Chapter 279: Suicide Note
After daybreak, Doctor Yu came to take Xie Tingzhou's pulse.
Xie Tingzhou's condition has not improved. This is a serious illness that cannot be cured in a day or two.
Xie Tingzhou took the medicine and fell asleep again. Chen Yu followed Doctor Yu out and closed the door.
The two walked to the other side of the eaves, and Shen Yu spoke, "Thank you for your hard work, Doctor Yu."
Doctor Yu was flattered and hurriedly bowed, "I dare not, I have to do my job. The prince's health is my responsibility."
Chen Yu said: "I still have to thank him. I'm not with him, and Doctor Yu has worked hard to take care of him for me."
Chen Yu cried for a long time in the middle of the night, and her eyes are still red and swollen. Doctor Yu just thought she was worried about Xie Tingzhou's health. After taking a look at her, he didn't dare to offend her again and replied with his head down.
"Your Majesty, this illness needs to be cured slowly. There is no rush. Princess, please relax. I will do my best."
Chen Yu looked at the snow under the dead tree and said, "I should have come back earlier."
Doctor Yu could tell from her tone that she was blaming herself, and hurriedly advised, "Princess, please don't blame yourself. The prince had been holding on all the way, and when he heard the news that the princess was missing, he just couldn't hold on any longer. It's not the princess' fault."
Chen Yu frowned, "If there is anything I need to pay attention to, Doctor Yu can tell me directly, and I will be more careful."
There were servants at home, and the guards were used to serving, so there was no shortage of manpower, but Shen Yu still felt more at ease knowing it herself.
Doctor Yu roughly explained what needed attention and then withdrew. He walked out of the courtyard with his medicine box. Suddenly, a man jumped out from the corridor next to him and blocked his way.
Doctor Yu patted his chest and said, "You scared me. General Shen, is he here to see the princess?"
"No." Shen Zhao said with a sullen face, "I'll find you."
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This year seemed to be particularly long.
Xie Tingzhou was in poor health and was not suitable for traveling around. Besides, there was nothing urgent at the moment and it was the end of the year, so he simply stayed in Ganzhou.
Xie Tingzhou has been able to get out of bed these days.
The best military craftsman of Qingyun Guard made a reclining chair and placed it by the window, covering it with a thick mattress. Sometimes Xie Tingzhou could lie on it and bask in the warm winter sun.
Xie Tingzhou was free now, but Chen Yu still had post-war military affairs to deal with every day.
The maid stood at the door holding the clothes and did not dare to go in without permission. She handed the clothes to Xifeng, and Xifeng took the things in.
Xie Tingzhou was reading a book on a recliner. When he saw Xifeng come in, he glanced at the thing in his hand and asked, "Is it the princess's armor?"
"Yes." Xifeng replied: "Maid
It was sent here after washing.”
"Give it to me."
Xie Tingzhou put down the book, picked up Chen Yu's nails and spread them on his knees, and began to examine them bit by bit.
A long time ago, before they got married, he also checked her clothes to see if she was injured, and now he can also see traces of weapons from her armor.
There were some knife marks on the armor, and the back armor was dented, but fortunately it was not broken, thanks to the old prince for using the best materials and the best military craftsmen to make the armor.
Xie Tingzhou couldn't help but feel distressed when he saw this, and put Jia on his knees to relax.
When Chen Yu came back from handling military affairs and entered the room and saw this scene, her heart suddenly skipped a beat.
Damn, she forgot something very important.
"It's just armor, nothing special." Chen Yu walked over, picked up the armor and was about to stuff it into the box.
Xie Tingzhou looked at her back and said, "It's just armor, what's wrong with taking a look?"
Chen Yu closed the box and turned around and said, "Isn't this because I'm afraid you'll feel bad for me?"
Xie Tingzhou glanced at her sideways, "You still know that I will feel sad?"
Shen Yu walked closer and squatted beside him, tapping his chest with her finger, "I'll return this sentence to you intact."
