Looking at Jianshu, he is still like when he was little, curled up into a small ball, lying on his legs, just like a kitten, which makes him even more adorable.
Her hands stroked Jian Shu's hair again and again, like smoothing her hair. Feeling her dependence on her as before, Meng Ying felt sad and melancholy.
How could such a nice little girl be getting married so soon? It felt like I was still the little girl yesterday, lying in her arms and begging for candy. Thinking about it, my nose felt sore and I almost cried.
Because she has always lived at home, even if she gets married, she can still live at home. Jianshu has never felt that getting married is very real. I always feel that getting married is no different from before except for holding a wedding ceremony and getting a marriage certificate.
But at this moment, the atmosphere in the room was too depressing, and Meng Ying's reluctance was so obvious that Jian Shu couldn't help but be infected. His eyes turned red, and he couldn't help but put his arms around Meng Ying's waist, burying his face in her abdomen, his clothes wet with tears.
Feeling the dampness in her abdomen, Meng Ying could no longer hold back her tears. She reached out and stroked the back of Jian Shu's head, saying in a hoarse voice, "Shu Shu, you must live a good life in the future. Come back to see me and your Uncle Zhao when you have time."
The child she had watched grow up had never left her sight. Even after she moved out to live on her own, she could still see him at least twice a month. But once Jian Shu joined the army, she might not even see him once a year. How could Meng Ying not feel uncomfortable?
At this moment, she had another point of dissatisfaction with Gu Mingjing - this was really too far away.
When Jianshu heard this, she couldn't stop crying. All kinds of reluctance and sadness surged into her heart. She smelled the familiar warm scent, which had accompanied her on many nights of her childhood.
As time passed, those memories slowly came to her mind, all kinds of familiar feelings came flooding in, the memories of two lives slowly merged, and she remembered everything.
It turns out that there has never been any rebirth through borrowing a body. She has always been herself, whether it is the Jianshu of the 21st century or the Jianshu born in the 1950s, it is still her.
However, after her reincarnation, the baby's brain couldn't quite handle her memories. Protected by her instincts, all memories were sealed away, leaving only a few instincts. Even the space she brought from her previous life was forgotten. As she grew older, she would occasionally come up with new words and develop some creative ideas.
Until a few years ago, the news of her father's death, on whom she depended for everything, hit her so hard that she was in a daze for the rest of her life, immersed in sorrow all day long. She shut herself off and rejected all information from the outside world.
Perhaps the stimulation was too great, and her brain instinctively protected herself, and all the memories deep inside came back to mind, but the memories of the past ten years became blurred, so much so that she thought she was reborn as a little girl who had just died. She hurriedly fled the compound because she was worried that her close friends would find out that she was different.
Thinking about it now, it makes me want to laugh. If it was someone else, with her acting skills and how well Zhao Mingze and Meng Ying knew her, she would have been discovered long ago. How could she have avoided it so easily?
However, it was fortunate that her memory was vague at the time and she did not regard herself as the real Jianshu. Even though she felt sad and upset, she just thought it was the emotions left by the original owner. Otherwise, given her state of mind at the dead end at the time, she was not sure what she would do, and she might not be standing here today.
After the two memories were perfectly mastered, she remembered everything. The moment she remembered everything, she thought of her deceased parents, and Jianshu felt a thousand emotions in her heart.
Sadness, sorrow, hatred, injustice, self-blame, regret, reluctance...
Why hadn't she remembered all of this sooner?
If she had remembered earlier and used the spring water in the space for nourishment, would her mother not have died early from old injuries?
Would Dad be in better health? Would he not have died tragically during the mission?
Can their family of three still be okay?
Wouldn't she become a parentless child again?
All kinds of self-blame, questioning, and disgust flooded her mind. If it weren't for the interweaving of memories from two lifetimes, which made her thinking more mature and her mind more resilient, she would have almost gotten stuck in a dead end again.
Later, as time went by, with the care and warmth of those around her, she slowly adjusted her emotions. Although she still felt sad every time she thought about it, it was no longer as extreme as before.
As someone who has been in contact with Zhao Mingze and Meng Ying since childhood and who are like parents to them, Jianshu is naturally very close to them and even relies on them a little more.
During those difficult days, they were always by her side to comfort her. Meng Ying stayed with her all night long. Every time she woke up, before she opened her eyes, she could smell her scent, the same scent as her mother's, so reassuring, as if it could make her forget all her worries.
But now, it's different.
Smelling this familiar scent, the more I think about how it will be difficult to see it in the next few years, the sadder I feel.
"Aunt, I can't bear to leave you, Uncle Zhao, Brother Lei, Lingling, and Ruirui. I won't get married!" Jian Shu said with a sob, burying her face in Meng Ying's abdomen.
Seeing her like this, Meng Ying almost couldn't help but blurt out the word "good".
But when the words were on the tip of my tongue, reason took over again and I swallowed them.
How could she say no when the time came? Moreover, she knew very well that Jian Shu was just emotional at the moment, so she said such childish words. As an adult, how could she join in his nonsense?
"Pfft, if you don't get married, do you really want to stay at home as an old maid forever?" Meng Ying couldn't help laughing and tapped her forehead. After this incident, the depression in her heart was much less.
Jian Shu's eyes were filled with tears, and she said in a trembling voice, "I want to be an old maid for the rest of my life. I'm willing to be an old maid for the rest of my life!"
"You, you are saying childish things again." Meng Ying sighed slightly. Is it so easy to be an old maid?
Now they were here, they would protect her. When they were gone, Zhao Tianlei and Zhao Tianrui would protect her too. But when the children grew up, they would have their own families. What would she do then? Wouldn't she feel lonely even if someone took care of her? Wouldn't she feel isolated? Wouldn't she regret her choice?
Therefore, Meng Ying never thought of letting her remain single for the rest of her life. Even if she had this thought on impulse, she would put it out of her mind as soon as she calmed down.
Moreover, in this situation, how could Jian Shu not marry? If she really didn't marry, she would be the first to regret it.
It's just something I said in anger.
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