I'm really a scumbag.
After returning home, Qi Yue always hangs around Yi Shiwu, interrupting the progress of every activity of Yi Shiwu.
"Yueyue, go lie down on the sofa, sit down, or do whatever you want."
"Oh." He answered casually, still standing motionless in the kitchen.
"The kitchen is very fumy."
After hearing this, Qi Yue left the place unwillingly.
Qi Yue was sitting on the sofa, fiddling with Lego in her hands, but her eyes never left Yi Shiwu. It has to be said that Qi Yue really couldn't hide anything in her heart when facing her lover.
Sensing the presence of his gaze, Yi Shiwu raised his head and had a tacit exchange of glances with Qi Yue.
"How about this, you finish your painting, and then I'll take you to find it."
"No, I want to find it myself."
Yi Shiwu was cutting the chicken wings and didn't listen carefully to what Qi Yue said. He just gave Qi Yue a look, indicating the direction of the drawing board.
Qi Yue put on her headphones and decided to isolate herself from the world for a while, return to her own spiritual world, and have a good time.
Qi Yue sat in her seat, looking at the scenery outside the balcony and listening to her favorite music from the headphones, as if she had returned to the days of art exams.
So many things happened this year, and I am no longer the same person I was back then.
The painting before me is only half, the half that reflects the sea. But what about the other half? What should I paint? A clear blue sky, a dusky sunset glow, or a quiet night sky?
"I slowly listened to the sound of snow falling, as if you were leaning against me and calling me 'Qingqing'." This line of lyrics came from the headphones.
"Yes, winter is coming soon. Cold winter is always a season of loss."
At this moment, Qi Yue, perhaps inspired by the song, suddenly had an idea and picked up her paintbrush. Like a madman immersed in her own world, she kept dancing the paintbrush in her hand with the ups and downs of the rhythm.
Just when Yi Shiwu came over to call Qiyue to eat, he put pen to paper.
Yi Shiwu, who was standing behind Qi Yue, saw the finished work and recorded the moment of completion with his mobile phone.
"This is really Qiyue."
Qi Yue, feeling someone behind her, suddenly turned around and saw Yi Shiwu wearing an apron.
"Yueyue, it's time to eat."
When you are immersed in what you like, you not only forget about time, but also forget about people's needs.
"Let's go and eat. I'm hungry." After saying that, he took Isshigo's hand and walked towards the kitchen.
"Why, don't you want to introduce your work to me?"
"That's how you see it."
"Is there no moral?"
"Yes, I have."
It was already ten o'clock after working overtime. Hungry Lin Lei and Yang Yi came to the Ye Wonton stall.
"Boss, two bowls of wontons."
"Brother Lei, this autumn doesn't seem to be that cold."
Lin Lei handed the wiped dishes to Yang Yi. We are superiors and subordinates at work, but after get off work, I just treat you as my younger brother.
“Maybe this winter won’t be that cold?”
Seeing that his boss was not in a good mood, Yang Yi's thoughtful expression caught Lin Lei's attention.
"What's that expression on your face?"
"Brother, I have a question for you."
"Well, you ask."
"Brother, you obviously went to the hospital that day, why didn't you go in, but let me and Tao Ran go in instead?"
Lin Lei looked at Yang Yi, probably not expecting to be asked such a direct question.
I was mentally prepared to be rejected, but unexpectedly I heard an answer that made me drop my jaw.
"Because I don't deserve it."
I don’t deserve it, I don’t deserve it, I don’t deserve it. This is what Lan Qiyue said countless times to Lin Lei.
Seeing the countless question marks in Yang Yi's eyes, Lin Lei had no intention of covering up this history. After all, this was his past and the way he had come.
"Because I love her, it's always been her."
"Why, you're not talking, do you think I'm a scumbag?"
Yang Yi shook his head in bewilderment. He didn't expect that his elder brother, who treated him so well, would give such an answer. Lin Lei was completely different from the one he saw in his eyes.
"But, in her eyes, I am really a scumbag."
"Okay, the wontons are here." As he spoke, the boss brought two bowls of steaming wontons to the table.
The heat from the wontons covered the mist in Lin Lei's eyes. Yang Yi looked at Lin Lei in the heat as if he was looking at an illusory character.
