The moonlight was like water, covering the two of them. The streets were too quiet in the middle of the night, and the words I heard were particularly clear. It was impossible to pretend that I didn't hear them.
Fang Chaozhou looked at the young man in front of him, his lips moved, as if he wanted to say something, but he didn't say it. Seeing this, Xue Danrong closed his eyes, and when he opened them again, there was no emotion left in his eyes.
"I didn't kill Li Zhu, not because I believed what Senior Brother said, but because I knew Senior Brother didn't want me to kill him. I didn't kill him because I was afraid that Senior Brother would hate me, fear me, and abandon me. But in fact, I wanted to kill everyone in the world so that Senior Brother would only have to look at me."
When Xue Danrong said the last sentence, his voice was very soft.
"But if I kill everyone in the world, will my brother love me?"
After Xue Danrong said this, he was still waiting for Fang Chaozhou's answer, but he was almost desperate to find that Fang Chaozhou was still silent as before. Xue Danrong turned away and walked forward, and after taking a few steps, he suddenly heard a voice behind him.
“I like it.”
He suddenly stopped and turned to look at Fang Chaozhou.
Fang Chaozhou had expressed many emotions in front of Xue Danrong, but never like tonight. He looked very nervous, his long eyelashes were trembling, but his eyes were always on Xue Danrong.
"Not sympathy."
Of the two of them, Fang Chaozhou has always been the eloquent one, even a silver tongue. He can make dead things come alive and unreasonable things seem reasonable. Xue Danrong, on the other hand, is taciturn and usually speaks very briefly.
But this time, it was like they switched roles.
Fang Chaozhou seemed to have become very dull, and he could only squeeze out seven words after a long while:
What I like is not sympathy.
Fang Chaozhou looked at the handsome young man not far away. In a trance, the young man in snow-white clothes in his memory overlapped with the person in front of him. In five years, Xue Danrong grew from a boy to a young man, but in fact, Xue Danrong did not change much.
Xue Danrong would not hide his emotions most of the time. If he liked someone, he liked him; if he didn't like someone, he didn't like him. Once he realized his feelings for Fang Chaozhou, he would work hard to be with him. No matter what lay ahead, he wanted to be with him.
But Fang Chaozhou is different. Even if he realizes his feelings, he will step back. But no matter how he steps back, some things cannot be covered up. On the surface, he had no feelings towards Xue Danrong, as if he only regarded him as the protagonist in a book and his junior fellow apprentice. But in fact, some clues were revealed from the beginning.
If he didn't like her, he would have rejected Xue Danrong's kiss at the beginning when he first entered Zhichunzhou, instead of half-heartedly accepting it; if he didn't like her, he would have thought that Xue Danrong was being unreasonable when faced with Xue Danrong's jealous behavior, instead of being humble and coaxing him; if he didn't like her, he would not have pushed Xue Danrong away in the underground demon realm. In his heart, the other party was the protagonist of the book, and logically, Xue Danrong would never die, but he might. However, his instinct at that time still made him push Xue Danrong away.
Even though he had lost his memory, he still felt that Xue Danrong was the most special in his heart, so he was only willing to let Xue Danrong practice dual cultivation with him and rejected Zhongli Yueshui. He actually knew in his heart that the brown pheasant only allowed him to meet Xue Danrong, but the person who really made him willing to do this was himself.
But he didn't want to admit it. He found a bunch of reasons and made excuses in front of the brown pheasant for not wanting to go to Xue Danrong. But when Xue Danrong came to find him, he was actually happy. Even when the other party left him in the classroom, his mind was full of some dirty nonsense.
He was secretly expecting something to happen, so he got angry when he found out that the other party was just asking him to peel chestnuts.
After recovering his memory, Fang Chaozhou seemed to be deceiving himself. He wanted to put the blame on the brown pheasant, saying that he just lost his memory and that's why he was confused and practiced dual cultivation with Xue Danrong. But he himself couldn't explain why he allowed Xue Danrong to do those intimate actions.
If you really want to refuse, there are many ways to do it.
If he were dissolute, then anyone could be his, but he is not.
Only Xue Danrong made him half-hearted and self-deceiving.
But because of fear, he kept backing off. He didn't want to end up like his original self, didn't want to be like others who loved Xue Danrong in vain, and didn't want to cause trouble.
It takes great courage for someone like him to be with Xue Danrong. He is not Zhongli Yueshui, who is so powerful that he can look down on the world, nor is he like Li Yiye and others who can do whatever they want without thinking about the consequences.
Fang Chaozhou exhaled lightly, and after a moment of silence, he finally found his voice, "I don't let you kill Li Zhu because killing him will only increase your demonic energy. I'm not doing this for him, but for you."
Although the original novel has not yet written an ending, he can guess that the original author's ending will definitely not be good. He will be abandoned by his friends and relatives, and his lover will look at him with disgust. He didn't want Xue Danrong to become like this, so he wanted to take Xue Danrong back to Tianshui Sect and make him admit his mistakes and receive the punishment. In this way, Xue Danrong would still be Xue Danrong, and he would still be the immortal cultivation genius respected by the entire Tianshui Sect.
If the sect is unwilling to forgive Xue Danrong, then he will accompany Xue Danrong wherever he wants to go, but he would rather the other party be the original pearl and not be covered in dust because of him. Even if the other party returns to Tianshui Sect, he may not belong to him alone like he does now.
"I hope you are Xue Danrong, not Fang Chaozhou's Xue Danrong." Fang Chaozhou said word by word, with an extremely cautious tone. After saying this, he removed his gaze from Xue Danrong's face, stared at the ground, and whispered, "Of course, it would be even better if you could be Xue Danrong and also be mine."
As soon as he finished speaking, he was hugged.
Fang Chaozhou was stunned for a moment, then he raised his hands and hugged the other person back. He buried his face in the other person's neck. His heart was extremely peaceful at this moment, because he finally faced his own heart. He would no longer retreat or deceive himself. He admitted that he had fallen in love a long time ago.
Just holding each other quietly like this, doing nothing, I feel satisfied.
"Senior Brother." The person holding him suddenly spoke.
Fang Chaozhou's nose was filled with the cool fragrance of the other person, just like the first time he hugged the other person.
At that time, he stabbed Li Yiye in the heart, and Li Yiye's blood spilled on him, still warm. As a modern man, he had never seen such a scene before. He didn't even dare to kill a chicken. At that time, Xue Danrong brought him out of the Dark Soul Gate and hugged him in the dilapidated temple just like today.
"Hmm?" Fang Chaozhou said softly, turning his face to find a better position around the other's neck.
"I want to practice dual cultivation."
Fang Chaozhou: “…”
At such a warm moment, making such a request would really ruin the atmosphere. Shouldn't you say something that you like him and love him?
"……good."
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