Chapter 61 Whatever
On the way back, Bai He walked in front and Yan Yi followed behind her, silently following for a while, occasionally looking up at the girl's embarrassed back.
She walked aimlessly down the street, not knowing where to go.
Yan Yi tried to reach out and pull her several times, but she pushed him away every time.
At the intersection, Yan Yi finally caught her.
He held her face, wiped away her tears with the back of his hand, and kissed her tentatively.
Seeing that the girl didn't react, Yan Yi pulled her to an empty alley in the woods, pressed her against the uneven wall, and deepened the kiss, as if anxious to prove something.
At first, she didn't react or respond, until he became more aggressive, blocking all her breathing and making it almost impossible for her to breathe.
Bai He pushed him away, but Yan Yi held her firmly, rubbing and cupping her with his hands, desperately wanting her to feel his crazy love...
"Let's talk, okay?"
Yan Yi's eyes flushed sickly. "Talk to me. If you do this... I'll be scared."
"What are you afraid of?" Bai He said in a hoarse voice, and glanced at him seriously.
"I don't know. Tell me, what should I be afraid of?" Yan Yi breathed rapidly, his hands resting on either side of her, as if to hold her in his arms, not letting her leave. "Tell me, what do you think?"
"You've lied to me for so long." Bai He gritted his teeth, with a hint of resentment in his eyes.
How can I not blame you?
"You knew exactly how much I loved him back then. I was so worried about everything, trying to guess his feelings. Every day I was torn between whether he liked me or not. The wounds healed and then relapsed, relapsed and then healed again... You watched all of this, and then you felt at ease lying to me!"
She pushed him and said, "Yan Yi, don't you think you are despicable?"
"I'm despicable? What obligation do I have to tell you?" After this, Yan Yi's tone suddenly became indignant. He lowered his voice and tried his best to control his anger. "I picked up the chocolate. Maybe I didn't see the note inside. Even if I did, I wouldn't know which bastard wrote it. It's none of my business if you two didn't keep your mouths shut and missed it. How can you blame me! You shouldn't blame me!"
He rarely makes such illogical and unreasonable arguments, like a bratty kid who keeps on being stubborn even after being exposed.
Bai He pushed him away, but Yan Yi wouldn't let her go. He grabbed her arm and slammed her against the wall.
"I was wrong. I shouldn't have told you." His eyes were bloodshot as he glared at her angrily. "You never look at me. Whenever there's a chance, he's always your first choice. What am I? A disgusting and nasty mosquito blood, right? These past two years are nothing!"
Bai He's back was hurt by the uneven stone wall, and Yan Yi's fingers were deeply embedded in the skin of her arm, causing her excruciating pain.
"Yan Yi! Let go, you're hurting me!"
"Last night, I made a bet with myself. I bet you wouldn't stop him." Yan Yi's eyes were red, and he laughed at himself. "I bet you've been sincere to me for the past two years...but you let me fail miserably..."
Bai He finally broke free from him, rubbed her aching arm, turned around and strode away.
"Bai He, what the hell do you owe me? Have you forgotten?"
She suddenly stopped and turned around.
Behind her, the young man looked at her coldly with sinister eyes, and said word by word, "Do you dare to forget?"
…
At eight o'clock in the evening, Qi Lang got off the plane and said in the group: "I'm here."
No one responded to him for more than half an hour.
7: ...
7: "It's become lighter."
1: "Okay."
7: ...
Without saying much, Bai He stared at the screen for a long time, sighed, put down his phone and continued his evening self-study.
Su Xiaojing saw that she was in a bad mood after sending someone back, so she naturally didn't ask any more questions.
At nine o'clock, after class, several girls walked out of the teaching building.
From a distance, I saw a young man wearing a black T-shirt standing in the shadow of a tree opposite me.
Under the bright moonlight, he had a cold temperament and his eyes were as black as ink. He stared coldly in the direction where the girls came out.
Bai He didn't even look at him and left with her roommates. When she passed by him, Yan Yi came over and grabbed her: "Bai He."
"With so many people here, what do you want to do to me?" Bai He asked defensively.
Su Xiaojing stared at them with wide eyes, while Zhan Xinyue and Zhu Lianqiao looked at each other in confusion.
