Chapter 879: I Don’t Want to Stay (Additional Update 1)

Now that I know the real reason, everything is explained.

"Don't you want this child?"

Xu Wanning nodded and shook her head.

"I don't know. I'm not ready to welcome a new life yet. Mom, you know, I am currently focusing all my energy on hybrid rice research. After the New Year and the weather gets warmer, I will I have to travel back and forth to various cities, trying to develop hybrid rice suitable for planting in China as soon as possible.

"If I want to keep him, it will definitely affect my plan. It doesn’t matter if it affects me alone, but in one year’s time, how many people will starve to death across China? I didn’t dare to think about it,

but Xu’s mother disagreed: “But Aning, this is not your responsibility. The pressure you put on yourself is too great.

” Aning, tell your mother, what are you worried about now? Because will the arrival of this child affect your work, or do you simply not want to keep this child? "

Xu Wanning felt that something was hit in her heart.

She looked at Xu's mother blankly, her mouth slightly opened, and wanted to say something, but she said nothing.

Xu's mother said softly: "I gave birth to you . , it is said that a good daughter is better than a mother. I can feel that you don’t want this child. The question we want to discuss now is whether you are worried that the birth of this child will affect you, or whether you do not want a child at all. As long as this problem is solved, we will know what to do next

. Xu Wanning felt that her brain was in a mess.

It had been a long time since she had felt helpless like this.

"I can't tell. It should be that I don't want to have a baby. His arrival will affect my work, which is just one of my concerns.

My first reaction when I learned that I was pregnant was panic and fear. This kind of subconscious The reaction just showed that she did not welcome the arrival of this child in her heart.

Just now, Lin An said that although Song Han and Jin Chu were not born to her,

what Xu Wanning wanted to say was that despite going through ten months of pregnancy and one day of childbirth. It is indeed not her, but it is indeed this body.

As long as she still uses this body, the bond between her and Song Han Jinchu will never be broken in this life.

Moreover, she cares about it. She loves her two children and has long regarded them as her own.

Her relationship with Lin An is also very stable and does not need a child to stabilize it.

On the contrary, if this child is born, all kinds of problems will disappear. What followed was that Xu Wanning didn't want her current living situation to be broken.

To sum up, her mother was right. She really didn't want to have this child,

not just because the child might affect her work. , she doesn’t want to give birth.

“Then, let’s not give birth.”

Mother Xu ran her fingers along Xu Wanning’s smooth hair and said softly: “I heard your mother and Lin An say before that when Song Han and Jin Chu were born, you I had heavy bleeding twice, especially when I gave birth to Jinchu, and I almost couldn't wake up. Although I didn't see it with my own eyes, I felt scared when I heard these words.

"Since ancient times, women have always had a child before the door of hell is closed." Wandering does not mean that having more children and more experience will reduce this risk. Anyway, you already have Song Han and Jin Chu, and the more children, the better

. "An Ning, mother hopes that you can truly live for yourself. You see, you have your own shining talents in many aspects. You will shine brightly if you can develop hybrid rice and bring hope to the people. Mom doesn't want you to worry about whether you want to have children or not.

Following Xu's mother's words, Xu Wanning felt her irritable heart. He was gradually comforted.

"Then... you won't give birth?"

"Well, I won't give birth. " I believe your mother-in-law knows about this and will support your decision. She really cares about you, and your mother can feel it

. "Indeed, but I want to find a time tomorrow to talk to her about this.

Although Xu Wanning has made up her mind not to have children, and whether she wants to have children or not is entirely up to her. For herself, but she felt that she still had to tell Mother Lin to show respect, "Yes, she is your mother-in-law after all, and she has always treated you like her own daughter, so you have to tell her , "But you just

said.

He said that the child was born because of fate. If I personally cut off the relationship between mother and son, will he hate me?"

Xu's mother was silent for a long time before she lowered her voice and said, "Actually, it was because of fate. When I found out that I was pregnant with Maoning, I didn't want to do it. Anyway, I already had a son and a daughter, so there was no need to cause trouble for myself. But, Maoning is more stubborn. I couldn't kill him by taking medicine, and I didn't. She dared to do the surgery, so she had no choice but to give birth.

Xu Wanning: ...

She didn’t dare to do a small uterine evacuation surgery, but she dared to give birth to the child? "Does Maoning know about this? "How dare you let him know this? If he knew it, with his character, he wouldn't cause a quarrel! " " " It was mother and daughter who gradually fell asleep while talking about Xu Maoning's gossip. The next day, Xu Wanning came out of the bedroom and saw Lin An sitting in the main room. There were blue dark circles under his eyelids and a ring of stubble on his lips. It was obvious that he had not slept all night. Seeing Xu Wanning coming out, Lin An hurriedly stood up and stepped forward to greet her, holding her shoulders and asking her to sit down on the stool. "Aning, I thought about it carefully all night yesterday. There is indeed a problem with my attitude yesterday. I have decided that after I return to Beijing this time, I will make it clear to the two leaders and temporarily withdraw from the action team. "I will try my best . Not going out to do tasks will ensure that there is enough time to take care of you every day. You don’t have to worry after the child is born. I will take care of the child with my mother. You are still free to do whatever you want. The child will not become a fetter for you. Xu Wanning’s eyes widened suddenly, and even her voice could not help but rise. "So, you want to keep this child? Isn't it enough to have Songhan and Jinchu? Are you like others, hoping to keep a few more bloodlines?" Lin An's eyes changed from firm to confused: "It's not you Do you want to keep the child? " "When did I say this? This is completely your own speculation! Lin An, I thought you knew me well, but you don't understand me at all!" As she spoke, Xu Wanning began to shed tears, which later turned into howling.

Lin An stood helpless. He wanted to wipe Xu Wanning's tears, but as soon as he raised his hand, Xu Wanning dodged it.