Chapter 45: Seeing the Words
At night, Yan Yi returned to the dormitory, took a hot shower, and walked to the balcony feeling refreshed. He gently and carefully opened the letter Bai He wrote to him.
Dear Ayi:
It's like seeing you in person.
I've never written a love letter before, so it's not very good. I hope you don't mind. As for your third wish, honestly, I'm so shocked that I'm a bit dazed right now. I can't believe we're really together. I know you're good to me, and for a long time, I took it for granted, thinking we loved each other because we were family. Besides, I'm obviously an ordinary girl, and I always thought you'd fall in love with someone better in the future.
How could it be me?
I'm flattered and can't believe it.
It was not until after my birthday that I thought carefully about the past and realized that there had been signs of everything. All your expressions were hidden in the details, but I was too careless to notice them.
I felt warm, but also deeply ashamed. You must be well aware of the reason for this shame: because of the existence of another person, I must have often made you sad, but you never showed it.
In addition to saying sorry, I also want to say thank you to you. Thank you for remembering every dish I like to eat, thank you for appearing in my ordinary life, and thank you for always loving me.
——Sister, I am also your nervous yet happy girlfriend.
Moonlight shone on the balcony, casting a shadow on the sweet scent of candy. The wind carried the coolness of autumn. After Yan Yi finished reading her letter, a wave of fear welled up in his heart.
He snatched this happiness from Qi Lang.
How to keep her.
If one day, when she discovered all the truth, she found out that because of his selfishness and concealment, she missed the most shining dream of her girlhood.
Will you hate him?
When that day comes, how will he cope with it? How will he feel?
Yan Yi put himself on the cross and let the flames burn him. This reply letter was written in this mood.
The next morning, Bai He went downstairs to the cafeteria with his roommates to have breakfast. The dormitory supervisor called Bai He and said, "Bai He from Dormitory 233, here is a letter for you."
"Huh?"
Bai He took the letter and saw the clear and vigorous handwriting on the wooden envelope, which read:
Letter from Bai He himself.
The dorm manager smiled and said, "What a handsome boy! I wonder how long he's been waiting outside the door. As soon as I opened the door at 5:30 this morning, he was already waiting at the door, asking me to give you this letter."
"Yo yo yo." The roommates started to make a noise.
Bai He's face turned red as she hurriedly opened the envelope. Su Xiaojing, Zhan Xinyue and the others quickly leaned over to look in, like curious babies.
Bai He immediately put the envelope back and stuffed it into his schoolbag.
Zhu Lianqiao: "Stingy!"
Zhan Xinyue pushed her little head away: "It's someone else's love letter, why are you looking at it? If you have the ability, find a boyfriend to write to you too."
Zhu Lianqiao deliberately said loudly: "It's easy to find a boyfriend, but there are not many boyfriends who can write handwritten letters to their girlfriends these days!"
Su Xiaojing covered her chest and sighed, "Yan Yi is such a pure love. My God, I used to laugh at him for being a wooden man. I was wrong about him. I also want to have such a pure love man. Where can I find one?"
"What do you mean by pure lust man?" Bai He couldn't help laughing. "What a strange word!"
"Yeah, don't you think the way he looks at you is lustful?" Su Xiaojing said seriously, "Every time he looks at you, his eyes are full of lust."
"You speak as if you've already discovered it."
Su Xiaojing: "Please, let the whole world know that Yan Yi likes you!"
"...Ah?" Bai He looked at her in surprise. "What does the whole world... include?"
"Me, Qi Lang, my brother, and all the classmates in high school who know you and Yan Yi."
Bai He held his head in his hands: "You all knew it a long time ago! I was the only one who didn't know! Then why didn't you tell me!"
"Well, we all thought Yan Yi wouldn't tell you. After all, it's common knowledge that you like Qi Lang, and he's your younger brother," Su Xiaojing said helplessly. "Who knew he would be so stubborn? He rushed to confess his feelings to you as soon as he became an adult, and he couldn't wait even a minute longer."
Zhu Lianqiao: "I'm very curious, why do you have to wait until you're an adult to confess your feelings?"
Su Xiaojing seemed to understand the translation very well: "This brother will never fight an unprepared battle. If he fails once in confessing his love, he won't get a second chance. Unless he is 99% sure that Bai He will definitely agree, he will not act rashly."
"That sounds quite scheming."
"The three of them, two silly big golden retrievers and a scheming little Teddy."
Bai He didn't want to admit that Yan Yi had tricked him, so he quickly said, "No, I might not agree, okay? He can't be sure either."
"Then why don't you refuse?"
"I…"
"I can't explain it, but Yan Yi is sure you won't refuse."
