Chapter 64 Old Things
Regarding Bai He's solemn promise of never forgiving her, but the fact that they reconciled within two days, Zhan Xinyue and Zhu Lianqiao both expressed their opinions:
You are so soft-hearted, you deserve to be manipulated by this scheming man!
In a relationship, it's either the east wind prevails over the west wind, or the west wind prevails over the east wind. No matter what she does... she should give him the cold shoulder for a while, and punish him, let him suffer for a while, and reflect on his wrongdoings.
She is so kind that she becomes so soft-hearted when someone gets sick or cries.
Su Xiaojing, who was drying clothes on the balcony, said: This result is not surprising.
Bai He loves her younger brother so much. She has watched him grow up since he was a child. She would rather suffer injustice herself than let him suffer injustice.
If he felt bad, she would feel a hundred thousand times worse than him.
Bai He smiled and handed her the wrung clothes: "How can it be so exaggerated."
Su Xiaojing asked doubtfully, "Are you sure Yan Yi really changed? Or maybe he's just temporarily reconciled with me because Qi Lang left. If a new crisis arises, there's no guarantee he won't go crazy."
"There won't be any new crises, will there?" Bai He said. "The person he's most concerned about is Qi Lang."
Su Xiaojing hung up the clothes on the clothesline and nudged her with her elbow: "You... don't miss him at all?"
Bai He was startled and subconsciously wanted to deny it. Su Xiaojing quickly said, "Don't lie to me. I don't know what your temper is like."
Bai He sighed and looked at the azure sea in the distance: "Qi and I are not destined to be together. If we miss each other, we can never get back."
"Look, it's not enough for him to pua you, you pua yourself too. You clearly have the chance to be with Bai Yueguang. What's fate? Whether you can have happiness or not depends entirely on whether you are willing to fight for it, okay?"
"You make me look even worse when you say that." Bai He said sullenly, "Originally, I think I'm quite immoral."
"Look, your precious brother is really tearing at your heart. Isn't it said that love is letting go and love is fulfilling? Why can't he fulfill it?"
"Don't try to blackmail him morally," Bai He said. "There's no such thing as too much fulfillment. Love is selfish."
"Oh, you're still speaking for him! Bai He, I think you're really sick! If love is selfish, why did Qi Lang leave? Have you ever thought about it?"
"He left because... because... he thought I didn't like him."
"So you see, isn't this a kind of fulfillment? Take a good look at how much the man you've loved for so many years deserves your love."
Su Xiaojing blurted out, but didn't notice that Bai He's eyes were red.
"Everything is my own choice." She turned away and rubbed her eyes. "I owe Yan Yi... a lot."
In the past two years, Yan Yi's kindness to her, as well as the feelings of more than ten years, piled up in her heart, heavy as a mountain.
She thought, wouldn't all love turn into family affection in the end? She and Yan Yi were originally family.
They will also live happily.
…
As the end of the semester approaches, Bai He spends every day in the library.
Yan Yi has more homework than her, but he still comes to the library to study with her from time to time. Bai He doesn't let him come because he will definitely not be in the mood to study. He will either hold her hand under the table or pull her into the woods to be intimate.
When Bai He walked out of the library that day, he was greeted by a familiar face. He was stunned and recognized him as the instructor of the military training during his freshman year - Fu Siwei.
Fu Siwei looks much more mature. He is wearing a shirt and suit. He has regular facial features and a straight body. He looks very career-oriented.
When Fu Siwei saw her, he was a little distracted and stopped.
The two looked at each other, Bai He smiled at him and greeted him generously: "Senior, would you like to read a book?"
"No, there's a job fair in the Arc Lecture Hall later, and I'm here to apply."
"No wonder you're so energetic." Bai He looked at him and thought of the military training when he was young and shy while training them. "Good luck at the job fair!"
"Um!"
Without saying anything else, Bai He passed him by.
Fu Siwei took two steps, his expression a little conflicted. When Bai He stepped out of the library door, he finally turned around as if he had made up his mind: "Are you still dating that boy?"
"Um...you're saying..."
