Su Qingci was silent for a while, then asked, "But have you ever thought about what the outside world would say about me if I married and never got pregnant?"
The world is harsh on women.
Just like on this issue, they don’t think there is something wrong with the man’s body, they just think it’s the woman’s belly that is not cooperating.
The world's malice towards women is far more cruel than they imagine.
If Su Qingci still hasn't gotten pregnant in half a year at most, Lu Huan, his father Lu Guang, will definitely ask about it.
Although she might not be asked openly about this matter, she would definitely be urged to do so in private.
In fact, she is the only one who will take the blame and bear the pressure.
Lu Huan: "I have thought about it."
"So I have already arranged all these things, you don't have to worry."
Hearing Lu Huan say this, Su Qingci felt a little more at ease.
But she couldn't help but break free from his embrace, sat up straight, and asked, "Have you arranged it? How did you arrange it?"
"I once owed a favor to the imperial physician who prescribed this for you. I've already discussed this with him. If there ever comes a day when you're caught up in a rumor, I'll use his words to announce to the outside world that I have an incurable disease and can't make you pregnant."
"It's not your problem, but I...can't do it."
Su Qingci frowned: "What incurable disease?"
Lu Huanshen spoke mysteriously, "...impotence."
She stood up suddenly, "What!"
"What did you say?"
"No, absolutely not! Do you care about your reputation? How can you just say such a joke?"
Lu Huan took her hand and gestured for her to calm down. "It's okay. I don't care about what others say."
"This just proves the rumor that I don't need prostitutes to serve me in the restaurant."
"If Gao Jiarong wants to get someone close to me in the future, we can use this excuse to get rid of her."
As for the problem of male impotence, she would have no reason to do so even if she wanted to deliberately send someone to him to get information or deliberately send someone to disgust him.
Su Qingci was really frightened by what he said. She never expected that Lu Huan could do this.
Just for her safety, can he give up the dignity that men care about most?
She couldn't help but shake her head, her heart was like a raging storm that couldn't calm down for a long time.
Lu Huan must be crazy, otherwise how could he have such extreme thoughts?
Qingci looked at him in disbelief and slowly said, "If I had to abandon your dignity as a man and endure the criticism and insults of the outside world, I would rather you not have married me." Endless pain and struggle were revealed in his words.
If he had not married her, he would not have to worry about whether she would be alone and pregnant, being bullied in the backyard, or even dying tragically during childbirth.
However, she could never give up her own reputation and dignity as resolutely as Lu Huan did.
After all, as a woman, she knows how hard and difficult it is to survive in this world.
She had been unfavored since she was a child, her father didn't care about her, and although her mother lived in the harem, she was powerless and of low status, so she was unable to protect her and herself.
She has three older brothers who are the focus of their father's attention, while she can only grow up silently licking her wounds in the corner.
Life was already difficult for both mother and daughter, and when she was young, her mother often confided her misfortunes to her.
Therefore, Su Qingci has known since childhood how harsh and hurtful the gossip from the outside world is.
Therefore, she attaches great importance to her reputation and regards it as a treasure because it is the only thing she can hold on to.
However, Lu Huan didn't care about it at all?
This made her feel very confused and painful.
If it was for her, she would rather not have chosen to be with him.
Everyone has their own suffering. Her suffering was growing up in a family environment lacking fatherly love and being ignored, living a life like a maid.
But since marrying Lu Huan, she felt that those difficult days were over.
People often say that getting married is a woman's second chance to change her destiny.
It was Lu Huan who gave her the chance to be reborn. However, when she was reborn, Lu Huan had to bear the rumors and gossips.
She didn't want to see such an outcome.
She doesn't want to.
…
Lu Huan, however, seemed to have made up his mind. He said with a firm look in his eyes, "I've already decided. There's no need to discuss this matter anymore."
"Those contraceptive pills are very safe and will definitely not cause any harm to your body. Qingci, don't worry." Lu Huan looked at Su Qingci, trying to reassure her.
However, Su Qingci did not look at him, but shifted his gaze elsewhere.
She knew in her heart that she did not distrust Lu Huan, and she even felt a little guilty for having implicated Lu Huan.
So, after the incident that night, when Lu Huan came over with a bowl of birth control pills and handed it to her, Su Qingci behaved very obediently and drank all the pills in the bowl.
However, after Lu Huan left, she quietly scratched her throat with her fingers and spit out all the medicine she had just drunk.
The bitter taste made Su Qingci almost vomit bile. She felt weak all over and could only sit weakly on the stool.
In order to avoid being discovered by Lu Huan who suddenly came in, she carefully poured the spitted potion back into the potted tree outside the window.
Su Qingci firmly believed that as long as Lu Huan was by her side, he would do his best to protect her and keep her away from any danger.
This belief also made her firm in her inner choice.
…
What he talked about was that Yan Xuanye's army was eyeing the situation covetously from outside, and that there were rebellious forces in Nanchang ready to make a move.
She thought to herself that if she could give birth to a child for him before the mutiny, then he might not have to worry about being persecuted by others during pregnancy.
After all, Lu Huan is no longer the inexperienced young man he was back then.
Recalling the battle to quell the rebellion, Lu Guang asked the emperor for permission to take Su Qingci with him. On the one hand, he wanted to train Lu Huan and let him accumulate more practical experience; on the other hand, as a descendant of the Lu family, Lu Huan should shoulder the responsibility of bringing glory to the family and fighting bravely.
Nowadays, the Lu family already has two generals, and Lu Huan already has rich experience in going on expeditions. He is no longer a rookie entering the battlefield.
If war really breaks out, the emperor will probably not send both father and son to fight together.
If the emperor only sent Lu Huan to the battle, then Lu Guang would still stay in the general's mansion. As long as Lu Guang was there, Gao Jiarong would probably not dare to make any moves on her!
Thinking of this, Su Qingci became more determined to stop taking birth control pills.
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