Yan Yi gave a wry smile and handed the cups of milk tea to his roommates: "My sister and I have something to discuss."
"Oh, okay, let's go back first." Zhan Xinyue took the milk tea and said to Bai He, "You guys chat."
After they left, Yan Yi put a straw into the only remaining cup of milk tea in his hand and handed it to Bai He.
Bai He turned around and didn't take it. Yan Yi handed it to her and placed the straw to her lips: "Take a sip, I bought it especially for you."
"I don't want to drink."
However, Yan Yi stubbornly put the straw into her mouth: "Drink a sip, be good."
Bai He knew that his old habit had come back, so he waved his hand and knocked over the milk tea, angrily saying, "I said I didn't want to drink it! You're doing it again, right?"
The milk tea fell to the ground, but fortunately it did not spill. Yan Yi bent down to pick up the milk tea, walked a few steps and threw it into the trash can.
When he came back, he seemed to be unaware of the incident and said with a faint smile: "I didn't eat dinner, I'm very hungry, accompany me to have a midnight snack."
"Not in the mood."
Bai He turned around and tried to leave, but the next second, a bright light flashed before her eyes. She saw the dagger in Yan Yi's hand and was startled: "Are you going to attack me again?"
Yan Yi still smiled gently: "How could I hit you? Have you forgotten? I told you before that my pain nerves are not sensitive. You see..."
Before Bai He could react, Yan Yi quickly slashed his arm with a knife.
A centipede-like bloodstain suddenly appeared on the cold white skin, leaving Bai He staring in shock.
He laughed like a madman: "I don't feel anything at all. It's even worse than the pain I felt at the airport this afternoon. Do you think I'm sick, sister?"
After saying that, he was about to slash down with the knife again. Bai He screamed in shock and rushed over. He hugged his arm, shook off the knife, turned around and slapped him in the face. "Are you crazy? What are you doing, threatening me, Yan Yi!"
Yan Yi tilted his head, a bleak smile still hanging on the corner of his mouth: "No."
Bai He let out a breath, grabbed his hand rudely, and dragged him to the school hospital. He stared at her and smiled all the way, like a madman.
Looking at the bloody wound on the boy's arm, the doctor frowned and asked curiously, "How did you get hurt?"
Before Yan Yi could say anything, Bai He said, "Medical student, your technique is not good enough, you cut yourself."
The doctor examined the wound, cleaned it and bandaged it: "Medical students should take better care of their hands. Hands are more important than any other part of the body."
Bai He glared at Yan Yi and said, "Did you hear that?"
At this moment, Yan Yi turned into a good puppy again, nodding to her repeatedly.
After bandaging the back of his hand, the two walked out of the medical school. Bai He didn't intend to say anything to him and turned to walk towards the dormitory building.
The silent night is so embarrassing.
Yan Yi followed her for a few steps, looking at her resolutely leaving figure: "Bai He, if I die, will you look at me more? If I die, can I become the cinnabar mole in your heart?"
Bai He was so angry that she wanted to scream. She strode back and pushed him hard: "Go ahead and die in front of me! You threaten me with your body, your life, and see if I will stay with you! You lunatic!"
She gasped for breath, suppressed the tears, and said angrily, "You dare to hurt yourself! I will hate you forever!"
Yan Yi quickly hugged her and comforted her: "I'm sorry, don't cry... I won't say such things again!"
Bai He choked and gasped, and hit him hard several times.
But when she thought about the past, she thought about the little boy who let her hold his hand and walk through the streets, so small, Bai He once vowed to protect him for the rest of her life.
She turned him into the abominable form he is now...
I want to hate, but I can't.
"I made you cry again. How could I be such a bastard? Sister, punish me. Kneel down, please! Forgive me."
After saying that, he was about to kneel. Bai He held his arm and looked at the panicked young man in front of him: "You don't have to fight me to death. I won't go looking for him."
"real?"
Bai He's eyes were filled with despair, and his voice was hoarse and weak: "It's fitting... I owe you a life."
Yan Yi hugged the girl's thin body tightly, breathing deeply to relieve the suffocating pain in his chest.
He didn't want to force her like this. He had planned to let go. On the eve of Qi Lang's departure, he thought a lot.
In the past two years, he has deceived so much happiness into his life, he should be satisfied...
