuying:
"Oh, is that really true?"
He no longer wanted to remain trapped in this failed life.
However, Su Yunyu suddenly remembered that destroying divine consciousness might be painful, so she hurriedly tapped 111 again:
"Can I still activate the pain-free buff?"
[Not enough energy]
So Su Yunyu had no choice but to give up, thinking that it wouldn't matter if she couldn't open it, she could just endure it and it would pass. She then urged Xiao Shuying to get up.
"Hurry up."
Xiao Shuying did not respond, but silently rose. His lowered gaze was filled with pain and gloom, too many emotions mixed together to discern his true nature. He merely gave a slight, mocking laugh.
"Master is truly naive..."
His voice was very low, and it would dissipate with a gust of wind. The room was dark and there hadn't been any candles lit yet. Su Yunyu could neither hear nor see his expression. She just moved her legs uncomfortably when Xiao Shuying released her grip on him.
Su Yunyu was just about to ask him why he had stabbed her when a sharp pain shot through her mind, like a thousand needles piercing her most intimate and sensitive areas.
"Hmm—"
The pain made Su Yunyu's face turn pale instantly, her brows furrowed, and she instinctively cried out in pain. But then, an even more intense, stabbing pain struck her:
If just moments ago there were thousands of needles, now it's a single, thin nail, carrying immense force, slowly driving itself into the divine consciousness, shaking the entire soul and causing excruciating pain, as if being torn apart.
"pain……"
Su Yunyu suddenly lost even the strength to cry out in pain. The pain emanating from his consciousness made him struggle involuntarily, as if struggling could spare him from this torture. But then he heard Xiao Shuying's cold voice in his ear:
"This is just the beginning, and Master can't even handle it?"
As soon as she finished speaking, her consciousness felt as if the sky had collapsed and the earth had split open. No words could describe the pain she was in. In just an instant, she was in so much pain that she could neither live nor die. Su Yunyu curled up in pain, her fingers gripping the bed sheet tightly, her knuckles clenched so hard they were clearly visible.
It hurt, it hurt so much, a thousand times worse than the pain of being pierced through the heart. Tears welled up in Su Yunyu's eyes. Xiao Shuying's restraint on him was gone. He rolled around on the bed, as if this could relieve the pain a little.
As Su Yunyu rolled to the side of the bed, her head was about to hit the corner. Xiao Shuying reached out to protect her. Seeing Su Yunyu's face contorted and she no longer had the strength to cry out in pain, Xiao Shuying felt even more pity in her eyes, but she knew it was not the right time yet.
So, as the spiritual energy intensified, and seeing that Su Yunyu was about to faint from the pain, Xiao Shuying whispered in her ear:
"Should we continue? The pain we feel now is only one-tenth of what it used to be."
Many pains in the world are insignificant compared to the destruction of one's consciousness. It is a process more painful than shattering one's body inch by inch. The destruction of the spirit affects the body, and even being burned by karmic fire is no more painful than this.
Su Yunyu was in a daze, in so much pain he wanted to bite his tongue and die, but he didn't have the strength. Hearing Xiao Shuying's clear words, he nodded with all his might as if he had grasped a lifeline.
That's enough. He doesn't want to be in so much pain anymore. He'll do anything to get rid of this pain.
Seeing him nod, Xiao Shuying affectionately kissed his pale face, then withdrew the spiritual energy that had been churning in her consciousness, her gaze fixed on Su Yunyu as he gradually recovered.
He was already drenched in cold sweat, which almost soaked his white clothes. Xiao Shuying raised her hand and cast a spell to make him look brand new. Seeing that Su Yunyu was weak and unable to open his eyes, she scooped him up into her arms as if she were scooping up the moon in the water, and gently stroked his back, which was still twitching in pain.
Xiao Shuying remained silent, waiting for Su Yunyu to regain consciousness. A full incense stick's time passed before Su Yunyu's unfocused gaze eased slightly. He breathed weakly, too weak to even struggle in Xiao Shuying's arms. His gaze slowly turned to Xiao Shuying, his voice strained:
"you……"
In that instant, I was at a loss for words. Should I blame myself for my weak will, for giving up so easily? Or should I ask him, "Did you suffer the same pain when you destroyed your own consciousness?"
"Master," Xiao Shuying hugged him tighter with great affection, a cruel glint in her lips as she smiled.
