077. Long-term companionship

The weather turned colder, and the wind became even cooler at night. The beds in the palace were also replaced with fur blankets instead of cool mats.

Since returning home, Rong Se seemed to be normal. He even brought back osmanthus flowers and steamed two baskets of sweet and soft osmanthus cakes with a rich aroma.

But after nightfall, he sat at his desk and was distracted for a long time. He seemed to have become cold unconsciously, and dark shadows lingered between his eyebrows.

Liang Shenyu was in the same bedroom with him. They had two small tables set up, one for each of them to sit on. Seeing Rong Se had a blank expression on his face for a whole cup of tea, he sighed softly, "Are you still thinking about the Xi family?"

Rong Se shook his head.

“I don’t think so.”

After speaking softly, Rong Se lowered his head to collect the greetings in front of him and fell silent again.

He just felt that Xi Yan brought back those unpleasant memories, and he had no interest in doing anything. Rong Se had not felt this way for a long time.

After his mother passed away, he lived with that man for a while. All the anger that was inflicted on his mother was taken out on the young Rongse. He also faced malice from his classmates. A kind and weak child could not survive such a life.

Rong Se himself has a lot of violent temper, and he needs these to protect himself, but he won't hurt anyone else.

He is usually a peaceful person, but Rongse was once a madman who risked his life when fighting with others.

In this case, it is very difficult for him to have the mentality of an ordinary person. For example, he finds it difficult to accept close contact with others, and he cannot stand being touched from behind. He will subconsciously fight back. Even if he changes his body, his already formed instincts will not change.

Scars don't disappear with time, they are always there.

Hurt cannot motivate a person to make progress. It will only become a dark memory that cannot be shaken off throughout life.

So Rong Se could understand Liang Shenyu. Lan Ying had the help of the Yun brothers, and the Yun brothers had the help of the original owner. But for him and Liang Shenyu, they had no way to retreat, let alone help. Even if the road was full of knives, they had to force themselves to move forward, because there was no way to turn back.

Liang Shenyu was unfamiliar with Rong Se's state. He was silent and no one knew what he was thinking, but his expression was clearly forbearing, as if he was suppressing something with great difficulty.

Until he saw Rong Se frowning anxiously, and then a flash of viciousness flashed across his face.

"It's really rare." Liang Shenyu moved to sit next to him, stretched out his hands to hold the Prince Regent's soft waist, pulled him into his arms, and said softly: "I thought the prince was timid, but I didn't expect that he is also quite fierce."

"I am a timid person."

Rong Se admitted it frankly, but his expression was not cowardly. "I am afraid of death, I am afraid of pain, and I am even more afraid of not living a good life. People are always afraid. In order to prevent these things I am afraid of from happening, I have to do something. If someone doesn't let me live a good life, then no one else can live a good life."

"Because of fear, we resist."

"Because I don't want to accept my fate, I have to fight for my life."

All living beings suffer, and everyone is trying so hard to live. Why do those high-ranking and powerful people want to control other people's lives at will?

"Xi Chaoyi." Rong Se said slowly, "I'm not doing this for Xuan He, I just hate him. This kind of lunatic is not worthy of being a human being."

Liang Shenyu didn't know Rong Se's past. He was always so mysterious, as if he was hiding a secret that no one could know.

But he didn't care.

"Xi Yan is the Minister of the Chancellery, in charge of the six ministries, and most of the people in the six ministries are descendants of aristocratic families promoted by Cao Lun. With their complicated connections, their foundation is solid. If they want to move Xi Chaoyi, they will have to break off relations with the Xi family." Liang Shenyu paused for a moment, and his tone became softer. "However, they are not untouchable. The troops of Dianzhou are not worth worrying about. The deputy general of Dianzhou who came to Beijing this time was favored by my father in the past, which is why he is here today. Cao Lun intends to use the Dianzhou army to check and balance me. It is wishful thinking."

Rong Se was slightly stunned, "You also planted people in Dianzhou?"

"It's better to be prepared." Liang Shenyu smiled and pointed at the memorial on the table, "Okay, Your Majesty, go to sleep first. I'll send these to Yunsongzhai."

After carrying Rongse to the bed, Liang Shenyu went out with the memorial in his hand. Yunsongzhai was not far from the bedroom, but the lights were not on.

In the dim light, Liang Shenyu put down the memorial and ordered to the empty room, "Come out."

A moment later, a man in black jumped down from the beam and clasped his fists towards Liang Shenyu: "Lord Marquis."

This is Liang Shenyu's own secret guard, belonging only to him.

"Liu Chi." Liang Shenyu uttered a name lightly without saying anything more. He just glanced at the black-clad guards with a strong murderous intent in his eyes.

The man nodded in understanding, "I understand."

Liang Shenyu said calmly: "In no more than three days, I want to see the results."

"Yes, sir." The black-clad guard clasped his fists and left.

After a while, Liang Shenyu came out of Yunsongzhai and looked up at the dark night. The darkness reflected in his eyes was like an abyss with no bottom.

Soon, he regained his usual gentle demeanor and walked back as if nothing had happened.

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All the lights are turned off.

Rong Se had not dreamed about the past for a long time, but soon after he fell asleep, yesterday's events kept coming back to him in his dreams. Sometimes it was the man's ferocious face, sometimes it was Xi Chaoyi's excited and crazy face, the same perversion, the same hysteria, and finally it was twisted into a monster that was no longer human, roaring and screaming at him.