"Qi Lang's friend is also your friend, the one from the medical school. I heard you two were together before."
"Oh, Yan Yi, he's my boyfriend."
Fu Siwei hesitated for a few seconds and said to her, "I don't know if Qi Lang told you about that."
"What's going on?"
"About me quitting the flag class."
"I don't know. When? Why did you quit?"
Fu Siwei thought for a moment and looked towards the sunny cafe outside the library: "The job fair is still two hours away. I'll buy you a drink. Do you have time?"
Bai He was full of doubts, so she accepted Fu Siwei's invitation.
Fu Siwei took her to a cafe, sat in the open-air garden, and handed her a cup of cappuccino.
"What's going on?" Bai He couldn't suppress her curiosity and asked him, "Why did you quit the flag class, and why did you mention the language translation?"
Fu Siwei leaned against the edge of the chair, his eyes filled with relief and calmness: "I was quite angry at the time, but now that I think about it, it's nothing. So, don't take it to heart."
"Instructor Fu, please tell me!" Bai He asked anxiously, "What's going on?"
"The reason I quit the flag class was because someone reported me to the Youth League Committee, using the video Qi Lang filmed. Do you remember the part in the gym where I asked you to sit on the mat and relax your muscles?"
Bai He's heart suddenly stabbed: "You mean... Qi Lang reported you!"
Then, she immediately shook her head, "No, no, no, Qi Lang has deleted the video, he wouldn't do that..."
"At first, I also thought it was Qi Lang. I was so angry that I went to find him and punched him twice." Fu Siwei lowered his eyes, fiddling with the coffee cup with his fingertips. "Qi Lang said it wasn't him and he didn't do such a thing. I asked him who he gave the video to, but he refused to say, only saying that he would take care of the matter."
Bai He's scalp was numb, and his hands were shaking as he held the coffee...
"Later, I asked a senior student who works for the Youth League Committee, and she said it was a report from a male student at the Medical University. He claimed to be... a family member of the girl in the video, and reported me for seducing female students as an instructor. Of course, he blurred your face and refused to reveal your identity, so the Youth League Committee never contacted you to investigate this matter."
“It’s a translation…”
"Later, Qi Lang settled the matter. He used his connections in the Youth League Committee to explain to the leaders that he had filmed the video and that the angle had caused many misunderstandings. He helped me clear the matter up so that I could continue to stay in the flag class. But I felt very upset, and coupled with the academic burden and other reasons, I simply quit the flag class. Later, Qi Lang treated me to a meal and even offered me financial compensation, hoping that I would not make a big deal out of it and not cause trouble for the whistleblower from the Medical University. I was so angry that I beat him up again."
Fu Siwei said helplessly, "Thinking about it now, I feel quite sorry for him. The whole thing...actually, I can't blame him. He was just protecting his friend."
"It was Yan Yi who did it..." Bai He was so angry that his hands were shaking and his mind was in a mess. "It was him who did it..."
"Later, the Youth League Committee teacher warned me that this time, I could let it go and not be punished, but I couldn't contact you again. If it got out, it would affect the reputation of the flag class. Even if I quit now, I couldn't get involved with you again. If that person reported me again, I would definitely be punished severely."
Fu Siwei's eyes were filled with uncontrollable sadness. "When I decided to quit the flag class, I was just thinking... maybe I could give it another try and pursue you. I really was attracted to you. But after being warned like that, I lost my courage. I was afraid I'd get a serious demerit. I don't have a good family background, and if I got a demerit, my future would be ruined."
Bai He's eyes turned red, and she was a little emotional. She said, "I'm sorry, Fu Siwei, I'm really sorry."
"Don't apologize to me." Fu Siwei quickly handed her a tissue, a little flustered, "This has nothing to do with you."
"It's all because of me that you quit the flag class and caused so much trouble."
"Don't say that." Fu Siwei wiped her tears with a tissue. "The reason I told you everything today is because... I want you to see clearly what kind of person your boyfriend is. Maybe you think I'm trying to sow discord between us, but it doesn't matter. I'm about to graduate anyway, and there's no possibility for us to be together anymore. But you're the first girl I've liked, and I don't want bad people to influence you. Even though you've been together for a long time and your relationship is deep, I still have to say what I need to say so that you can judge for yourself."
