How to change?
His excellence in winter swimming has been evident since he was very young, and it is not just one specialty, but rather a talent that surpasses ordinary people in all aspects.
Same as Chen Qixiao.
Compared with them, Chen Qi'an seems mediocre.
He has been biased in his studies since childhood. His math score has been hovering around 80 points since elementary school. When he reached junior high and high school, his science score was more like a broken leg, appearing in the polygonal pattern of Chen Qian'an's grades.
The three of them were learning the same thing together, and Chen Qian'an was always the slowest learner.
It seemed as if they were always walking ahead, then looking back at him, and then staying there waiting for him to catch up.
It all started when he was walking down the school path and heard someone say, "Oh my god, don't you think Chen Qixiao and Dong You are a perfect match? One is top of the class in their senior year, and the other is top of their freshman year. Plus, their families are so close. I really think it's only a matter of time before they get together!"
Chen Qi'an wanted to retort subconsciously, "How is it worthy?", but as soon as this thought came to his mind, he was shocked.
This idea may be a bit too aggressive, but listening to what others said, it was obvious that they were praising two people he loved very much.
Before he could figure it out, he heard the speaker's companion say, "Yeah! I think so too! It's just that when they play together, they always have a light bulb..."
Chen Qi'an's mind went blank in an instant. He could only faintly hear someone laughing and cursing, "Hahahaha, are you sick? That's Chen Qixiao's younger brother!"
He began to feel that the sight of Dong You and Chen Qixiao standing together was very eye-catching, as if he would slowly see their wedding in the next second.
He felt sad.
It's so strange. Shouldn't we bless them? Shouldn't we be happy?
They are all people very close to him.
The rumors that "Chen Qixiao and Dongyou will get married when they grow up" became louder and louder, and even reached the ears of the parties involved.
The parties involved said the rumor was boring.
But no one noticed Chen Qian'an's lonely look.
This kind of talk didn't affect the person involved, but it had a significant impact on Chen Qi'an. Even though the three of them often spent time together, the people at school only talked about Dong You and Chen Qixiao.
He began to feel that he was completely redundant between Dong You and Chen Qixiao, and began to feel that he could not fit in between them.
Sometimes he felt embarrassed, and this embarrassment disgusted him.
But what surprised him was that even so, he was reluctant to leave them and was still willing to be their "light bulb".
Why?
This doubt continued until shortly after Dongyou graduated from High School, when Chen Qi'an received the first love letter in his life.
It was a scorching summer day. Chen Qi'an rode the gentle evening breeze home and, as usual, pulled out his books to do his homework. Suddenly, a blue and white envelope slipped out of his book. He picked it up and saw the words "Chen Qi'an (To)" written on the cover.
It was his first time receiving a love letter, and he found it novel, thinking that the person had painstakingly written it, and that they must have intended for him to read it. For some reason, his heart was pounding as he opened the envelope, and he became cautious as he tore it open.
The handwriting on the letter was beautiful, handsome and powerful. Every word was written carefully on the paper, expressing the girl's shy thoughts.
He watched carefully.
The first time I saw you, I was walking past the basketball court. The sun seemed to favor you; otherwise, why would it shine on you like you were glowing? I watched you toss the ball into the hoop, saw the faint smile on your face, and you seemed to glance back at me. That glance is deeply seared into my heart. Your name is engraved on my heart, and my heartbeat keeps telling me: Look! You've fallen in love with him!
Chen Qianan smiled, feeling faintly happy in his heart.
He also remembered the first time his father took him to Dongyou's house, and Dongyou was standing on the balcony, walking back and forth with a book on his back.
Just like the letter said, the sun seemed to favor her. In the eyes of little Chen Qi'an, this beautiful girl seemed to be glowing all over, and he was so mesmerized that he was stunned on the spot and forgot Uncle Dong's instructions to call Sister Xiaoyou for dinner.
[Since then, your figure has had a different color in my world. No matter how crowded the crowd is, no matter how dark the sky is, I can always lock onto your figure immediately, and then my eyes will linger on you greedily until you disappear from my sight.
My emotions fluctuate because of you. Seeing you talking to other girls is like eating an unripe fruit, a sour taste that reaches deep into my heart. Seeing you talking to boys, I blame them for being able to talk to you so openly. I know I'm being unreasonable, and I understand that this feeling is not good. But I can't control it. My heart is no longer completely under my control. You have become its other master.
Chen Qi'an was somewhat moved. Looking at the words, he couldn't help but put his palm over his heart:
[My heart is no longer completely under my control. You have become its other master.]
He slowly realized that the reason for his emotion was actually—
I feel the same way.
He finally understood: his heart had quietly had another owner without his knowledge.
It turns out that I like it.
It turns out that he likes winter travel.
It turns out that his previous vague unhappiness was because he liked winter travel.
He looked at the signature in the lower right corner. It was from a girl in their class, who was famous for her beauty and usually looked quiet and gentle.
Chen Qi'an admired her courage. He wrote a reply letter to thank her for her love, politely declined her request for love, praised her courage, and promised to forget about the matter, comforting her not to feel burdened.
Dongyou was so talented she was practically at the top. In high school, she applied to several top foreign universities and received offers, but for some reason, she gave up and took the national college entrance exam, enrolling at Capital University, a top university in the country.
