Chapter 62 Love Letter
Bai He went to Qi Lang's apartment. Only the three of them knew the door code, which was always six sixes. Bai He always said that this crappy code was easy to guess, but Qi Lang didn't care. He said that her little brain couldn't remember a more complicated code, so this one was fine.
Bai He said she didn't need to remember at all, as she wouldn't come here often.
The public area in the room was very tidy. Someone should have been asked to clean it before leaving.
She went straight up to the second floor to Qi Lang's bedroom. The bedroom windows were closed and there was no ventilation. Bai He pulled open the curtains and opened the window to let the sunlight in.
The quilt was also placed randomly on the bed, looking messy.
Compared to Yan Yi's meticulous cleanliness, Qi Lang looks like a normal boy.
Bai He walked over, smoothed the quilt, and tidied up the messy magazines and books on the table and put them on the bookshelf against the wall.
Qi Lang has an acrylic glass display case for movie DVDs. He's a bit of a hobby, collecting old movie DVDs. They have many of the Stephen Chow movies they loved as kids, as well as zombie movies they both love: Dawn of the Dead, World War Z, and Shaun of the Dead.
Even in the internet age, Qi Lang still retains the habit of watching movies on DVD. Bai He even found a very old set of Calabash Brothers on his shelf, which brought him back to his childhood. When they watched Calabash Brothers together, Yan Yi hadn't even come home yet.
She stroked the discs and gently wiped the dust off them with a tissue.
Remembering that he was here to do serious business, Bai He opened the desk drawer and took out his student ID from a pile of miscellaneous items.
The student ID card was printed when he first entered college. The boy in the photo still retains the youthful texture of high school. He is wearing the white shirt in the ID photo, with thin and broad shoulders and a clear outline.
When he smiles, he is bold and bright, with a kind of arrogance that makes the whole world love him.
Bai He couldn't help but curl the corners of his lips.
Suddenly, Qi Lang called: "Have you found it?"
"Found it."
"Okay, now close the drawer and don't touch anything."
Bai He got a little angry when he heard this: "Who wants to touch your things? You are so defensive."
"Don't mess around with my privacy."
"If you value privacy so much, don't ask me to mail things for you."
I was very upset that he didn't believe her.
"I wanted to call Yan Yi, but he ignored me."
“…”
Bai He hung up the phone unhappily and slammed the drawer shut. Suddenly, as if he saw something, he opened the drawer.
There was a thin, natural wood-colored envelope in the drawer, with the words "To My Princess Lily" written on the cover.
"Um???"
A letter to her?
It would be a bit unreasonable not to open it, so Bai He opened the envelope with great curiosity.
A thin piece of letter paper, which was a piece of homework paper with the four big words "Kitasato University" printed on it, was filled with dense English words all over the page, and the English words were written in the kind of particularly sloppy and continuous English font that foreigners use.
I don't understand a bit.
Having passed the CET-4 and CET-6, she doesn't want to take any more reading comprehension exams.
Just as I was about to put the envelope back, I saw the last line of words at the end.
However I will love you to rest of my life.
No matter how poor your English is, you can still understand the meaning of this line.
Bai He's heart was suddenly stabbed. She looked at the date on the signature. It was written in the autumn of two years ago, when she and Yan Yi were just starting to date and were writing love letters to each other.
So, Qi Lang also wrote a letter, but he was probably embarrassed to write something cheesy, so he changed it to English to make it less embarrassing.
Bai He knew him too well. They were so familiar with each other that they could guess every thought and every feeling in each other's minds. They had this tacit understanding since childhood.
She understood him very well, but she didn't know how to translate at all.
Thinking of Yan Yi, Bai He didn't dare to look at the letter any longer. He hurriedly stuffed it into the envelope, put it back in the drawer, and hid it under a pile of miscellaneous items.
And the words "I will continue to love you for the rest of my life" were also hidden in her heart.
At this time, Qi Lang's video came over.
In the video, he is walking in the green and sunny campus, with his handsome face facing the screen. He doesn't care at all whether the inside of his nostrils can be seen clearly from the upward shooting angle.
"Why are you still in the room?" the boy said angrily, "Didn't I tell everyone?"
"What's the rush?" Bai He leaned against his ergonomic chair, turned around, and said slowly, "Take a break."
"Shit! Close the drawer!"
Bai He: ...