"If you say that, then he is plotting against me." Bai He remembered what Qi Lang said angrily to Yan Yi that night. He said that he knew Bai He didn't like him, but he still confessed to her because he was sure that she would not refuse.
"He's been plotting against you from the beginning, my silly sister. Three wishes, a secret room, bungee jumping, a confession... step by step, carefully crafted, to trap you in his carefully woven web."
"From what you said." Bai He was a little sad, "It seems like I was a fool to agree to him."
Su Xiaojing sighed and took her hand: "You, making others comfortable is more important than making yourself comfortable. You have always been very self-destructive."
"Did I do something wrong?" Bai He looked at Su Xiaojing.
"It has nothing to do with right or wrong, it's all about preference. Between someone I like and someone who likes me, I'll choose the former. I only date men I like."
Zhu Lianqiao quickly raised her hand: "I choose the latter! I want to find someone who loves and cares for me! The premise for me to like a man is that he also has to like me. So I vote for my younger brother!"
Bai He looked at Zhan Xinyue, and Zhan Xinyue said, "I choose what I like. I'm not short of love."
Zhu Lianqiao quickly objected: "I have hobbies, but people have different pursuits."
"I'll choose too...I'll choose the one who likes me!" Bai He said hesitantly.
"Really?" The three roommates expressed doubt in unison.
The girls walked into the cafeteria, and Bai He saw Qi Lang also getting his meal.
He had a beautiful face that could stand the test of scrutiny, with thin eyelids and clear black eyes.
He smiled heartily, with deep dimples at the corners of his mouth, as bright and energetic as the summer sun.
He was as popular as ever, with many girls staring at him.
Bai He withdrew his gaze unnaturally.
Qi Lang saw Bai He and the others, walked over with a tray of food, and sat down opposite them.
"Hi." He greeted them neatly and naturally.
"Good morning, campus hunk." Zhan Xinyue smiled and waved.
Bai He also smiled at him reservedly, lowered her head and ate without saying a word.
Qi Lang's black eyes seemed to be fixed on her, and he looked up at her from time to time.
A girl walked up to Qi Lang, sat down with a smile, and wanted to chat with him.
Qi Lang coldly refused: "Sorry, I'm in a withdrawal period recently and I'm not making friends anymore."
The girl wanted to tease him a few more times, but seeing that he had stopped smiling and didn't seem to be joking, she had no choice but to leave in embarrassment.
Su Xiaojing used his elbow to hit Bai He crazily. Bai He said, "What are you doing?"
Su Xiaojing: "Nothing, just bumping into it."
She was really scratching her head, wanting Bai He to know! Qi Lang's words were obviously meant for her!
The undercurrent between these three people... makes the onlookers so happy.
Qi Lang rejected the girl and looked at the girls: "What are you talking about?"
Zhu Lianqiao spoke quickly and said, "We were talking about Yan Yi writing a love letter to Bai He. He was so infatuated that he sent it to the dormitory door early in the morning!"
Qi Lang said "Oh" without any reaction. He lowered his head and ate half of a steamed bun that was almost hardened into a lump.
The food is tasteless.
"Principal Qi, have you ever written a love letter to a girl?" Zhan Xinyue asked curiously.
"No."
"You've dated so many ex-girlfriends, but you've never written a love letter?"
"I didn't talk much," Qi Lang said. "Two in high school, two in junior high. We weren't just playing around. We were serious about it."
Su Xiaojing and Zhan Xinyue exchanged glances. It seemed that what he said was a bit of an attempt to justify his identity as a scumbag?
"Well, now that you put it that way, it doesn't seem like much." Zhu Lianqiao said, "Then why did you divide it up later?"
"Finding someone who's compatible with you and has a good understanding with you isn't easy," Qi Lang answered her seriously. "When I was little, I felt very lonely. I wanted to have someone by my side and develop a closer relationship, so I dated a few girls to give it a try. But in the end, they weren't satisfactory and it just didn't work out, so we broke up."
Su Xiaojing mustered up the courage to ask, "Well, since you want someone to accompany you, why don't you consider Bai He?"
In an instant, Bai He's face turned as red as cherries. She pinched Su Xiaojing hard with her hand under the table and threatened her with her eyes not to ask random questions.
But, the question has been asked.
Zhan Xinyue and Zhu Lianqiao held their breath and stared at Qi Lang intently.
The young man lowered his eyes, his long eyelashes covering his eyelids densely, and raised the corners of his mouth. Before he could speak, Bai He quickly interrupted the awkwardness: "Qi Lang and I have the purest revolutionary friendship! Stop talking nonsense!"