But Rong Se was used to it. He was still afraid, but he would never show weakness.

He stared coldly at the monster's distorted face, but saw its facial features slowly change, eventually turning into a tearful, young girl's face, filled with despair and hatred.

Yes, it is allowed.

So I woke up suddenly.

Rong Se suddenly opened his eyes, was so frightened that he broke out in a cold sweat, sat up abruptly, and gasped.

Liang Shenyu was a light sleeper. He glanced at the sound and sat up. Seeing Rongse's frightened look, he immediately reached out to hug him.

"My Lord, what's wrong?"

Liang Shenyu's voice was low and gentle, with a hint of hoarseness, and blew into Rongse's ears like a spring breeze, soothing all the guilt and shock in her heart.

"I had a dream." Rong Se exhaled slowly, leaning in Liang Shenyu's arms, staring blankly at a certain place in the darkness.

He remembered.

In the original novel, the Xi family and the Cao family are Rong Jing's right-hand men, while Xi Chaoyi and Rong Zhixu do not appear much. They are only mentioned once. The eldest princess had no children for two years after marriage and later died suddenly of illness in the Xi Mansion.

If they were a loving couple, Rong Se could still barely believe that Rong Zhixu died suddenly. However, based on the current situation, if Rong Zhixu really had an accident, it would probably not be due to sudden death from illness.

These four words seem to represent shameful secrets.

"You look so nervous, what kind of dream was this?" Liang Shenyu hugged him and kissed his slightly cool hair.

Rong Se was silent for a moment and said, "Things of the past."

Liang Shenyu knew that it was definitely not a good memory. He paused for a moment and said softly, "This dream is really boring. It prevented me from meeting the prince in my dream."

Rong Se was amused by him, "You're sleeping on my bed and you still want to be in my dream? You're going too far."

"Yes, I do." Liang Shenyu pinched his chin and kissed him gently on the lips, "I want to be with you all the time, and I don't want to be separated from you even in my dreams. Next time if you have this dream again and it disturbs your sleep, just call me and I will definitely come."

Although she knew he was joking, Rong Se was still comforted. Suddenly, she felt more confident and nodded gently: "Okay, I'll call you next time."

Liang Shenyu did not ask him what he dreamed about. He just hugged Rong Se and fell back on the couch, whispering intimately: "But it's better not to happen again."

Rong Se chatted with Liang Shenyu in a random manner while hugging each other, but never mentioned Rong Zhixu, his dream, or his origins.

It doesn't matter. Saying it or not won't change anything. Rongse's principle is to focus on the present.

Live every day happily.

The past cannot be looked back upon, and the future is full of variables.

Only at this moment, the years are quiet and peaceful.

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Xi family.

Xi Chaoyi returned home at night and talked to Xi Yan about today's garden banquet. He also mentioned the part about Rong Zhixu, his face looking a little gloomy.

"Marquis Dingbei is determined to serve the Regent King as a dog." Xi Chaoyi showed his displeasure, "As for the Liu family, I'm afraid the Liu family is not trying to bring Marquis Dingbei back to serve us, but they want to curry favor with Marquis Dingbei. Fortunately, Marquis Dingbei looks down on them."

Xi Yan drank tea and nodded slowly after listening to it, "That's it, don't provoke him for the time being...Qiangzhou's military power should not be underestimated. If you act rashly, you have no reason to do so. And you--" He put down the teacup, frowned at Xi Chaoyi and said, "Be more restrained. Your father knows that you are unhappy. You can do whatever you want with the maids in the backyard, but she is the Princess of Dajin after all."

Xi Chaoyi's face suddenly darkened as if a sore spot had been touched.

"What kind of princess is she?"

As soon as he finished speaking, a lady in brocade came in. She was middle-aged, but still had a graceful demeanor. She walked up to him with affectionate eyes and a soft voice, "Master, why are you lecturing your son? The princess has entered our Xi family, so she is our Xi family's daughter-in-law. It is her duty to serve her husband."

Xi Yan frowned and sighed.

"It's up to you."

In the ancestral hall, Rong Zhixu knelt on the cold ground, without even a cushion under his knees. Facing the ancestors of the Xi family, his cheeks were red and swollen, and he was about to fall.

“Squeak.”

A little girl tiptoed in from outside the door, holding a small food box in her hand. She hurriedly walked to Rong Zhixu, opened the food box, revealing the small cakes inside.

This is Rong Zhixu’s dowry, Qinghe.

"Princess, this is secretly sent by Madam. You haven't eaten anything all day, so eat something to fill your stomach." Qing He lowered her voice and her eyes were red. "Madam Liu doesn't allow anyone to send you food. You can't show this to anyone. Eat it quickly."

Rong Zhixu was silent for a moment, ate the box of cakes in one gulp, and then said softly, "Qinghe, thank the madam for me."

She knew that the Madam Qinghe was referring to was not the head lady of the Xi family, but the real legal wife Xue Ling.

Qing He burst into tears and sobbed along her face: "...It's hard for you, Princess."

Rong Zhixu moved the corners of his lips numbly, but he didn't smile in the end. Thinking of what Marquis Dingbei and the Regent King said during the day, his eyes became a little confused and he murmured softly.

"…For my brother's great cause, for the great Jin dynasty."

“It’s worth it.”