His words were very tactful and implicit.
Bai He understood what he meant.
She looked at him with apologetic eyes: "I'm really sorry, I don't know how to make it up to you."
"I don't want any compensation, I just want you to be happy. I'll stay in Beili City for work, and maybe we'll have a chance to meet again in the future." Fu Siwei checked the time on his phone, "I should go to the job fair."
Bai He quickly stood up to see him off: "I wish you all the best in finding your ideal job."
Fu Siwei looked at her deeply and nodded.
After he left, Bai He immediately called Qi Lang to confirm the matter with him.
After hearing what she said, Qi Lang's brows knitted into a small mountain shape: "Damn, this is so old that the almanac is still being dug up."
"So, you knew about this, but you didn't tell me."
"There's nothing much to say. It was just a misunderstanding, and it's all resolved. Don't overthink it." Qi Lang said calmly, "How have you been lately?"
"You are such a good brother! You cover everything for him. If one day he kills someone or sets fire to something, you will also help him hide it, right?" Bai He was so angry that she almost died, especially Qi Lang's frivolous attitude, which added fuel to the fire.
Qi Lang could tell she was in a bad mood and quickly explained, "No, how could that be? Don't you understand Yan Yi's character? How could he kill or set fire to something? I didn't tell you at the time because I didn't want you to feel burdened. After the incident, I criticized and educated him severely on your behalf."
"You criticized and educated him? You're lucky you didn't get beaten by him. Will he listen to you?"
"I threatened him, saying I'd tell you if he didn't behave. He was really scared and told me not to tell you. I was impulsive this time and I won't do anything like this again."
“…”
Qi Lang's tone softened. "Sayuri, what's happened is over. The three of us should trust each other and not let irrelevant people's words hurt our feelings. If you're really angry, go ahead and beat him up, but don't burn yourself out. Don't blame yourself for the mistakes and keep it in your heart."
He really understood her.
He knows her better than she knows herself...
Bai He squatted helplessly against the wall, tears rolling out of her eyes like beads, and she almost choked.
"Seven, it would be great if you were here. Everything I do now is wrong. I can't breathe."
On the other end of the phone, the boy's breathing was unstable. Suddenly, he controlled his tone and said, "Do you want me to come back to see you?"
"No...no..." Bai He said in panic, "Your return will only make things even more chaotic."
He said dejectedly, "Okay."
"Fu Siwei said he beat you up. Did it hurt?"
“…”
Qi Lang didn't know what to say. After a long while, he suppressed his surging emotions and smiled solemnly, "If you ask me like this, I'm going to misunderstand you."
Bai He didn't say anything else. He lowered his head and pulled at his shoelaces, sobbing suppressedly.
"Sayuri, you're making me break down with your crying."
He said, "You know my heart, don't torture me, okay?"
Bai He hung up the phone in a panic and didn't see the lonely figure of the young man in the shadow of the trees in the distance.
A pair of desperate black eyes looked at her brokenly.
…
During the two days of the final exam, Bai He and Yan Yi had a cold war again.
Qi Lang had obviously told Yan Yi that Fu Siwei had looked for her, so Yan Yi didn't dare to look for her again, or even call her, for fear that she would break up again in anger.
I can only...escape and hope that time can cool her down a little.
The train tickets to go home together were bought a month ago, so the two did not finally meet until the day they returned home.
In the KFC at the train station, Yan Yi walked in with his suitcase and saw Bai He sitting alone by the window, chewing on crispy chicken.
Seeing him coming, she ignored him and turned away.
Yan Yi put his black suitcase next to her small white suitcase, looked down at the train departure time, it was still early, so he went to buy himself a hamburger meal. When he came back, he handed her her favorite French fries, with a ketchup packet already squeezed on the paper.
Bai He didn't touch the fries, and in the end, Yan Yi ate them himself.
Every time he chewed, he found it hard to swallow. She ignored him. He hadn't been able to eat for many days and had lost a lot of weight.
