She is in my heart and by my side
(Small Theater) Focus ~ Lei
The passage of time changes not only modern social life, but more importantly, us and our changes.
The last part of my high school life was relatively stable. I no longer lingered among flowers or played games. But after all, I had planted the seeds of not studying well, so I naturally had to bear the consequences of not being able to choose a good university.
In the last years of high school, my studies have not made any progress, but my relationship is exceptionally stable. It may be because of some changes in family affairs during junior high school, which made me, a sensitive person, especially cherish my current girlfriend. I still miss her occasionally, but as a young person, I have a heart that wants to take responsibility to the end, so as to verify the oath that I will not abandon you if you don’t leave me. From then on, I have been devoted to you.
The vows made in youth are always shouted especially loudly, but will I still remember what I said many years later?
At this moment, I am faced with the application form that seems to have choices but also seems to have no choices.
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When the night is quiet, I still miss you. When I am drunk, you are the only one in my heart.
"If I had known that missing you would hurt so much, would I have been so impulsive as to not contact you, not look for you, and not think about you?"
"As an auto repair major, I could have chosen a stable railway job, but I wanted freedom and wanted to make quick money, so I chose sales. When I accompanied Su Li to study at Jinghuai, I also gave up the small sales team of ten that I had already established. It's more of a choice than a giving up. There were too many old people in the company at the time, and getting promoted takes time and requires waiting. I couldn't wait, and I didn't want to wait. Su Li happened to be going to Jinghuai, so I resigned and followed her. It was like giving myself some time to rest and think about what I really want and what kind of life I want to live."
"Later, when I was in Jinghuai, just before Qiyue was about to graduate, I coincidentally got her contact information and started bombarding her with messages, but she still kept on harassing me. I didn't care about anything else, I just kept harassing her. In short, she could not see me, but she had to have the shadow of me, Lin Lei, in her life. Although it seems like a scumbag, I just can't help it. I just can't control it. Sometimes I really feel like I'm going schizophrenic, and right now, I'm in great pain."
"I miss Qiyue, and she is in my heart. I have Su Li, and she is by my side."
"Originally, we had no plans to get together during the Spring Festival when we first met after graduation. I also didn't plan to develop in my hometown, so I would not participate in social activities and would spend more time with my family. Then, because I knew she was going, this was the first chance to see her since our brief encounter in high school, and it was definitely the best switch to control me. Coincidentally, it was the day I went to dinner at my girlfriend's elders' house, but I ended up running away halfway through. I still can't figure it out. When I sent her home, she was fine, but the next day, she changed her mind and brought Han Muzhe with her. Han Muzhe is my nemesis on the road of love. The final outcome is that he no longer pays attention to me. Most of the time, I am just talking to myself and singing to myself."
"Half a year after returning to Jinghuai for the Spring Festival, Su Li missed home, so I accompanied her back to Xinghai, which was also a way to give her an explanation. Fate plays tricks on people like this, she came, and I left. When I first came to Xinghai, I was also not used to it. With the remaining money I had, I found a job that paid 2,100 yuan after deducting five social insurances. Because the salary was low, I was also confused. I had a strong self-esteem and didn't want to borrow money from others. I worked during the day and worked part-time at McDonald's at night. Now I can say that I can make hamburgers and chicken wings. It was really tiring at that time, but I just wanted to settle down in Xinghai. Later, I found that I gradually fell in love with this city. The first time I fell in love with this city was because of the sea."
"Just like that, working day after day, busy day after day, refusing to stop, saving money bit by bit, struggling bit by bit, accumulating experience, and accumulating wealth."
"Slowly, as time went by, even though the company was in turmoil, I worked hard and made it to the position of reserve director. My base salary was 4,000 plus team commissions. It wasn't much, but it was enough to support me in Xinghai. Coincidentally, it was the Spring Festival, the same year I met her nephew. By chance, I was able to contact her again. It wasn't bad, but she didn't bother me this time. I was so happy. When I learned she was going to a junior high school reunion, I went without an invitation. Fortunately, with the help of a friend, I was able to see her again."
