Chapter 541 Years and Memories

The soul of the Dead Rose was completely open to Ambersu, without any defense at all.

Amberxiu could easily manipulate her soul and turn the undead queen into his slave.

If it were before, Amber might not have been able to resist the temptation, after all, there is endless gold in the Underdark.

But now Amber Xiu... still hesitated for a long time.

There was no way. He had been a lich for too long and had too deep an impression of money. Even when he was alive, Amber was not a good man with a strong will.

But the best way to resist temptation is to just ignore it.

Amber turned his attention to another thing, which was how to weave a complete soul.

Even with the ability to create souls, this is not an easy task for Amber Xiu.

Even though he generates soul coins in batches as if he can manipulate souls at will, those tenacious and unyielding incomplete souls don’t even know the reason for their own indomitable spirit. They are just programmed application software, not real souls with independent thinking.

The only complete soul that Amber has truly created in his life is Melina.

There's nothing I can do, I've already taken the money.

At the beginning, Withered Rose spent a lot of money to create a perfect child of her own. Amber would never let someone else's child just kill like a stupid machine. Even if this kind of person has the power of legendary grace, it will be difficult to play any role in the end.

Therefore, after ensuring Melina's fighting power and her feelings for the Withered Rose, Amber also needs to give Melina a real soul and a true self.

Before that, we need to clarify one thing: what is the self? Self-satisfaction is an "illusion" that every independent thinking individual cannot bypass, but this self-satisfaction requires first eliminating the instincts of life. Biological instincts such as eating when hungry and sleeping when tired do not count. The desire to eat delicious food, to sleep more comfortably, and even to starve to death rather than fasting, these things that are higher than instinct are the difference between intelligent creatures and other creatures.

It’s complicated to say, and even more complicated to do.

Ambersou needs to find these things about himself in the soul of the withered rose and then reactivate them.

The dead souls have lost all the beautiful memories due to the lack of feelings. They are buried deep in their hearts, and only the greatest obsession remains. And obsession is often cruel and torturous. After hundreds or thousands of years, the soul will be distorted by this torture.

Therefore, after the obsession dissipates, the undead will get unprecedented great satisfaction, and then quickly enter the state of extinction. It will be more obvious for the lich, because obsession is the key to binding the life box. The current state of the withered rose is that the ability of the life box to regenerate has disappeared.

"Sorry, let me see your best memory."

The connection of souls allowed countless fragments of memory to appear before Amberxiu.

Resentment, curse, anger... these emotions kept appearing, and those were the deepest feelings that the Withered Rose had towards Ryan.

Amberxiu gradually pushed away these negative emotions and explored deeper, looking for the memories of the Withered Rose before it transformed into a undead.

As Ryan's princess, her childhood should have been happy, right?

In the synesthesia dream, the withered rose lay quietly in the clouds, and everything around it seemed so unreal and distorted.

The dream was vague, probably because she no longer had the ability to dream. Withered Rose didn't want to think about anything, didn't know anything, she just wanted to fall into a deep sleep. This life was too tiring.

Suddenly, a blue-eyed, blonde girl appeared next to Withered Rose. Their faces were 70% similar, but this blonde girl looked much younger and her eyes were full of innocence.

The girl shook the withered rose's shoulder and whispered, "Wake up, wake up quickly, everything will be seen by others, including your childhood."

Withered Rose opened her eyes, looked at her younger self, and said in confusion: "Why... are you here... You are already dead."

After she escaped from Ryan and fell into the mercury lake underground, the Princess of Ryan should have died completely. The one who survived was the withered rose, a spirit whose ideal was to destroy Ryan.

The blonde Rose Princess smiled and said, "I am just you. Now that all the hatred has disappeared, what is the difference between you and me?"

"I……"

Withered Rose didn't know what to say for a moment. As she said, the hatred was over and everything should be over.

Blonde Rose reminded again, "Now is not the time to think about this. Our memories, everything about us is being spied on by that man. Do you really not care? Including our most childish dreams, the most embarrassing memories, the little secrets we don't want to tell others... Is it okay for him to know all this?"