Why didn't I think of this letter when I asked her to get her student ID yesterday?
So stupid.
Bai He pushed the drawer and closed it smoothly: "Don't worry, I didn't see anything."
Qi Lang: ...
Qi Lang: "Have you seen the letter?"
Bai He: "What letter?"
"Nothing, don't worry about it. I'm watching you now, get out."
"Okay, okay."
Bai He stood up and walked out of the room. After going downstairs, he suddenly said, "Wait a minute."
"what!"
"The student ID is still in the drawer."
“…”
"So what were you doing taking so long just now?!"
Bai He smiled and waved the student ID in his hand: "Just kidding!"
"Little idiot."
"Say that again, I'm holding your lifeline in my hands! Be careful or I won't send it to you!"
"My Princess, okay?"
When she was little, Bai He always called herself Princess Sayuri and forced Qi Lang to call her Princess. Over time, she became his Princess.
Thinking of the letter, Bai He felt a little sad and missed him a little.
Although this kind of longing...is inappropriate.
"How are you over there? Are you doing well?"
"Not very well." Qi Lang said, "The food doesn't taste good, and I'm having trouble adapting to the local climate. I've had stomach discomfort these past two days."
Bai He leaned against the cold pillar in the hall, lowered his head, and tucked a strand of hair between his fingers: "You wanted to leave."
"What else can I do if I don't leave?" Qi Lang smiled bitterly.
I have to leave.
"Bai He, if Yan Yi treats you badly, tell me."
"What can I do if I tell you?"
"That's true, but why would he treat you badly? I'm the only one who always bullies you."
That's why you don't love me.
Bai He remained silent. Suddenly, she murmured solemnly, "For all these years, you have no idea what I'm thinking."
"How would I know? The person you spend every day with isn't me." Qi Lang got a little emotional and blurted out, "That's why you chose him."
"Qi Lang, you've never thought before that maybe I'm just like those girls..."
I like you just as much.
I even like you more than they do, and I like you for a long, long time, the kind of love that I can't quit no matter what.
Before he finished speaking, a pop-up message from Yanyi popped up—
1: "Baby, are you back?"
Bai He stopped talking suddenly.
Once missed, it is missed, there is no chance to make up for it.
She is now Yan Yi's girlfriend.
That kid is threatening to commit suicide.
How dare Bai He...
"Take some stomach medicine and don't eat anything spicy. Also, remember to eat breakfast. Qi, take care of yourself and don't let us worry."
"good."
"Remember to tell us if you have a new girlfriend. I'm happy for you."
"No more new girlfriends."
"Why?"
Qi Lang looked at her earnestly: "I only drink from one of the three thousand rivers. I have found the one I want.
Although, she belongs to someone else.
After hanging up the phone, Bai He replied to Yan Yi: "I'm back soon. See you tonight?"
"I thought about it."
"good."
Since she has chosen Yan Yi, she should treat him well.
She was not heartless about the love he had poured into her in the past two years, so how could she remain indifferent?
As long as Yan Yi behaves well and doesn't say anything that touches her bottom line like he did that day, Bai He will not give up on him easily.
In the evening, Yan Yi still booked the sea view hotel.
He had an extremely strong desire for her and would go out to live with her every now and then, but he never had sex with her in the most normal way between lovers... It seemed that he was only pursuing psychological satisfaction and pleasure. Seeing the release of her tense instep, he would also s, even without any external force.
With self-deprecating restraint and endurance, almost perverted.
After tormenting her until she was exhausted, he held her in his arms and fell asleep. Even if Bai He felt hot in the middle of the night and pushed him away, she would wake up in his arms when she opened her eyes the next day.
He is really terrifying. He has the perseverance that lasts for years and lasts forever.
Except for a brief outburst after seeing him off at the airport that day, Yan Yi never indulged his emotions again.
He knew many ways to coax her, like a slowly growing vine, bit by bit penetrating into her body, strangling her internal organs, entwining her heart, wrapping her up layer by layer, leaving her with nowhere to escape.
Bai He is often at a loss with such a violent and passionate love. Yan Yi said, "It's okay, sister. We still have a lifetime."
When she woke up in the morning, Yan Yi was actually holding her and seriously planning their future. How should he invest his savings? Should he live in Beili or Nanxiang City? Or a city she liked better? He had recently started looking at houses. If he worked hard, he could even afford a down payment after graduating from college without his parents' help. He even considered how many children he would have in the future.
