After learning about her mother's whereabouts, Huang Rong found herself trapped in a cage from which she could hardly escape. To her, her mother was her only family in the world, and she was determined to find her.
But what about her mother? She abandoned her and her father and never came back. Now she's married and has no intention of coming back to find her. Only her mother still longs to find her.
“Rongrong has been listless these past few days, and her appetite has halved. What’s wrong?” An Rong asked Yuan Doudou as she stood at Huang Rong’s door.
Yuan Doudou was leading Tangtang as she walked. Tangtang had just turned one year old, and she could already walk with him, her steps very steady.
Huang Rong's thoughts were not hard to guess. Yuan Doudou understood them to some extent. This was a knot in her heart, and even if outsiders inquired, it wouldn't be of much help. She could only wait for herself to figure it out.
"Don't disturb her, take it slow." Yuan Doudou said this and left with Tangtang, showing no concern for Huang Rong whatsoever.
An Rong found her reaction rather strange. Usually, she was the one who took the initiative to care for Huang Rong. What was wrong with her today?
She suddenly became so cold; it's not like her at all.
Lu Xi was sweeping the yard with a broom. He was also curious about what was wrong with Huang Rong. Why had she suddenly become so sullen? Was it because Fang He had left and she was in a bad mood?
Fang He had only been here for three months, not as long as Huang Rong had, yet Huang Rong's feelings for Fang He were even deeper than for herself.
"Sister Rongrong, you only had a bowl of vegetable soup for lunch. Are you hungry? I'll cook you a bowl of noodles." Lu Xi approached Huang Rong's door and asked softly.
He called out a few times and knocked on the door for a while, but there was no response from inside.
Did Huang Rong faint inside, or did she do something foolish and lose consciousness?
Lu Xi was afraid that Huang Rong might do something rash, so she quickly went to find Yuan Doudou and asked her to go in and check on Huang Rong's condition.
"Lu Xi, you care about Rongrong a lot, don't you?" Yuan Doudou asked with a half-smile. She had long noticed that Lu Xi would occasionally steal glances at Huang Rong and blush easily when talking to Huang Rong.
But if she wasn't mistaken, Huang Rong had different thoughts about Fang He, which was evident from the peace charm she gave him when he left.
"Of course I care. She and you are both my sisters, and I care about them equally." Lu Xi said, lowering her head, her face turning red to the roots of her neck.
Yuan Doudou tried to suppress her laughter, but it was too late now. With a gossipy expression, she looked at Lu Xi with interest and asked with a hint of disbelief, "Oh, really? She and I are on the same level in your heart. I suddenly don't know whether to be happy or sad?"
She spent thirty taels to take Lu Xi away from the Lu residence, and she also spent twenty taels to bring Huang Rong back, which allowed the two to cross paths. Therefore, her place in Lu Xi's heart should be higher than Huang Rong's. Now that Lu Xi says they are equally important, it's clear that Huang Rong holds a special place in his heart.
"Sister Dou Dou, that's not what I meant." His face turned even redder, and he spoke with a hint of guilt.
"I know, I'll go see Huang Rong right now. I can't let her do something rash." She's a very easygoing person and doesn't think there's anything strange about Huang Rong's behavior. Everyone has bad days, and it's normal to not want to eat or just want to be alone when you're in a bad mood. As family and friends, all they can do is quietly stay by her side and try not to disturb her.
Since Lu Xi had already spoken, he couldn't just ignore her.
"Sister Dou Dou, you're so kind." Lu Xi's lips curled up slightly, revealing a genuine smile.
Yuan Doudou's pupils dilated in shock. Lu Xi was unusually affectionate, it seemed he could break through his own inhibitions for love.
While Tangtang was sleeping, Yuan Doudou went to find Huang Rong.
She called out once, and the door opened. Huang Rong still looked sullen, as if she had something on her mind.
"Sister DouDou." Even though I was in a bad mood, I still addressed her politely.
Yuan Doudou took her arm and they went into the house together.
"Still troubled by your mother's affairs?" Yuan Doudou hit the nail on the head.
"How did you know?" Huang Rong was quite surprised that Yuan Doudou knew her so well and had guessed her thoughts.
Yuan Doudou laughed and said, "It's not hard to guess. After I told you about your mother that day, I could tell that you were wavering in your belief in finding her."
"Actually, it's not that I don't want to see her, it's that she doesn't want to see me, and I don't want to put her in a difficult position."
As Huang Rong spoke, her eyes were already red.
Yuan Doudou found it hard not to be moved, but she still wanted to comfort her.
"Rongrong, don't overthink it. After all, it's not certain whether that person is your mother or not. What if she isn't?"
Sister Juan said they look very alike, but there are many people in the world who look alike, so it can't be taken as an absolute statement.
Huang Rong gave a bitter smile, her face pale.
"Sister Dou Dou, I know you're trying to comfort me. Regardless of whether that person is my mother or not, I've figured it out. Since my mother abandoned us and never came back to see me again, why should I search for her so desperately?"
It turned out that she had fallen into a quagmire of complete denial and no longer held any beautiful illusions about her mother.
"Didn't you say that finding your mother was your and your father's wish?" Yuan Doudou asked softly.
Her father died on the way while she was searching for her mother. If she gives up now, wouldn't her father's death be a great waste?
Huang Rong looked blank and momentarily lost in thought. She thought of her deceased father, and large tears, like beads on a string, fell down her cheeks.
"Sister Dou Dou, what should I do? I want to find her, but I'm also afraid that if I find her, she won't recognize me. What should I do then?" Huang Rong lost her mother ten years ago, and the love she felt for her mother was something she could only dream of. The more hope she saw, the more afraid she was that it would be dashed.
Rather than getting hurt again, it's better not to have any expectations in the first place; without expectations, there will be no disappointment.
“Rongrong, I understand your conflicted feelings. However, if you back down and miss out on her because of it, you may never have the chance to find her again in this lifetime.”
lifetime?
Huang Rong fell into deep thought. If she gave up because of this, it might become the biggest regret of her life.
She was a person who dared to love and hate, and she didn't want to live her whole life in regret. Perhaps she shouldn't think too much about it. Regardless of whether her mother acknowledged her or not, she was still her mother.
Blood is thicker than water; that's an unchangeable fact.
"Sister Dou Dou, you're right. I shouldn't have given up, and I shouldn't have made unfounded assumptions. Perhaps she has her own reasons."
Yuan Doudou felt a little sad. Children who lack love may be left with a lifelong shadow, living in fear of being abandoned and neglected.
“Rongrong, no matter what the outcome, this will always be your home,” Yuan Doudou said firmly.
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