Similarity
On the set, everyone was busy with their own things. When Lu Jinfeng was not with Bai Shunan, few people would pay attention to him. When others were acting, he would stay in the corner silently, or fall asleep, or observe calmly as an outsider.
When someone wanted to talk to Bai Shunan, they were always afraid of Lu Jinfeng who would unexpectedly wander up to him from time to time.
Over time, most people in the crew thought that he was a loner, and because Bai Shunan rarely took the initiative to talk to others, he was filled with a sense of distance that was difficult to approach. As a result, when they talked about Bai Shunan privately, one person's joke was recognized by most people: Li Xuanyue was more human than him.
Where there are those who agree, there are those who disagree. Chen Ting always defends Bai Shunan when talking to others. For some reason that is no longer secret in the eyes of others, he pays too much attention to Bai Shunan.
The reason he first noticed Bai Shunan, now thinking about it, was because of Lu Jinfeng. He was initially happy to be chosen as Lu Jinfeng's stand-in in this film, but after meeting Bai Shunan and seeing him for the first time, his opinion changed. He thought he was simply attracted to him. At that time, it was just attraction, and he hadn't yet realized the strong realization he had now after getting to know him. He longed for his love so much.
At that time, my heart was just touched with panic, hoping that he would look at him.
But it was not until after a kiss led by Bai Shunan that the tenderness seemed to indicate to him that perhaps he and he would really... be together.
As love grew and fantasy continued, his attention was taken away from other things. His excessive attention recently made Chen Ting discover something that would make him escape. When Lu Jinfeng was acting, the usually cold Bai Shunan would suddenly show a gentleness like a slowly flowing stream, swaying gently in his eyes.
After discovering that Bai Shunan might like Lu Jinfeng, he uncontrollably developed an unbearable sense of inferiority after the comparison. Moreover, because he was Lu Jinfeng's stand-in, he could not look at Lu Jinfeng rationally, and became angry and ashamed of being his stand-in. But because he was Lu Jinfeng's stand-in, he saw some possibility in it.
It is easy to realize your own weakness, but once you realize your jealousy, you need to find reasons to justify yourself in order to bear the shame hidden behind the imbalance and twists in your heart.
Lu Jinfeng would never like Bai Shunan, he always comforted himself with this. However, love is too deceptive, especially the love he had for Bai Shunan from the beginning, which automatically made him ignore all logic and unable to make rational judgments. Therefore, behind his conclusion of "I won't like him", he would always think, how could someone like Bai Shunan not like him after knowing him and understanding him?
Although he didn't know Bai Shunan very well, he looked at the sleepy Shunan, the dazed Shunan, the acting Shunan, and the Shunan who always had friendly eyes and gentle actions. He couldn't figure him out, but he just wanted to get closer, closer to the phantom of Shunan in his heart, looking forward to the day when his hope would come true.
So he took the initiative to provoke an enemy that might not exist. He pinched Bai Shunan's shoulders with trembling hands and impulsively stepped forward to kiss Bai Shunan back.
Are you scared? Actually, it's not that bad.
In his heart, he always had a way out. At least because of this, Bai Shunan would pay attention to him.
The first thought in his mind at that time was to look at Lu Jinfeng. He looked over and faced Lu Jinfeng's gaze. He didn't know if it was because it was night, but he felt that Lu Jinfeng's eyes were too dark. For a moment, he even felt that there was a strange and terrifying light flashing in Lu Jinfeng's eyes.
Chen Ting was shocked, as if a hand was squeezing his heart.
Lu Jinfeng stood there with a calm expression, yet Chen Ting felt a surge of panic. He didn't display the anger Chen Ting was accustomed to, and it was even difficult to detect his emotions. Lu Jinfeng was too calm then, unnaturally calm, as if this was his true self. The oppressive feeling conveyed by this abnormality was like a calm, deep, misty lake at night. It seemed harmless, but beneath the lake lay countless shipwrecks, and endless unknown dangers lurked within.
It seemed as if Chen Ting would drown in the lake if he wasn't careful.
In fact, what made him feel most desperate that night was not Lu Jinfeng, but the cold look in Bai Shunan's eyes after he returned the kiss. It was no longer the friendly look he remembered. Chen Ting forgot what he was thinking at that time. After apologizing, he didn't know why he blurted out: "Lu Jinfeng seems to hate you."
"This has nothing to do with you."
Chen Ting really hated Bai Shunan's calmness at the moment. He wanted to see him show some different expressions, have different reactions to this kiss, whether it was ridicule, disgust, or pain, which would at least make something clear, but he always maintained his composure, criticizing him and reminding him.
Chen Ting thought that Lu Jinfeng would come to him, scold him and fire him, but he didn't expect that Lu Jinfeng was still there as usual. What he never expected was that it was Li Xuanyue who came to him.
"Director Li, are you looking for me?" Chen Ting walked into the lounge.
There were only him and Li Xuanyue.
"Yes, Chen Ting," Li Xuanyue turned and looked at him with a smile. Her golden brown eyes were warm and charming, but her eyes were sharp, like the cold light emitted by a sword after being unsheathed. Her tone was kind, "Come here."
"What's wrong, Director Li?" Chen Ting felt a sense of oppression before he even walked in front of Li Xuanyue. He smiled nervously to ease the atmosphere.
"I just forgot to tell you after we finished filming," Li Xuanyue said in a slightly cold and clear voice, smiling as usual, "When acting, you can express yourself according to the character's behavior, but don't overdo it."
Chen Ting felt disgusted when he heard this. Li Xuanyue's tone seemed to say that he was just a substitute and shouldn't have his own thoughts. He immediately thought of Lu Jinfeng and felt that all this was his instruction. "But Lu Jinfeng..."
"I know you're unhappy with Lu Jinfeng," Li Xuanyue interrupted Chen Ting, her face still as calm as ever, "but this has nothing to do with him. You've crossed the line."
Chen Ting still refused to accept it. He tried to resist, "What's wrong with me?"
"Chen Ting," Li Xuanyue glanced at him coldly, "Your selfishness is not within Bai Shunan's job scope, and your actions have not made the scene any better."
Chen Ting's face turned pale, as if a pair of hands were stirring his stomach. A dizzy and nauseous feeling kept rising up his throat. Cold sweat broke out on his forehead, as if he had fallen naked into an icy lake. The biting cold ran through his whole body. He wanted to escape but couldn't take a step. At the same time, in this panic, he developed a strange feeling of hunger, which tortured him with chills.
"You're so uncooperative."
Chen Ting almost forgot that Lu Jinfeng was always causing trouble on the set. The crew members were most afraid of Li Xuanyue, who looked at everyone with her watery eyes in a seemingly kind manner, rather than Lu Jinfeng, who could explode like a firecracker at any moment.
And tonight, with a chill in his head, Chen Ting vaguely discovered that there was a certain similarity between Lu Jinfeng and Li Xuanyue. They were both good at disguising their indifference.
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