"Originally, that day was supposed to be a formal meeting between the two families, but I ran away again at halftime. But I ran into her nephew again, another obstacle after Han Mu Ze last time. I really hit a wall everywhere. Why is it so difficult to see someone? Although I know that I already have a family and we haven't even got a marriage certificate yet, I still like her. I just like to see her. No matter when or where, no matter who is around me or what happens, as long as she is there, as long as I can see her, I must see her, even if it's just a glimpse from a distance, I will go. I thought that if I didn't go, I would regret it, but I found that I owed her a lot, so much that I didn't know how to repay it or where to repay it. Your silence is also the time I lost. In the end, I was the one who regretted it. If you can't repay it, then owe it to me and be my lifelong creditor."
While taking a nap, his thoughts were flying around when he heard the door open. Lin Lei knew that Su Li had finished tidying up her room and went back to her parents' house.
"Although it may sound like a scumbag, it's impossible to judge a relationship without the people involved. Why can't I forget her, and why can't I be completely devoted to her? It's really a dilemma."
The cell phone rang. Lin Lei glanced at it and saw that it was a message from Su Li. He put down the phone again, got up and went outside the room, took a can of beer from the refrigerator, and continued to sit by the window. He didn't know if it was because of his age or because he had become more mature, but now he liked looking out the window more and more, letting his thoughts fly around in a daze, taking him to wherever he wanted to go.
"Although I'm a bit selfish, I still want to say that I may never forget a person named Lan Qiyue in my life. But every time I see you, it's at the dinner table, as if I'm lying and teasing you. This time, I found your contact information again. It just so happens that I'm going to Beijing Huai to meet some friends in three months. I guess it's a break before my wedding! In fact, they are all excuses. The simplest sentence is: 'I miss you.'"
"I want to see you. If I don't see you, I'm really afraid that time will make you disappear from my world. My life can be without you, but in my world, you must stand at the top of the mountain. The person I hold at the top of my heart, I can't give you the care of the love in my heart, but I also want to tie you to my side as a best friend and give you all my care. I haven't let go for so many years, and I really don't want to let go. I won't allow you to disappear again, and I won't disappear again. So, seriously, I will never let you go in my life again. At the same time, it's true. I'm afraid of losing you, and I don't want to lose you again, and I don't want to torture myself anymore."
"Yueyue, wait for me. We'll meet in Jinghuai in three months."
"Honey, I'm going back to my parents' house. Remember to have dinner. I love you." Su Li walked out of the unit door and edited a WeChat message and sent it to Lin Lei.
Three months later, in Lin Lei's company's sales manager's office, a spacious office with large floor-to-ceiling windows, looking out, there are tall buildings everywhere.
"Why did you think of taking a leave of absence this time? Haven't you always been an iron warrior?"
"Manager, I don't want to get married now. I want to go out and get together with my buddies. It just so happens that my brothers have all gone to Jinghuai, so I want to join in the fun."
"Go ahead. As our top seller, you're getting married soon, so you have to take a good rest. Otherwise, you'll be a family man in the future, and it will be a luxury to indulge yourself."
"Boss Wang, it seems like you have experience to share."
"Hahaha, I can't claim to have any experience, but this is just a reminder from someone who's been through it. Once you start a family, you can't be so casual like you are now, especially with someone as outstanding and handsome as our Lin Xiaoguan. He's a rare gem among a sea of red."
"Boss Wang, you're joking. I dare not. I will just do my job well and live up to the company and leadership's cultivation of me."
"Haha, don't be nervous. Go ahead and have a good rest. You've worked really hard since joining the company."
"Don't worry, I will continue to devote myself to my work after I come back and strive to reach a higher level in my work."
Lin Lei walked out of the manager's office and looked at the date on his mobile phone.
"We'll meet the day after tomorrow, and I don't know how she'll react."
"Hubby, why is this vacation so sudden? There was no news before."
"The company notified me that I have to go on a business trip at short notice."
"How long will you be gone this time? Can you go by yourself? Do you need me to take time off to accompany you?"
"No need. You're quite busy at work. Didn't you say you'd open your own small beauty salon after buying the store? Just study hard and gain more experience. When I come back, I'll do more sales and try to buy it as soon as possible so you can be your own boss."
"Wrong, it's the boss lady, you are the boss."
Su Li happily hugged Lin Lei, the man she had liked since high school and would always like.
Love is a strange thing. You can choose to give it or not, but can you guarantee that it will always be the same person? Why do you have to like someone forever? What if you don't like them anymore one day? It's really confusing.
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