Qi Lang chuckled lightly: "Yeah, a rabbit doesn't eat grass near its burrow. I won't touch her no matter who I touch."
Bai He stared at the pumpkin porridge in the bowl that had been stirred into water, with a numb expression.
I thought it wouldn't hurt anymore.
Her heart was deceiving her.
Zhan Xinyue and Zhu Lianqiao tugged at each other's sleeves. Su Xiaojing looked at Qi Lang with regret: "It seems that you have a strong sense of professional ethics. You really wouldn't consider turning your friend into a girlfriend?"
"No." Qi Lang said firmly, "Because I cherish it too much, I don't want to lose it."
"Uh uh."
Qi Lang looked at Bai He, whose face was flushed with embarrassment, knowing that she must have been extremely embarrassed. "Forget it, let's not talk about this. She's in the honeymoon phase right now, so this kind of ambiguous topic isn't appropriate. You'd better not make jokes about her and other boys. Yan Yi is very jealous."
After saying that, he picked up the plate and left. After taking two steps, he seemed to remember something and looked back at Bai He: "Sayuri."
"Yeah." She looked up blankly.
"For the photography exhibition we planned together earlier, the student union is organizing a photography event in the ancient town. We'll be there this weekend and back the next day. Remember to send a text message to the group. I'll have Senior Liu send you the detailed copy."
"Oh, okay."
Qi Lang picked up his bag and left.
Su Xiaojing spread her index finger and thumb to form a seven, lowered her jaw, and, like Sherlock Holmes—
"It seems that you have been wishful thinking for so many years."
"But considering his performance some time ago, I don't think so."
"Strange, what went wrong?"
Zhan Xinyue pulled Su Xiaojing, winked, and told her to stop talking.
Su Xiaojing turned her head and saw Bai He eating without saying a word.
Tears flowed down her cheeks.
…
Dear Bai He:
It's like seeing you in person.
I'm writing this letter to you in the wee hours of the morning. The day was packed with classes, labs, and clubs—all demanding both mental and emotional effort. My entire day was taken up, and I felt exhausted. But the moment I saw your letter, all that tiredness vanished. I wonder if you'll feel the same way after reading my letter.
I am well aware that my enthusiasm, my words, and my love for you will put enormous pressure on you, and you must feel very uncomfortable when you open my letter.
Sorry, Bai He.
I write less.
You see, I'm still not used to calling you sister. Sayuri is occupied by him, and I don't want to call her that either. I'm afraid that when I call you that, you'll be thinking of him.
When you read the letter, are you thinking about me or him?
I'm sorry, I'm sorry I can't control myself and always think about this. From now on I won't mention him. Don't be angry, I love you.
You told me in your letter that you were an ordinary girl and didn't understand why I loved you, and that I flattered you.
Although I guess this shock is more of a fright than a surprise.
You don't know how wonderful you are, or how much I cherish you every time I look at you. You're like the fireworks that shot up into the sky that night, illuminating the dark path I took before turning eighteen. You're the sum of all the best things in my life. You're the brilliant fiery clouds in the sky at dusk, the swallows migrating south and returning north in pursuit of the warmer months, the gurgling streams flowing into rivers, lakes, and seas. All the beauty in the world can't compare to your smile to me.
I like you so much, so much.
Because you agreed to confess your love to me, I realized that the happiest thing in this world is not the pleasure of reaching the climax at that moment... It is getting what you want, it is the dream coming true, and I can hold you in my arms.
Unconsciously, I have written too much. Please don't feel pressured. It's my business that I like you. I don't ask for the same love in return. You don't have to reply to me. I just want you to be happy.
But then again, what kind of love doesn't need a response? I'm not a saint, and I'm not like what the lyrics in "Quiet" say: "I will learn to give up on you because I love you too much."
I can't do it, Bai He.
You see, I am so conflicted. I want you to be happy, but how can you be happy because of me? Sister, please love me. If you are willing to forget him and fall in love with me, I will make you so happy.
I'm sorry for putting pressure on you again. I'm sorry.
Late-night texts are always sentimental. I wonder if you'll cry or laugh after reading them. I wanted to cry after reading your letter. Every word filled me with happiness, but this happiness also made me feel uneasy, because I've done things I'm ashamed of, and I don't deserve this happiness.
If punishment comes one day, I hope you will have mercy on me because I have loved you for so many years.
Well, I can’t write anymore, so I’ll stop here.
No need to reply.
——
Love you, Yi.
…
After studying in the library for an entire afternoon and completing all his homework, Bai He opened Yan Yi's letter and read it carefully.
There is no doubt that the walking tear bag can no longer hold back.
I cried for two people today, and Bai He felt that she was the biggest scumbag in the world.
