Chapter 103 He was so happy to be trained
The scene before her was so familiar that Sheng Ran immediately thought of her first encounter with Raven.
It was the same afternoon, the same cliff, nothing had changed except that the surrounding environment had changed from autumn to winter.
Obviously, at that time, she took the initiative to suggest giving Raven a name in order to make it easier to address him and to build closer ties with him.
But now, Sheng Ran hesitated.
She knew that Raven was definitely asking more than just this one question.
She still held his hand, her fingertips unconsciously stroking the skin of the raven's palm.
Sheng Ran's breathing suddenly became lighter.
Looking at his pair of dark, sparkling pupils, which only reflected her own reflection, her heart felt like it was entangled by fine silk threads.
At this moment, she suddenly realized that the bond between her and Raven had reached a point that could not be easily severed.
This is not just about giving a name, it is clearly about personally marking the mark of "belonging" for the male beast in front of him.
Before, he was a free bird and beast in the mountains and forests, but once given a name, those vague perceptions had an anchor:
He will be called by this name and will feel possessive because the name is tied to "her".
Sheng Ran was afraid of the shackles that this name would bring.
Giving a name will give rise to all six desires. She knew that once she really gave the raven a name, the relationship between them would become even more inseparable.
She was actually a little timid and turned away helplessly.
[If you want a name, wouldn't it be better to choose it yourself?]
The raven just stared at her, never looking away.
"But I want Master to give me a name." He spoke softly, but each word was firm. "Master, you clearly know what I mean."
He emphasized the word "master" and deliberately stressed this relationship.
He had called Sheng Ran master for so many years, but he was clearly her property.
Doesn't it deserve a name?
The raven pleaded earnestly, "Please don't hide from me... okay?"
Sheng Ran couldn't hold on any longer, so she pulled her hand away and turned aside.
No, that's not right.
So far, his dark value hasn't changed at all...
Raven's feelings for her were clearly still deformed and sick.
Suddenly falling in love with someone you have hated for more than ten years is impossible to last.
Sheng Ran almost fell into it, and finally came to her senses at this moment.
What Raven needs is not her, but a complete family and a fulfilled life.
There is a chance to complete it, why give up?
She regained her composure and told Raven, "But no matter what, you still have to find your true home."
[By that time, you will not only have your own name, but also a complete family, which is something I cannot bring you.]
"Owner……"
Raven couldn't understand why Sheng Ran had to reject his request so ruthlessly.
It's obviously very simple, just give him a random name.
As long as she took it, he would use it happily.
Raven thought his demands were already very low; he just wanted to stay by her side, in any capacity.
Isn't even this enough?
Raven wanted to ask more questions, but Sheng Ran didn't write another word.
Now that his mind-reading ability was restricted and unable to be used, Raven looked at Sheng Ran anxiously and could only make random guesses.
"You're so eager to find out about my background that you can't wait to send me away?"
Sheng Ran raised her eyes in surprise. What was Raven saying?
He lowered his eyes in disappointment. "If you want me to leave, I will disappear from your sight and never disturb you."
——Of course that’s not what I meant!
Sheng Ran shook her head instantly, refuting Raven's guess with very strong body language.
Why does he think so?
How should I explain this to Raven? Sheng Ran suddenly felt a headache.
Although we were standing face to face, it seemed as if there were thousands of ravines between us.
Sheng Ran looked at his tight lip lines, her eyes a little sore - if only she could speak, she could tell him that she didn't want to push him away, but wanted to make him happier.
She lowered her head, the corners of her clothes were wrinkled by her fingertips, just like her heart.
The two of them confronted each other in silence for a long time. Sheng Ran took a deep breath. Such an argument was too meaningless.
They can't communicate at all.
In that case, why waste time and just go back.
As if she had suddenly made a decision, Sheng Ran raised her eyes abruptly, wanting to pull Raven home, but found that his eyes were on the lower half of her face.
To be precise, he was staring at her lips.
Emotions surged in those deep eyes, but they were clearly hidden and restrained.
For some reason, Sheng Ran's heartbeat quickened.
The raven then took a half step forward, his voice as low and hoarse as if it had been worn by the wind, and even his breathing became lighter: "Master... I can't read your gestures, and I can't guess what you are thinking..."