"Since you're so afraid of pain, you should stay by my side."
He had long known that Su Yunyu could not endure this kind of pain. When a person gives up on life, life itself will resist. And Su Yunyu should have understood after experiencing this that he could not overcome the will to live.
Su Yunyu's bloodless lips moved slightly, feeling a weak pang of regret that such a good opportunity had been given up because she couldn't bear the pain.
But if he had to do it again, he would still give up.
That kind of pain, the pain that seemed to last forever, how did Xiao Shuying endure it back then?
But this only means he couldn't bear this way of dying; if it were a different way...
So Su Yunyu looked at Xiao Shuying, at his jawline that was cold and sharp in the darkness, and asked:
"Is there a way to die without the most pain?"
Seeing that Su Yunyu remained unmoved, Xiao Shuying's eyes flickered, but she wasn't angry. She simply chuckled and laid her cards on the table:
"Master, as long as I'm here, you won't die. If you want to die, you'll have to kill me."
"..."
Su Yunyu's eyes widened in shock as she finally realized that Xiao Shuying's earlier statement about granting his wish was a deliberate lie.
"you!"
He was so angry he wanted to curse, but he didn't have the strength. He just blurted out a single word and then stopped, panting as if he were drowning.
He needed to end his own life to escape this world, but to succeed, he had to kill Long Aotian. However, if he could kill Long Aotian, he wouldn't need to escape this world at all.
This creates a vicious cycle. Seeing that she couldn't die, Su Yunyu had lost all anger; she was simply filled with despair.
What exactly do you want?
What I want to do
Seeing Su Yunyu's indifferent questioning, Xiao Shuying repeated it softly, then laughed a few times, her laughter growing increasingly strained. After a long while, she finally whispered:
"I just want my master to accept me..."
Why not? Su Yunyu was so good to me back then...
Even if it's all acting, why can't there be a little bit of sincerity?
"Master, I don't believe it," Xiao Shuying said, her eyes lowered, a rare uncertainty in them.
"I don't believe you're really that cold-hearted, and that you're just putting on an act for me."
That's not true. Humans aren't plants or trees; how can they be without feelings? Even if Su Yunyu was only trying to gain favor for the final mission, there was genuine affection involved, even if it was futile.
Now that things have come to this, imprisoned in this dark and sunless place, chained to the bed and unable to leave, Su Yunyu's sincerity has been reduced to mere anger. Hearing this, she sneered and directly denied it:
"You can deceive yourself, but it has nothing to do with me."
"..."
The long silence made Su Yunyu look up in confusion, only to see that in the hazy night, the silvery gauze curtain reflected light and shadow on his face, finally settling on a single drop of light that slid down his cheek.
In that instant, everything seemed to freeze. Su Yunyu was stunned, staring in disbelief at the single tear that slowly rolled down and finally fell into the darkness.
A complex mix of emotions welled up inside him. He thought, as the chosen one of Heaven, it was no exaggeration for Long Aotian to be able to command the wind and rain. Yet, this proud and spirited man was shedding tears in front of him…
Why, just because of that one sentence I said?
The anger I felt towards Xiao Shuying before seemed to have subsided considerably at this moment, and I even felt a brief pang of guilt, thinking to myself, "Am I really that infuriating? I made her cry!"
"Master..."
The next moment, Xiao Shuying's slightly hoarse voice came through, sounding calm and collected. He held Su Yunyu close, his lips pressed against her neck, his tone as if he wanted to say something:
"I saw you lying in a pool of blood, the blood staining everything red, death flowing over you, and in that instant, I felt I was about to lose you."
"Why?" he repeated, as if asking a question that would never be answered.
"From the moment you took me away from the Xiao family mansion until today, I cannot live without you, nor do I want to lose you..."
Su Yunyu is now stingy with her feelings for him, and even resistant to them, but so what? Xiao Shuying still wants to keep her by his side.
He almost lost Su Yunyu, but from now on, he will never let such a thing happen again.
Seeing that Su Yunyu had stopped struggling and was only stunned, seemingly softening, Xiao Shuying suppressed the darkness in her eyes, her eyes no longer filled with tears, and whispered:
"Master, please don't hate me, okay?"
If I shed a single tear, I can hope for your charity once.
Then let your true feelings be soaked and drowned in the sea of love and desire.
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