Turn off the lights
"...I want to take you away with me. My heart is clamoring...
I need you…
Even if tonight is the first and last night..."
The lyrics he heard seemed familiar, but it was difficult to distinguish them in his sleepiness. Kinsley thought carefully for a while before realizing that this was indeed his song, but it was one he had sung many years ago.
He wanted to open his eyes, but they seemed to be blocked by warmth, and the place under his head was not a pillow.
After sending Sister Chu Xin away, he had been hiding in his room playing games. After all, the embarrassment of having his thoughts leaked out by AI would not be eliminated in a short time. In fact, he was distracted the whole time he was playing the game, always wondering if his Yanyan would suddenly come in to find him.
So in the midst of all this confusion, I actually fell asleep on the sofa.
So now, it is clear who is looking at his "dark history".
——Sincerely asking, is it too late to pretend to be asleep now?
"Why are you pretending to be asleep? Don't you have anything to say to me, Xiao Yin?"
For a moment, Kinsley thought he had spoken his heart out, but the next second he could only sigh again that he could not hide anything from his Yanyan.
He groped for his hand that was covering his eyes and gently pulled it away. In the dim room, he could only see a vague outline.
But Mu Qingyan's appearance has left a mark in his heart. From childhood to now, he can still describe it exactly with his eyes closed.
"Yanyan, I'm so sorry..."
Kinsley knew that the situation was so serious that he had to ask Sister Chu Yan to intervene, which meant that some of his actions had caused a significant impact. In this case, an apology was indeed the most important step to take.
However, these four words did not achieve the desired effect. The hand held in his palm froze for a moment and then he withdrew it on his own.
"Why does Xiao Yin want to apologize to me?"
The originally warm and lazy atmosphere cooled down instantly. Kinsley smiled bitterly, not wanting to think about how the two of them ended up in this state of relationship.
In fact, he knew in his heart that he should not say apologies in front of his daughter Yanyan. After all, he was the one who repeatedly emphasized in Hong Kong that Yanyan was not allowed to say words like "I'm sorry" anymore. So now, he was doing it knowingly.
"Did Yanyan hear everything I said to my second sister?"
"Um."
--really…
Kinsley was a little annoyed:
"I know you have a lot of things to worry about right now, Yanyan, I don't mean to bother you..."
——But he himself couldn't help it, he really cared...
"Is that so..." Mu Qingyan's voice was emotionless. "In that case, I should also apologize. After all, I have done too many things. You see, it's all because of me that you can't go out and see your fans. A big star is actually trapped here like this..."
"Ah? No, Yan——"
"It's because of me that you can't figure out what you are, right? But don't worry, I'm trying to figure it out, and I think there will be results soon."
"...Yanyan, stop talking..."
Kinsley quickly turned over and sat up. The more he listened to these words, the more wrong they seemed. He was almost breaking out in a cold sweat, but he didn't dare to stop them loudly. He could only frantically look for Mu Qingyan's hand in the dark.
But someone obviously didn't notice these abnormalities, and didn't seem to hear what he said. He just continued to count his "sins".
"Oh, by the way, you could have lived a good life. If it weren't for me, the teacher wouldn't have died, and you wouldn't have been displaced at such a young age, and in the end—"
"K, turn on the light."
"Don't open it!"
Kinsley finally sensed some emotional turmoil in the words "Don't open it," and his alarm bells immediately rang. He ignored the person's struggle and grabbed the other person's arm to pull him into his arms. Fortunately, the AI in the laboratory was smart enough to distinguish priorities, and the lights in the room suddenly turned on.
The stimulation of the light made Mu Qingyan close her eyes involuntarily. This momentary distraction gave her an opportunity to be discovered. The difference in physical condition made her unable to resist and she fell directly into Kinsley's arms.
“Yanyan… Yanyan…”
All the disguises were exposed. Even if Mu Qingyan wanted to escape, he was pinched by several fingers on his chin and faced the familiar face at close range.
"Yanyan, I was wrong, don't do this..."
Kinsley suddenly panicked and didn't know what to do.
All the tangled things no longer mattered when he saw the tears falling from those eyes. Perhaps the nanorobots had not yet taken over his heart, otherwise why would his heart ached like a knife.
Even when he was a child, he rarely saw him cry. No matter how painful or uncomfortable he was, there would never be any emotional fluctuation on that pale little face. At most, the corners of his mouth would be slightly tightened.
It was the same at this moment. He could clearly see the deep remorse and pain hidden in those eyes, but the person in his arms had a blank expression and said nothing.
He swallowed back the words "Yanyan, don't cry" that were about to come out of his mouth. He used the most gentle tone to coax her:
"Yanyan, don't hold it in. If you want to cry, just cry, okay? I'm here, I'll be with you..."
Kinsley forced himself to calm down and stop saying things like "I was wrong", "I'm not good", "I apologize".
So many things have happened and they have been separated for so long. He can't always worry and get scared when something happens. He needs to slowly learn to comfort the pain of both of them.
