"Huh? What's wrong?"
Chi Li was dressed in a complete outfit, his eyes darting around, but he avoided looking at Xu Zhaozhao.
"I don't know, the teacher didn't teach it."
Hearing his explosive words, Xu Zhaozhao's hand holding the cigarette trembled, and the ash drifted into the air.
"Dr. Chi is quite trendy."
Xu Zhaozhao made a sarcastic remark and extinguished her cigarette in the ashtray.
Her sarcastic remark made Chi Li feel ashamed.
"You know I won't tell you."
Chi Li took a step back warily. "Grandma, please let me go. I want to live for another two years."
He was truly on the verge of tears.
When I received this message from this great-aunt, I should have pretended not to see it.
Why was he so obedient?! He came out as soon as I called him!! Now look what happened, he almost lost his life.
Xu Zhaozhao glanced at him and said, "I wouldn't betray you."
Chi Li: Do you think I'm stupid? Is there anyone else in the world who knows about Gu Qingyan's illness?
No, it won't happen.
Everyone only cares about how high he flies, not how tired he is.
“I know he has bipolar disorder.”
Just as he was about to retort, Xu Zhaozhao's words choked Chi Li up.
He froze, barely able to conceal the shock in his eyes.
How! Did! She! Know!?
Chi Li: Help me, help me, please help a poor psychologist! qwq
Before Chi Li could ask, Xu Zhaozhao told him, "I saw his wristband during the last recording of the show."
Even though Gu Qingyan dodged quickly, she still saw the words written on it.
Bipolar disorder.
Why did she pretend not to see it? Of course, it was because she didn't want to get involved in anything related to Gu Qingyan.
Chi Li is also someone who is not good at hiding his emotions.
His struggle was written all over his face.
"You can keep it a secret for him for the rest of your life."
Xu Zhaozhao shifted her gaze and looked out the window again. "But as you know, only I can save him given the current situation."
Chi Li couldn't refute her words.
For a moment, the space fell silent; no one spoke, letting the cold wind brush their faces.
After an unknown amount of time, Chi Li's hoarse voice broke the silence, "He... is different from other bipolar patients."
Xu Zhaozhao didn't respond, waiting for him to continue.
"I can't tell you too much..."
Chi Li swallowed hard. "Because of certain events, his self-loathing is particularly severe; he can't find meaning in his existence."
"He is unable to love himself and has lost the ability to love others."
No wonder...
Xu Zhaozhao understood.
After Chi Li finished speaking, silence fell over the room again.
"Are there any cigarettes left?"
He spoke.
Xu Zhaozhao raised an eyebrow and handed the cigarette case and lighter to Chi Li.
He awkwardly took out a cigarette, lit it, and choked slightly when he put it in his mouth.
It's obvious they're not as familiar with each other.
It's just that revealing a secret that's been buried deep in one's heart for so many years to someone one isn't very familiar with requires a little external push.
This was also a huge gamble for him.
They were betting that Xu Zhaozhao could save him and was willing to save him.
After taking a puff, Chi Li stopped smoking and held the cigarette in his hand, letting it burn.
Do you know why he entered the entertainment industry?
Chi Li asked her a question.
He's good-looking and rich, and has no shortage of admirers in the financial field, so why would he become an "actor" who's considered low-class by the older generation?
Xu Zhaozhao offered him a cigarette, chuckled softly, and guessed, "To go against his father?"
"You're overthinking it. Brother Gu doesn't take him seriously."
Chi Li couldn't help but add his own comment.
"When his self-loathing reached its peak, it was my suggestion that he enter the entertainment industry."
“I told you that once you enter the entertainment industry, you will gain a lot of fans, and many, many fans will love you. Perhaps then you will find the meaning of your existence.”
Xu Zhaozhao remained silent.
He truly succeeded, and succeeded very well. The number of fans who love him is so large that even big data analysis might not be able to count them all.
"But I was wrong."
At this point, Chi Licai took a deep drag on his cigarette, his eyes turning red.
“There is still a distance between idols and fans. He can’t feel the love, he can only see the madness, and his condition has worsened.”
But by then it was too late; whether or not one left the scene was no longer of much significance.
"Then how... has he managed to hold on until now?"
Xu Zhaozhao couldn't understand his loneliness, but it must have been even greater than her own in her previous life.
She has a few close friends to rely on, but what is Gu Qingyan's support?
“In your and Yu Yu’s eyes, he must be a bad father.”
"certainly."
Xu Zhaozhao was ruthless, saying, "Four years of neglect and absence as a father figure are facts."
"But actually, it's me who doesn't let him get close to Yu Yu. His condition over the past five years has made him unsuitable for taking care of children."
"He was able to persevere for the past five years because of Yu Yu."
Xu Zhaozhao didn't reply, but just listened slowly with her eyes lowered.
But upon closer inspection, she was stunned.
Chi Li tossed the burnt-out cigarette butt into the ashtray. "How could he not love his own child? He just doesn't know how."
His mouth was filled with a bitter taste that he disliked.
"I don't know how you did it, but it doesn't matter anymore."
Chi Li finally looked up at Xu Zhaozhao, "Because he loves you, that's already a fact."
You said that God favored him, giving him a face and power that no one else could match.
But God hated him and cruelly gave him no love whatsoever.
The bitterness in my mouth is nothing compared to even a fraction of Gu Qingyan's.
"I won't say anything more."
Chi Li turned around, took two steps, then stopped and added, "I still... I beg you, save him."
Then, she quickly left, and if she didn't leave soon, she would burst into tears in front of Xu Zhaozhao.
Although doctors shouldn't have too much empathy, he genuinely cared for Brother Gu.
It's been almost ten years, and I've long forgotten the relationship between doctors and patients.
He spent ten years getting to know Gu Qingyan, and with each step he took to understand him, he would curse God.
Maybe it's because he's scolded me so much, God is even crueler.
Gu Qingyan fell in love with someone who didn't love him.
Why on earth?!
He's about to break down, he's going to cry and whine!
...
Although Chi Li didn't say much, it was still a lot of information for Xu Zhaozhao.
Chi Li left, but Xu Zhaozhao, who was still lucid, remembered almost every word he said, and it kept repeating in her mind.
As Gu Qingyan's doctor, there was no need for him to lie to her.
The only thing that shocked her was that Gu Qingyan's reluctance to get close to Yu Yu was actually to protect him.
His four years of "ignoring" was not something he could control.
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