When Withered Rose heard these words, her originally pale face suddenly turned a little red.

Why did she suddenly feel shy? Those things were no longer important. She thought she had forgotten them all. After all, compared to when she was alive, the time she spent as a lich was too long. The dozens of times of time difference compressed those trivial memories deep in her memory and she had never opened them for many years.

The Withered Rose thought that the so-called past had long since rotted away in isolation, but she did not expect to recall it at her most vulnerable moment.

The blonde girl Rose seemed to have a telepathic connection with her. She knew what she was thinking without her even saying anything. She continued, "It's not calculated that way. The length of time has nothing to do with whether the memory is deep or not. Do you remember the knight novels we read? When we were young, we met the princess. Even if we only saw her from afar in the moonlight, we still couldn't forget her decades later. When we heard that the kingdom was in trouble, the knight rode his old horse to the battlefield.

"Decades of life have not been able to overshadow the knight's glance at that time. Hatred has made you live hundreds of years like a single day. On the day when the Ryan royal family was destroyed, do you still remember how much effort you made for it? These day-to-day tortures may not be comparable to the memories of those ten years."

After hearing these words, Withered Rose felt an indescribable feeling surge in her heart, and she even felt a little stuffy in her chest.

As a lich, how could she be depressed?

She had long forgotten how to breathe.

But the feeling of suffocation was so real, as if a huge stone was stuffed into her chest, constantly squeezing her bones.

Withered Rose covered her chest in pain, her body curled up, enduring pain she had not experienced in many years.

Finally, amidst a series of violent coughs, she opened her mouth and took a breath of air.

The fragrant scent made Withered Rose open her eyes wide in shock. She could actually smell something. How fresh was this?

The stone in her chest seemed to have disappeared, and the Withered Rose couldn't help but take a deep breath, as if to replace the foul smell that had been buried in her body for many years.

“That’s right.”

The blonde girl seemed to have become a few years younger, and turned into a little girl in her early teens. The little girl looked at the withered rose and said in a childish voice: "We must eat well, sleep well, and study hard, so that we can grow up..."

The little girl suddenly stopped talking halfway, and said to Withered Rose in a different tone: "Anyway, you have grown up, you can choose your own future."

Withered Rose looked at herself who looked like a doll in front of her, her eyes became hot and she couldn't help but shed tears.

When the hot tears ran down his cheeks, the dream before his eyes shattered like a mirror, and the younger self was shattered. The dark underground palace appeared before his eyes again, with only the faint fire illuminating the surroundings.

Withered Rose looked at Amber in the magic mirror and asked in confusion: "What did you do?"

Amber smiled and said, "I just unlocked all your past memories so that you can remember the good times you once had. Qiangwei, I won't force you to live. Only if you want to live, can I help you."

Amber did not directly modify the soul of the Withered Rose and forcibly implant in her the belief to survive.

What he did just now was to awaken all the beautiful memories of the Withered Rose when she sank into her dream, and transform them into real images that appeared in her dream.

The withered rose in the dream can temporarily restore the perception of the living, but this is premised on her willingness.

After all, she had forgotten those feelings for many years, and the Withered Rose was now in a state where her soul was almost silent. She had no way of recalling these feelings herself, nor could she reproduce them in her dreams.

Amberxiu didn't want to forcibly modify the consciousness of the Withered Rose, because he didn't want an obedient puppet.

There is no mistake in the poem, post, content, and read the book on 6, 9, and bar!

Therefore, it can only be guided.

Who would have thought that the Queen of the Undead loved reading knight novels as a child?

She secretly hid dozens of stories about knights and princesses in her room. Even though she would be punished by copying the Prayer of Light hundreds of times if her parents and teachers found out, the princess still tried her best to hide these novels.

Under pillows, under mattresses, in closets, in dressing tables...some are even hidden directly inside underwear.

Amber was very surprised when he saw this memory. It was not at all similar to the ruthless Undead Queen.