But at the last moment, Yan Yi realized that he couldn't do it!
"Bai He, you won't break up?" He confirmed with her again and again.
"Won't…"
"Is it still as good as before?"
"Whatever you want." Feeling the boy's extremely unstable emotions, Bai He had completely given up struggling. "You can do whatever you want to me."
He kissed her neck, her cheeks and lips. Seeing that Bai He did not respond, he held her face and said, "Sister, give it to me."
So Bai He kissed him perfunctorily, and the boy deepened the kiss stickily, getting close to her with his ears close to hers.
It’s not that he couldn’t understand her disappointment, but Yan Yi selectively ignored it all, pretending nothing had happened.
Bai He accompanied Yan Yi to the food court outside the school to eat. Not knowing what to eat, they finally went to their cousin's Northeastern Dumpling Restaurant.
Yan Yi looked at the menu and said to her, "Order some family dumplings. You must be hungry after class. Want to eat together?"
"casual."
Yan Yi greeted: "Brother Pang Yi, a family photo."
"The ones with leek and beef fillings are all sold out, so I'll give you some more corn ones." My older cousin, wearing a floral apron, came out from the kitchen.
"OK."
After ordering the food, the two of them had little to say. Bai He took out his cell phone and browsed the student union group messages.
In her sophomore year, she was promoted from a college student to the student union, becoming the head of the publicity department, responsible for filming media events. Qi Lang had been promoted to student union president, and now that he was gone, she was running for re-election, and several vice presidents were canvassing for votes in the group chat.
Yan Yi looked at the girl's indifferent expression and asked cautiously, "What would you like to drink? I'll go buy it."
Bai He didn't even raise his head: "Whatever."
Yan Yi thought for a moment and said, "Forget it. It's a bit late. Let's stop drinking the beverage and drink water instead."
He poured her tea. Bai He didn't want to drink it, but he had already handed the cup to her lips.
She glanced at him, and the boy's eyes were as sincere as ever.
He never cared about what she wanted, he only cared about what he could give her. Whatever he gave her, Bai He would have to take it even if she didn't want it...
She suppressed her anger and took a perfunctory sip.
Yan Yi drank the rest himself.
"It's almost ten o'clock." He checked the time. "After dinner, I don't know if I'll be able to go back in time."
Bai He didn't respond to him. He said to himself, "It's okay if we're late. We can go to the hotel."
After saying that, he raised his eyes to observe her expression.
Bai He lowered her eyes and continued looking at her phone, replying to the private messages her senior sent her to canvass for votes.
"Bai He, I won't go back tonight..." His Adam's apple rolled, and he asked hoarsely, "Is that okay?"
"casual."
She didn't know how many times she said "whatever" tonight, as if, as she had promised, from now on, he could do whatever he wanted to her.
Bai He stopped struggling. She owed him...
Yan Yi's eyes fell on her phone screen: "Who are you chatting with?"
Bai He took a deep breath and tried to calm himself down: "It's not Qi Lang."
"I know, it's a boy?"
Bai He threw the phone to him: "If you're worried, just check all my communications."
Yan Yi didn't touch his phone, but just exchanged glances with her...
At this time, the eldest cousin came over with dumplings and sat down next to them: "Qi Lang is gone?"
"Okay, let's go." Bai He said, "I'll take the flight this afternoon."
"Oh, I won't be able to see him anymore. I really can't bear it." The eldest cousin didn't notice that something was wrong with the two of them. "You must be even more reluctant to come. Did he say when he would be back?"
"I'm having dinner with my girlfriend." Yan Yi interrupted him abruptly, "I don't want to be disturbed."
"Okay, I won't disturb you."
Pang Yi left and walked back to the counter, sighing softly. The waitress came over and said, "Why are you sighing, boss?"
"I don't know what this girl was thinking. She didn't want such a good one and chose this one instead."
The waitress looked at them and said, "Yan Yi is pretty good, no worse than Qi Lang. I think he's even more handsome."
"Looks are in the eye of the beholder," said my cousin, "but in terms of character, he can't compare to that guy..."
…
Yan Yi knew that he was far inferior to Qi Lang in terms of how he dealt with people. He didn't want to waste his time paying attention to anyone's opinions. The only person he cared about was... the person in front of him.