Yan Yi said he wanted three children, but Bai He said she was afraid of the pain and only wanted one. Yan Yi said, "It would be great if I could help my sister with the pain. One is fine, as long as it's ours..."
Lying in his arms, Bai He thought, maybe this is not bad.
Safe and stable.
Yan Yi is an extremely suitable man for marriage, as long as he doesn't "punish" her from time to time, or distrust her, or get jealous and crazy...
In other aspects, it is impeccable.
She sent Qi Lang her student ID and also bought some gastrointestinal medicine.
Also sent was Sakuragi Hanamichi's keychain pendant. He also wanted to send the Miao silver and celadon bead bracelet he had given her before, but he couldn't find it after searching for a long time.
She always loses things and doesn't know where they are, so she has to give up.
It was a handwritten letter, but it wasn't really a letter, it was a poem by Yan Shu.
Qi Lang is quite romantic. He has memorized many poems, and he can recite Tang and Song poems almost at will. He should be able to understand the poem Bai He wrote for him.
The mountains and rivers are so far away that they are thought of in vain. The falling flowers and the wind and rain make spring even more sad. It is better to cherish the person in front of you.
Sure enough, Qi Lang understood and guessed that she had read the letter in the cabinet.
So, the first thing he did after receiving the package was to send her a message, furious and embarrassed.
7: "Don't let the person in front of you see you upset. Give me back everything you owe me. The bracelet, the necklace I gave you when we were little, the books I gave you, the movie tickets we saved together, the picture albums, the game cards... Don't leave anything behind. If you want to break up, break up completely."
Lily: “…”
Lily: "Okay."
7: “Things can be returned, but can memories be cleared?”
Lily: "I'll try my best."
7: "Then you give it a try."
Qi Lang was obviously angry, and even deliberately took a video of throwing the things she sent him into the trash can and sent it to her.
Lily: "Don't be like that."
7: "Do you know you're wrong?"
Lily: “The student ID is also in there = =”
7: “…”
The two of them stopped messaging each other out of anger. Bai He didn't care whether Qi Lang was angry or not. She was just curious about where the Miao silver bead bracelet had gone. She searched all the cabinets in the dormitory but couldn't find it.
This is so weird.
Bai He thought carefully about the time when she lost Sakuragi Hanamichi's keychain. She and her cousins Su Xiaojing and Qi Lang were playing Werewolf in a dumpling restaurant. They had drunk some wine and were drunk. Only Yan Yi was sober and sent her back.
After that day, the keychain could no longer be found.
Bai He didn't ask Yan Yi at the moment, but she had already vaguely sensed that something was wrong.
She pulled out a thick stack of leather notebooks.
She has the habit of recording her life. Every time after watching a movie, she would collect the movie ticket stubs. However, among these ticket stubs, Bai He found that many were missing.
All the movie ticket stubs for "Interstellar", "Arrival", "The Wandering Earth"... that she and Qi Lang, two science fiction enthusiasts, watched together, were lost!
In addition, a lot of things were lost. Bai He couldn’t remember what they were, but all the small items related to Qi Lang that she had collected were gone!
Fortunately, the "beating heart" necklace was still there. It was a birthday gift from Qi Lang to her for her twelfth birthday, and she had kept it in her notebook.
But...if you look closely, there is something wrong. The crystal in the middle of the beating heart is clearly royal blue, but the crystal in the middle of the chain has turned white, and it is even more sparkling and dazzling.
Bai He immediately went to the Swarovski store to verify with the store owner. Sure enough, the chain had signs of being cut and removed. What was inlaid on it was not a crystal, but a diamond of the same size.
It goes without saying who is behind all this.
Thinking about how Yan Yi had changed her lifestyle little by little over the years, shaping her into the way he wanted her to be, he had even erased all traces of the person she once loved, and then filled her with his...
Bai He clenched the diamond-studded "beating heart" in his hands, and felt a chill on his back.
How ridiculous! Qi Lang asked her to send everything back, but now, this step is skipped.
Someone has deleted everything about him for her. Apart from her memories, Bai He no longer has any memento of him.
Bai He just felt it was so scary, he was so scary!
She is a person who cherishes the past so much that she carefully collects all the small items and gives them to her future self.
Ke Yanyi just threw away her precious things without any reason.
