For Lin Tantan, the biggest ups and downs in life are to see her lover succeed in his career and be proposed to, and to be ready to spend the rest of her life with him, only to find out the next moment that everything she has now is just a fantasy, and she is a rootless and wandering ghost who can be driven away at any time.
She completely drooped.
She was well aware that she was an outsider, but she had never considered that this body, borrowed from someone else, might one day be returned... Perhaps it was, but she had never dared to dwell on it. Without this body, where would she go? Would she even exist? Then all her plans based on this body would become a mirage.
She stayed in Ye Xiao's arms with her eyes open until dawn, but she looked haggard as if she hadn't rested for ten days or half a month. Her eyes were bloodshot, and she looked anxious and listless.
Ye Xiao asked her with concern and anxiety, but she just shook her head and couldn't tell the reason.
The next day Ye Xiao wanted to accompany her again, but she refused.
"I want to be alone and think about it," she said.
"I want to help you." Ye Xiao said, "Please don't hide things from me, okay?"
Lin Tan Tan thought about it and said okay, but in his heart he said that you really can't help me with this matter.
She sat alone for a while. Her spirit was so low that the animals, big and small, who were used to playing with her, didn't dare to bother her. They just watched from afar. After thinking for a long time, she tidied herself up and went to find Xu Tianjin.
Xu Tianjin is different from her, a lazy person. Now the information technology group, oh, has been established as a formal department. This department is very busy. The communication network within the base has been completed, and small-scale Internet connectivity has been achieved within the base. Everyone's entertainment activities have suddenly become richer, and they can watch dramas, download music and listen to songs.
Now, this department is actively contacting other bases, striving to keep abreast of external developments in a timely manner.
Lin Tan Tan went to talk to Xu Tianjin in the small garden outside the department. He asked him, "Since you've been here for so long, have you ever sensed the consciousness of this body's original owner?"
Xu Tianjin was stunned for a moment, a little confused. "No, actually, I haven't thought about the past for a long time. It's like I belong to this world. Doctor Lin, why are you asking this all of a sudden?"
Lin Tantan adjusted his latest thin windbreaker, which had just come out of the garment factory, and looked at a small pink and white flower in the flowerbed. He said softly, "I dreamed of her. She told me to leave this body."
Xu Tianjin was a little confused for a moment. When he realized what she was talking about, he was shocked. "Really? How is this possible? Are you saying that she, she still exists?"
He pointed at Lin Tan Tan, his face full of disbelief: "Are you overthinking it? Dreams don't necessarily mean they're real, right? Have you ever felt her presence or heard her voice when you were awake?"
Lin Tan Tan rubbed her head. "Not yet, I don't know..." Her mood had indeed fluctuated wildly yesterday. First, the base was established, then Ye Xiao proposed. She truly felt a sense of fulfillment, a sense of fulfillment. Could it be that she felt she had accomplished everything she had wanted to do after her time travel, even the things she had hoped for, that she had no regrets and could leave, and so she was thinking about it day and night and dreaming about it?
Not really, she still wants to spend her whole life with Ye Xiao.
She asked Xu Tianjin, "Why do you think we were able to travel through time? What exactly is time travel? What kind of power allowed us to come here?"
Xu Tianjin was stumped by the question and spoke for a moment before saying, "I don't know. I think I was influenced by you, Doctor Lin. I came here during your memorial service, and I was very close to your... body. I don't know if that's why I'm here. Doctor Lin, did you decide to come here on your own?"
Lin Tan Tan was silent. She did have this wish before she died. Three hundred years later, she felt that she had done her best to repay everyone, including her country, teachers, parents and relatives.
She started practicing when she was five or six years old, and officially began working as a therapist at the age of fourteen. Her entire life seemed to be spent in practice and work. Her only entertainment was chasing stars, and she had to fight against the energy in her body from time to time. She was very satisfied with her final achievement, but also very tired. She was tired of living like that.