"We were classmates in junior high school. It was love at first sight when I first met her. She was the first motivation for me to study hard. She was the first time I felt cared for. She was the first time I suffered the pain of lovesickness. She was the first time I wanted to prove myself. She was the first time I got drunk. She was the first time I cheated on my marriage to see her. She was the first time I touched painting to accompany me. She was the first time my clothes were stained with blood because I was holding her. She was the first time I felt the powerlessness of life because our reunion was only brief."
Having said this, Lin Lei lowered his head and looked at the wontons in his bowl, which were clearly greasy and moist. A drop of water, which came from nowhere, fell on the wontons. Lin Lei happened to see it, picked it up, and ate it.
Looking at the person opposite him, Lin Lei shook his head and fiddled with the spoon in the bowl.
"Well, all my first times were for her, but we still walked two different paths in life."
"You tell me, is this fate or destiny? When I was young, I lost my first love because of anger. Later, I gave up everything, but I can never find the original us again."
"Brother Lei."
At this moment, Yang Yi didn't know whether to comfort or persuade, and could only listen silently.
"When we finally left that county town, I thought it was the last time we would meet. After all, in her life, there was deception and betrayal, and none of them were worth reuniting with."
"If it weren't for her this time, maybe I would have really eaten this bowl of wild wontons in this northwest wind."
"Sister Qiyue is truly outstanding. At first, she was all about 'Keep Out, Strangers', but after getting to know her, I discovered she's a soft-hearted person."
"Yes, such a good person is so close to me, but now he is so far away from me."
"Brother, have you ever thought about getting Sister Qiyue back?"
Lin Lei looked at Yang Yi and answered with an affirmative look.
“I tried, but I couldn’t even get a ticket.”
"How can I put it? She can wait patiently for days on end. But if one day, she sees her hand being released again and again, and suddenly, in that moment, you make her realize that you're not worth it, she will turn away cleanly and without hesitation, without even giving you a chance to explain."
"No way, Sister Qiyue doesn't seem like such a decisive person."
"That's because to her, you are just an acquaintance, not a true friend."
Seeing Yang Yi's puzzled look, Lin Lei chose to share his inner thoughts with his younger brother, hoping that his life would never be like his own, with choices and yet no choices.
"She can get to know many people, but the only ones she knows are those in her heart, not in her mind, but in her heart."
On a starry night, the sea breeze blows in wave after wave, and even the cloudy sky is blown clear and bright. The stars are busy chasing each other in their happy life. Only the round and bright moon, emitting a soft halo around it, listens to you quietly and gently as you tell the unknown things in your heart.
"I can't eat any more. If I eat any more, I'll become fat as a ball."
Yi Shiwu looked at Qi Yue and said nothing.
"If you don't say anything, you agree with my statement that I'm fat."
"No, it's just that you're too thin."
After hearing this answer, Qi Yue laughed out loud inadvertently. What girl doesn't like to be praised for being "thin"? Even Yi Shiwu, who has always been straightforward, can't escape the part of coaxing his lover.
While Yi Shiwu was washing the dishes, Qi Yue started to follow him step by step, like a follower.
“Yueyue, there’s water on the kitchen floor, and I’m busy. What if I bump into you?”
"Oh." Qi Yue answered disapprovingly.
At this moment, Yi Shiwu suddenly thought of what the book said: "Pregnant women always have an imbalance of hormones, and their behavior will also be different."
Yi Shiwu was very glad that he had read a lot of parenting books and books for pregnant women in a short period of time, and he guessed that he was no longer surprised by Qi Yue's strange behavior now.
"Go to the sofa and drink some water. I'll take you there once I'm done cleaning up."
After hearing the accurate news, Qi Yue didn't stay in the kitchen for a minute. She immediately returned to the sofa and waited quietly for Yi Shiwu.
"Lan Qiyue is such a child." Yi Shiwu shook his head helplessly.
"Women, their hearts are like a needle in the sea, so hard to fathom."
Qi Yue changed the previous sea surface into ice surface, and then opened the door to a new world.
On the dazzling ice surface, a round sun rises from the east, and the sunlight shines on the girl on the ice. Against the backdrop of the sunlight, the white clothes on her body are even more dazzling. At this time, a breeze blows the girl's hair. In the biting cold weather, the girl moves forward firmly, running towards the warmth she can see.
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