Chapter 320 Her life is also complicated?
Zhang Xiaoxuan recounted her life. She is from this province.
Her family wasn't particularly poor. Her father worked away from home, and her mother took care of the household. She had two younger brothers.
When she was in her first year of high school, a caring student aid team came to the school.
She said that at first she hated these people. Every time they came, there were dozens of them, holding a banner saying "Love and Aid for Education" and giving away school supplies to her classmates.
Or, led by teachers, they would visit the homes of needy students and give them some rice, oil, and old clothes.
She was disgusted because these people kept taking photos wherever they went, and then opened a "student aid" program to publicize their activities.
They seem to be doing good things, but also seem to be promoting themselves.
Soon, the influence of this loving team grew, and they received donations from people working in other places. With more money, the team started to provide "one-to-one" assistance to students.
Her homeroom teacher also helped Zhang Xiaoxuan sign up for a school, and she received 2,000 yuan in hardship aid each semester.
Zhang Xiaoxuan said her family wasn't in financial difficulty. The 2,000 yuan per installment simply made her life a little better. It was only during her sophomore year of high school, when her father broke his leg on a construction site, that life suddenly became difficult, and that 2,000 yuan became crucial.
She was in danger of dropping out of school, so her head teacher encouraged her to write a letter to her assistant, Shi Chuntian.
"Shi Chuntian?" This was the first time I heard Director Shi's name. I was so used to calling him by his title that I hadn't bothered to find out his real name.
"Yes, his name is Shi Chuntian. My homeroom teacher told me that he's a wealthy official." Zhang Xiaoxuan continued:
She tried to write a letter to Shi Chuntian, telling him about her family's misfortunes and expressing her strong desire to continue her studies. She didn't have high hopes, but unexpectedly, Shi Chuntian wrote back to her enthusiastically.
Shi Chuntian said that he also came from a poor family. From elementary school to high school, he hardly wore shoes in the summer and walked barefoot for more than ten miles on mountain roads.
He encouraged her to overcome difficulties and study hard.
Speaking of this, Zhang Xiaoxuan's eyes became moist.
I said, "From what I understand, Shi Chuntian not only provided you with material assistance, but also gave you great spiritual encouragement, right?"
She nodded.
Her father fell and something unexpected happened in her family, which also affected her. Although her grades were good, she only got an average undergraduate degree.
After graduation, she wrote a letter to Shi Chuntian, hoping to find a job related to hotel management in Shangzhou. Shi Chuntian readily recommended a job for her, which is her current job at the Ewha Hotel. Initially, she worked at the front desk when she first arrived.
As they met more and more, she began to think of Shi Chuntian as a relative. She would always call Shi Chuntian for his advice on matters big or small.
Sometimes, Shi Chuntian would take her out for fun, such as attending dinner parties or mountain climbing. In her heart, Shi Chuntian had become her original fantasy of a boyfriend, so much so that she had no eyes for other men for so many years.
Hearing this, I interrupted her story and asked, "Tell me the truth, has Shi Chuntian ever touched you?"
She suddenly raised her head and said, "Once."
I was startled. I couldn't believe Shi Ting's one-sided account, so I said, "Please describe the situation in detail."
She fell into memory again:
Once, they went on a trip to a scenic spot called Yaci Mountain. On their way back, they were suddenly hit by a thunderstorm. It was already around 7 or 8 in the evening, completely dark, and the windshield wipers were useless.
They had no choice but to pull over to the side of the road. The rain was pouring down, the wind was blowing hard, and rolling mines were exploding next to the car.
Zhang Xiaoxuan was so frightened that she couldn't help but grab Shi Chuntian's hand, and Shi Chuntian squeezed her hand tightly. Then, they hugged each other tightly until the thunder stopped and the rain subsided.
Zhang Xiaoxuan said: "I never had a romantic relationship in school. Maybe it was because of my poor family background or because I was in a bad mood, but I never had one."
She then recounted the true feeling of the hug that followed the handshake.
What a thrill it was. She could still recall the electric current during the hug. For a girl, the skin-to-skin contact of a sex, a sex she secretly liked, even though they were just holding hands, made her feel a flash of lightning.
"Did you take any further action afterwards?"
"No!" She shook her head firmly.
"Do you feel that your relationship has taken a step forward through that hug?"
She shook her head again and said, "No, we became distant. Whenever I called him again, he would avoid me.
I thought, why are you avoiding me? I have a strange personality. The more you avoid me, the more I seek you out. As a result, our relationship became increasingly strained.
Actually, I am very dependent. I just want to call him, just like I used to look forward to his letters. Back then, it was his words that comforted me. Now, it is his voice that comforts me, and of course... She became shy.
But he avoided me like the plague. I felt unbalanced and a little crazy. So, I went to harass him.
After listening to Zhang Xiaoxuan's narration, everything became clear to me.
I said, "Xiaoxuan, I don't know this Shi Chuntian either. Let me analyze the psychology of both of you."
She picked up the cup and took a sip of tea.
"First, analyzing Shi Chuntian, we should say he is still a kind and loving man. As for the hand-holding and hugging on that stormy night, I think it was an involuntary act of protection.
For a man, it is natural to give a sense of security to those around him in dangerous moments. If it were me, I would also protect the other person, but it is just protection, not love!
Of course, at that particular moment, as a girl, it is understandable that you would have some physical or psychological reactions. After all, when you are alone, you can only understand but not express it in words.
"But I think he still likes me. Otherwise, why would he often take me out for dinner or outings? After all, there are many such things in society, right?"
"Indeed! However, I know you haven't been in society for long and haven't come into contact with many men. You are psychologically immature. I will analyze men for you now.
Everyone has a love for beauty. For a man in his 50s, his youth has gradually faded away. Walking with young people and recalling the lost memories of youth is a psychological need for middle-aged men.
He wants to play with you, take you out for a trip, eat with you, and feel the charm of youth and a sunny and healthy life.
However, the hug you shared on that rainy night was not due to a physical need, but rather a shared fear of unpredictable thunder and lightning. It was about giving each other confidence and strength.
However, it was that hug that made him reflect on whether this would lead to more hugs. Would it lead to you having inappropriate thoughts, and would it endanger his job, status, identity, and family? So, he resolutely distanced himself from you.
Zhang Xiaoxuan looked at me seriously.
I said, "First understand what I am saying, then we can talk."
After saying that, I went to the study to smoke a cigarette. I knew she was starting to relax, so I let her calm down for a while before we continued chatting.
As long as Mr. Shi has not bullied her body, this matter will be easy to handle.
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