But as things have progressed step by step to this day, who could have predicted that she would also want to do as Yan Yi said in the letter... forget Qi Lang and fall in love with him.
How happy it would be to be in love with Yan Yi, the most affectionate big dog in the universe.
Bai He packed his schoolbag and ran to Beili Medical University without sending a message to Yan Yi.
Only when he reached the bottom of Yan Yi's dormitory did Bai He realize that he was a little impulsive.
If you come here regardless of everything, what if he is busy? Even if he is not busy, it will be very embarrassing to run into him. You should tell him in advance.
From a distance, I saw Yan Yi coming downstairs, carrying an extra-large thermos, and going to the water room to get hot water.
After the military training, he had obviously grown taller, his figure was as slim as a string, his sideburns were shaved short, his previous creamy look had faded, and now he looked more manly.
Although the skin is still white, the muscles are more prominent and the facial features have become sharper.
Whether intentionally or unintentionally, he gradually became more like Qi Lang in temperament.
Bai He turned around and walked away. After taking two steps, she heard the young man behind her calling her——
"Bai He?"
Bai He had no choice but to turn around and greet him: "Hi!"
"Why did you come here without telling me?" Yan Yi trotted over, carrying a thermos bottle. "Or did you just want to leave?"
"It's okay, it's okay, it's okay." Bai He waved her hands repeatedly, "I was just taking a walk, just wandering around, and before I knew it I came to your place. I guessed you were busy eating at this time, and you have evening classes later, so I thought I wouldn't disturb you, so I just took a look and left."
Before he finished speaking, Yan Yi put down the thermos and picked her up along with her schoolbag, lifting her feet off the ground.
"Hajime!"
Yan Yi wrapped his arms around the girl's waist tightly, resting his chin on her chest, and looked up at her: "Did you miss me?"
"Uh... so direct."
"You missed me!"
"A little bit, but not particularly." Bai He was extremely embarrassed to say such cheesy words, "Put me down first."
"Let's go to the grove."
“Hey hey!”
This guy...why did he pull her into the woods as soon as he saw her!
Entering the grove, Yan Yi couldn't wait to put his arm around her waist, hug her, put his face against her neck, and breathe deeply: "I missed you so much."
"We just met yesterday."
"It feels like a long time."
Bai He lowered her head and saw that he was pressing against her again, poking at her intently.
God!
This little Teddy...
"Have you read the letter, Bai He?"
"I saw it. I just saw it." Bai He tried to hug him so that he could feel her embrace. "It made me cry."
Yan Yi felt a little embarrassed and blushed: "It's very pretentious. I wrote it at night. I can't write it during the day."
"I never knew you had so many thoughts and so delicate thoughts in your mind."
Feeling her tightening embrace, Yan Yi became even more excited. Bai He could clearly feel that it had become much firmer, like a fist poking her.
"You're so lecherous."
"I'm sorry, I can't help it. This happens when I touch you." He moved away slightly to avoid pressing against her vital parts.
"Hayi, there's something I need to tell you."
"Um?"
"This weekend, the college student union will organize a trip to the ancient town to collect materials for next week's photography exhibition, and I will be joining the group."
"That means we can't meet on weekends."
"You're not free this weekend, are you? I was thinking of asking you to come along, and just treat it as a short trip, leaving on the same day and returning the next day."
"I have a part-time job on weekends, tutoring students," Yan Yi said, "I might not be able to accompany you."
"Oh, this is so hard."
"It's not hard." He looked at the girl in front of him, his eyes filled with incomparable tenderness, "I'm very motivated right now."
Bai He seemed to be hesitant to speak, and repeatedly asked him to confirm: "Can the tutoring time be changed?"
"Of course I can, but..." Yan Yi had some doubts. "Do you really want me to go? If you really want me to go, I can contact you to change the time. It's not a big problem."
Bai He hesitated for a few seconds, and finally confessed: "Because, as an officer of the school student union, Qi Lang will also be there."
Yan Yi saw the timidity and guilt in the girl's eyes.
He pretended not to notice and only said, "Because Qi Lang will go, you want me to go, worried that I will have wild thoughts?"
"Of course I don't want you to have any wild thoughts. I'm afraid you'll get upset if you find out later. So even if you don't go, I have to tell you the truth about this."
Yan Yi pinched her chin with his fingertips and gently lifted it up: "Can I trust my sister?"
"Of course," she said.
It is a well-known fact that Qi Lang is not interested in her. Bai He has already promised Yan Yi that she will try hard to control her heart.
"Okay, I believe you."
Yan Yi leaned against her ear and said in a wet voice, "Don't report these little things to me in the future."
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