"Have a sleep, I'll accompany you." Qin Zhao pulled the baby out of his arms and let Jing Li lie back on the bed.
He also sternly instructed the little fish: "Daddy is very tired, don't make any noise, let him have a good sleep, okay?"
"I know." The little fish crawled between Jing Li and Qin Zhao and lay down obediently.
The tone of his words was almost exactly the same as Jing Li's. Qin Zhao also covered him with a blanket before lying down together.
With the little boy between them, Qin Zhao couldn't hold his husband to sleep like he used to. He didn't close his eyes, quietly watching his sleeping face, and from time to time he stretched out his arm to brush the hair that fell on his cheek behind his ear.
"Qin Zhao..." Jing Li spoke as if he was half asleep and half awake.
Qin Zhao: "Hmm?"
"Do you think I'm willful?" Jing Li didn't open his eyes, half of his face was buried in the quilt, and his voice was unclear. "But if you go to the capital, a letter will take more than a month to arrive. I can't stand not seeing you for so long and not hearing from you."
In this era, once two places are separated, they are truly separated.
There is no communication and no news for several months at the least, and even one or two years at the most. We don’t even know whether the other person is alive or dead.
Jing Li couldn't stand this kind of life.
"I understand." Qin Zhao said softly, "What about you? Do you think I'm willful?"
"ah?"
Qin Zhao: "I could have just ignored everything and lived a peaceful life with you here, but I chose to go to the capital and make a fuss. Sometimes I wonder if I'm a little too willful."
In fact, what Jing Li said just now was not wrong. Qin Zhao did not have only one way forward.
He had a safer option, which was to return to his hometown with his husband, hide his identity, and live out the rest of his life. With Gu Changzhou in Jiangling Prefecture and the governor being his own man, it wouldn't be difficult for him and his family to live out the rest of their lives in peace.
But if you continue to move forward, you will face an uncertain future and many dangers.
It might even implicate his family.
This question was asked by Deng Tianyou when I met him last night.
"...I don't understand. Wouldn't it be better for you to stay in Jiangling? It's been so long since that happened. What happened back then...if His Majesty really wanted to get rid of you, wouldn't you be walking into a trap by returning now?"
Qin Zhao had heard this question more than once. Even someone as loyal as Ah Qi had asked Qin Zhao, since Gu Changzhou was not allowed to rebel, why did he insist on going to Beijing?
He never gave a direct answer.
"I understand you." Jing Li leaned forward and rested his head on Qin Zhao's shoulder. "As long as you don't abandon me, I will support whatever decision you make."
Before this, Jing Li guessed Qin Zhao's identity, so he didn't want Qin Zhao to come to Beijing.
Because he didn't know what had happened at that time, he was worried that Qin Zhao would encounter danger on this trip and didn't want him to take the risk.
Until today.
When Qin Zhao was telling Jing Li about the past, he did not mention the reason for going to Beijing, but Jing Li could feel what he was thinking.
He was unwilling to accept it.
Back then, Qin Zhao had dared to take on the heavy responsibility bestowed upon him by the late emperor, single-handedly clearing the court and its surroundings. He was a man of greater pride than anyone else. But now, even a moment's exposure to the wind would leave him bedridden, relying on medicinal herbs to eke out a living.
No one would be willing to live like this.
Jing Li understood him and was willing to support him.
Of course, the premise is that this person absolutely cannot abandon him.
Even if you think he is willful, it won't work.
"Besides, don't forget that I'm also useful," Jing Li said. "Yuzi and I are both koi. Staying by your side can increase your fortune. Anyone who dares to harm you will definitely end up in a bad way."
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