Later, her supernatural powers collapsed and she knew that she would not live long. However, she did not feel very sad or upset, and even faced such an ending very calmly.
My only wish is to meet Ye Xiao, and preferably help him change his fate, and be able to stand up and run and jump in the next life.
Then she opened her eyes again and came into this world.
Was it her wish that brought her here? Could a single thought of hers have such power?
So now that her wish has been granted, her power to stay here is gone, should she just leave?
She suddenly remembered one thing. After her superpowers began to show signs of collapse, she accepted her fate very smoothly and felt that death was nothing. Then her superpowers collapsed very quickly. The professional doctor who examined her told her that how long a patient with a terminal illness can live is closely related to her willpower. A person with a strong will to survive can live longer.
Finally, he said to her, "I can't sense your will to live, Doctor Lin. Is there nothing in this world worth your attachment?"
At the time, she smiled and said, "What's the point of living a little longer? If this is destined to be the end, why struggle so miserably?"
"Think about the people who love you, think about the patients who need you. You are a huge asset to the entire country."
"But I can't work anymore. Instead of waiting for me, those patients should find another doctor immediately. Instead of continuing to pin their hopes on me, my parents should focus on my brother. And the country... I heard that the National Psychic Association has started promoting a new batch of wood-type psychics."
"I'm already, dispensable." She even knew that some people hoped she would die sooner after learning that the collapse of her superpowers could not be reversed. A five-element superpower user who could almost become a legend should also have a life experience to match it. Either live a perfect life to old age, or die at the most regrettable age, so that she can leave the most significant mark.
For example, during an interview after she became ill, she heard a TV crew member who was hiding to smoke an e-cigarette at the stairs complain: "He was already 20 years old. If he died at 19, that would be the age of blooming flowers, and it would be more shocking."
In fact, Lin Tantan didn't react at all when he heard this, and even found it funny. It was not until later, when his reflexes were too long and he recalled these words at night, that he felt a chill in his heart.
She admitted that she was a relatively emotional person. She could laugh off everything most of the time, but occasionally she would be upset about someone's words. Her body was very strong, but the heart contained in her body was not as strong as steel.
That is, after hearing those words, she, who had originally accepted her fate quite easily, became even more indifferent to her body and even became a little negative. As a result, her condition progressed even more rapidly. In just a few months, she fell from a level close to the maximum, becoming a weak and powerless patient, and finally died quickly.
At her level, state of mind and belief are really important. If you are not careful, an overly powerful ability may go wrong. If a fragile body wants to control powerful power, it needs the help of belief and willpower.
But is this kind of thing really that important?
Lin Tantan looked expressionlessly at the flowers and plants in the flowerbed, at the pedestrians passing by in the distance, at the hills farther away, at the bright sunshine, and at the vast blue sky.
But she doesn't want to leave here now.
Xu Tianjin looked at her anxiously as she stood there expressionlessly for a long time, as if she was thinking about something. Then her expression gradually became firmer, so firm that it was even a little sharp, and an extremely strong fighting spirit seemed to emanate from her body.
…
After saying goodbye to Xu Tianjin, Lin Tantan went back home, closed the doors and windows, and locked herself in the room. Sitting in the dim room, she said to herself, "Lin Tantan?"
There was no physical change, and no sound responded.
She continued, "Are you just a dream I had, or do you really exist?"
"Aren't you dead?"
"what you up to?"
"If you really exist, come out and talk to me."
She muttered to herself like a lunatic for a long time, but got no response. She was not in a hurry and slowly poured herself a glass of wine. It was so small that it was not even as high as her finger. It was a small sky-blue porcelain cup with a delicate and warm touch. She collected it specially because she felt that this color was very similar to Ye Xiao's supernatural color, and she liked it as soon as she saw it.
She held the small wine glass, with no particular emotion on her face, took a deep breath, and drank it bit by bit.
It was as if she had returned to her previous life. A tiny bit of alcohol almost caused her supernatural powers to go out of control and her life was threatened.