I can only say that the extreme ideas of the Ryan royal family are really damnable, and can drive all normal people crazy. So much so that these past beauties are like knives, and recalling them can make people feel heartbroken and painful.

Fortunately, everything went well. Withered Rose finally remembered her childhood and was willing to recall that little bit of warmth.

Although it was just an attempt, at least I could feel the withered rose in my dream.

Feelings are the pillars of the undead's survival. Joy, anger, sorrow, happiness, any kind of emotion is fine. The most frightening thing is to have nothing, complete nothingness.

Amber did not explain in detail, but Withered Rose could guess what he did.

"You don't have to go through so much trouble. Why don't you just modify my soul? I don't mind it."

It might not be difficult to read the memory, but it would be very difficult to let the Withered Rose feel the memory again without damaging her soul. Withered Rose knew this very well, so she was only grateful to Amber for everything he had done for her, but she also didn't understand why he did this.

Amber shook his head and said, "Directly modifying your soul is no different from killing you. Ms. Rose, I have only brought back some of your feelings, but you are a dead soul after all, and these feelings will fade with the passage of time. I only have a preliminary idea to completely solve this problem, and it will take a long time to realize it.

"So you can call it quits at any time, and I will respect your choice."

Withered Rose looked at Amber Xiu in the mirror and asked, "What do you think? This sounds like a temporary solution, not a permanent solution."

If one has to enter a dream to "recharge the senses" every once in a while, then it would be too troublesome to survive like this. The Withered Rose even doubts whether this can be considered living.

"For the time being, this method is indeed necessary to postpone the loss of humanity, but with Melina here, I am sure that the undead do not necessarily need strong love and hatred to maintain their thinking ability. Curiosity is sometimes a driving force, and perhaps it should be said to be the most important internal driving force of all intelligent life."

Amber Xiu said jokingly: "Ms. Qiangwei, don't you like knight novels very much? Perhaps, reading more novels can help you find the meaning of life?"

Withered Rose's expression froze, and she couldn't help but say, "I kind of regret letting you see my memory."

Amber smiled and said, "That's great, you need this kind of emotion right now."

But after joking, Amber Xiu changed his tone and said seriously: "Please rest assured, I am studying the power of this mask. Oghma can use this mask to grant me rebirth, and I think this Lord of Knowledge will not mind me learning this knowledge. When one day I can create my own mask, I will wear it for you personally."

Withering Rose was silent for a moment, then asked, "Do I need to enter the dreamland every day now?"

"The longer the better. If you have time, you might as well dream more. Even if you are really busy, my suggestion is to sleep at least eight hours a day and live a regular schedule like a living person."

Withered Rose showed a charming smile and said to Amber Xiu in a different tone: "One last question, can I see you in my dream?"

Amber Xiu was stunned for a moment. Looking at the beautiful face of the Withered Rose, his heart beat faster.

I never had this feeling before, but when Her Majesty the Queen invited me to dream with her, even if she didn't necessarily mean that, Amberxiu still felt his heart beating faster.

Is this the "side effect" of becoming a living person? It is already difficult for Amber Xiu to remain 100% calm.

But looking at the expectant look in Withered Rose's eyes, Amber Xiu nodded and said, "I'm not sure if I can be affected by dreams in my current state, but I can try."

Synesthesia dreams can even affect the dead, so theoretically, spirits of objects can also fall asleep, not to mention that Amber has already recovered all human senses.

But the problem is that Ambersu is too "huge" as a whole. Once Ambersu falls into a deep sleep, the magic mirror network will be affected without knowing how it will be affected, and the synesthesia dream may not be able to support this "giant" Ambersu to fall asleep.

It's always okay to give it a try.

"Then I have no problem." Withered Rose stretched out her hand and stroked the surface of the magic mirror, as if she was stroking Amber's face.

"Thank you, my knight." Withered Rose said in a low voice.

Amber Xiu also smiled and said to Withered Rose: "It is my honor, Your Majesty."

(End of this chapter)