Xie Tingzhou smiled faintly, "Sharp-tongued."
"The New Year will be here in a few days." Chen Yu suddenly said, "There is no New Year atmosphere here at all."
"It's the same as the palace in Shengjing." Xie Tingzhou looked out the window.
Last year during the Spring Festival, the palace in Shengjing was also so deserted. They ate two bowls of noodles cooked by Chen Yu in the palace in Shengjing. No one had thought at that time that they would become an inseparable part of each other.
"Changliu likes to make trouble." Chen Yu stood up and said, "I asked him and Si Xi to set up the place, and he was definitely happy."
Xie Tingzhou watched Chen Yu run out, lifted the blanket, stood up, and took out the armor from the box.
Chen Yu arranged everything in a short while. Chang Liu and Sixi were still children at heart, so they took the silver and ran away very quickly.
Xifeng brought the medicine over again, and Chen Yu took the medicine into the house. When she entered the room, she glanced at Xie Tingzhou and saw that the armor was on his legs again.
"Why did you turn it out again?"
Shen Yu put the medicine tray on the table, picked up the bowl and tested the temperature, it was still a little hot.
Xie Tingzhou did not answer her. The room was too quiet, and Shen Yu finally noticed something strange.
She turned her head and saw Xie Tingzhou with his eyes half closed. The light coming in from the window made his face look pale.
Chen Yu swallowed her saliva, walked over guiltily and took the armor.
He picked it up and put it back into the box.
When she turned around, she saw Xie Tingzhou standing up and walking towards her, holding a thin piece of paper in his lowered hand.
Shen Yu's heart suddenly tightened, but he still saw it.
Xie Tingzhou approached her, "And this."
Chen Yu looked at the thing he handed over and didn't dare to reach out to take it.
Xie Tingzhou just stared at her face without saying a word until she slowly raised her hand. His fingertips loosened and the piece of letter paper with words written on both the front and the back brushed past her fingers and fell down.
"Chen Yu." Xie Tingzhou said, "You have such a cruel heart."
The bedroom curtain was lifted and then fell, and Shen Yu was still standing there.
She picked up the letter on the ground and hated herself for thinking so carefully.
She was not invincible, so she had thought about the possibility of losing this battle in advance.
Shen Yu was afraid that she would be defeated and would not be able to leave him a message, so she wrote a suicide note. She was also afraid that the note would be damaged, so she followed the example of the bandits in Qichang and carefully sealed the note with wax in the interlayer of her armor.
After coming back, Chen Yu had completely forgotten about this matter until she saw Xie Tingzhou checking it with Jia, and then she remembered it, so she quickly put it into the box before he noticed.
But it still couldn't escape his eyes.
Xie Tingzhou called her by her full name just now. He was really angry and hurt.
Nothing is more painful than seeing the last words of a loved one. Shen Yu put herself in his shoes and thought about it. If she were to see Xie Tingzhou's last words, she would definitely not be able to bear it.
The medicine on the table hasn't been taken yet. It will get cold if you leave it alone.
Chen Yu brought the medicine in, sat beside the bed and whispered, "Drink the medicine first, okay?"
Xie Tingzhou lay on the couch on his side, with his back facing her, neither speaking nor moving.
Chen Yu held the medicine and waited for a while. Seeing that he had made up his mind to ignore her, she took the medicine and went out to the kitchen to heat it up. She took this time to think about how to coax him later.
Xie Tingzhou heard the sound of the door closing, slowly opened his eyes, and his eyes were bloodshot.
Soldiers would leave messages for their families before going to war. She thought that she might die on the battlefield, so she left him a suicide note.
She must have pretended to be strong in every place where the sunlight shone, refusing to show any cowardice in front of the soldiers, but she had experienced real fear in the deserted night.
So the handwriting on the letter paper was of varying weights. She must have thought of something and added to it again, fearing that there was something she hadn't finished saying to him.
Xie Tingzhou's heart ached deeply.
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