She and alcohol are indeed natural enemies.
After drinking the high concentration of alcohol, she felt a burning sensation in her esophagus and stomach, and soon the alcohol took over her. Her mind began to become a little cloudy and drowsy, her heartbeat became faster, her breathing became hot, and then the supernatural powers in her body gradually became dull. It seemed that something deep in her body was ready to emerge.
The original owner is indeed there, and is her appearance related to the strength of my supernatural powers?
Lin Tan Tan pondered secretly. After waiting for a long time and seeing that he still couldn't communicate with the other party, he thought, does he have to fall asleep?
After thinking for a while, she set a very loud alarm and lay down on the bed. Her thoughts were in a mess. She closed her eyes and tried to make herself fall asleep. She didn't know how long it was before she found herself sinking into the dark and cramped space in her dream again.
The shadow appeared again.
But this time, Lin Tantan was not as defenseless as last time, and was not frightened by her identity.
She asked, "Are you Lin Tantan?"
The shadow replied, "When will you leave my body?"
Lin Tan was silent for a moment: "What if I don't leave?"
The shadow raised his head and said angrily, "This is my body!"
"You're already dead."
"I'm not dead!"
Lin Tan Tan said calmly, "You're already dead. Don't forget what I do. You can't fool me. When I traveled through time and space, your body was already dead."
"That's just a breath of air!"
"No, you're completely dead. You had a high fever because you were awakening your powers, and you died because the awakening failed. I guess it's because I traveled through time and took over your body, so your soul didn't dissipate and was able to continue to remain in this body."
Lin Tan Tan said calmly, "I don't know why you didn't show up before, but you are now. But if it weren't for me, this body would have rotted away long ago. Why do you still say this is your body? It has been mine for a long time."
The black shadow was furious and wanted to pounce on Lin Tan Tan, but for some reason she couldn't. She said angrily, "This is my body. I'd rather it rot than let anyone else use it!"
Lin Tantan seemed oblivious to her anger and continued, "Now that things have come to this, I've already used this body and have no intention of returning it to you. You probably can't do anything to me. Let's talk it over. What will it take for you to give me your body completely?"
The shadow said, "I won't let you. Do you have any way to deal with me?"
Lin Tan was silent, and she really didn't have any either.
What worried her most was that she had been quiet for over a year, and now she had suddenly appeared with such a strong attitude. What was her trump card? Would she become even more powerful in the future? What if she appeared every time she slept? Even if she could hold on, how could she and Ye Xiao live peacefully with such a thing in her body?
If a person does not care about himself, he will be punished by heaven and earth. If there is a way at this moment, she will not negotiate with the other party, but will kill her directly.
The other party must have the same idea.
As if sensing her murderous intent, the other party flinched and his momentum weakened. After all, he was just an ordinary, silent and timid college student in his lifetime. She took the initiative to retreat: "You can continue to use my body. We can take turns. You can use it on the odd days, and I can use it on the even days."
Lin Tantan refused without even thinking: "Impossible!"
The shadow was angry: "This is my body. I've been hiding in it for so long and it's already suffocating enough. Why don't you let me out? Giving you half of my time is already generous enough!"
Lin Tan Tan simply said, "Do you know why I must have your body?"
The shadow was stunned. He needed a reason? "Because you want to live."
"No, because I have someone I love. He's my only bond in this world, and we're getting married soon. Do you think I'd allow another person to use my body and claim my name to be around him?"
Of course, if that situation really happens, she will confront Ye Xiao and tell him everything. Ye Xiao may not care, but she can't stand such an abnormal life. And when the person opposite her controls her body, can she bear being controlled and monitored and living a life without freedom?
In short, Lin Tantan will never give in on this step.
Sharing a body, like having a split personality? Impossible!
"This is not allowed, and that is not allowed. What do you want?" the black shadow said angrily.
