When Su Qian came back with some firewood, Yan Xuanye had already sat up. Seeing her come back, Yan Xuanye took the firewood and fire starter from her hand and lit a fire.
Su Qian was a little surprised, "Why are you up?"
Yan Xuanye: "I feel better now, so I sit up."
After a few seconds, he added, "It should have been me who collected the firewood."
Su Qian sensed something amiss in his words and looked up at him. "It's just a small matter. Don't take it to heart."
Yan Xuanye just said "hmm" lightly and said nothing more.
"You..." Su Qian hesitated for a moment, and finally asked, "Why can't you swim?"
Yan Xuanye's expression froze, and he suddenly raised his head, his eyes seeming a little hurt. "Qianqian, do you really want to know?"
When she really wanted to know and understand things about him, perhaps she had truly taken him into her heart.
This is also what he has always expected to happen, expecting that one day she would no longer try to please him, no longer be hypocritical, and no longer treat him with a cold face.
Even though talking about this would touch his scars, he didn't care.
"I want to know."
A person who cannot float will often carry a waterproof fire starter with him. Is this so that he can make a fire to keep warm and ensure his life safety after being rescued?
Of course, this is just her guess.
But if not, how could it be such a coincidence that the tinderbox happened to be used, and why was the tinderbox wrapped in waterproof oilcloth?
Yan Xuanye's eyes were empty, and he seemed to be reminiscing: "Actually, when I was little, I could swim too."
"Once I was swimming in a river when I heard a commotion downstream. Curious, I decided to swim over and take a look."
"Qianqian, do you know what I saw?"
Su Qian said softly, "What is it?"
"My mother drowned in the river." He suddenly looked up and sighed, then covered his cheeks with his hands. His slightly trembling body looked lonely and helpless.
Su Qian suddenly hated herself for asking such a question.
She sat closer to him, put her right hand on his back and patted him gently, "I'm sorry, I shouldn't ask these questions."
Yan Xuanye covered his face and shook his head, "You must be very curious about why my mother drowned in the river."
"The honorable Kehadun, wherever he went, he should have been followed by many servants to serve him. How could he suddenly drown in the river?"
Su Qian was indeed curious, but she also knew when to say what. At this moment, it was obviously not appropriate to talk about topics that would provoke him.
But Yan Xuanye continued, "My mother didn't love my father, but he forced her to marry him. This forced my mother to be separated from her childhood sweetheart, the young general she had secretly betrothed to."
"She hated my father terribly, but she had no choice. He was in charge of the 16 tribes on the grassland, and her childhood sweetheart's life was also in his hands. She had no choice but to accept her fate."
"After my mother gave birth to me, everyone thought she had surrendered, including my father. But she hadn't. She secretly escaped several times, but was discovered each time. My father then captured her and locked her up in a tent."
"My mother used this opportunity to get close to me and stayed quiet for a while. She then begged my father to let her go. In the end, my father relented."
"But it was also because of my father's soft-heartedness that my mother drowned in the river while fleeing. When the servants discovered she was missing, they immediately sent people to look for her."
"My mother heard them coming to capture her while she was escaping. She was frightened and unfortunately suffered cramps in her legs and feet, which led to her drowning."
Su Qian: "So...that day, you saw your biological mother drown in the river, and it left you with a mental sequelae, causing you to be afraid to swim again in the future?"
Yan Xuanye said dejectedly, "That's probably it. Since then, I've been afraid of rivers, lakes, ponds, and the like. And since then, I've lost my ability to swim. Whenever I'm in water, my legs become weak and cramp, and my heartbeat speeds up."
Su Qian understood his vulnerability at the moment and his lingering fear, so she went over and hugged him gently, "It's okay, don't be afraid, it's all over."
Yan Xuanye forced a bitter smile: "My father once told me that only a child can keep a woman's heart."
His eyelashes trembled suddenly, and he asked, "Qianqian, am I stupid enough to believe what he said?"
Su Qian didn't know how to answer this question. Whether he could use a child to keep a woman might depend on the person's personality and experience.
It would naturally be more difficult for a woman like Yan Xuanye's mother, who already had someone she loved and was forced to marry his father.
"People say that children can't keep a woman's heart. But my father said that if it weren't for me, even those years with my mother wouldn't have been able to keep her heart."
His father did not teach him how to love someone, but only taught him how to plunder.
His father told him that if he liked something, he should grab it and it would be his if he got it. If he couldn't get it, it meant that other things were not handled properly.
Yan Xuanye believed it when he was a child, until he lost his mother, and then he understood a little.
That's why he sought Su Qian's opinions in various ways before getting married. Although he didn't ask for much, Su Qian didn't reject him, right?
He also understood that Su Qian's heart was not with him, but so what? As long as she was willing to lie to him and stay with him, it didn't matter even if she used him or hurt him.
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