It seemed that he also realized this, Sheng Ran smiled bitterly and nodded.
Raven's breathing suddenly stagnated, as if he had used up all his courage. His dark eyes locked firmly on her lips, and his tone was cautious and tentative: "I know this request is offensive... but, can I kiss you?"
The words were so soft, but they were like a fire, instantly burning the tips of Sheng Ran's ears red.
She froze in place, her fingertips subconsciously retracting, but Raven suddenly grabbed them.
He didn't use much force, just because he was afraid that she would dodge away. The warmth of his palm came through the touching skin, burning her heart and making her tremble.
She looked at the red tips of Raven's ears, the tension and pleading in his eyes, and the emotions in her mind became even more chaotic.
...Why do you suddenly want to kiss her!
Didn’t you just ask her to give you a name?
This span is too big!
Sheng Ran's heart tightened, but she could see the seriousness in Raven's eyes.
He wasn't joking, and his hand was even shaking a little as he held hers.
She bit her lip and blinked panickily, neither responding nor immediately dodging away.
It was a ridiculous suggestion, but she didn't feel embarrassed.
Such a reaction was tantamount to acquiescence. Raven's breathing suddenly paused and he slowly leaned forward.
The tip of his nose brushed against her cheek, bringing a slight cool breeze, but he didn't kiss her immediately. Instead, he confirmed over and over again: "Master, you can push me away."
Sheng Ran didn't move, but just closed her eyes quietly.
The next second, the lips were gently covered.
It was not a fierce touch, but more like a light brush of feathers, with a hint of the cold scent of raven, and his uncontrollable trembling.
Sheng Ran's eyelashes trembled violently, her fingertips clenched the hem of Raven's clothes, and she even forgot to breathe.
This was her first kiss with Raven.
Unlike Pei Xiaoxing's first kiss, there was no unexpected chaos this time.
Raven asked soberly and seriously, and she also acquiesced to his request.
Sheng Ran began to feel that the kiss was so abrupt. They were clearly still in such a dilemma and no one could move the conversation forward.
It felt like they were about to get angry and have a fight, but it was broken by a kiss.
The moment his lips touched hers, Sheng Ran put aside all her messy thoughts.
She suddenly felt that this kiss was very appropriate.
In just a moment, her heart seemed to calm down.
She didn't want to argue with Raven anymore, she just wanted to feel his softness and his warmth.
Raven's kiss was not at all eager or rough. He even deliberately softened his pressure, tightening his lips.
I was afraid that if I was too heavy-handed I would hurt her, if I was too hasty I would scare her, and even more afraid that this permission, which I had finally obtained, would slip away like the wind through my fingers.
His palm was still holding her wrist, but his knuckles had loosened a little.
The hands that used to hold arrow feathers and crush the throats of countless enemies in the past now had to carefully consider the strength with which they gripped her, for fear that the thin calluses on their fingertips would rub against her and make her uncomfortable.
He had originally closed his eyes tightly, but he didn't want to miss any expression of his master, worried that she was uncomfortable.
Raven gently opened his eyelids and stared intently at her eyes so close to him - he saw her eyelashes trembling violently, like a frightened butterfly, and the tears in her eyes, like crushed stars.
Raven's heart was beating even faster than the first time he slept next to his master.
From childhood to adulthood, he has been through countless situations, and usually he would not even blink when warm blood splashed on his face.
But at this moment, facing his master, he didn't even dare to kiss her harder - as if she was a newly bloomed flower in the snow, which would break if he used a little force.
"Master, will you hate it?"
His voice leaked out from between his lips and teeth, so low and hoarse as if it had been rubbed by pine needles. He didn't even dare to breathe too close to her, for fear that the heat would burn her.
Sheng Ran didn't expect Raven to be so slow.
Ask her to confirm every step.
The tips of her ears had already burned red. This was so different from the raven she knew.
Like a child eating candy for the first time, I feel both excited and scared.
Suddenly, my heart felt like it was gently bumped by something, and a sour feeling mixed with warmth filled my chest.
Why is he so cautious in front of her?
Sheng Ran suddenly raised her hand, hugged Raven, gently tiptoed up, and kissed him actively.
The moment their lips touched, she even felt her whole body getting hot, and even the sound of the wind in her ears became clear.