Bai He couldn't bear it for another minute, so she rushed to the Medical University next door and called him as she walked: "Where is he?"
"In the library." Yan Yi said, "What's wrong?"
"Come down?"
"You came to school?"
"Come down quickly."
Yan Yi quickly came downstairs and walked towards her with big strides.
He began to imitate Qi Lang's dressing style, wearing a light-colored sweatshirt, his short hair blown by the wind, his skin was fair, and he looked very cute.
He went forward to hug Bai He, but Bai He stretched out her hand to him, and the "beating heart" necklace hung on her fingertips, dangling...
Yan Yi's expression changed slightly.
"Explain." Bai He tried his best to suppress the rage in his chest.
Yan Yi looked at her and didn't say anything for a long time.
After a moment, he suddenly smiled, but his eyes were cold: "He's only been gone for two days, and you're already digging this thing out to reminisce about it. How reluctant are you to let it go..."
His smile and contemptuous tone suppressed all the questions that had accumulated in Bai He's heart.
Even anger is gone.
Only disappointment and a chill deep in my bones...
She looked at the young man in front of her, who was dressed to look handsome and sunny, but his heart... was just as damp and cold as it was back then.
"What are you looking at, sister?"
"I don't recognize you anymore. You are not mine."
Yan Yi continued to smile, but his smile was very cold and desolate: "Is it possible that this is really me? The one you knew before was the mask I wore to please you."
Tears welled up in the girl's eyes: "Can you give him back to me?"
"I'm going to return him to you, do you want him?" Yan Yi approached her, pinching her jaw with his rough fingertips, "It's you who doesn't want him!"
"If I didn't want to, I wouldn't be standing in front of you right now!" She yelled at him at the top of her lungs, "Do you understand? Don't make me regret my decision at the airport that day!"
"If that's the case, just throw it all away!" Yan Yi held the girl's thin shoulders, looked at her longingly, and coaxed her, "Don't take the necklace, those movie tickets, everything you and he had... just throw it all away, okay? The memories of the past are just you and me."
After saying that, he snatched the necklace from Bai He's hand and threw it into the lake with force. The necklace quickly sank to the bottom.
At the same time, Bai He's heart also sank to the bottom.
Yan Yi hugged her from behind and rubbed her neck morbidly: "As long as you are good, I will be good too. Aren't we planning our future? I will love you for the rest of my life. Isn't that good?"
Bai He closed her eyes and let the tears flow.
She repeatedly tolerated, backed down, and accommodated him...just hoping that he could be happier, but what she got in return was his even more aggressive encroachment and offense.
In the name of love, he wants to take her completely for himself and turn her into his little pet!
No, never.
"Yan Yi, I can't forgive you for this." Bai He wiped away her tears, took a deep breath, turned around and looked at him, her calmness terrifying. "Let's break up, Yan Yi."
Yan Yi shook his head frantically: "I don't accept it, sister, I don't accept breaking up..."
"Don't threaten me with death again, Yan Yi, or you'll hurt yourself." Bai He glared at him with red eyes, "Not only can we no longer be each other's boyfriends, we can no longer be each other's brothers either."
After Bai He finished speaking, she shook off his hand and left angrily.
…
I haven't seen Yan Yi for several days.
Even though he came to see her every day, the little girl was determined and never paid any attention to him.
Many times, Yan Yi only dared to stand at the bottom of the teaching building and look at her from a distance, and did not even dare to go up and talk to her.
He knew his sister's temper very well. She would only respond to soft words and not to harsh ones. Threats would not work on her.
She must be fed up with him, otherwise, she wouldn't have said the word "break up" so easily.
Sometimes, Yan Yi couldn't bear it anymore and would send her a message.
Yan Yi got angry and asked her, "If it was Qi Lang, would you be willing to break up? Because I'm not him, I can easily give up the relationship of the past two years, right?"
Bai He didn't reply to most text messages, but she did reply to this one -
"You never realize where you're going wrong."
"You put everything on Qi Lang. He owes you, right? The whole world owes you, right?"
Even if what he threw away was not something Qi Lang gave him, Bai He would still be furious.
After seeing her off at the airport that day, Yan Yi seemed like a different person, touching her bottom line again and again.
No, maybe it’s not that he has changed, maybe he just doesn’t want to pretend anymore.
This time, Bai He will not indulge him.