Chen Qixiao had already studied for a bachelor's, master's and doctoral degree at a world-class university abroad. He even completed his studies at the age of 25 and returned to Chen's family to slowly get involved in his own industry.
Looking at himself again, he has always been hovering around the 200th place in the grade. With this grade, let alone going to the same school as Dongyou, he may not even be able to get into the last tier of 985 universities.
He began to study hard, thinking that even if he couldn't get into the same school as Chen Qixiao, he would at least get into a 985 university to prove that he was not bad.
But he applied to Chen Qixiao's school and met all the requirements, but failed the interview.
He was too nervous. The more he tried to do something well, the more nervous he became, and in the end he messed it up.
He performed normally in the college entrance examination and applied to a relatively well-known domestic university based on his interests. It was a low-tier 985 university and its address was not close to H City or the capital.
The moment the results came out, Chen Qi'an couldn't hide his sadness. Perhaps he had too high expectations of himself. He thought he would perform exceptionally well, and that way the gap between him and Dongyou wouldn't be so big.
But the cold numbers and the brightly colored admission letter all told him: there is a huge gap between you and winter travel.
Even though his family was very happy, saying that he had done very well in the exam and even arranged for the cook to prepare a big meal to celebrate, Chen Qi'an was still immersed in his own sad little world and dejectedly rejected them.
There was always a huge gap between him and his brother, but he never cared about it and never felt disappointed. His family never discriminated against them, and their parenting motto was: "As long as they're happy, that's all."
So, he never really studied, always having fun. He had no interest in business management at all; he just loved reading novels and playing games, and hated the dull grind of studying. He had never really studied seriously before realizing he enjoyed winter travel.
He wasn't a very brave man, and his poor communication skills were always directed towards strangers. After realizing he enjoyed winter travel, it seemed as if winter travel had been relegated to the realm of "strangers."
He didn't know how to get along with Dongyou.
Not to mention that his abilities were so poor, he didn't dare to express his feelings to Dong You at all. He wanted to wait until his abilities were good enough to stand shoulder to shoulder with her like Chen Qixiao before telling her: I like you.
But no matter how hard he chased, ran, or tried to catch up, he could not catch up with Dong You's pace.
When I took the postgraduate entrance examination, I missed the Capital University and was admitted to another relatively well-known 985 university.
He had clearly taken the posture of a 100-meter sprint, but he still couldn't see the end of the winter tour.
He retreated after repeated failures in surpassing himself.
As time goes by, the relationship becomes shallower and shallower, and everyone gradually forgets the deep friendship that only lasted a few years.
*
Chen Qian'an remained silent, which made Dong You even more uneasy.
Seeing him look like his soul was about to drift away, I wondered if he was scared to such an extent, but I gently called his nickname: "Xiao An?"
He'd already screwed up once.
This time, he couldn't mess it up again.
Chen Qi'an gave his answer softly: "Okay."
Dong You smiled. This was within her expectations. She pulled out her ID card, which she always carried with her, and shook it. "Did you bring it?"
Chen Qi'an doesn't have a habit of carrying his ID card, but yesterday, the company needed it for information entry, and he had left it in his coat pocket. He fished it out and said, "I have it with me."
"Let's go to the Civil Affairs Bureau now."
Chen Qi'an was secretly surprised, but he didn't show it on his face. There was just a hint of subtle doubt in his eyes. His tone was flat and even, he said, "Are you in such a hurry?"
Dong You put his ID card back into his pocket, stood up, walked to Chen Qi'an's side, and stretched out his hand in front of him: "Let's go, before the night is long and there are more troubles."
The hand in front of him was so close that Chen Qian'an could see its palm lines. Dong You's hands were slender and white, his nails were trimmed neatly, and his nail beds were healthy and excellent. He looked pampered.
He looked up and saw the owner of the hand looking at him with her eyes downcast and a half-smile on her face, as if she would not take her hand away unless he put it on her. However, she was sure that Chen Qian'an would definitely do it.
Chen Qi'an stretched out his hand, clasped his palms together, stood up and responded with action.
The sooner the better indeed.
Chen Qi'an followed Dong You, and their clasped hands had become interlocked fingers, a posture that overlapped with certain moments from their childhood.
For some unknown reason, it seemed like they were eloping.
After walking out of the cafe, Chen Qi'an discovered that there was a Civil Affairs Bureau not far away, but the plaque was blocked by a fountain and he didn't pay attention to it when he came.
He seemed to be thinking about something, and suddenly asked, "Did you plan it?"
Dong You didn't say anything. Chen Qian'an glanced at her and found that the corners of her mouth were clearly smiling.
This is the default.
He couldn't help but curl up the corners of his lips.
Dong You had been keeping an eye on Chen Qi'an, so she naturally knew that he was smiling as well. Seeing that he was not opposed to marrying her, she felt even happier.
As she wished, the invisible barrier between them was slowly dissipating.
This proved that her move was right, and everything was going in the direction she had envisioned. Perhaps in the near future, they would become close again, and Chen Qi'an would be as affectionate to her as when they were children.
How to change?
Ha, getting married is a very good choice.
Didn't her parents also go from being complete strangers to being able to know each other's thoughts just by looking at each other because of an arranged marriage?
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