Chapter 130 Self-loathing
Just when the team leader and Lin Qi thought that ideological education was just a standing meeting, on the playground in front of the commune, Xu Hexiao and a group of people with bad backgrounds were undergoing an unprecedented round of torture.
From body to mind.
At this moment, they seemed to have become the most heinous criminals, with all the "sins" on them being counted by everyone, and then they were verbally and physically attacked -
Xu Hexiao is tall and strong, nearly 1.9 meters tall. Among the crowd of 1.7-meter-tall people, he stands out. He deservedly became the most conspicuous target.
He automatically ignored those dirty words, but he couldn't ignore the pain in his body and the stench on his body.
........Everything is so disgusting.
His stomach was twisting and he wanted to vomit, but he tried hard to hold it back.
There has never been a moment when Xu Hexiao hated himself as much as he did now. He wished he could die, be reborn, have a clean body, a good identity, and be with Lin Qi again.
But he also knew clearly that there was no afterlife.
So he didn't dare.
He loathed and rejected himself, yet at the same time he was afraid of death.
The pain in his body kept him awake, and he couldn't even numb himself.
What would Lin Qi think when she saw him like this?
Do you think he is dirty?
Will you feel disgusted?
Will you dislike him like these people?
.........
Xu Hexiao thought in a daze, and mechanically and numbly walked with others from the commune to the street -
He didn't know when all this would end. He had never felt time go so slowly!
Killing someone is just a matter of swords going in and swords coming out, but now he is living a life worse than death.
He thought he had lost his dignity and self-respect, but now, he felt that he was not even a human being!
Xu Hexiao, who was in a daze, was pushed to the ground by a young man and was beaten and kicked...
The young man took the lead, and then a group of people surrounded Xu Hexiao.
Xu Hexiao only had time to protect his head. He turned over and lay on the ground.
He protected his head to save his life, and he protected his face because Lin Qi liked his face. If his face was damaged, there would be less and less things about him that would please her.
He didn't know how many minutes or hours it might have been, his consciousness gradually faded away, and finally disappeared completely.
The second before he lost consciousness, he said sorry to Lin Qi in his heart, Qiqi, maybe I can't accompany you anymore.
"Alas, he is not moving."
"Is he dead?"
"A man this grown up can't just die like that. Don't be fooled by him."
"But he really didn't move."
Some people started to get scared. They wanted to beat people, but they didn't think about killing people.
So, some people started running away, and later, more and more people ran away. In the end, Xu Hexiao was the only one left in the place, lying on the ground like a dead dog, and it was unknown whether he was alive or dead.
Even if someone passed by, everyone covered their mouths and stayed away.
As the sky gradually darkened, the man from the next door household brought out a basin of water and poured it on Xu Hexiao. "It's really unlucky that you didn't choose a different place to die."
"Dad, it stinks outside." The man's child covered his mouth and said, "That person must be covered in rotten eggs and feces!"
"Don't look at him, he's dirtying your eyes. Dad will pour a few more basins of water, and it will not stink anymore after it is rinsed clean." The man comforted the child and brought a few more basins of water from home and poured them on Xu Hexiao one after another.
The cool water fell on Xu Hexiao, and he slowly opened his eyes, but he didn't rush to get up. It was not until the man poured the sixth basin of water that he turned over and the water happened to fall on his face.
"Ah, a corpse is faking its death!"
The man was so scared that he screamed, ran back home and slammed the door.
Xu Hexiao stood up slowly and glanced around the street. There were not many people on the street. The few people who were there occasionally ran away in a hurry after seeing him.
"Is it over?" Xu Hexiao murmured.
He identified the direction and then walked in one direction.
It's so late and he hasn't come back yet. Qiqi must be very worried.
Xu Hexiao tried to speed up his pace, walking faster and faster, and soon disappeared at the end of the street.
Lin Qi had already prepared the meal at home, but Xu Hexiao had not come back for a long time. She was worried, so she walked towards the road leading to the town from the brigade. When she left the brigade and walked to the river, she saw a tall figure.
"Xu Hexiao?" Lin Qi rushed forward in surprise.
"Don't come over!" Xu Hexiao shouted, with anxiety and fear in his tone.
Lin Qi paused, her heart aching. What happened? It had only been a day, why did he become so uneasy?
"What's wrong?" Lin Qi asked softly.
"I'm dirty and smelly, I'm afraid I'll stink you up." Xu Hexiao's voice became softer, "Qiqi, I want to take a shower, can you go back and get me some soap?"
Lin Qi naturally smelled the stench on Xu Hexiao. She didn't dare to irritate him, so she nodded, "Okay. I'll go back and get you some soap, and bring you some clean towels and clothes. You take a shower here and wait for me, okay?"
Xu Hexiao hummed, "I'm right here."
After watching Lin Qi walk away, Xu Hexiao took difficult steps and walked towards the river bit by bit. As he walked, he took off his clothes, and after taking off a piece, he threw it away, letting the clothes float away with the river water.
Watching the clothes floating away, he felt inexplicably better, as if only in this way, all the humiliation he had suffered today could disappear along with those clothes.
Xu Hexiao immersed himself in the water, letting the river water flood over his mouth, nose, eyes and hair. Every part of his body was dirty and needed to be washed thoroughly.
He scrubbed every corner of his body vigorously until his stomach was deprived of oxygen, then he suddenly stood up from the bottom of the water.
Lin Qi returned soon, not only bringing back soap, clothes and towels, she also brought Xu Hexiao's toothpaste and toothbrush.
"Xu Hexiao, I brought you the soap." Lin Qi said.
"Okay, I understand." Xu Hexiao replied, and he walked out of the water step by step. "Lin Qi, I'm injured. Can you help me find some thistles?"
"Are you hurt?" Lin Qi asked anxiously.
"Well, I just had some minor skin injuries. Go find me some thistles. I remember you also planted Panax notoginseng, so you should get some too. Go back and prepare the medicine first. I'll go back by myself after I've washed them, okay?" There was a hint of pleading in Xu Hexiao's tone that he didn't even notice.
Lin Qi's heart sank, she knew Xu Hexiao was trying to get her away.
What happened to him today?
The long-lost murderous intent was brewing in Lin Qi's eyes, but her tone did not change at all, "Okay, I'll go back and prepare the medicine, you wash quickly, I'll wait for you at home."
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