Yan Yi picked up the first dumpling, blew on it, and after it cooled down, handed it to Bai He's mouth.
Bai He ate and took the phone back: "I'll give you a chance not to look at it. Don't ask me who I'm chatting with in the future."
"I won't ask." Yan Yi assured her, "I won't let my imagination run wild."
"That would be better." Bai He lowered his head, replied to his senior in a few words, and ended the conversation.
Yan Yi handed over another cold dumpling, and Bai He said, "I'm not very hungry, you can eat it yourself."
So Yan Yi lowered his head and ate dumplings by himself.
There was nothing else to say. Most of the time, Bai He was quiet when she was with him.
In the past, this quietness was a comfortable way for both of them to get along, but now Yan Yi began to care about it, because she and Qi Lang were always laughing and talking when they were together.
"I have a basketball game this weekend. Do you want to come?"
"Yeah." Bai He replied.
"Don't you have any other questions?" Yan Yi looked at her.
Bai He finally pulled his eyes away from his phone and looked up: "What game, and who are you playing against?"
"The inter-college competition is against you guys in the biology department."
"oh."
She continued to look down at her phone. Yan Yi could see that she was not interested and said angrily, "It's okay if you don't want to come. I won't force you."
"No, I can't come."
Yan Yi licked his lips and continued to look down at Jiaozi: "I know who you want to see play basketball."
“…”
"Yan Yi, I don't want to quarrel." Although he said this, the anger in Bai He's voice could hardly be suppressed.
Yan Yi suppressed his resentment and anger, took her hand from under the table, and pressed it soothingly.
He knew that from the moment he threatened death, there would be no going back to the way things were before.
But fortunately, she still cares about him and loves him, and Yan Yi always has a way to make her soften her heart.
After dinner, Yan Yi went to the bathroom, and Bai He went to the front desk to check out. Suddenly, he saw a small Sakuragi Hanamichi pendant next to the computer at the front desk.
"Hey!!!" Bai He quickly called his cousin from the kitchen, "Brother Pang Yi, this is mine! I lost it a long time ago."
Pang Yi came out and said, "It's yours. It's been here for months. The waiter found it in the trash can. I thought it was a pity, so I washed it and put it there as a decoration, thinking it was something a customer didn't want."
"How could that be? I didn't throw it away." Bai He picked up Sakuragi Hanamichi's keychain pendant and stroked it cherishingly. "This is a gift someone gave me. How could I throw it away?"
"That's good, take it back now."
"Thank you Brother Pang Yi for picking it up for me!"
"It's a small matter."
Bai He had some doubts in her mind, but she really had no idea how she lost this little thing, and thought that the buckle of the keychain had fallen off.
Just pick it up.
When Yan Yi came out of the bathroom, she immediately stuffed the small pendant into her schoolbag.
He took her hand and walked out of the store, suggesting, "Shall we go to a late-night movie later?"
"Whatever..."
Before he could finish his words, Yan Yi interrupted him in a deep voice: "In that case, I won't ask you again."
After saying that, he pulled Bai He straight to the cinema and bought a ticket for the upcoming show.
The two of them were both uninterested in watching the inexplicable domestic love film of three young people.
Yan Yi held her face and leaned over to kiss her. Bai He said, "Don't behave uncivilized in public."
Yan Yi looked around and had to hold back. He took her hand, moved it to his leg, and rubbed "him" gently with the back of her hand. Bai He glanced at him speechlessly.
Yan Yiyu looked at her gloomily.
After the movie ended, Yan Yi took her to a room without asking her any questions.
It was still the same sea view hotel as the first night, with a room fee of over a thousand yuan.
Bai He knew that Yan Yi could still make some extra money while balancing his studies and receiving a special scholarship every year, so she didn't advise him to be frugal.
After entering the hotel room, Yan Yi went straight to take a shower.
Bai He was a little worried and searched through his schoolbag, but couldn't find T's box.
She was afraid it wasn't safe, so she ordered takeout.
When Bai He was taking a shower, the takeaway arrived. Yan Yi took the small bag and walked to the translucent long rainbow door curiously: "Bai He, did you order food?"
"no."
"Then I'll tear it down?"
"Now you know to ask me."