Lin Tan Tan said: "If you have any wish, I will fulfill it for you, and then you can leave."
"Impossible!" Shadow was shocked and refused without thinking.
Lin Tantan frowned. There was nothing more to talk about.
Yingzi was also nervous. The words "I will fulfill your wish" had shocked her greatly. Lin Tantan might have forgotten that when she first entered this body, she had said something: "Lin Tantan, I owe you a life. If you have any wish, I will fulfill it for you."
It was these words that infused Lin Tantan's soul, which should have dissipated, with a surge of power, causing it to remain dormant within her body. She didn't quite understand why, but after regaining consciousness recently, she vaguely realized that this was a promise made by the outsider to her, or rather, a contract for the use of her body.
Once this promise is fulfilled and the contract ends, she will no longer owe herself anything, and this body will belong completely to the other person.
As long as this promise was not fulfilled, the other person would always owe him something, and he would not be able to hurt him or drive him away. And it seemed that because the other person's original wish had been fulfilled, when it was time to leave, as long as she did not completely take over his body, she would become weaker and weaker until she dissipated, while he would become stronger and stronger.
So, just keep on spending.
Shadow Lin Tantan thought so.
As long as she keeps on trying, once the opponent disappears, this body will belong to her again, and the opponent's abilities, status, fame, prestige, and even his lover will all be hers!
The more Shadow thought about it, the greed in her eyes grew. She suddenly realized that she was too impatient and shouldn't have confronted the other party. If the other party told the man everything, even if this body belonged to her in the future, she would not get any benefits.
Shadow suddenly said, "You, let me think about it."
Lin Tantan was stunned. She didn't expect her to give in. She felt relieved, but something seemed wrong. However, the shadow had slowly disappeared, and it seemed that she was really thinking about what wish she wanted to make.
Lin Tantan opened her eyes from the bed, her head still groggy. Seeing that only a dozen minutes had passed, she canceled the alarm clock, sat for a while, opened the door and walked out.
The sun was shining outside, but she was still confused about her future.
Love brings worry, love brings fear. In her previous life, she could count her days in peace and wait for death, but now she is afraid of death and does not want to die.
"Chirp." A little white mouse ran up to her. She lowered her head and looked at the little thing, then squatted down and nodded at it: "It's you, hello."
Lu Xin opened his eyes wide and was shocked to find that the powerful soul in her body had dimmed a little, while the originally dim soul had become a little brighter. Although the difference between the two was still huge, it was obvious that the gap was gradually narrowing.
What exactly is happening inside her body?
Lin Tantan's thoughts drifted away again. In her dream just now, she had been looking for ways to attack the other party, but it seemed that something restricted her and prevented her from attacking the other party.
I can't hurt them, I can't expel them, I can only wait for the other party to agree. This is too passive, but it seems that this is the only way.
She sighed softly, "How could such a good world suddenly become so unscientific? Isn't the soul or something like that too mysterious?"
Lu Xin froze, almost thinking that she saw through him, but seeing her self-deprecating and bitter expression, he realized that she probably knew about her own physical condition.
Lu Xin looked at her with wide eyes. Lin Tantan was amused by him and tapped his nose: "Are you worried about me, little one? Don't worry, I won't be defeated so easily. If I can survive, that would be the best. If things develop beyond my ability..." She paused and lowered her voice, "Then this will be my last days. I can't always look sad."
She stood up and looked at the rolling forest in the distance. The sunlight shone in her eyes, and it seemed as if something tiny and brilliant was about to fall out. But in the end, it didn't. She curled her lips and said, "Okay, let's go play."
With that she went back into the house.
Lu Xin stared blankly at the closed door. Thinking of that expression just now, he suddenly felt a little uncomfortable.
Can't survive? Will she die?
If that dim soul finally becomes stronger than hers, will she really die?
