Chapter 42: Healing
After Shen Caisheng left, Yuan Lingling was the only one left in the room.
She looked up at the gentle light emitted by the desk lamp, and her thoughts gradually drifted away.
Before, she had never thought about the days of going south with Shen Caisheng. She had always been a little pessimistic, always feeling that some things would happen if they were supposed to happen. Even if she had made changes, the trajectory would inevitably develop in the same direction as before.
So before the day of leaving came, Yuan Lingling did not dare to hope that she and Shen Caisheng would really have a bright future.
Until today when she was tied up and her life was hanging by a thread, she felt a mixture of disappointment and realization. It turned out that this was the thing that was holding her back.
But no one expected that in such a dangerous environment, she was rescued intact.
Recalling the previous scene, a wave of fear surged into my heart. It was a fear of the imminent extinction of life that came from facing the darkness.
She thought she was really going to die.
Her stomach began to ache slightly, and Yuan Lingling covered her stomach and forced herself to fall asleep. However, as soon as she closed her eyes, the fear and pain seemed to deepen, making her very uncomfortable.
When Shen Caisheng came back, Yuan Lingling was still asleep.
That group of people fell into their own trap. He had completed all his previous tasks. As long as he wanted, he could take Yuan Lingling away at any time.
Shen Caisheng was a little excited. He could see that Yuan Lingling really wanted to leave, and he also wanted to have a stable new life.
He hurried home. The small light was on in the room. Shen Caisheng walked into the room and even his breathing became lighter.
However, when he glanced at the bed, he was startled.
Yuan Lingling curled up on the couch, sweat pouring down her forehead and mumbling softly. It was unclear whether she had a nightmare or was feeling unwell.
Shen Caisheng hurried forward, wanting to hear clearly what Yuan Lingling said.
"Chen Caisheng." The other party suddenly called her.
"What's wrong?" Shen Caisheng moved closer in panic. He lay beside Yuan Lingling, letting Yuan Lingling's breath hit her ears. At this time, he had no other thoughts but felt sorry for Yuan Lingling.
"Shen Caisheng, it hurts."
After a while, Shen Caisheng finally understood what Yuan Lingling said.
"It hurts, where does it hurt? Are you okay?" Seeing that she was really not feeling well, Shen Caisheng had to wake her up.
Yuan Lingling was still dazed when she was woken up, but the pain in her dream was still real, and she shed two lines of tears.
"Shen Caisheng, is the child gone?"
Upon hearing this, Shen Caisheng was startled and hurriedly pulled the person off the couch, "Gone? How could it be gone? Let me take a look. Is your stomach upset?"
It would be strange if Shen Caisheng could understand it, but Yuan Lingling obviously wouldn't talk nonsense. Seeing her unhappy look, his heart felt like it was sinking into an ice cave.
"Come on, I'll take you to the hospital."
Shen Caisheng took her to the hospital on his bicycle. Along the way, he was worried that Yuan Lingling's stomach would be hurt. When the doctor checked, he was also shocked.
"This is a miscarriage. You have to take good care of it. Go home and be careful. Don't have too many mood swings. Don't do any heavy or strenuous work..." It is common for doctors to mutter to themselves. If they don't explain clearly, many patients will not take it seriously. It is not easy to be pregnant with twins, so they can't help but say more.
Then he saw that the couple were staring at him with worried faces, both of them were worried about their child.
The doctor couldn't help but soften his tone and comforted, "You don't have to worry too much. Just do as I say, and the baby will be fine."
The hospital would not recommend that Yuan Lingling be hospitalized for such a minor problem, and Shen Caisheng was not aware of that. However, he was still worried about her getting bumped, so he went out of his way to find a car to drive Yuan Lingling home.
Shen Caisheng didn't say much until he got home.
Yuan Lingling was placed on the kang by him and she held him tightly, "Can you lie down with me? I'm scared to be alone."
Hearing this, Shen Caisheng was startled and nodded, "Okay, I'll come after I close the door."
After saying that, he ran out, closed the door and wanted to go back to the house, but he stopped before he stepped into the house. He went to the kitchen to get a bucket of water, took a cold shower, then changed his clothes and went back to the house.
He was so impetuous and caused quite a stir. Yuan Lingling, who was originally feeling a little heavy, now felt a lot more relaxed.
Seeing him standing in front of the kang somewhat awkwardly, Yuan Lingling couldn't help but burst out laughing.
"What are you standing there for? Aren't you cold? Come up here quickly. I won't eat you." Yuan Lingling teased him. Suddenly, she felt that she didn't need to comfort him or have a serious conversation with him. She just needed to be herself. "I'm pregnant. It's not convenient."
Sure enough, he was still tense when he spoke the first part, but when he heard the second part, Shen Caisheng's cheeks turned red.
"I feel cold and I'm afraid you'll catch a cold," he explained seriously.
Yuan Lingling said: "It's warm on the kang, and we don't share the same quilt, so you don't have to worry too much."
Hearing this, Shen Caisheng didn't say anything more and finally fell asleep next to Yuan Lingling.
The two of them were silent for several breaths, and then they spoke at the same time, "What happened today..."
