"Because every time I asked Qi Heze about it, he always had an evasive expression, as if he didn't want to talk more."
"I just thought you were either ugly or there was something wrong with you."
"I even speculated whether Qi and Ze were forced into an engagement when you two were young."
She said bitterly: "Let me put it this way, the more gentle Qi Heze was to me in the countryside, the more I felt that you were a person who was not even as good as a country girl like me."
The more she thought about it, the more proud and confident she became, until...
"It wasn't until Qi Heze and I returned to the city and Qi Heze introduced you to me... that I realized how wrong I was."
No one knew how confident she was before she met Sheng Yan. She deliberately put on her best clothes and practiced in front of the mirror for a long time.
Practice innocence, practice what expression can make you look apologetic yet provocative and proud.
But when she stood in front of Sheng Yan, seeing such a beautiful and arrogant girl mocking Qi Heze...
Inferiority complex is overwhelming.
As if immersed in memories, Qiao Yujuan's eyes were somewhat blank, and her tone was filled with vague powerlessness...
"Sheng Yan, you don't know how beautiful you were when I first saw you."
It was a kind of beauty that she couldn't describe.
Or perhaps with her limited cultural knowledge, she could only find the word "good-looking" to describe Sheng Yan.
“Like the sun.”
"You stood there with your eyes bright with anger. Even Qi Heze, who always had the final say in front of me... lowered his head in front of you."
"You can scold him without restraint, but you don't look vulgar or embarrassed at all."
"I don't understand how this is done."
Thinking about all the shrews she had met since she was a child, the curses they caused were all so ugly that they made people feel disgusted.
It's so vulgar that people don't want to look at it a second time after taking one look.
How can it be nice to curse someone?
She had originally thought that Sheng Yan would become a shrew like that when she was extremely angry, ugly and ridiculous.
That's why she practiced expressions for such a long time, just to calmly crush Sheng Yan, the abandoned woman, with the attitude of a winner.
She wanted to let Sheng Yan know that even though they had never met before, even though she was from the countryside, Sheng Yan was no match for her.
Thinking of how ridiculous she was at that time, Qiao Yujuan shook her head: "Later I thought, you look so good even when you scold people, maybe it's because you always hold your head high."
"Unlike me, I've long been accustomed to bowing my head."
Sheng Yan is the type of person she envies the most and wants to be like the most.
It’s a pity that her background does not support her to become such a dazzling person.
She could only act like a rat in a gutter, stealing as much as possible to make her life better.
Then he would show off his pride in front of the owner to comfort his pitiful self-esteem.
She didn't feel all this before she met Sheng Yan, but after meeting Sheng Yan, she knew what it meant to be ashamed.
Su Lixuan understood her implication: "So you're jealous of Xiaoyan, and that's why you've been picking on her?"
Are you sick?
Qiao Yujuan clenched her cold hands, but did not hide it: "It's not just because of jealousy...it's also because of inferiority."
She looked at Su Lixuan.
"Sheng Yan is completely different from what I had expected... She is so beautiful, I can't find a reason to explain to myself why Qi Heze would choose me instead of her."
"I'm afraid Qi Heze just ate too much meat and fish and suddenly wanted to eat some light porridge and vegetables."
"But what if one day he gets tired of eating plain porridge and small dishes? What if he starts to miss the taste of big fish and meat?"
"It won't affect him if his appetite changes by then, but... what should I do with this light porridge and small dishes?"
She doesn't have Sheng Yan's family background or Sheng Yan's appearance, but Sheng Yan continues to live her life as usual even after being abandoned by Qi Heze.
If she was abandoned by Qi Heze...how would she live? What would happen to her child?
"I was so scared, especially since I noticed that after Qi Heze returned to the city and saw Sheng Yan, his attitude towards me was completely different from when we were in the countryside."
She asked Su Lixuan.
"Do you know that feeling? We're still living the same life, but I just feel like he's caring less and less about me."
Su Lixuan knew how to describe the feeling that Qiao Yujuan described.
It is nothing more than a popular saying in later generations -
I've seen how you were when you loved me, so if you don't love me anymore... I can tell at a glance.
Qiao Yujuan had no one to rely on, so of course she was even more worried that Qi Heze would change his mind.
Qiao Yujuan: "I'm afraid that he will remember Sheng Yan's kindness again, and he also knows that he can't compare to Sheng Yan..."
She lowered her head: "I'm afraid Sheng Yan will compete with me and snatch Qi Heze away."
Now that she has said this, there is nothing else for Su Lixuan to understand.
Su Lixuan was speechless: "So you are afraid that Sheng Yan will snatch the man from you, so you take the initiative to throw dirty water on Sheng Yan and say that she bullies you?"
There was silence for a while.
Qiao Yujuan nodded slightly.
Sheng Yan: "..." She had a swear word in her mind but didn't know whether she should say it or not.
This is the legendary "judging a gentleman by one's own meanness"!
Qiao Yujuan: "I'm not thinking too much, I just know Qi Heze too well."
"Why did he fall for me in the countryside? Because among the women surrounding him, I was the only one who didn't seem interested in him."
“…He just fell for it.”
Sheng Yan pointed at herself: "So what you mean is that you think that I ignored Qi Heze and scolded him before because I was playing both sides just to make him interested in me again?"
Oh her mother.
Who the hell is Qi Heze? Is he worthy of her spending so much effort on him?
Is she crazy or is Qiao Yujuan crazy?
Qi Heze is also worthy? !
Qiao Yujuan lowered her head: "I didn't think so before, but I know that if you treat Qi Heze like this, sooner or later he will come back and pursue you."
"So, in order to prevent this possibility, I can only use you again and again to arouse Qi Heze's pity for me, to sow discord between you and Qi Heze, and to make Qi Heze increasingly disappointed in you and think that you are bullying others."
Sheng Yan almost laughed out loud: "Ha, he's becoming more and more disappointed in me? Who should be disappointed in whom?"
Again, is Qi Heze worthy of it?
Qiao Yujuan: "Also, recently, Qi Heze's attitude towards me has changed drastically. He said he wants to divorce me and ask me to take the children and go back to my hometown."
"He said you were the one who told him how cunning and resourceful I was. He said he was so disappointed in me... I have no choice. I can't go back..."
Su Lixuan laughed angrily: "He's really good at passing the buck. He's talking as if Xiaoyan is deliberately trying to sow discord between you and your wife for him."
"He still has the nerve to be disappointed in this and that. It seems he's the only one who's innocent..."
It can’t go on any longer. Su Lixuan feels her fists itching.
(End of this chapter)
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