Chapter 149 The desire to have children
These words really confused Qingwu. She had never thought of having a baby so soon. Although she did not make any contraceptive soup for herself, that thing would be harmful to the body even if the dosage was controlled. Qingwu would not hurt her body like this.
Qing Wu calculated the time every time they had sex. When it was close to the dangerous day, no matter how much Xiao Ji begged, she would not respond. Of course, this was not something that could be completely prevented. Wasn't it because of limited conditions?
However, Qingwu didn't say anything. She just looked at the young man squatting in front of her, blinked her beautiful eyes, and asked in confusion, "Why?"
For men, the purpose of getting married is to have children. Xiao Ji is not too old, but certainly not too young either. Many men at his age are already fathers. Of course, there are more men who cannot afford to get married and remain single all their lives.
However, most single men come from poor families and cannot support their wives and children. But this is not the case for Xiao Ji. Even if he has fallen to this point, Qing Wu will never forget the 100,000 taels of silver he gave her.
One hundred thousand taels is enough to support not only one or two children, but even one or two hundred.
It was hard to tell from Qingwu's tone whether she supported or opposed it, but Xiao Ji was still afraid. He held her hand and wanted to tell his wife many other reasons, but in the end he still expressed his inner thoughts.
"I'm... scared."
Qing Wu was slightly taken aback, then she understood what he meant. He had been frightened by seeing Li Wanniang giving birth today. Just as she expected, Xiao Ji continued, "That woman had such a difficult birth today, she almost died from it. I don't want Qingqing to suffer the same pain..."
He just squatted on the ground, looking up at her, his peach blossom eyes filled with sincerity, making Qingwu completely unable to detect any falsehood. But she was also very curious: "You really don't want me to bear children for you?"
Because Qingwu knows more, he is more aware of the pain of childbirth, but how can a man in the world empathize with her and not want children because of this?
After the words fell, the young man who had originally looked sincere couldn't help but be covered with a bit of shame. He hesitated for a while before whispering, "Of course I don't want it. Why wouldn't I want a child with us..."
This is human nature. Qingwu will not blame him just because he wants to have children while she doesn't want to now. Most people in this world are ordinary and have their own desires.
But these words were undoubtedly contrary to what he had said before. Without Qingwu asking, the young man slowly spoke on his own, with a gloomy expression on his face.
"I told you before that my mother had a miscarriage. I was there."
He was already twelve or thirteen years old at that time and remembers it clearly.
Qingwu paused, then she remembered and couldn't help feeling a little ashamed.
You see, even though Xiao Ji talked to her all night long, she still couldn't think of the reason at the first time. This is the saying, others will never empathize with you. Even if others are indignant when they hear it, after a while, you will be the only one who feels bad.
She couldn't help but pull Xiao Ji up and let him sit on the chair beside her, but Xiao Ji didn't care about that and still held her hand and said, "I'm really scared. This fear is greater than my desire to have a child."
Seeing Qingwu still remained silent, Xiao Ji assumed she wanted a child. After all, which girl didn't want her own child? If he were still the crown prince, any girl would think she had fallen out of favor and wouldn't even be willing to give her a child.
Xiao Ji was afraid that Qing Wu would think the same, so he explained again and again, "Qing Qing, it's not that I don't like you, it's mainly because I've been banished and secluded here, and I have such ambitions. We're not stable yet, and it's not suitable for having a child..."
"Besides, what good is a child? If Qingqing has a child, I'm afraid she won't be able to see patients for a while..."
Seeing him finding reasons to persuade her, Qing Wu finally couldn't help laughing. Looking at the young man in front of her, she felt a surge of feeling in her heart, a little sweet, but more of joy. She was happy to meet a man who matched her heart so well. In addition, this was an adventurous exchange, which made her feel even more wonderful.
Qing Wu tapped his chest and said, "Who do you think I am that I need your persuasion? Even if you didn't tell me, I wouldn't give birth to a baby for you right now..."
The bright smile caught Xiao Ji's eyes, and his uneasy mood instantly calmed down. His Qingqing was indeed different from those women trapped in the inner house.
"Yes, yes, Qingqing is extremely intelligent and can see it clearly without my guidance."
The young man who couldn't even utter a word of praise at the beginning is now able to say it out loud. It's because Qingwu enjoys these things. If anyone praises her, she will be very happy and will speak in a more pleasant manner.
It worked immediately. The pretty face showed a little more pride and her chin was raised a little.
"Of course I can see clearly that your identity is dangerous. You might even lose your head. I won't give birth to a baby now and then live in fear for us."
Qingwu could see clearly that although her life seemed calm on the surface, it was actually full of dangers. For example, the spy at the door had not left yet, the throne above was still uncertain, and her husband was ambitious, and of course she was too. In such an environment, how could she have a child?
Thinking of this, the playful expression on her face disappeared and she became a little more serious. Xiao Ji's heart tightened when he saw this, but he heard her say: "I won't talk about the external reasons. It is indeed not suitable to have a child now, but I also have my own reasons."
Xiao Ji instantly thought, could it be that his wife has some disease that makes it difficult for her to have children?
But then the lady sighed, "If you're too young to have a baby, the girl's body won't be fully grown yet. There's a high chance something might go wrong during childbirth, just like what happened to Li Wanniang. I asked her mother, and she's only sixteen this year... So I don't want to have a baby either. I don't want to take any risks."
Upon hearing this, Xiao Ji instantly recognized the person. When he was young, he heard that the emperor favored a young palace maid, who eventually became pregnant and died of dystocia. The palace maid was indeed not very old.
Combined with what he saw today, he couldn't help but ask: "If that's the case, then why are there so many women getting married and having children prematurely..."
As he was speaking, he stopped and looked at the lady opposite him with a wry smile on her face.
What else can we do? The people of this world are poor and miserable.
Noble girls in Beijing can wait until they are sixteen or seventeen before getting married, but those from poor families have to marry off early, otherwise there will be an extra mouth to feed the family. Of course, there must be more reasons than this, but what can he do at this time?
Xiao Ji stared at Qing Wu in shock for a moment, but could only say, "If in the future I..."
But these words were too empty, and he couldn't even say them himself.
The basis for these promises to be fulfilled is after he reaches that position.
He fell silent, but Qing Wu didn't notice anything. He just took his hand and said, "At least you have this intention now, don't you?"
As long as there is this heart, this possibility, then one day it may be realized. He can do much more than she can do.
Xiao Ji remained silent, his heart becoming more anxious. Although he should have stopped for a while to avoid being discovered after making Prince An suffer a setback last time, everything he was thinking about now was related to that position.
The two felt melancholy and helpless in this palace, but they didn't know that changes had taken place outside - the Grand Princess Mingyi had returned to the palace.
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