Yuan Lingling giggled again, "I was too impulsive today. This kind of thing will never happen again. Don't be angry with me. In the future..."
"No." Shen Caisheng interrupted her, "I influenced you. They came to find me. If it weren't for me, you wouldn't be suffering like this today. It's my fault that I didn't do my job well."
Shen Caisheng thought a lot today. In fact, when the boss told him earlier that there was a traitor among them, he should have been more proactive in finding the person out. But at that time, he thought he was alone and was too confident in himself, which led to the current situation.
He heard from Yang Xiaoxi about how Yuan Lingling was kidnapped. If she hadn't come up with those ideas today and Yang Xiaoxi hadn't come out to help attract fire, it would not have been so easy for him and Zheng Changqing to capture those people.
In other words, if it weren't for Yuan Lingling, someone else might not even be able to save his life today, and the reason is that he was too conceited.
"Why do you think so?" Yuan Lingling pushed away her thoughts. "What does this have to do with you? Don't take everything on yourself. Shen Caisheng just needs to have a clear conscience. You have done what you should and can do. Even if I die today, it can't be blamed on you."
Before she finished speaking, Shen Caisheng had already raised his hand to cover her mouth, "Don't talk nonsense."
The two looked at each other and got very close. Yuan Lingling's heart beat faster. She reached out and grabbed Shen Caisheng's hand and put it on her face.
She had always thought that Shen Caisheng was very selfish, a person who would rather blame others than reflect on himself, but now it seems to be the complete opposite.
The reason why he acted indifferent to everything was because there was no one he cared about, but now he obviously cared about himself, so he behaved very abnormally today, and he was trying his best to hide his abnormality.
This situation probably stems from his childhood experiences, which Yuan Lingling can fully understand.
"Shen Caisheng, do you like me?"
Yuan Lingling didn't know how to comfort him. People said that the hurt suffered in childhood takes a lifetime to heal.
Since Shen Caisheng cares about her, she is willing to work hard to heal him.
Shen Caisheng was a young man who was not part of the new society. Even though he had some rebellious thoughts in his heart, he had never seen someone like Yuan Lingling who would directly express her likes and dislikes. For a moment, he didn't know how to answer.
But Yuan Lingling kept staring at him, as if she wanted him to give an answer.
Finally, under Yuan Lingling's eye attack, he nodded.
Yuan Lingling said with satisfaction: "In that case, you have to listen to me in the future. First of all, don't regret what you have done. Look forward."
As she spoke, she pulled Shen Caisheng's hand down to cover her belly, and said, "Here are your two children. They will call you dad in the future. I hope their dad can be positive and optimistic."
"Shen Caisheng, look forward. The future, and even the present, are more worthy of our attention than the past."
After hearing what Yuan Lingling said, Shen Caisheng still did not give any response. He just hugged Yuan Lingling and fell asleep again.
In the next few days, Shen Caisheng let Yuan Lingling see his changes.
He still found ways to cook delicious food for Yuan Lingling, cleaned the house every day, started packing his luggage for the trip south, and then brought back gossip from outside every day to tell Yuan Lingling.
"Ma Lili is back. I heard from Ma Jie that she has completely let go of Xie Guangan."
"After walking the line between life and death, everyone can figure out some things." Yuan Lingling was worried that he would care about this matter again, so she changed the subject and said, "By the way, do you know Zheng Changqing? Why did you come to see us with him that day?"
Although Yuan Lingling was tense that day, she heard the noise outside clearly and saw the gun in Zheng Changqing's hand, so she naturally thought that Zheng Changqing was also one of Shen Caisheng's men.
However, Shen Caisheng said, "Old You knew him. They met on the road and traveled together."
"Is that so? Then how did he have a gun? I remember that private use of guns is not allowed now." Yuan Lingling asked subconsciously. She had something hidden in her mind and did not notice the sudden look from Shen Caisheng.
After a few moments of silence, Shen Caisheng said, "The ban on guns was only introduced in the past two years. He was holding a hunting rifle, so if he hadn't been discovered, no one would have cared."
"Will he be arrested?"
Shen Caisheng paused for a moment and asked, "Why do you care about him so much?"
Yuan Lingling was speechless. "I also care about Yang Xiaoxi. Did you hear what she said that day? The tiger Yang she mentioned..."
As Yuan Lingling spoke, she secretly glanced at Shen Caisheng, and when she found that he was also looking at her, she quickly looked away.
"Is there any problem with her identity?"
Yuan Lingling remembered that the identity of the heroine in the book was indeed a bit shameful, but now it sounded like she was still a villain. Even Yang Xiaoxi was very clear about it. It seemed that she was not as naive as she seemed.
So is she good or evil?
"Yes." After Shen Caisheng agreed, he was silent for a few breaths before explaining, "In the beginning, we cooperated with her just to investigate this matter, but it is inconvenient to talk about the details."
Yuan Lingling said, "Then can I ask, does she know much about her father's affairs? Will she be implicated this time?"
If she was really implicated, then Shen Caisheng in the book should have had a grudge against her, so how could there be any subsequent events in which he followed the heroine?
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