Today is a rare good day, the sun is shining outside, and from the window I can see the evergreen trees in the garden. The leaves of the trees that have grown for many years are dark green, and the shades of color are very comfortable to look at.
Gu Qingchi got up very early. He looked out the window for a long time. Xie Luyu brought him a small blanket and a pillow, as well as a large cup of warm milk. After finishing the work at hand, he stayed with him by the window.
Gu Qingchi just watched like that, and didn't seem to care what Xie Luyu did beside him. He was much quieter these days than before, which meant that he was inexplicably depressed again. Xie Luyu was used to it and just paid attention to Gu Qingchi's every word and action all day long.
When Xie Luyu thought back now, many things had already become clear when they were together in the past.
It’s just that Xie Luyu didn’t think there was anything wrong before. He just thought that Gu Qingchi had encountered something unpleasant outside. He also thought that Gu Qingchi’s ability to withstand pressure was not good. Although he would be patient and give Gu Qingchi a hug and a warm blanket, he never took it seriously.
After so many times, Xie Luyu even felt annoyed and sometimes didn't care. Xie Luyu was powerful and thought that others were the same. He was too self-righteous and arrogant and never took the time to understand others. Now he was suffering the consequences.
Although Gu Qingchi would always feel depressed for no reason at that time, he would not actually bother others. He would go along if someone tried to comfort him, and would just stay alone if no one paid attention to him. He was very worry-free.
Every time Xie Luyu encounters this situation, he has to think more about it and be more cautious.
He found that Gu Qingchi seemed to be depressed for an exceptionally long time this time. It had been several days since Xie Luyu met Gu Qingchi that night, but he never seemed to be happy. He just lived in his own world and didn't care about anything else. He would take whatever Xie Luyu gave him and never asked for it.
Gu Qingchi stayed by the window for an unknown period of time before suddenly speaking.
"I want to spend some time in the garden today."
Xie Luyu was very surprised and agreed immediately.
"Very good. The weather is good today. Go change your clothes and I'll clean up the table outside. If you want, we can have a barbecue outside today."
Gu Qingchi responded and became somewhat interested in Xie Luyu's proposal. He told Xie Luyu that he wanted to eat fish.
He was in really good shape today, and it seemed as if the puppet had suddenly come alive.
Gu Qingchi hadn't cleaned up yet when he got up in the morning. The two decided to eat in the garden, so Gu Qingchi went to wash up while Xie Luyu went to get the barbecue grill. He specially changed out of his pajamas, put on a warm sweater, tidied himself up, and was in the mood to take care of his hair.
After he finished cleaning up, Xie Luyu had just finished preparing everything and was taking the chair and food outside. Gu Qingchi took the chair.
The charcoal fire had already started. Little Lihua smelled the scent of fish and became very excited. He sat on the chair next to Gu Qingchi and looked around.
Gu Qingchi was not very good at grilling, but he was willing to try it himself. Halfway through grilling, he became distracted and looked at the plants next to him. Xie Luyu helped him watch the grilled corn in front of him.
Until Gu Qingchi suddenly said.
"The flowers are all dead."
Xie Luyu also looked over. In addition to some evergreen trees in the garden, there was also a sea of flowers, but those flowers were annuals. Now that it was autumn, the flowers had withered and died, and even the leaves had begun to turn yellow.
Next, Gu Qingchi seemed to lose interest again, like an electric doll with low battery. He ate a little fish with little interest, and still had most of the food left.
After finally cleaning up, Xie Luyu stood up to take the plate in front of Gu Qingchi. He suddenly grabbed Xie Luyu's sleeve and said in a voice that couldn't be any softer.
"I'm sorry, but I'm so tired. It's exhausting just to live every day."
After he finished speaking, his tears rolled down, fell on his sweater, and quickly disappeared. The light was just right at the moment, and Gu Qingchi shed tears very quietly, so beautiful that it reminded people of the legendary mermaid with weeping tears.
Xie Luyu suddenly became panicked.
He wanted to ask, how can life be tiring? Isn't everything fine? I went out to see the garden and ate fish, which are all things you want to do, so why do you feel tired?
But Xie Luyu didn't ask. These were all meaningless. He was now learning to understand Gu Qingchi.
Xie Luyu couldn't empathize with Gu Qingchi's emotions, but it must be very uncomfortable, otherwise why would he cry? Gu Qingchi was not a crying person, so when he cried, he must be very sad.
Xie Luyu even thanked him for crying. Xie Luyu remembered what the doctor said: collapse is always silent.
Silently, how terrible it is, without even a chance to retain it.
Xie Luyu tentatively hugged Gu Qingchi, put his head against his chest, and stroked his hair.
"I know, I know it's hard, our Xiao Gu is very tired, our Xiao Gu has done a great job, but please hold on a little longer, and tell me if you feel uncomfortable."
Xie Luyu chattered on and on, saying a lot. He hugged Gu Qingchi for a very long time.
Late at night, Gu Qingchi had already fallen asleep.
Xie Luyu was still on the balcony making a phone call to a psychologist who charged by the minute, but he treated the call as free.
"Today, she was fine, but suddenly she started crying and said she was very tired..."