After a while, Lin Tantan emerged from the room again. She must have showered and changed into a new outfit, a sky-blue plaid skirt she rarely wore. She looked refreshingly elegant. Her hair wasn't tied up, but it was neatly combed, and she wore a very ladylike headband. She exuded a tranquil and beautiful aura, making anyone who saw her feel comforted and happy.
She saw the white mouse and said, "You haven't left yet, then come play with me." She picked up the little white mouse and saw that it was not very dirty. She washed its paws with water and put it on her shoulder. "Let's go, let's go find Ye Xiao."
Lu Xin: “…”
Lu Xin froze completely, and his first reaction was that squatting on a girl's shoulder was too rude.
Then he felt a deadly gaze. Looking up, he saw a chubby hamster crawling out of Lin Tantan's small bag, climbing up along his clothes, and staring at him fiercely, as if he felt that he was a threat to his position. Before Lu Xin could figure out what it was going to do, he was kicked out by the little furry ball.
Lu Xin: "..." So angry, stinky rat! But he still got up and followed after him with a grunt.
But before it could catch up a few steps, the person in front turned a corner and stopped. A car was parked at the corner. In the car, Ye Xiao had one hand on the window and the other on the steering wheel. He didn't know what he was thinking, but when he saw Lin Tantan appear, his eyes lit up.
Lin Tantan was stunned for a moment: "Why are you here? How long have you been here?" She walked over with a smile, "Are you here to pick me up for dinner?"
Ye Xiao got out of the car and was stunned to see her wearing a skirt, a rare sight. Then, seeing her energetic smile, he secretly relaxed: "Yes, I came to pick you up for lunch. What do you want to eat for lunch?"
Lin Tan thought for a moment and said, "Let's go eat noodles."
Ye Xiao walked over and opened the door for her: "Get in the car."
Lin Tantan didn't move. When Ye Xiao turned to look at her questioningly, she suddenly went over and hugged his waist, leaning on his broad shoulders: "I'm sorry for making you worry. Have I always made you worry?"
He was still wearing his morning clothes, with the wrinkles still on them, his hair not as neat as usual, and his brows furrowed. He must have been staying here since he left her that morning. She hadn't taken this route to find Xu Tianjin just now, and she hadn't thought of this possibility.
Thinking of him sitting in the car and worrying about her, her heart ached. If possible, she also hoped that she would not have to go through so much trouble.
Ye Xiao put his arm around her and stroked the back of her head with his big hand: "I'm glad you're okay. What was that dream about? Is it related to me?"
Lin Tan Tan shook his head: "This has nothing to do with you, it's my own problem."
Ye Xiao frowned slightly, but didn't ask what the problem was. He just said, "Do you want to find Zhang Jiujiu?"
Lin Tantan was slightly stunned. "We can try it when necessary." She smiled and said, "After a while, whether I overcome this dream or not, I will tell you its content, okay?"
Ye Xiao looked at her deeply, with worry and helplessness in his eyes: "Okay."
…
At the same time, a large group of ragged survivors were heading towards Zhengyang Base.
A month ago, in southern China, a few ragged Taoist priests finally found their target.
This south is really very south, very close to the sea. As large numbers of mutant marine creatures invaded the land, this only remaining base that stubbornly refused to migrate was on the verge of destruction. The Taoists risked their lives to save their target.
They are Lin Tantan's parents, brother, sister-in-law and a niece.
In order to persuade them to cross half the country to go to Liang City, the Taoists used many reasons, but they refused to go. Finally, the Taoists could only tell them that their daughter was a well-known five-element superpower person and a very important figure in the Zhengyang Brigade. After they went there, they would definitely be able to enjoy the preferential treatment of the leader's family and would never have to worry about their lives.
I can only say this, you can't say that your daughter's body is now occupied by an evil person who came from nowhere and has great powers, and that you are called over to awaken your daughter's soul which is either sleeping or too weak.
If that's the case, the Lin family will definitely not go back. They have also seen that this family is timid and selfish, and has long forgotten that they have a daughter. Don't even think about asking them to save their daughter.
