patience
"We clearly agreed to just deal with it and then divorce, and we've been dealing with it for so many years now. Have you ever considered me? Do you know, all these years, I often feel like I'm a slut." Bai Shunan tried his best to hold back the tears that were about to burst out. Even at this time, in the war started by him, Qi Ci still subconsciously felt humiliated, as if it was engraved in his bones, and could not be erased even by removing flesh and blood.
But the humility gave rise to the idea of compromise and retention. He already looked down on himself, and the anger, the anger that could not be suppressed, was like a fire with oil poured on it, burning more and more fiercely, burning Qi Ci's heart with an urgent resentment, enough to make him continue to prolong the impulse that blurted out at the beginning, "Actually, to be frank, you are someone else's husband now, and I am no different from a mistress. I hate you to death..."
But after saying this, Qi Ci finally couldn't hold back his tears. He suddenly realized that the one thing he could never admit was that he had indulged Yun Cen. Qi Ci wanted to laugh for a moment, but at this moment he was still reflecting, "I hate myself too."
Seeing Bai Shunan crying, perhaps because he was tired of rehearsing so many times before, he made a change this time. Lu Jinfeng walked up and wiped away his tears. Bai Shunan froze for a moment, feeling his warm fingertips wiping away his hot tears.
I heard Lu Jinfeng say in a gentle tone: "Aci, of course I know how hard you've worked these years, but you also have to think about it. You're not the only one who's suffering. I've been caught between them for so many years, and I'm also very uncomfortable. Do you know how much pressure I'm under? But no matter how helpless and tired I am, I didn't tell you because I was afraid you would be sad. Haven't we lived well together all these years? Can't we just live like this? This is also for our future..."
"Don't give me that," Bai Shunan pushed Lu Jinfeng away, "Why are you still like this? I shouldn't have agreed to your marriage in the first place. I really should have gone and made a scene."
Yun Cen's expression changed, and disappointment flashed in his gentle eyes.
Qi Ci saw the change in Yun Cen's eyes. He was afraid of Yun Cen looking at him like that. He subconsciously wanted to apologize, but he retracted his outstretched hand. He also understood, "I just don't dare to make a scene. If I do, what will your family think of me? What will her people think of me? Most importantly, what will you think of me? We've been together for so many years. Do you think I don't know how much you care about face? If I go, we will definitely..."
Qi Ci's voice whimpered for a moment, and his throat seemed to be choked, but he continued: "We are destined to separate..."
Once it was out of my mouth, the rest became easy.
"So I've been forcing myself not to think about it, and I've been annoyed about why I agreed in the first place." Qi Ci took a heavy breath, his face pale and heartbroken, but in an instant, a hint of relief appeared on his face. "I've figured it out now. This can't be resolved by whether I agree or not. You told me after you'd already made up your mind. If you didn't know my temper back then, you might have done something like that. You're relying on our years of relationship. I love you..."
Yun Cen's expression relaxed a little. He took a step forward, reached out to touch Qi Ci's face again, and wiped away his tears once again.
Bai Shunan stared blankly at Lu Jinfeng. The infinite despair in his heart slowly climbed up his angry eyes, gradually seeping out and taking away the vitality in him. At this moment, he was calmer than before. The sadness in his words covered up the anger for the first time tonight. "I love you, so use your gentleness and your words to control me..."
"Calm down." Yun Cen grabbed Qi Ci's hand, trying to push him away, but his tone remained gentle. Even his gentleness and concern could be clearly felt, like a big bubble, trying to wrap around the person in front of him. After years of being together, he was the best at dealing with him.
"Am I not calm enough now?" Bai Shunan's voice couldn't help but tremble. Qi Ci felt embarrassed and humiliated. Anger took over again. He tried to push Yun Cen away, but this time, he pushed him away. "You still want me to calm down?"
The past flashed back in Qi Ci's mind with a cold feeling, which in turn brought him back to a clear mind like a cold water poured over his head. "We should have separated a long time ago. From the day you got the marriage certificate, we should have separated. It should have been even earlier, from the day you planned to get married. We should have separated. It wouldn't have turned out like this. It's not good for either of us."
"I don't think there's anything wrong with it. Are you exaggerating about this? It's not a bad thing."
"What the hell are you thinking?" Qi Ci roared. "Even if I've been confused before, I wouldn't be this confused."
"I'm not sleeping with her." Yun Cen began to become obviously impatient. He didn't understand why Qi Ci had made such a fuss about this matter.
Qi Ci was almost laughing. Yun Cen probably thought the problem was solved when he laughed. "Are you sure? Is this the problem?"
"What is that? Could it be that child? It hasn't been decided yet. Besides, it's just a child's matter. Why make such a fuss?"
Qi Ci was instantly furious when he heard this, and his heart was even more bitter and powerless. He walked forward, grabbed Lu Jinfeng's collar and yelled: "What do you think of a child? It's just a child. Have you ever considered me? Even if you have a child, you and she will still..."
Yun Cen looked at the furious Qi Ci in front of him and calmly interrupted, "Are you seeing someone else?"
When Qi Ci heard this, disbelief first flashed in his eyes, and then he let go of Yun Cen. The remaining anger in his eyes was completely extinguished by this basin of cold water, leaving only disappointment under despair. The disappointment was gradually disappearing, leaving empty eyes. At this moment, Qi Ci was truly heartbroken. He didn't even want to keep Yun Cen anymore, and he even felt disgusted with himself for trying to keep him in the beginning.
"Cut, one pass." Li Xuanyue looked a bit surprised in front of the camera, but soon she smiled with relief. She looked at the two people in front of the camera, each of whom had a different reaction. "What's wrong with you? In less than a week, you've improved so quickly, especially you, Xiaoshun. Lu Jinfeng improvised so many times, and you caught them all, and your reactions were super accurate."
Bai Shunan touched his face. The tear marks on his face made him feel a little uncomfortable. He smiled at Li Xuanyue and prepared to change into clothes for the next scene.
Bai Shunan was yawning. He was in such a hurry to change his clothes that he had already taken off his coat before entering the changing room. The door was not closed tightly, leaving a small gap. Lu Jinfeng looked over there and saw Bai Shunan who was changing his clothes. His body was whiter than his face.
Lu Jinfeng shifted his gaze and walked towards Li Xuanyue. Li Xuanyue was in a good mood and couldn't help but joked, "You two have become so familiar with each other just by walking in the rain."
"You know?"
"It's not like I don't use the internet," Li Xuanyue looked at Lu Jinfeng in front of her, "Why are you here instead of changing your clothes?"
"Let me see the replay."
Lu Jinfeng watched the replay with a serious expression.
Li Xuanyue looked at Lu Jinfeng and had a bad feeling. "Is there a problem?"
"Something feels off, but I can't quite put my finger on it."
Li Xuanyue pondered for a moment, pondering the long string of words and extra actions Lu Jinfeng had added. She finally focused on the tear-wiping scene Lu Jinfeng had added without authorization. She analyzed, "Would it be better if he had wiped his tears only once, or if he had held back his emotions the second time?"
Li Xuanyue and Lu Jinfeng watched it again. Seeing that they were analyzing it but couldn't come up with anything, Ah Hua casually said, "Is it because Lu Jinfeng is too patient in his acting?"
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