On a winter night, it was raining continuously. Zhu Lianqiao walked back to the dormitory building and placed a small, beautifully wrapped cake next to Baihe's table. "Here, there's a poor little dog downstairs for you."
Bai He took the cake box and looked at the raindrops floating on the box.
After a few minutes, she couldn't bear it anymore and went to the balcony to take a look.
He was indeed quite pitiful, standing downstairs as if he was being punished.
Back in high school, Qi Lang skipped his study session to go out and play, dragging Bai He along. As a result, both of them were pulled back by the teacher and made to stand outside the office as punishment.
Yan Yi is a good student who never participates in these actions, but he is stubborn and insists on standing with the two of them, and standing between Qi Lang and Bai He.
At that time, he was really their little follower.
Little Yan Yi was so well behaved back then.
If it was because of her that he became so paranoid and weird, Bai He would really feel ashamed of Uncle Yan.
The raindrops seemed to be falling heavier, dripping, and the cold winter wind penetrated into the bones.
She felt cold after standing on the balcony for a while. The boy was only wearing a thin black sweater and didn't have an umbrella. He looked so pitiful. His short hair was wet by the rain and stuck to his forehead.
Zhan Xinyue and Su Xiaojing watched from the balcony and reported the situation: "This is the third girl who has offered him an umbrella and been rejected. Sayuri, if you don't pay attention to Xiaogou, all the girls in the building will be heartbroken! Such a handsome guy is being punished by standing in the cold wind and rain. You might as well just kick him twice."
Bai He looked at the young man downstairs and said, "He has been controlling me step by step over the past few years."
Su Xiaojing: "Aren't you quite willing?"
"I didn't do it willingly. I was just stupid. I didn't see it at all. I didn't even think he would do this to me."
Bai He really felt stupid. "He transformed me step by step, changing all my previous habits and turning me into what he thought was ideal. But I shouldn't be like that. I am myself!"
She was so excited that her eyes turned red. Su Xiaojing quickly came over to comfort her: "Don't cry, don't cry, it's okay."
In the past, Bai He asked Qi Lang what kind of person he liked?
She will always remember Qi Lang's answer. He said seriously and firmly, "I like girls who have their own identities."
“What does it mean to have a self?”
"First, she needs to have a clear vision of herself and learn to love herself before she can love others. Second, I don't want her to change for me. She can choose her ideal university and her favorite major. Long-distance relationships are fine. Finally, I will never restrict her. I want her to shine in the world she loves. Even if her hobby is observing ants, I will support her 100% and help her become the best ant observer."
Bai He really doesn't like herself now.
She had given up dancing, and the only thing she persisted in doing was keeping a diary day after day, recording her life and collecting every little detail of her life...
He ruined it all!
She didn't go downstairs and let Yan Yi stand downstairs for most of the night.
If he doesn't recognize his mistake, Bai He will never make any concessions.
…
The north wind blew strongly overnight, and the temperature dropped rapidly the next day, signaling the arrival of winter.
During the break, Bai He received a call from her mother: "Sayuri, do you have time to go see Yan Yi?"
Bai He asked helplessly: "What happened to him?"
"I called him this morning to remind him to dress warmly as the temperature had dropped. Yan Yi sounded a little off, like he was sick, and his speech was incoherent. I asked him what was wrong, and he said he was fine and hung up. I was worried, so I called the counselor. After asking his roommate, I found out that he hadn't returned to school last night and didn't know where he had gone. I called him now, but no one answered. Just imagine, this is so worrying! Go look for him at school, and call Mom back if you're sure he's okay."
Bai He: ...
Okay, this kid.
After Bai He hung up on Tang Xin, she called him, but no one answered. She sent a text message to Yan Yi: "Yan Yi, reply as soon as you see this."
It wasn't until noon that Yan Yi sent her a voice message: "Sister, I was just sleeping, don't worry."
Bai He walked out of the teaching building and called him immediately after hearing the news: "You are not in school."
The boy's voice was slightly hoarse: "I went home too late last night, and the dormitory building was closed and I couldn't get in."
After saying that, he coughed violently a few times.
Bai He frowned and asked, "Where are you? The hotel?"
"No, I didn't bring my ID card. I went to Qi Lang's apartment."
"I'm coming over now."
After Bai He hung up the phone, she rushed to Qi Lang's apartment in a hurry.