The Lin family was indeed shocked and excited when they heard the news.
They had indeed forgotten about their daughter who was attending university in Yang City. After the apocalypse broke out, the whole family quickly packed up and headed for the nearest safe zone. They had never thought of looking for their daughter who was not valued in university, nor did they want to bring along another burden.
Later, the safe zone was destroyed, and they moved to several places, and then continued south. In fact, they didn't know they were going south. Anyway, they followed the main group, moving and stopping every day, living a confused and difficult life. When they finally stopped one day, they were told that they had arrived in the southernmost city.
Then I took root here.
Now they don’t know where to go. These people told them that they can go to their daughter. It’s a bit far, but these Taoists are willing to protect them for some reason. So what is there to hesitate about? Let’s go!
This news was known to the people who fled with them. When they asked, they found out that Lin's mother was a simple-minded person who loved to show off. It didn't take long for them to figure out their purpose. So those who wanted to take advantage of them stuck to them and spread the news from one person to ten, and from ten to a hundred.
Master Jin and the others were a little worried that too many people would cause trouble, but they couldn't resist the Zhengyang Base - some people here already knew that they had upgraded to a base - and Lin Tantan was very famous. When they heard that there were people with connections in the team, and they didn't know where to call home in this vast world, they decided to go to the Zhengyang Base together!
These people could not be driven away, and the Taoists had no choice but to give up struggling. Moreover, having more people also has its advantages. Although their ability to attract zombies became stronger, their fighting power was not weak either. A group of people rushed all the way from the south to Liang City, and they were on the road for almost the entire hot summer, and many people died every day.
During the time they were on the road, Lin Tantan and Lin Tantan's souls had met several times. Lin Tantan always said that she had not thought of any wish yet, and Lin Tantan suspected that she was procrastinating.
Lin Tantan appeared to be very calm and cheerful on the surface, but she was already very anxious inside.
Ye Xiao had mentioned the wedding to her, but she had refused, saying she wanted to postpone it, even putting off registering at the newly established Civil Affairs Bureau. Ye Xiao had accommodated her without objection, without a single complaint, but she still felt bad watching the couples at the base registering.
Originally, she and Ye Xiao should have been the first couple to register. She knew that this was Ye Xiao's plan. This man who paid attention to rituals had his own unique romance.
But there was another person in her body, and she felt a little uncomfortable. She didn't want to be tied to Ye Xiao in name in this state.
She couldn't even kiss and hug as usual.
"See, subconsciously you also feel that this body isn't yours." A vague voice sounded in Lin Tantan's mind. Lin Tantan's expression remained unchanged, and he thought to himself, "Shut up."
The thing she was most worried about happened. The guy became stronger and stronger. From only being able to appear in her dreams, he could now vaguely make sounds when she was awake.
Lin Tantan is in the hospital at the moment. There is a large hospital in District 1, where wood-type mutants and ordinary hospitals work together. Lin Tantan is naturally the director, but her hard work has not helped her current situation at all.
Love doesn’t work, and neither does a sense of responsibility at work. Even though my beliefs are very strong, I still feel like I’m slowly drifting away from this world.
Lin Tantan seemed to be delaying time again, she felt that she didn't have much time left.
So that night, after falling asleep and seeing him again in that strange space, she asked directly, "What is your wish? If you continue to be so uncooperative, there is nothing more to talk about. Let's just die together."
Lin Tantan stammered, and seeing that she couldn't drag it out any longer, she simply ignored her. She was sure that she couldn't do anything to her, so she felt extremely confident.
Lin Tantan narrowed her eyes. Sure enough, he refused to cooperate. She carefully examined his figure, which had become increasingly distinct over the past month. His facial features, hair, and even his clothes had taken on a more concrete form.
She is indeed getting stronger little by little.
She was resurrecting, and I was dying.
She curled the corners of her mouth coldly, stretched out her hand, grabbed Lin Tantan's hair and pulled her over.
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