The two walked into the high-speed rail station one after the other. It was too crowded when getting on the train. Yan Yi subconsciously wanted to hold his hand, but Bai He shook his hand off.
The translation is not forced.
After a three-hour drive, Tang Xin and Bai Xincheng came to the train station to pick up the siblings as usual. Bai He went up to hug her mother, her eyes red with tears: "I missed you so much."
"I've never seen you think this way before." Tang Xin smiled and patted her back. "Okay, okay, why are you crying again?"
"Uncle and aunt, is everything going well at home recently?" Yan Yi asked.
"It's great! Your dad even opened a branch and sold it to someone else. Our family income is increasing." Tang Xin couldn't wait to share his joy with them. "By the time you graduate, maybe we'll even have enough saved for a down payment on a house!"
When Bai He heard this, his heart trembled and he looked at Yan Yi.
Yan Yi pretended to be calm and said, "I... don't need uncle or aunt to save for the down payment, I can do it myself."
"I know you're capable. You don't need one, but Sayuri always wants one," Tang Xin said. "Having a pre-nuptial apartment will protect you from being wronged after you get married."
Hearing that his parents didn't know about them, Bai He felt a little relieved and said, "How come we're talking about getting married? We don't even know when it will be! I'm so hungry, let's go back and eat!"
Bai Xincheng said, "Let's go out to eat today to welcome you two."
So, the family of four went to a Nanjing restaurant in the mall, listened to Pingtan, and had a happy meal.
Bai Xincheng asked them, "You'll be a senior next year, right? Do you have any plans for the future?"
Bai He said, "It's getting harder and harder to find a job. I still want to take the postgraduate entrance exam. I asked my teacher, and he said my grades should be good enough for admission. If I'm successful, I'd like to work as an intern reporter at a news station during my senior year."
"That's great! I can balance my studies with practical work experience." Bai Xincheng said with satisfaction, "Sayuri has really grown up."
"Where is Ayi?" Tang Xin asked Yan Yi.
"I'm also applying for admission to graduate school," he said, "but... I haven't made up my mind yet. Maybe I have other plans."
Bai He looked at him, and Bai Xincheng asked curiously, "What's the plan?"
"Next semester, I'll tell my uncle and auntie when it's confirmed."
"That's fine," Tang Xin said. "Our family doesn't need you to start working so soon. You should improve your education, especially since you're studying medicine. It would be even more important if you could get a doctorate or something. You'll have a bright and promising future! I'll arrange a blind date for you, so you can look more presentable, right?"
Bai Xincheng said, "Okay, with our family's conditions, there's no need for him to go on blind dates. There must be plenty of girls pursuing him in school."
Tang Xin: "Yeah, first of all, you don't have to worry about it. But Sayuri, no one's interested in her. Mom will have to keep an eye on her for you. Oh, and my poker friend Aunt Wang's son is a returned overseas master's student. He's also coming home for the New Year this year. Aunt Wang even said we should have dinner together."
As soon as these words were spoken, Yan Yi put down his chopsticks.
Bai He looked at him and said, "Mom, what are you doing? You're arranging a blind date for me as soon as I get back. I haven't even graduated yet. What if I graduate? I won't dare go home anymore!"
"Isn't mom worried that you're introverted and can't find a boyfriend? Look, Qi Lang has also returned to Gangcheng. Isn't this...worrying that you'll be sad?"
"I'm not sad! I won't go if I don't want to!"
Bai Xincheng looked at Yan Yi, then at Bai He: "Alright, you handle it yourself. Mom and Dad won't bother with your affairs anymore."
"It's best to leave it alone. I have no intention of falling in love. I just want to study. Isn't that what you want most?"
"In high school, of course I hoped you would focus on studying, but things are different now. Love life is also important." Tang Xin said, "What about Yi? Do you have a girlfriend?"
"Auntie, I also... just want to study."
"You two are really..." Tang Xin didn't know what to say.
Bai Xincheng pulled her hand and said, "If you don't know what to say, just don't say anything. Leave them alone and let things take their course."
