Looking at Xu Niannian's body trembling with her breathing, Lu Huaijin covered her with the quilt beside her, only then he realized that she was crying again.
Xu Niannian lifted the corner of the quilt and buried his head in it.
The bed beside him sank, and Lu Huaijin lay down too.
She was crying softly and sobbing.
Lu Huaijin dug the person out from under the quilt. Her hair was wet and stuck to her temples.
He lowered his head and kissed her eyes, then held her tightly in his arms:
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, it's my bad attitude, please stop crying, okay?"
As long as you say you won't hurt others, I don't care what you are.
Xu Niannian finally opened her moist eyes, her entire eye sockets were red and swollen from crying:
"If you don't believe me, what's the point of us being husband and wife?"
Lu Huaijin's hands clamped her arms tightly like iron pliers, and his lips trembled slightly:
"Niannian.......what do you mean?"
Xu Niannian wiped away her tears:
"I mean, we need to calm down a bit, and I think that's what you want."
"No, I don't want this."
"From the time we met until now, have I ever done anything to hurt you or anyone else? Why don't you give me a little basic trust?"
Lu Huaijin wanted to say that he had given it, but many times the details were covered up by him until more and more problems emerged.
But, as she said, she never hurt anyone else.
He just wanted to make sure that she was not an enemy agent.
But Xu Niannian had already pursed her lips and stopped talking.
She understood this behavior intellectually, but resisted it emotionally.
Lu Huaijin had no choice but to turn off the lights and hug her from behind to sleep.
When I hugged her in the past, there was always a very small space between us.
But today, Xu Niannian seemed to be hiding from him and kept shrinking to the other side until she reached the bed.
The next day, when Zhang Liang saw Lu Huaijin doing morning exercises, his face was as dark as yesterday.
I walked up to him quietly and said something that deserved a beating:
"You can't be in trouble, can you? You look so bad, I guess you just had a quarrel at the beginning and didn't understand the essence of the quarrel at the end."
Lu Huaijin slightly raised his eyelids:
"You should find a partner first. Is it useful to just talk about it on paper?"
Normally it was okay to have a small quarrel, but after what happened yesterday, Xu Niannian would have scolded me so much that I had to leave her alone. Besides, I was in no mood to do anything else.
"Okay, okay, you are so noble."
Lu Huaijin took out a cigarette from his pocket:
"Tell me, what should I do if I make a woman angry?"
Zhang Liang snatched the cigarette from him:
"Don't you believe me? And you're still asking me. Just take her out and buy her things that she can't afford to buy herself. Just coax her into it."
Lu Huaijin suddenly thought that the sewing machine he ordered should arrive today.
This is also one of the three major items for marriage.
As soon as he finished his morning exercises, Lu Huaijin hurried back to cook.
As soon as I entered the door, I saw the three of them sitting on small stools and eating.
A special meal was left for him next to the stove.
He took the bowl and sat down in his usual seat, and said to a few people:
"You're eating so early today."
What awaited him was endless silence, and no one paid any attention to him.
His eyes first turned to Xu Niannian, only to see her lowering her head and chewing the potatoes in her mouth seriously.
He then turned his attention to the two children, who were also silently drinking their porridge with their heads down.
Well, no one at home cares about him anymore.
After dinner, Lu Huaijin took the initiative to wash the pots and dishes. Xu Niannian did not compete with him and then washed the mushrooms in the yard that had not been washed yet.
After Lu Huaijin washed the bowl, he directly carried the two kids out:
"Why don't you two talk to me."
Lu Ze clenched his hands tightly:
"You bully your aunt."
"My aunt's eyes were swollen when she woke up this morning. Yesterday she buried her head in water and tried to commit suicide."
Lu Huaijin was shocked:
"when?"
Lu Ze pouted:
"Yesterday at noon, Auntie ignored you, and we ignored you too."
Lu Yilin also nodded.
Lu Huaijin didn't care about that, he ran back to the yard, bent down and hugged Xu Niannian tightly in his arms:
"I was wrong. It was all my fault. I shouldn't have disbelieved you."
Xu Niannian was confused. She looked at the two little kids at the door who were covering their faces, and had no idea what they were saying.
Lu Huaijin looked at the cold Xu Niannian and continued:
"You can hit me, scold me, but don't hurt yourself, okay?"
"You can tell me anything you want."
At that moment, he thought that she had set the frequency with him before, probably for the sake of protecting his body.
She loves herself, right? She obviously needs herself, but she also has to do good for herself and set a frequency.
Thinking of this, Lu Huaijin picked him up:
"Let's go back to the house."
Xu Niannian was a little confused and wondered why he went back to the house.
As soon as he entered the room, Lu Huaijin took off his shirt directly: "We don't have much time now, just do it once, and I'll give it to you after I finish fucking."
Xu Niannian's eyelids twitched. The two most important things in the space were now available: a bathtub and a washing machine.
She doesn't really need him now. Besides, they are in a cold war now. What is a cold war?
Can the Cold War still be pure when it is mixed with the Hot War?
"No, give it to whoever you want."
Lu Huaijin's body froze, and he stopped moving his hands. He sat on the bed and looked at Xu Niannian:
"How about I take you to the city to shop on Saturday? It's been a while since I bought new clothes."
"Need not."
Lu Huaijin was somewhat at a loss. There were tactics on the battlefield, but he really had no idea what to do when facing Xu Niannian:
"So what do you want?"
"I told you, I just want to calm down. I'll sleep with Lu Ze and the others for the next few days."
When Lu Huaijin heard this, he became anxious:
"No, Lu Ze is already four years old and has gender awareness. You two can't sleep together."
The most important thing is that as the rooms are divided, he has a hunch that the more they are divided, the harder it will be for Xu Niannian to reconcile.
Seeing Xu Niannian was unmoved, he continued:
"If you don't want to sleep together, I'll sleep on the floor and you can sleep on the bed."
Xu Niannian nodded:
"Then you should go and do your business first."
Lu Huaijin wanted to say that accompanying her was a serious matter, but she was so angry that he swallowed the words.
"As for the yard, I'll come back at noon and you don't need to do anything."
The water was a little cold in the morning, and he had noticed that Xu Niannian's hands had turned a little red from washing.
"Um."
In the morning, Sister Li came to see Xu Niannian with a basket:
"Want to go fishing?"
Xu Niannian's eyes lit up. She hadn't eaten fish for a long time.
"Where can we catch them?"
"The ones sold in the next village are much cheaper than those sold in the supply and marketing cooperative, but you need to catch them yourself. It's only once a year. You can change into old clothes. They're full of mud and everything."
"Go, go, sister-in-law, wait for me, I'll change my clothes right away."