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Lu Jinfeng had a fever suddenly and fell unconscious into Bai Shunan's arms while filming.
In a dreamlike state, someone draped clothes over him, wrapping him tightly, the movements gentle and caressing. Half asleep and half awake, Lu Jinfeng felt a kind of caring concern. The indescribable mysterious feeling and the weakness of an ill body awakened his vulnerability. He tugged at the person's clothes, as if he had found some kind of sustenance, and the urgency in his heart was relieved.
He didn't know how long it had been, and he seemed to be both asleep and awake. Someone slowly picked him up and put him in a soft place. The alternation of cold and heat made his mind fall into a maze with no exit. He thought about this and that, but couldn't get out.
A pair of warm hands helped him up, and a gentle voice coaxed him, "Take the medicine first and then go to sleep."
Some warm water, then a pill, "Swallow it quickly."
"It's bitter." Lu Jinfeng, who couldn't open his eyes, said in a low voice due to the unbearable drowsiness.
"It won't be bitter if you swallow it."
He listened to the warm voice, swallowed it blindly, suppressed the feeling of nausea, and clutched the clothes of the person he could touch. He knew who it was, he knew. Lu Jinfeng tilted his head and buried it in his arms, tears seeming to flow, "It's still bitter."
"Drink some more water."
He took a sip and said, "Cold."
"Where is it cold?"
"My feet are cold."
"Lie down for a while."
"Hurry up." Lu Jinfeng reluctantly let go of his hand.
Not long after, Lu Jinfeng was helped up again. He leaned against the man weakly and let him move him.
Lu Jinfeng sat on the edge of the bed, leaning on his shoulder. A pair of warm hands rolled up his trouser legs, grabbed his calves, and the soles of his feet slowly touched the surface of the boiling hot water.
Lu Jinfeng shivered and shrank back, "It's hot."
After tossing and turning for a long time, Lu Jinfeng was finally able to fall asleep. His body was burning hot and his brain ached from time to time, and all kinds of thoughts took the opportunity to become active again.
In my dizzy brain, everything is the same as when I was young.
A drizzle of rain came as planned, the sky darkened, the scenery was covered with a layer of gray, and even the fiery red flowers were stained with melancholy. The rain knocked a few petals off to the ground, and some petals rippled in the water.
A person walked by and crushed the petals on the ground, and the flower juice turned into dirty water.
He frowned, as if he noticed something, spun the umbrella casually, turned around and stepped on the petals again, and he saw the person hiding behind the wall.
He was shrinking back, yet looking calm. This slight insolence angered Lu Jinfeng, and he walked up and pushed him without hesitation.
Bai Shunan took two steps back. He didn't hold an umbrella and most of his body was wet.
Compared to other things, rain can affect emotions more. Instead of calming Lu Jinfeng, it made him irritable. He dropped the umbrella in his hand. Lu Jinfeng could no longer bear it and beat up the man in front of him, this damn stalker.
Rain always washes away many traces.
Blood flows from the wounds, tears flow from the eyes.
He beat him for a long time, then stood up after seeing the man dying. Bai Shunan was lying on the ground, staring up at the sky with a dazed look in his eyes.
Lu Jinfeng was still angry. He pulled Bai Shunan by the collar and asked the question he had been wondering about, "Why do you always follow me?"
Raindrops dripped from the sky into Bai Shunan's eyes. Lu Jinfeng appeared in Bai Shunan's eyes. As he gradually came back to his senses, he only saw him. "I like you."
Lu Jinfeng got the answer he had expected. He didn't believe it, but it was enough to make him feel disgusted. He felt disgusted with Bai Shunan, and felt that he was disgusted by Bai Shunan. He raised his hand, ready to punch him again and stop, but saw Bai Shunan's smile and let go. "You're disgusting."
Lu Jinfeng warned: "If you dare to appear around me again, I will call the police."
Lu Jinfeng didn't hear Bai Shunan's faint "OK".
From then on, the stalker that had plagued his life disappeared.
In the chaos, a gentle voice faintly passed by his ears - "Lu Jinfeng, you should be happy."
He seemed to smell the damp and cool scent of rain again.
Lu Jinfeng woke up and found himself in the bedroom where he had not slept for a long time. With tears in his eyes, he looked at Bai Shunan who was sleeping beside him. His hand touched something gentle. He touched it from his fingers to the palm and back of his hand, and then to his wrist, before he was sure.
He lifted a corner of the quilt and looked at the hands holding each other. A trace of warmth rose from his heart, but was quickly suppressed.
He took the initiative to hold Bai Shunan's hand, and he was really confused.
Bai Shunan had become much whiter in the winter, but when those hands were placed on his, one could still see some difference in skin color. For some unknown reason, Lu Jinfeng bent sideways and observed the hand, looking at it from the front and from the back.
Lu Jinfeng thought of something and laughed.
Once you get sick, you may be in a daze at any second. Even when you are asleep, you can't stop thinking about random things, and when you wake up, you are often in a blank daze.
He withdrew his hand from where it was tenderly placed, lay back down, and tried to fall asleep.
In a trance, Lu Jinfeng was vaguely afraid of something in his heart, which made him unable to fall asleep. He hurriedly wiped away the tears caused by the heat.
He was very scared, and this fear gradually became concrete. He was afraid that his tears would be seen, and he was afraid that his vulnerability would be discovered. Lu Jinfeng got off the bed, picked up a blanket and covered Bai Shunan with it. He couldn't help but want to reveal something, to expose everything.
All of his.
All of his.
Exposed nakedly and explicitly.
"No."
His voice echoed in his mind for a long time.
No, he doesn't want it.
He didn't want him to be seen.
The heat made him sick and he couldn't stop crying.
At this time, Bai Shunan woke up and looked at Lu Jinfeng who was covering him with a blanket.
Lu Jinfeng loosened his grip, and the blanket fell on Bai Shunan's head. He crawled back into bed, covered with the quilt and said, "Why are you taking care of me?"
Lu Jinfeng revealed his bright eyes and looked at Bai Shunan calmly, "Give me an answer that satisfies me, please tell me."
"You hold me..." Bai Shunan lowered his eyes.
Lu Jinfeng's eyes darkened and he wanted to turn his head away.
Bai Shunan looked at Lu Jinfeng and said, "He said he wanted to go home."
"What else?" Lu Jinfeng asked, there must be something he hadn't finished saying, he thought mischievously.
Bai Shunan pondered for a while, seemed to be caught in a whirlpool of confusion, and after a moment, a smile appeared on his face.
Lu Jinfeng looked at the smile, that was enough, just one smile was enough.
Lu Jinfeng revealed his entire face and wanted to say something, so he kept muttering something.
Bai Shunan's attention was completely attracted by him. He couldn't hear what Lu Jinfeng was saying at all, but he just nodded there blankly.
Perhaps it was the brief clarity brought by the illness that made him realize that no matter whether he was revealing the past or saying those words, Bai Shunan did not stay away from him. Instead, he was always by his side, always very close to him.
Bai Shunan must care about him.
Lu Jinfeng looked at Bai Shunan nodding his head non-stop. He asked stubbornly and directly, "Do you care about me?"
He wanted his affirmation.
Bai Shunan nodded.
That's enough.
Tears suddenly welled up in Lu Jinfeng's eyes. He then felt the sourness in his nose and couldn't help but let a tear fall.
Before he reveals or discovers his love, he reveals himself first.
Bai Shunan was to him what was originally an indelible stain, and later became a crack.
A tiny crack that once noticed, it is impossible to ignore.
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