Yan Yi looked at Bai He, who lowered his head and ate without saying a word.
Bai He and Su Xiaojing made an appointment to go out to the mountains to collect materials and take photos. She was not at home for a few days, so naturally she did not bring Yan Yi with her. She came back just before the Chinese New Year. Yan Yi was worried that she did not have enough money for the trip and was short of money, so he often transferred money to her.
Bai He accepted the money her boyfriend gave her, but she continued the cold war with him, ignoring him. Only when he took the initiative to break the ice and tell her about his thoughts and admit his mistakes would Bai He have the possibility of forgiving him.
Yan Yi didn't dare to mention it. He just hoped that time could heal the knot in his heart.
During the day, Yan Yi went to the library to read books and write papers, and at night he went to the restaurant to help Bai Xincheng greet guests, so he didn't have much time to meet Bai He.
That day, Yan Yi tagged Qi Lang in the [Liangshan Heroes Trio] group, which had been silent for a long time, and asked him if he would come back for the Chinese New Year this year?
Qi Lang said he couldn’t come back.
Bai He didn't say anything.
It's not that he doesn't want to come back, he just doesn't want to affect their relationship.
Especially now that they had talked about it, Bai He knew his feelings, and he didn't want her to feel guilty even more.
Given this girl's inward-thinking nature...if he were to hang around her all day, even if she didn't like him, she would probably feel a lot of pressure.
Qi Lang couldn't bear to see her feel awkward or unhappy in the slightest.
And he is even more afraid of facing his own heart.
After the Chinese New Year, it was time to return to school. That night in the middle of the night, Yan Yi missed her so much that he tried to push her door open.
However, Bai He locked the door.
He lay by the wall, calling her name sadly: "Bai He, Bai He..."
Bai He covered his ears tightly with a pillow, closed his eyes, and tried to escape from it all.
After venting his anger, the boy felt extremely shameless and hid in his bed sobbing and choking.
Bai He could only cry with him silently.
Bai He felt that Yan Yi might really have a mental problem, but she didn't dare let her parents know, so when the spring semester started, as soon as she returned to school, she sent Yan Yi a text message -
Lily: "Come with me to the hospital's psychiatric department for a checkup tomorrow."
1: "Okay."
She originally thought Yan Yi would refuse, but she didn't expect him to agree so easily. She breathed a sigh of relief.
The next day, she took Yan Yi to the First People's Hospital of Beili City and checked into the psychiatric department. Yan Yi followed her obediently all the way. When entering the hospital, he tried to hold her hand, but fortunately she did not shake him off.
While waiting in line to register, he asked her, "Sister, if this is because I'm sick, can you forgive me?"
"Whether you are sick or not and whether I forgive you or not are two different things. If you did something wrong, it's wrong."
"I'll go apologize to Fu Siwei in person, okay?"
"Don't go looking for him. There's no need. I guess he doesn't want to see you either." Bai He said, "Let's take a look at the test results first."
After registering, Yan Yi entered the doctor's office and followed the procedure, first taking a medical history, undergoing a physical examination, then a mental evaluation, etc., and also answering questions...
The waiting time for diagnosis and treatment was very long, and Bai He was bored, so he simply made an appointment for himself.
I'm mainly curious and want to see what the process of detecting depression is like.
If you learn more about him, you will know what is going on with him.
In the afternoon, Yan Yi completed the SDS depression test. The doctor gave an analysis based on his physical condition and found that Yan Yi's mental state was normal and he did not suffer from any mental illness.
"Sister! I'm fine!"
He walked out happily with the test report, wanting to reassure her.
However, Bai He stood against the wall in a daze, looking distraught...
Yan Yi came over with a frown, and she subconsciously hid a report in her schoolbag: "I'm glad you're okay, go back."
Yan Yi did not miss this subtle movement. He walked two steps with her as if nothing had happened, and when she was not paying attention, he forcibly took the documents out of her schoolbag.
"Translation!"
Before Bai He could react, he had already seen the psychoanalysis report.
Report results: Bai He suffers from moderate depression.
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