But what I feel more is heartache, the kind of heartache that comes from watching a person who is used to being tough, taking off all his edge for you and becoming cautious.
Raven seemed to notice that she was distracted, and the kiss became lighter, almost leaving, with only the distance between them being able to breathe.
His dark eyes were filled with helplessness, as if he was afraid that he had done something wrong: "If you don't like it..."
Sheng Ran snapped back to her senses and raised her hand to press the back of his neck. When her fingertips touched his hot skin, she realized that the tips of his ears were even redder than hers.
She didn't say anything, but just moved slightly closer to him, responding to his hesitation with her actions.
Raven's body froze instantly, and then his breathing became rapid as if burned by the gentle touch.
He finally dared to soften his pressure slightly, his lips brushing against hers with a touch of clumsy tenderness. This time, he clearly heard her inner voice—
[Why is Raven so nervous...isn't he usually very calm? The back of his neck feels hot, no, his whole body feels hot...is he so afraid of her leaving?]
[When I saw him killing people before, I thought he wasn't afraid of anything... He seemed even more... endearing than usual...]
[I like it too...]
The last two words were like feathers, gently landing on Raven's heart, making him so itchy that even his fingertips were numb.
"Master..." He pressed his lips against hers, his voice trembling slightly.
The moment he heard her inner voice, Raven's heart finally settled down. He couldn't help but want to say more and hear more responses.
"You really don't hate me like this?"
Sheng Ran blinked, and the tears in her eyes became brighter.
She raised her hand and gently touched the red in his eyes with her fingertips - it was a red caused by nervousness and helplessness, much more vivid than when he usually had a cold face.
Sheng Ran's inner voice was clearly heard by Raven:
【I know you always put me first. 】
How could I dislike a raven that gets nervous, is afraid of hurting me, and considers my feelings?
Raven's breathing suddenly stopped, and his eyes felt a little hot.
He had lived for so long, but no one had ever told him that someone like him deserved to be liked.
He slowly loosened his grip on her wrist and instead gently put his arm around her waist—his movements were so slow as if he wasn't afraid of startling her. With his palm against her back, he could clearly feel her heartbeat.
"Since you like me so much...my wife, please don't chase me away." His lips were still touching hers, and his voice was as soft as melted frost. "It's okay if you don't want to give me a name. You can call me anything."
Sheng Ran was at a loss for words. Why did he still care about this?
Her heart beat faster. She could feel the warmth of his palm, the seriousness in his voice, and the care he showed in every move.
She really couldn't refuse a raven like this.
I never meant to drive you away.
[I just feel bad for you, and I want you to have a happier and more complete life.]
"I know the cold stares an orphan faces when raising themselves alone. I know what it's like to be alone in this world. Everything you've been through... I understand."
She herself had grown up this way, and even when she looked at Raven sometimes, it was like looking in a mirror.
She sincerely hoped that Raven would not act on impulse. Since there was already a glimmer of hope, why not try hard to find it?
[I no longer have the ability to live a complete life, but I hope you can.]
Raven listened to Sheng Ran's words in a daze and could hardly believe his ears.
Is this really the master's voice? He has been with her since she was a child, how could he not understand her background and family situation?
Sheng Ran was not favored since childhood, but she also had a complete family with a father and mother who were related by blood.
Even if my life is bad, it is not as miserable as his. How can I empathize with his experience?
Raven didn't believe it and even wondered if he had heard it wrong.
But the next second, he caught a glimpse of sadness in Sheng Ran's eyes.
It was too real, and his heart ached with sadness.
"Master..." Raven coaxed Sheng Ran helplessly, stroking her head gently, "Okay, I'll listen to you."
"I will try to find out my origins and my family."
Sheng Ran came out of her memories and looked up at him in surprise.
He was unwilling just now, but after the kiss, why did Raven suddenly stop arguing with her?
Although she didn't know what changed Raven, Sheng Ran was still sincerely happy for him.
She held his hand again, smiling gently, "You're so obedient."
[To reward you, I will give you a name that belongs to us.]
[Until you find out your identity, we'll call you by this name, okay?]
The only two words left in Raven's mind were "obedient" and "reward".
The master is worthy of being the master.
He was so happy to be trained.
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