He loosened his grip and changed his posture, letting her lean against him as comfortably as possible. The soft blanket wrapped them both in his arms. His lips lightly touched the earlobe, then slowly slid down to the cheek, the tip of the nose, the eyes, and the forehead...
This kiss lasted for who knows how long, until I finally felt the body in my arms gradually relax, the mist in my eyes dissipated, and finally I could see him filled with it again.
"Yanyan, can you talk to me? Let's... have a good talk..."
Mu Qingyan listened blankly and nodded instinctively, but in fact, she didn't know what to talk about.
It was precisely because of this momentary hesitation that she suddenly realized that the long separation might have made her and Xiao Yin accustomed to handling any difficulties on their own, and completely forgotten how to rely on each other.
She asked tentatively: "Xiao Yin, have I made you very sad during this period?"
“No…it’s not like that…”
If she hadn't heard the conversation sent back by the AI, Mu Qingyan wouldn't have known that she would have read Kins' name intentionally or unintentionally. Although she kept telling herself that as long as Xiao Yin was there, this was already a happy ending that she had never dared to imagine before, but in the end, she was not someone who was so easily satisfied.
She was indeed accustomed to Kins's presence. After several years of living with him day and night, she couldn't leave easily.
Before at BI, Kins had to ask “Who is more important, him or Kinsley?” How could she blame Xiaoyin for being upset about this?
"Xiao Yin, when we were at BI, did you see me choose Kins first when I had to choose between saving you or Kins?"
"Ah? Um..."
Although he was locked up at the time, all the scenes were before his eyes, and he knew who wanted him to see them on purpose.
Mu Qingyan lowered his head and pondered for a long time. Finally, he sighed and said frankly:
"Xiao Yin, this doesn't mean anything. You and Kins, I told you two are incomparably important to me. That doesn't mean you're less important than Kins. I was—"
"I know, I know, Yanyan, take your time, don't be so anxious..." He hugged his beloved, who was anxious to explain, tighter, and gently soothed her back with his hands. "Yanyan, you misunderstood me. I never thought of competing with that robot. You don't know, I'm always grateful to have him. Otherwise, I can't imagine what you would have done to yourself in all these years when I was away..."
"But you are angry and you are avoiding contact with me, aren't you?"
The person who had been nestling obediently in his arms suddenly stood up, pulled the front of his bathrobe with both hands and questioned him, with an extremely serious expression. But for some reason, Kinsley just felt that his Yanyan was so cute when she looked so lively.
"Yanyan, I'm not angry, and I won't be angry about this. Kins took care of you for so long, how could I not understand how sad you must be when he disappeared? To be honest, I'm probably scared..."
"Fear?"
"Yes, I'm afraid that I won't be able to take care of you as well as he did. Of course, what I fear most is that one day you will forget my existence. In your eyes, will I completely become... become..."
Kinsley began to hesitate, seemingly unsure of the right words.
So Mu Qingyan directly completed his question: "Become Kins's substitute?"
“…”
——This is the default.
For a moment, neither of them spoke. Mu Qingyan chewed over the two words. She was in an awkward situation where she was so angry that she wanted to laugh, but couldn't really laugh.
"As far as I know, you haven't filmed any messed-up, third-rate romance dramas, right? How could you come up with such a ridiculous plot?"
Kinsley blinked, not realizing what he had heard, until he was kissed on the corner of his mouth and snapped back to his senses.
"Yanyan..."
"Xiao Yin, am I this kind of person in your eyes?"
"Of course not!"
After instinctively denying it, Kinsley realized that his behavior had already tacitly allowed Mu Qingyan to find the shadow of another person in him, which undoubtedly erased the emotions and memories that previously belonged only to the two of them.
"Yanyan, I'm sorry—um..."
The kiss that followed cut short his apology.
"If you say those three words again, I'll throw you out onto the street!" Mu Qingyan threatened.
"Then Yanyan, please stop saying those things, okay? You scared me to death just now..." Kinsley put his chin on the shoulder of the person in his arms and accused.
In fact, Mu Qingyan's words were indeed spoken in anger. She could see that although Kinsley had not been on the ground for several months and had no chance to contact outsiders, surprisingly, he adapted very well and did not seem to think that leaving the stage where he was sought after by everyone was a big deal.
"You'll want to keep singing and dancing, won't you? You've fought so hard for it before."
Mu Qingyan pointed to the video that was playing. It was a rehearsal record of a big star rehearsing privately given to him by Mr. Tanaka.
The teenagers worked tirelessly to hone those difficult moves. There was only fatigue in their eyes, and no trace of enthusiasm. They were completely relying on perseverance and faith to support themselves.
But the big star is very good at taking things as they come: "Let's talk about it later. If there are still people who want to hear Kinsley sing after this incident, then I will come out again! But I think by then they will no longer know who I am!"
"Hmm? Don't underestimate your popularity!"
"None of that matters, Yanyan. You might not have noticed, but there's a more important matter that needs to be addressed..."
Mu Qingyan was confused: "What?"
"that is…"
The blanket covered their heads, and their bodies, pressed so close together, gradually became warmer.
"K, turn off the lights."
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