Yan Yi slept in the room Qi Lang had left for him. The curtains were closed, and the room was dark and stuffy. Bai He walked in. He seemed to have fallen asleep again, sprawled on the bed with one hand hanging from the edge. His hair was a mess, and his cheeks were an unnatural red.
Bai He touched his forehead, which was very hot.
He was so dizzy from the fever that he couldn't even open his eyelids.
Bai He immediately took out the medicine box from the cabinet, found a thermometer, and pressed it under his armpit.
He squinted his eyes drowsily, saw her, and subconsciously took her hand.
Bai He even suspected that the boy did it on purpose.
These days, I have been playing many tricks on her.
After a while, she took out the thermometer and looked at it. Wow, it was 38.9.
"Have you taken your medicine?" She touched his forehead worriedly and patted his face.
"I ordered takeout for fever-reducing medicine." Yan Yi handed her the phone. "No answer yet."
He couldn't even speak clearly.
Bai He opened his phone and saw that the delivery man was delivering the food, about four kilometers away.
Soon, it was delivered. He had bought ibuprofen to reduce his fever, as well as a few fever-reducing patches. She hurriedly put the fever-reducing patch on his forehead, but the boy was burning all over, so she put another one on him.
After he took the medicine, she ordered him some takeaway porridge. It was very hot, so she blew it cool and fed it to his mouth.
When she was sick before, Yan Yi took care of her in the same way, but he cooked porridge himself, and she didn't have the skills, so she could only order takeout.
No matter how angry she was, she would never really leave him to fend for himself.
Yan Yi leaned against her legs, eating the porridge she fed him mouthful by mouthful, as obedient as a puppy, looking at him pitifully with his dark eyes.
"Are you hungry?"
He nodded: "I didn't have dinner last night, and I didn't have breakfast today."
"You are not allowed to eat."
"I can't eat."
Bai He didn't feed him too much, fearing that he wouldn't be able to digest it properly. She only gave him enough to fill his stomach: "What do you want to eat tonight? I'll bring it over."
"It's all good. I'll eat whatever you buy."
She covered him with the quilt, and when she stood up, he reached out and grabbed the corner of her clothes: "Are you leaving?"
"Porridge, I'll put it in the steam oven. If you're hungry in the afternoon, you can microwave it."
"My whole body is weak." He said, "Can I not walk? I'm afraid I won't have the strength to go to the bathroom."
"This is what a fever does." Bai He put the porridge in and came back, "I believe you still have the strength to go to the toilet."
When she sat down, Yan Yi crawled over and rested his head on her legs like a puppy, saying with tears in his eyes, "I really know I was wrong. I really... I know I was wrong."
When he cried, Bai He felt uncomfortable in her heart. She took a deep breath and finally touched his head.
Yan Yi immediately rubbed against her, being so well-behaved, really a bit like a canine.
"What's wrong?"
"You shouldn't throw away the things Qi Lang gave you, and you shouldn't be jealous."
“…”
Bai He wordlessly moved her hand away, but he grabbed it tightly: "From now on, you can be nice to him, I won't be jealous."
"Yan Yi, you don't understand what I'm angry about."
"How could I not understand? You like him, I like you, but he likes you too, so I'm the one who's completely lost. What right do I have to fight? All I ask now is that you don't leave me. Even if it's an open relationship, I... I can convince myself to accept it, really."
He knelt beside the bed and held her hand. "I've thought it through clearly. I can take care of you. I can even do without sex. Just don't abandon me. I won't quarrel with him anymore..."
"Yan Yi!!!" Bai He was truly furious and stood up. "You've lost your mind! What nonsense are you talking about? You've been reflecting on yourself for so long, and all you've come up with is an open relationship, right?"
Yan Yi looked at her with red eyes: "Isn't this... enough? Am I so redundant?"
Bai He didn't want to discuss this ridiculous topic with him anymore. She picked up her schoolbag and turned to leave. Yan Yi weakly called out, "Sister!"
"You go to sleep first. I have classes in the afternoon."
"Are you coming again?" Yan Yi looked at her pleadingly.
Bai He finally softened her heart and said unhappily, "I hope you can calm down and think about what nonsense you just said. I'll come back this afternoon and you'd better give me a satisfactory answer."
…
During the afternoon break, Su Xiaojing grabbed her head and screamed, "Fuck! He really said that!"
"He's crazy." Bai He commented.
Zhu Lianqiao sighed and said, "He's so crazy. If you insist on breaking up, I doubt he will kill you two star-crossed lovers."