"Please come back tomorrow."
Xie Luyu actually wanted to call a doctor many times. There were several times when the doctor arrived, but Xie Luyu didn't know how to ask Gu Qingchi, so he just let it go.
"You should go to a nearby convenience store and sit for a while. I'll see what's going on and call you back."
The community is located in a remote area and there are no coffee shops nearby. Every time the doctor comes, he stays in a nearby convenience store. The doctor there is good-tempered, and Xie Luyu pays him a lot of money, so he is happy to follow suit.
On the other side, Xie Luyu thought about it all night and finally came up with a good reason.
The next day, wait until Gu Qingchi finished his meal.
Xie Luyu said casually.
"The company group just sent a notification. Check to see if you have any."
Gu Qingchi took out his cell phone. He rarely received many messages, so the one message was quite conspicuous.
[Notice: All artists in the company will be required to undergo psychological tests once a month starting today. For those who fail the test, the number of tests may be increased appropriately depending on the feedback received.]
This psychological counseling requires submitting a form, and all the items on it need to be passed. The doctor will also give comments in the end. Gu Qingchi was in the company with other people, and it was right next to the physical examination. After the physical examination, there was the psychological test, and you still had to queue up.
There were a lot of questions, but they were all similar. Gu Qingchi knew the correct answer at a glance, and his score was always high.
It was just a one-on-one conversation with the doctor at the end. The doctor noticed something and wrote it in the comments, saying that he had a tendency to be anxious. However, many people in the company had this problem, and Gu Qingchi was not very noticeable among them. Even Ye Li and Xiao Ke thought that Gu Qingchi was just emotionally unstable. Many artistes were like this and were under a lot of pressure. Gu Qingchi was still relatively good.
Xie Luyu continued to talk nonsense.
"I just made an appointment with the doctor here. He will come over later. He is the one who did the test on me before. You can do it together. I will hand in both of our forms when the time comes."
Gu Qingchi, who had been designated as an "individual", was completely unaware of this.
The doctor came very quickly. He looked quite young. Unlike the doctors I had met before who wore white coats, he was dressed very friendly, like a neighbor you would greet every day.
He wears a camel-colored sweater, has curly hair, and wears black-framed glasses. He is always smiling and looks energetic in everything he does. He holds a briefcase in his hand, which is also very nice, with cartoon patterns on it.
After Gu Qingchi took a few more glances, he took the bag and introduced it to Gu Qingchi enthusiastically.
"The yellow mouse above is Pikachu. It can also emit electric shocks. When it does so, it says Pika Pika Pikachu."
He imitated it very well, and Gu Qingchi showed a slight smile.
Xie Luyu was sitting next to Gu Qingchi.
The doctor still remembered his character and asked in a pretentious manner.
"I'm Jiang Cheng, you can call me Doctor Jiang. I brought both of your files. Who will do the test first?"
Xie Luyu coughed and discussed with Gu Qingchi.
"It's all the same. Why don't you go first?"
Gu Qingchi hummed and made a suggestion very seriously.
"You can do the questions first, and I'll talk to the doctor first to save time."
The doctor kept smiling and handed a stack of papers to Xie Luyu.
"Sure, sure. It saves time. There are quite a few questions this time."
Xie Luyu coughed, took it, and started doing the questions. Thinking of setting an example for Gu Qingchi, he did it quite seriously.
It was too obvious that the doctor skipped asking about the symptoms. Besides, Xie Luyu told him in great detail, even wanting to explain everything, such as eating a few bites less at night.
He had a very casual conversation with Gu Qingchi and even did a few small tests during the conversation.
Xie Luyu was still doing the test questions over there.
The doctor took a ballpoint pen and wrote something on the company's comments to Gu Qingchi.
"Well, I think you don't need to do the test. You are a little anxious and have some insomnia. My standards are quite strict. You won't pass the conversation part. You need special treatment. From now on, I will have to talk to you once a week. Before that, you can still work normally and it won't affect you."
Xie Luyu's pile of questions included both multiple-choice and short-answer questions. He had just finished the questions and handed them to the doctor while whispering to Gu Qingchi.
"This doctor is very strict. I was like this before. He didn't pass my test several times and talked to me every day."
After Xie Luyu finished talking to Dr. Jiang in a pretentious manner, he sent the doctor out.
"What should I do? I think the problem is serious. He is unhappy every day. Can you give him some medicine first? It's too torturous for him to be so miserable every day."
Doctor Jiang also became serious and pushed up his glasses.
"Medications cannot be prescribed casually, especially those for depression, which are addictive. At present, it seems that he has a tendency to depression, but it has only been less than a week since you told me about his situation. It is too short. The diagnosis of emotions is very complicated. I need to have more conversations. For now, self-regulation is the main focus."
In a large villa, a woman was casually fiddling with the bird's nest in front of her with a spoon while talking on the phone.
"Isn't it ridiculous? I saw my son's divorce on the trending searches."
I don't know what the person on the phone said, and the woman threw the spoon into the bowl.
"What should I do? Just ignore it. I can't control Xie Luyu anymore. Can't I control the child? She looks very obedient, but who knew she could quietly divorce and run away."
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