Until her death, her mother's suicide note told her to stop studying, go out to work, and enter society as soon as possible.
Even now when she studies secretly, she always feels a little guilty.
It was not until Ning Zhihuan asked her to study with Ning Zhilang that she found an excuse to feel at ease.
"Perhaps, have you ever thought about the role played by the father who has been absent from this education?"
Ning Zhihuan said this out of the blue, causing her to pause.
Father……
The memory of her father is a little vague. She only remembers that he loved drinking, smoking opium and playing cards, but he was quite nice to her and her mother.
As for her studies...does this have anything to do with it?
Ning Zhihuan took a deep breath.
She finally understood the knot in Li Xueyan's heart. She should have been happy, but she couldn't feel happy at all.
Sometimes life is just like this, full of twists and turns.
You have to face those bloody facts that you don’t want to face.
She said, "When I was investigating this matter, I felt that your mother's death was very strange, so I conducted a special investigation."
Ning Zhihuan paused, took a deep breath, gathered up enough courage, and gave Li Xueyan some time to buffer.
"Your mother's death wasn't an accident; it was a rebellion against your father. He always acted like a good man in front of you, but behind your back... he was a pimp, specializing in arranging young women to be mistresses for local wealthy men."
When she heard this, Li Xueyan had a bad feeling in her heart.
As expected, Ning Zhihuan said, "At that time, there was a wealthy man named Wang. Because he was a nouveau riche and had never been to school, he particularly liked to play with educated women. The higher the level of education, the higher the price, so..."
So the mother is protecting herself.
After reaching this conclusion, Li Xueyan couldn't hold back her emotions and burst into tears.
There was a sequel, but Ning Zhihuan didn’t say anything more.
She couldn't say it out loud, it was too cruel for her, but even as smart as she was, she could guess it.
Later, Li Xueyan's mother's suicide note not only told Li Xueyan not to study anymore, but also put Li Xueyan's father in prison.
From then on, Li Xueyan lived with her aunt's family. Her aunt's family was kind-hearted and felt pity for Li Xueyan, as they had no children.
Treat her like your own daughter.
Li Xueyan was crying, crying that she didn't understand her mother's good intentions, crying that she didn't know people well, crying for the grievances and indignation she had suffered over the years.
Ning Zhihuan didn't make any noise to disturb her. What she needed more at this moment was to be alone and quiet, which was the best.
The originally noisy surroundings seemed to have quieted down.
Li Xueyan could not hear the sound around her, and the world seemed to have become quiet.
In a trance, she seemed to see again the well-educated woman, the gentle and elegant gentleman, and the little girl...
I don’t know how long she cried, but she was tired. When Li Xueyan raised her head, she happened to meet Ning Zhihuan’s eyes and had nowhere to hide.
She felt a little embarrassed that she was crying her heart out in front of the younger generation.
Ning Zhihuan didn't feel anything about it. Li Xueyan had always been very strong and he had never seen her cry in all this time.
But no matter how strong she is, she is also weak inside.
I'll feel better after crying this time. After crying, I'll open my heart and let go.
That day, Ning Zhihuan said nothing, but it seemed like he said everything.
Li Xueyan said everything, but it seemed like she said nothing.
The relationship between the two people has not changed, but has become closer.
This coincidentally became a secret in the hearts of both of them.
It was also after that day that Li Xueyan no longer hid when reading, and no longer brought a book with her while working, but read openly.
It was also after that day that she officially started preparing for the college entrance examination. Although her whole family was surprised by her transformation, they all supported her without exception.
It was also after that day that Li Xueyan felt the difference in her little niece.
It was a kind of calmness that was beyond his age, from the inside out.
In some ways, she really doesn't look like a little girl of fourteen or fifteen years old.
But she didn't say it.
This is a secret between two people.
After counseling Li Xueyan, she did not forget about Ning Zhilang.
The admission quota has been given up, but the exam still has to continue.
She wrote a letter and asked Chen Zhu to bring it to him when she visited him.
The letter mainly talked about recent events, and also about Li Xueyan's agreement to prepare for the college entrance examination.
Then there are some learning methods and ways to adjust your mindset.
It took her an entire night to write, without a single word of nonsense.
This is to allow Ning Zhilang to lay a solid foundation. There are still four or five months left. Then we can make a sprint when there are only three months left. That will be the best time.
In fact, Ning Zhilang had no confidence in himself. Even though he was admitted to Beijing Normal University, he thought it was just luck and a coincidence.
Not to mention that luck is also a part of strength, just look at her arrangements, both overt and covert, how could these be coincidences?
He has the ability and the foundation.
What she needs to do now is to strengthen his training and help him regain his confidence, which is the most important thing.
After handing the letter to Chen Zhu, Ning Zhihuan was extremely sleepy. He had been up all night and now all he wanted to do was lie down on the bed and have a peaceful sleep.
Those who came to visit were also kept out.
But the wall can block their people, but it cannot block their voices.
The noisy discussions came into her ears through the wall and the door.
It was so annoying that I couldn't fall asleep at all.
In the end, she had no choice but to leave a letter and climb over the wall to leave.
She was now filled with rage, but she wasn't looking for anyone to vent her anger on. The most important thing was to find a place to sleep.
As for this place, she had already chosen it a long time ago.
So we moved towards that goal.
She found that this matter was indeed a case of the the first time being unfamiliar but the second time being familiar.
Xiao Yuchi's manor is very secretive, and most people can't find the way there for the first time. She accidentally rolled down the mountain to the foot of the mountain and bumped into him.
I don’t know if it was because of the traditional Chinese Qimen Dunjia, but I couldn’t find the way anyway.
If you come here on purpose to look for it, and wander around in this forest, you will only end up back where you started.
This is also why Ning Hong never came to see Xiao Yuchi alone, even though she knew where Xiao Yuchi lived.
Do you really think she is honest? Does she not want to?
That's why her brain couldn't remember it at all after one trip, and she just couldn't find it.
In folk terms, this place is like a ghost town.
Thinking this way, I soon arrived at the gate of the manor.
The outside was as imposing as ever, guarded by a few fierce-looking men with the words "Keep Out" written all over their faces.
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