"No, no, even if Yan Yi loses his mind, he can't hurt her and Qi Lang." Su Xiaojing analyzed rationally, "Nine out of ten times, he will only kill himself."
Bai He held his head, looking devastated: "I made him like this."
"You should stop wasting time." Su Xiaojing said, "He's been like this since he was a child, it's not your fault. When you still liked Qi Lang, you agreed to date him, which was already enough to make him feel worthy."
Bai He sighed.
Zhan Xinyue said: "If you don't make a decision when you should, there will be endless troubles. If you continue like this, you will be dragged to death by him. It is better to cut the Gordian knot and completely stop him from thinking about it. Only then will he really cheer up."
"That's what I said, but I'm afraid something might happen to him."
"Even if something happens, you can't be blamed at all, okay?" Su Xiaojing said, "Even Uncle Yan won't blame you. You've loved him for so many years, no one will say you're ungrateful."
Although her besties all advised her to break up, because they couldn't stand Yan Yi's paranoid and controlling personality, two years of relationship was not a fleeting thing, and Bai He couldn't bring herself to do it.
In the afternoon, she went to the apartment to visit Yan Yi and bought some pineapple platter that he liked.
The boy seemed to be much better. He was sitting on the sofa with his knees hugged, watching TV. He was wearing Qi Lang's milky white home shirt. From his back, she thought he had come back.
However, Yan Yi's head is smaller than his and his back is thinner.
She walked over with a pineapple platter and touched his head, which seemed not so hot anymore.
"Have you taken your temperature?"
He shook his head, so Bai He found a thermometer, put it into his collar, and asked him to hold it under his armpit.
Yan Yi did as he was told, and his pair of black eyes fell on her as if they were glued to her.
"Ignore me?"
"I don't dare to speak anymore, for fear of saying something wrong again." He said aggrievedly.
Bai He exhaled lightly, skewered a pineapple on a toothpick, handed it to him, and fed it to his mouth.
Yan Yi ate it obediently.
After a while, the temperature was taken down. I still had a low fever, but it was much better than at noon.
Bai He said, "I'm in good health and my fever will go away quickly."
Yan Yi's eyes were still a little red, and he grabbed her sleeve, afraid that she would leave.
Bai He said, "Don't be like a girl, crying all the time. A man should be manly."
"I didn't cry before, but you've hurt me so much lately." He pointed to his heart, "I'm sad every day."
"I hurt you?" Bai He thought it was unreasonable. "Do you know how important those movie tickets are to me? Each one is a precious memory. I plan to sit under a tree and slowly look through them when I'm old! You just threw them away like that. And my necklace and bracelet... Yan Yi, don't you care if I'll be sad?"
"Because that's the memory Qi Lang and you share." Yan Yi took her hand and looked at the black pearl necklace on her wrist. "If he threw away the memory of you and me, you might not even take a second look at it."
"Qi Lang would never do such a stupid thing."
"Look, how unconditionally you prefer him."
Bai He couldn't continue chatting and stood up to leave. Yan Yi stumbled after her and hugged her from behind.
"Don't go, I was wrong."
"You always admit your mistakes, but never know how to correct them."
"You tell me, I'll change it."
Bai He took a deep breath and said in a deep voice, "If you still want to get along, first of all, stop trying to change me. Secondly, stop mentioning Qi Lang all the time. He's gone, please let him go, and let me go too. Finally, I can't forgive you for throwing my things, but since you took care of me for so long, I'll let it go. This won't happen again. If you make this mistake again, we'll be done."
Yan Yi's eyes were red as he nodded repeatedly: "Okay, okay, I'll change them all, I'll change them all..."
Bai He then gently stroked his face.
In the end, I compromised.
No matter what he becomes, she can't abandon him.
Yan Yi started crying again, hugged her and said, "Sister, I'm so scared."
Bai He felt like he was going to crush her bones. He lifted her up and wanted to go to the bedroom. Bai He quickly broke free: "No, no..."
"Why, aren't we reconciled?" Yan Yi looked at her longingly, "Sister, don't you want it? It's been a long time since I asked for it."
Bai He still refused and struggled out of his arms: "I haven't completely forgiven you yet. I'll see how you behave and then decide whether to reconcile or not."
Yan Yi didn't force it and nodded obediently: "Okay, I'll listen to you."
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