"Who told you to be so careless all the time?" Yan Yi felt a little aggrieved. "I have a temper too."
There was a rustling sound of someone opening a takeout bag outside the door. Bai He didn't stop him. Seeing that she ordered a box of boxes, Yan Yi chuckled and said, "Our sister is always so self-conscious."
Bai He didn't respond to him and came out of the bathroom. Yan Yi used a hair dryer to blow her hair. The hot air blew the fragrance through her hair, and strands of hair fluttered in the air. He picked up a bunch of hair and put it under his nose in fascination, closing his eyes and sniffing it.
Both of their phones rang simultaneously. Qi Lang said, "I forgot to bring my student ID. I need it for the exchange process here. Is there anyone who's free to mail it to me tomorrow? @1@Lily"
Bai He picked up her phone and showed it to Yan Yi. He didn't respond, so she simply replied, "Where is it?"
"In the apartment, the password hasn't changed."
"Send it tomorrow. Give me the address."
Qi Lang sent him a string of addresses: "Thanks, Sayuri."
Lily: "It's just a small matter."
Seeing that it seemed to be over, Yan Yi snatched her phone, turned it off, and then carried her to the bed.
"Do you keep your word?" He sniffed her ear and looked at her in fascination. "Is it okay for me to do whatever I want?"
Bai He didn't respond to this and said solemnly, "Turn off the lights."
"Only when you turn off the lights can you treat me as him?"
“…”
Here we go again!
She pushed him angrily, and Yan Yi reached out and grabbed her cheeks, pressing her down on the bed.
When she's gentle, she can strangle people to death, and when she's vicious, she's powerless to fight back...
Yan Yi slowly loosened his grip, unbuttoned her buttons, and moistened and melted her with kisses.
"Is it true that every time I help you, I think of him?"
"I didn't think about anything, Yanyi." Bai He struggled to get the T, but Yanyi still seemed to have no intention of using it and threw away the small box.
His hand slowly slid down, but Bai He suddenly held his hand: "Either do it normally, or don't do it at all. I don't want to use my hands every time."
Yan Yi was still kissing her, his eyes entangled with her like a devil, as if he wanted to attach himself to her——
"You want to give it back to me?"
"I don't want to repay you. I don't owe you anything."
Yan Yi finally saw through the little girl's subtle thoughts: "Using your body to repay love, sister is really calculating. What, is that enough? Do you still want to go find him?"
"Yan Yi! Stop talking nonsense!"
He traced the girl's face with his fingertips, stretched out his sexy voice, and looked at her gently: "Since you have thought about it, how many times do you think I should fuck you to repay you for the torture I have suffered every moment in the past few years of loving you? Ten thousand times? Or a hundred thousand times?"
"Yan Yi, I don't know what you're resentful of." Bai He looked at him with red eyes. "Have I never loved you over the years? Hasn't Qi Lang loved you? Why did you tear our relationship apart like this? Will all the love projected on you only turn into hatred? What kind of monster are you?"
"Yes, that monster hiding in the shadows, watching you shamelessly and despicably." A trace of sad smile flashed across Yan Yi's eyes. "Now, you finally discovered it."
Bai He lay down and closed his eyes tiredly: "Whatever you want, don't make too much trouble, I'm very tired."
Looking at the girl's messy clothes, her skin was as white as honey snow, and her face was like the bright moon hanging in the sky.
When he was a child, Yan Yi often thought that it would be great if he had wings, so that he could fly into the starry sky, pick the crescent moon and wear it on his temples.
All the artificial carvings in the world are not worthy of her. Only the moon is worthy of her beauty.
As much as Yan Yi loves her, he hates his own dirty love...
"No." Yan Yi kissed her cheek and shook his head gently, "No, I won't touch you. What I want is never your body."
Bai He looked straight at the handsome young man who was so close to her, and saw the pain surging in his eyes.
"I should be satisfied if you stay for me."
He turned off the lights and turned into a docile puppy again, curling up behind her and burying his face deep in the back of her neck.
Bai He closed his eyes.
She couldn't bear to see him showing weakness and submission.
After a moment, Bai He turned around, hugged the slightly choking boy, held him in his arms, and patted his back gently.
He leaned against her chest, closing his eyes tightly.
"Thank you for choosing me."
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